13.13pm

I cant comprehend that it's the last day of 2019, but also new years are overrated because my days conglomerate into one giant day eww drama
Currently in ban bing bong's house cause we always have accidental sleepovers
This day last year hmx was here too
Ok brb

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15.38pm

I find it so idk weird cute when ppl add me to the close friends list on instagram cause they all know I mute everyone so I wont even know until they DM me something and I see the green ring of friendship
Thks for consideration

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21.00pm

I lost sense of time so bad that I thought today's post was yesterday's idk
I feel like gabriella montez on new year's eve everyone partying she just sit one corner read book
But at least she meets troy bolton psht hahah jk
So like im still considering going out either to tampines to join my family or to go find hmx but I also am very comfortable being home alone I am not feeling any form of fomo hais parties are overrated sometimes
Okay i will go do self reflection
Undoubtedly so much in my brain-
The year, the decade, the new year, but also I don't have to think about all of these now
New year's eve is but another day except everyone is reckless and having fun and friendly it's like 2nd xmas which I love
But also idk again sometimes there's just no need- and that's the simplest way to put it

07.39am

Oof fell asleep slightly after 330
I feel well rested though
I have never scheduled a day to actually go watch hsm but today is the day so im like so excited my calendar has reminded me to "WATCH HSM!!!" and I agree

01.32am

Have been on an attitude era binge the past few days cause they keep appearing on fb
I feel so alive
Happy birthday mama panda ♡

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02.44am

Ah suddenly thought of yesterday's gig again just now
I'd make hmx wake up early again in a heartbeat to experience that again even though ke lian to see all my tired dysfunctional losers

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15.13pm

I really think people perceive me in the weirdest ways like it doesn't get old them being wrong and feeding into their own feelings
Like bruh

02.29am

How did hmx score a 9am gig
How and how are we going to do it hahahhaah goodluck kidz we're all in this together
Meeting them all in 5.5 hours so I have to be up in like 4
Hopefully will recharge me enough idk cant tell if hibernation will occur tonight or not hopefully not?
Had an accidentally jam packed day but ended up lovely hais
Bless

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07.18am

I love how concerned my friends are over my sleeping schedule hahaha why are those words italicized noone knows

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10.51am

How do I even begin this unravelling of emotions and thoughts
It should be socially acceptable to just stare into open space without anyone questioning if you're ok I am more than okay actually im intellecting im living in the moment more than all of u combined hais ok jk im just saying things to clear my brain
What did we do to deserve this opportunity
I cant thank you enough alhamdulillah
It's so easy to disassociate from feelings
But being here I see volunteers who is so passionate and full of heart that you cant even differentiate the patients from the volunteers and I mean that in the greatest way possible :')

12.14pm

Accidental sleepover but outside hahaha jk
I must leave home in less than an hour
Another long day ahead but again, excited for rehearsearl!
If I crash tonight good but if not, even better

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14.04pm

Sometimes im like why do I agree to plans when it's risky but other times im like shrugs yolo

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15.25pm

Help man im trying to listen to mitch in come along but all i hear is sCOTT frickin hoying hahaha i need my alto ears back

09.16am

Trying to fall asleep was hard I think it has been some time since it was that annoying
Oh well, good morning now
Recuperate before rehearsal resume tomorrow
Exciting!

10.49am

Why did I not blog what did I do yesterda-
Oh
Ok as usual every auditions season we lose track of time cause start early end early so nights and days bleed
Add in a xmas eve gathering with hmx, no chance of sanity
Im forcing myself to sleep soon so I can be lively for the annual xmas party later
Excited to see STYLO and of course our dearest grandpapa- missed him too much I hope he is always blessed with health, wealth and happiness ♡

ps i feel so happy wishing every strangers merry xmas huhu what a bright time

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20.23pm

The one time. One time I trusted blogger
It failed me

/ Had a lovely albeit short family gathering at grandpa's!
So lovely seeing everyone again
Also their neighbour has a cat who looks like marble and the cat matches their wooden floor we were so shook at the beauty and frozenness it didnt move yes it was real
(I also talked about how the cousins jioed us to the carnival but we lazy to entertain crowd so ended up home playing monopoly deal which I sat out of cause lazy to use brainpower lol I always have no appetite for the game I played it once with hmx and only liked it after we finished playing but the thought of restarting the momentum is like no thanks)

