Officially ruined my body clock again accidentally
Set my alarm for the first time in a long time; thought of having an early morning hike but dont really want to go alone when im feeling vulnerable and since I dont feel like having company either I guess it's either another day at home or I gotta find something else to do
Feel better soon, dear self
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06.59am
"Tiring myself out" never usually work so idk why I still try lol
Also spoiler alert for myself: everything is going to be okay
All is well
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10.53am
As comforting as poetry is, sometimes they romanticize pain so much it makes you want to be in pain
Science, however hahhaahaha
Aka im googling why im sad and reading about all the hormonal changes affecting chemical activities in your brain makes me look at emotions more objectively and makes me more inclined to be patient with myself
Either way, both science and art says it's ok, it's normal, it will get better and Be kind to yourself!!!!
(spoken like someone who's ending her period loll whatever the cause I embrace feeling good)
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11.26am
You know what im thankful for?
Coffee
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11.45am
Noone:
My brain on power saving mode: aku slalu tersenyum, me (forgets lyrics but melody continues) SAMPAI WAKTUNYA NANTI KAN KU CERITA PADA DUNIAA (forgets lyrics again)
Is it forgetting if I never knew in the first place hahha it's not
But yes the Hafiz AJL34 performance keeps replaying in my head!!!
Literally watching a colleen vlog right now and the performance is the 4th recommended video stop making me rewatch it because i'll always do
I thought my chicken paus were done steaming cause mama said 5 mins but the inside was FROZEN ok I guess cause the filling is not like honey chicken pau
I bet it's ready by now and im ready for it too
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12.09pm
Right now I want to eat nothing else but chicken pau just give me 20 and leave me alone