19.42pm

Ya Allah please never make me someone who inconveniences others

Never someone who is inconsiderate of others

Never someone who bears hatred and envy for others

I truly pray 

13.35pm

Word of the week is Performative

Tiring, boring, unnecessary

18.35pm

You know what I hate about acting

It's when people have a set idea of what an expression of an emotion looks like

There are too many humans in this earth, so many people express emotions differently

They keep perpetuating the stereotypical rage, sadness, happiness, when so so many variations exist

Lame

Merry February (11.06am)

Wow I ate breakfast, watched an entire movie, hung out, and it's only 11am

Mornings are good when I have no obligations 

08.10am

People on holiday: unhinged body clock, yolo time

Me on holiday: sleeps 12.30am-7.30am every night

Why does my body do this hahaha but it's ok I respect you 

Aaand as I suspected.. this is my first post of 2026 

Brb 

11.59am

Emotionally and mentally exhausted but fulfilled

I wonder how long it'll take to recover, hopefully by this afternoon

A break today

Got some last minute shoots next week amidst the gigs and meetups

Alhamdulillah for everything

Now to tell my system that we're ok

Heavy scenes are done

Dont need to think about it anymore 

Maybe I just need a cake

Which I have TWO of in my fridge so yay

19.04pm

Love hate relationship with my algorithm right now

Every caption I read every video I watch is breaking my heart a little bit more

But I love love love seeing cena on my screen

My heart is not okay 

I knew it'd hurt a lot, but it's hurting a lot more than I thought it would

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23.02pm

Okay I cant take it

Every post is taking a toll on me emotionally 

I shall give myself grace and avoid socmed

Also reminder to myself to always be grateful in every stage of my career 

There's something special about the bubbling phase

About uncertainties and blind risk takings

May I remain courageous and true to myself always

06.46am

Waking up every hour because im forcing myself to sleep before I need to hahaha

Also very... (insert a silly, less negative version of the word disappointed here) in myself for pushing my voice- normally im so good about getting vocal rest before I even need it but the past few days ive been pushing for no reason aka the reason is work but still

Anyway 3 more gigs to conquer this weekend but it's 99% xmas songs which is the worst for my vocal cords (all very high ahahaha)

Im gonna wear a sign around my neck that says ON VOCAL REST so I dont have to talk to anybody before and after singing

Ok bye sadly sipping on water cus I have no alternative currently 

Surprised i even have a bottle of water it's a miracle

Anyway my taste buds are unhappy right now hahahah issok sacrifices of an artiste 

12.58pm

Doing life for myself is generally easy, I want to do something, I do it

If I don't then I don't

And then I leave the rest to Him

Sometimes things are outside of my hands and of course I'll have to just let go and let god

Did not expect another one of this to appear in the thick of the season where I make things happen

Only ask for our affairs to be eased

He knows best 

01.32am

Stood a lot of today because carolling season is here

Also just nice my period also came

So this body ache is doubled

Gotta get up in 7 hours

Sleeeeeep pls bo!