02.56am

I called it

00.55am

Found out I have to head to suntec tomorrow again, and was bummed cause it's going to be super crowded and it's GV finals I have to catch it (actually I might delay telecast again cause this heart cannot take suspenses)
But on the bright side-
I have a chance to see kb94 for the first time live and idk what to feel about it he feels like a longtime friend but I have literally never seen him irl
Oof

Had a random hmx day today carolling at two places, got to play in fake snow and had santa giving us snacks and one precious little girl gave me sweet out of nowhere I love her
The xmas spirit was lovely in the neighbourhood and the organiser was so nice
I love how all these days I planned to be alone turned to be hmx filled
Except later today I might be alone screaming internally over kb94 but that'll be the best way I guess

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01.20am

Ok if he sings Luluh I will cry on the spot probably so im half hoping he doesnt but also hope he does idk ok stop thinking bye

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02.21am

Okay why am I not sleepy today
Ok it's cause I made myself nap for 2 hours in the morning lol I am understanding myself more everyday

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10.31am

I am still a morning person today despite koing at 4am so thks body clock

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23.43pm

Didnt expect to be feeling so many emotions today I thought I would be having a mediocre day but no
I have too much things going on I had to sit down in silence to clear my thoughts and process it one by one
Bye humans dont talk to me for the next few hours I just cannot comprehend the highs and lows and the wths and the omgs I am merely a being who is bombarded with feels and things to contemplate about
Oof

08.16am

Is it the air in the universe or is it just my body clock or is it my lifestyle I am quite curious why these cycles exist but apparently now im a morning person haha k

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08.34am

Finally giving into grabfooding cause I cant be bothered to move not this morning
I appreciate people trying to say nice things but psht i'm a professional but also im mE I dont care enough
But thanks for going out of your ways to say nice things
Times like this I get reminded who knows me in which ways cause can tell by their reactions- some help me express anger, some say nice things, and of course my personal favourite, they let me be HAHAH because they know i'm beyond the mortal realm (this doesnt sound dodgy at all)
Being there for someone in just the right way is so hard and i'd even say lucky cause no matter how hard we try sometimes it's just not what they need despite your beautiful intentions
So if you have those people just know u blessed
Also this post makes me sound bad hahaha im not saying I dont need nice words the world needs a bit of everything im just intrigued by the variety of coping mechanisms/reactions other people have for me
Yall have a place in my life I do not deserve great people but im also great so it balances

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13.26pm

I just experienced dreaming within dreams like inception but so many times that I was like "Not again"
Oof
Also very late to meet somemonix but all of them late also except 2 good kids so
My first carolling session this year?!
Mygosh

00.49am

Have you ever dreamt even for a moment, being in my place?
Visualising the bittersweet happenings noone knows about
Maybe later you too will know,
How it feels to face constricting words
Your fort won't hold strong either- No considerations
This sorrow is risen by the night,
These difficulties can only be expressed through my soul
If only you were sincere in trying to understand,
I wouldn't be avoiding you.
And my story, being far from the end,
Will just add on to the heaviness you see
Thus I choose to keep it all in
I decide
To keep it all a secret

A need to give meaning to these words
A need to embrace each second
A need to both be present and absent at the same time
Oh the joy

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02.30am

It feels so weird to sleep in an empty house like sleeping is a waste of time sure but sleeping in an empty house is a waste of timE And Space !!!
Like I can build a birdhouse right now but no apparently sleep is necessary
I try I will probably wake up in an hour again but hopefully not
OH wait I forgot I have a morning meeting omg

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03.07am

That was not even an hour pls lol

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07.40am

Kay I managed to rest
Woke up with messages of me accidentally promoting hmx on the newspaper HAHAH
Ok so when I saw who came to interview us I was pleasantly surprised cause i've always heard about her (Basically Mdm Haryani Ismail) and was quite interested to see how she conducts interviews
Very warm and efficient but also can tell how experienced and skilled she is
I mentioned hmx in passing im sure it was recorded audioly but like she'd still have to google and find out the spelling all (harmonix is not a commonsensical spelling for non winx club lovers jk)
So yes respect to ladies (she came with another lady, didn't catch her name aishhh) who knows their craft
Also wow I love seeing our name on the newspaper D:
Idk if any of them will catch it themselves but im not telling
(if youre reading dont tell also ok hahaha)
But hi am I awake for good who knows

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10.58am

The universe knows best haha I have been on the fence about inviting hmx but I just saw the full article and realised they revealed who performs when so like
No wonder my family knew pffssht ye I didnt even tell them hahaha
But also I feel so bad to make them come to a crowded place just to see me sing 1 song
But also I know i'll do the same for them

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13.56pm

I think i'll need a nap who ask my brain to wake me up so early
But also the support im getting is overwhelming bros I cannot deal with it now I just need lunch okay

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22.42pm

This is a confusing feeling!!!
Embracing it fully though
I feel like crashing but I also need food
Very very happy to have the people who came be with me though I wouldn't have had it any other way ♡
I am sleepy it's cause I woke up normal human timing

01.12am

Of course sad that my family is going on a holiday in a few hours but insyaallah everything happens for a reason
I was okayish with it until I saw them all packed smaowjxolebcii3mw
Had a really lovely day because why do you want to know why
We watched HSM
HSM is beyond 3D or 4D it's unquantifiable
I feel like im forced to be professional but also im very fredmer and will not follow rules
^ this doesnt really have a context for now but i'll probably update with more news

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03.55am

It is cold again

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05.11am

So the fam just left for the trip and I actually shed a tear waving them goodbye people this is not ok
Had been looking forward to this for months but He is the best planner
Again, consoling the heart knowing that im lowkey working
May they have the funnest safest trip ♡

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07.21am

I should stop telling people I have a blog hahah this is literally just a daily dear diary I love alliterations
I wonder if being home alone will reduce my self care by 70 due to sheer minimalism
Like do i really need food do i really need a drink do i truly need to talk to people hm
Do whatever feels right I guess
Time for breakfast?!
But do i really need food
Ahaaha jk lol bye

Also my song selection for the semi finals were helped by mama and somemonix so from here on out it's their responsibility to make sure I do decently

Also I love that reyrey's new masks have replaced the cross with a crown cause it means I can finally own one and crowns are totally my branding too so like I can and should and must buy one right soon (right now is too impulsive so)

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12.08pm

You ought to know one thing if I wake up to hmx work vs leisure texts im quite likelier to do harmowork first which is so frog but also no offence if I dont reply your texts before I settle things heh

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14.53pm

Not something new but for a nonsensical being I sure do have a no nonsense policy what am I a lawyer

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18.43pm

Lol this random guy just came and tried to give me his namecard in a non normal way excuse you cant a human roam around by herself without being actually harassed I am calling the police
But also usually i'll ignore them but today im feeling generous so I took out my earpiece and said No thanks
Super lame
Boys have so much potential but no they choose to act this way pfft

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20.03pm

Cant remember the last time I had dinner outside alone?? Was one of the best things to do in life
But also who am I eating dinner at proper dinner time hahah
Was contemplating going home but I think I need to get good vibes by going to see (this sentence feels so wrong) hmx

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23.27pm

What an active blogger
Haha
IM home ready to rest
A meeting in about 12 hours so technically spending the whole day outside hais
Excited!!

I wonder if I will ever push you so deep behind in my mind that I will have a day where I will be like "oh wow I forgot you existed"
That would be really cool
But also feels impossible as of now

06.13am

First night in days where im not wearing a hoodie to sleep
Also when i'm not sleeping for an hour
Do u think this will shift my sleep schedule for a bit
Idk we'll see

02.26am

Im so tripped
Woke up and it was like 2am so went back to continue my dreams
It was much much longer than the previous one
But I woke up again and it's only 2.26am now
What even!!!
But more importantly hi me @ me and 1 hour sleeps
Wouldve been a useful power during the semester cause I dont have to set alarms lol

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06.54am

Trying to decide if I want to sleep part 2
I think yes?
HmM ok
Also finally meeting somemonix today
More reunification tomorrow but like who goes to NTU (me for hmx always but still, crazy)
Kay gdnight maybe if I can fall asleep even

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13.16pm

Left home and I just thought of how I finally feel warmth from the sun after a while and then I realised I left my jacket at home
Like thank god there's warmth but also will this be consistent at least for today
Hope sO

02.12am

Happy blessed 22nd birthday cena!

I pretended to fall asleep but really did
But of course im awake an hour later who am I
Did you know I purposefully missed the live streaming of GV last night and decided to wait for the results then watch it afterwards
Regardless Astro was so close to the dream Finalists
I will rewatch when I feel like it I guess
Im just at ease knowing Hady got his rightful place once again
Excited and nervous and all for the finals
Idk if im going to sleep again

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02.31am

Things I forgot are nice during cold days
Hot tea- Guys I FORGOT the power of warm drinks
Laundry fresh off the dryer- I am covered in a second layer which is the warmest jacket right now
Obviously im not an experienced colder

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04.57am

Did I mention chiqa is the best I probably did hahaha
When I was sleeping I felt her stroke my hair so cute im telling u she is my older sister
Then she gave me a sample of her new favourite food
Now she is giving me snacks at 5am in the morning
Dont ask why she's awake she's obviously related to me

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19.28pm

I think it's the end of year feeling but im feeling extra free and yolo even though I feel that everyday of the year
But like double that dosage
I love it though I feel freest and most at peace which in turn affects my livelihood (this is not the word) I mean my lifestyle
What a cool concept in life
I hope people are also feeling this inspiring peacefulness and happiness for no reasons at all

00.03am

Accidentally watched Jumanji but also watching a movie with no expectations is always great thats why I love watching no named movies and be pleasantly surprised
It was funny lol I cant remember the last time I laughed so much watching a movie in the cinema
Ok maybe cause all I ever watch are horror movies nothing to laugh about there
But also I love the rock what a charming loser
Ok bye

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03.12am

Watching batista videos in lieu of his hall of fameness and I just
I grew up with legendary badasses which makes me one too by default
How can people ever compare how can a random simon be as cool as batista ever was????
They cant
Ugh

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03.40am

I uh im seeing this simplified quadratic equation formula thingy and im just so so so so happy I dont have to do math anymore
Like everytime I realise it the joy is so immense which is sad cause it meant I was FORCED to do it for too many years

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05.32am

Me the past few nights is me in life generally
Cant decide whether I want the fan on or off
(in ways more literal than we think oof)
I dont know why im spending so much figurative time with people who havent earned it
Do they really have to though earning is such a dirty word noone owes anyone anything
But today will be a fully family day so im looking forward to it

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08.42am

Hey I thought the raininess is supposed to make me sleep better
Also may god protect us from people who mean harm, and strengthen the relationships with those who mean nothing but good for us
Insyaallah

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12.46pm

Secondary school life will always bring bittersweet feelings
I knew then that it would be one of the best and worst years, that the intensity and drama will only last within the 4 years and it certainly did
Didnt know exactly how much it'd mean to still look back many years down the road and still feel everything vividly
Im the gladdest that I have north pole as a sign that we did it together
Would do it again in a heartbeat (but also cause MI was a waste of time so it puts christ church in a better light automatically hahahaha)

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16.15pm

Honesty and acceptance takes courage and I dont think I lack it at all
What about those who do
Can courage be learnt of course it can
Why am I thinking this now I should be getting ready
It's too cold bruh mr sun pls come back and warm our souls

00.55am

Hahaha seeing all these loser snowman instatory tag
I love how hmx has no other friends so they tag each other
So pure eh it's really like a childcare where i'm at

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03.52am

Wew is it 3am or 3pm hahhaha I have no sense of time
Perhaps cause my whole fam is awake ahahah
But also I knew I would wake up very soon after falling asleep that's my current aesthetic
Eh

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06.12am

It is 6am and I just got reminded regarding the existence of Lavender roses and I just
How
How can something so epic exist
Bruh

02.50am

Ooo how is this possible
Fell asleep I guess around 12.30am, had a substantial dream about hmx and thinking it was at least 6 or 9am waking up to it being 2.50AM
Shook
But also hi time to hydrate myself I want to prevent sore throat again
(the dream really felt like it couldve lasted me the whole night hahah so cooool)

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16.47pm

Idk what im feeling now hahaha like both excited but more so "Whaaaat am I doing"
Isnt that the best feeling actually, not having a direction and letting the waves take over
Yea interesting

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18.18pm

Hais asking my fam for help regarding song choices and theY're not helping hahahaha giving me all the high songs
Not today man imma chill
Also less than 3 hours left what I am so unprepared also
Is my Stars wars today hahaha i have no idea

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23.43pm

I survived!
It was quite fun I frogot how much I love applauses hahaha
But also my throat is not hurting anymore after bby chiqa made me lemon drink
Still cant control it fully but I have a week to rest, choose song and rehearse
Or am I going to pull another Me and not choose until hours before hahahaha might be eh unless they force a song choice
Okay brb

05.46am

This rest day couldnt have been at a better timing
Truly needed the physical and spiritual rest
Acquire health and balance again

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14.50pm

Darkness is more visible than light
But that's not entirely true
It's hard to spot darkness within darkness
And light among lights

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19.18pm

Sometimes you relearn things about yourself that you forgot along the way

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19.47pm

My vocal cords are still tired zz I rested it a few days but obviously it wasnt fully recuperated cause it got ruined after just a few songs at the airport with miloil
Cant even rehearse without saying sorry to myself

06.52am

Happy birthday reyrey ♡
How are we surviving 2 days of saying goodbye to hmx - and get this, in the morning at Changi Airport
Even though we all looked like tortured souls I love that they all come together just to give each other more hugs ♡
I hope it's a culture that never changes
Also goodluck to us waking up in less than 2 hours
K goodnight no idea if i'll nap or nah

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11.54am

Exhausted, this kind of tired can be pushed but what for but also hahah
Also snippet of thought that we should do things without expecting anything in return- hopefully the disappointments gets replaces tenfolds by things you'd never have thought happen to you insyaallah
Again, tired

03.56am

Naise after a day of slight hibernation it's back to 2 hours of sleepage (almost 3 tonight ayy)
Think i'll stay up, my alarm will be ringing in 2.5 hours so
Went to sleep thinking how weird dreaming is and that I would want to skip the whole falling asleep process and skip straight to the dreams because you lose sense of time and you could very much start dreaming 14 minutes into your sleep but it would feel like forever
Had lucidish dreams but I cannot remember the content except I think I was thinking "Oh i'm finally dreaming"
Hahahaha
Ok

09.17am

Would probably sleep rest today
But I also wont be surprised if I woke up in an hour or two AGAIN
At least I have harmonix activities to do ehhee
Rest though lol
Had a lovely day ♡

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19.27pm

Humans should learn that they have equally as much control as they don't
Stop playing god but also stop acting like you have no power
Just stop hahaha jk idk why I brought this up
Am very bummed to have missed deta's farewell party tonight but she has gave me the green light to rest at home
Just thank you universe for bringing people from around the world back home to hmx, though the goodbyes suck, it's always better that it happened at all
Also the world can be small we're all a flight away
Hehehe loser hmx ♡

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20.57pm

How do I suddenly have responsible singing to do in a short span of time
While my throat needs the most rest hahaha but it's ok insyallah all will be fine
I miss hmx already

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21.29pm

I always feel bad when I perform nonsensically and people say I did good like sure but trust me no eww
Artistic integrity hhaah jk what am I doing I should try and sleep early morning tomorrow

01.42am

Words cannot describe how thankful I am for Hmx
For agreeing to attend and run this festival alongside the organisers
For keeping up the familial spirit
For staying lively despite it being a long day
For constantly looking out for each other
We're surrounded by love
The walk back with uncle jem remembering how far we've come was the perfect end to the day
Thank you hmx for existing
Crazy loser frogs why am I part of yall (ok fine need some coolness to counterbalance the losers)

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05.54am

Ironic screaming
Actually why
Really living on 2 hours eh hahaha ok I either stay up and be a morning person and nap later or
I just go back to sleep

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12.06pm

Oof go against natural tendencies and you feel the brunt of it
Also I think it will continue being a pet peeve when people ask questions when the answers are right there
Like wake up

04.51am

If I had entertained my consciousness earlier I think i'd been up even earlier
That was a nap I can slep for 5 more hours if I wanted to pssht hello

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04.57am

Does chiqa have a sensor or what she just appeared infront of the door to disturb me
Also why is she awake still!?

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22.21pm

Im exhausted but hmx is too family for me to leave them also if I do who am I
This life habit gtg but I think as long as im not feeling harmed I should be great
Needa rest my throat majorly though it hurts ok ah more like tired and strained and it shouldnt feel this way now out of all the times in the world

08.06am

What is this unlimited energy

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08.19am

Oh no
I know i'm not tired but I also don't want to leave home
But I guess that's why the universe made me this way so I have the energy to run errands
It's ok, I have the whole day to rest at least from noon onwards (hopefully)

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17.45pm

Forgiveness sometimes don't encompass direct redemption
We just don't have that guarantee
Human's hearts changes too quickly for any of us to be sure of anything
We are all living in literal blind faith but
What's so bad about that?
The ability to move on despite a hurting heart is one of the best feats mankind can execute
That's why so many loses the battle

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21.22pm

Alhamdulillah things are sorta sorted (hahahaha) now
Just need to think of whether to print stuff or nah I mean save the earth
Im just excited to see what comes out of hmx hosting a festival hahahahaa
Maybe if it goes well we can host an entire one ourselves lol
Ready for funnn and perhaps tiredness idk I cant gauge
But also my vocal cords are quite used I have to rest them more
Kay will try and sleep a bit tonight
Buenas noches

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23.15pm

Since when do I feel nervous lol I think it's just the fact that it's so real
Also that I have equally nothing and everything to lose
But eh
One step at a time, as always
Also Chiqa made me coffee this sweetiepie but she said "You need energy to do the laundry" HELLO BABY are you mama right now why are you giving me job to do

05.39am

Lovely evening, thankful for this group and Earl :')
3 days to voices and i've never felt this prepared to perform for a big event haha there's usually 1 song that i'm like ehh about but this time round i'm just ready to have fun
Must be the veteran factor (and the group is fun hais how is today our last rehearsal life will be weird without seeing them everyday every hour)

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09.51am

Breaking news idk why and how i'm awake before my ironic alarms but that's a thing

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13.40pm

Ya Allah make me someone who always assumes the best from you and your plans
No matter which direction I step in- right or wrong, you continue building new pavements
All I have to do is keep going
Yay insyallah

07.30am

Inconsistent is the new consistent
I thought saying goodbye would be easier but nope it's as hard as the first one
Why do hmx let in exchange students who makes us love them and then leave us after barely 3 months who allowed them
It didn't register that she was leaving until the grouphug at the end ugh I hatemonix who ask them to be so precious NOT ME
Another long day- who am I kidding, week ahead
I hope people stay patient with my schedule

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12.32pm

Quite unprepared for the Carnival but eh things will go well insyaallah
On the contrary I feel the readiest for voices at this period of time than ever before
Think this time last year we were still unsure how Bohrap was gonna sound
Ok maybe just cause we did that song hahaha but worth it

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16.06pm

Yeboi back to 2 hours sleep and 1 meal a day lifestyle and impending fever every day (only because the weather is too cold)
Again, can only push myself for hmx if I had anything else you can bet i'll not even

00.56am

Just got an email that made me snaiswpmd
Noone knows what the future holds but may hopes and prayers get us where we want or need to go insyaallah
(ok by just I mean like 8 hours ago)

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04.12am

Oh no I forgot that I already slept at like 10pm-11pm
It is... 3 days to a full hmx weekend and im stoked for it!

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06.09am

Just a sudden thought about how much I love backstages and dressing rooms probably as much as I love the stage

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10.26am

I set my alarms ironically (ranges from 9.33am-10.06am) and actually woke up from every single one
How did that not happen throughout the semester

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15.58pm

It's so easy to use "Minding my own business" an an excuse to keep quiet about injustice, or blatant wrongdoings especially when it concerns our own friends and livelihood
I've always despised adults who chooses to keep quiet over things they have the power to change and I hope I will never be one of those idiots because they have so many invalid excuses for themselves
But when it comes to matters like interfering in your friends' (toxic, abusive, whatever it is) relationships etc, it's not as easy I guess but literally nothing is holding me back
It's simply irrational
Ye I know some things are too risky but then don't complain over the vicious cycles that will keep happening because of people like you who chooses to be in your safe bubble

sometimes I dont agree with myself but that's a mark of a rational mind I guess also im LATE FOR REHEARSALS I have 57 minutes to reach pulau ntu

06.32am

Parallels man, yesterday my day started at 6am today it is ending at 6am
Hahaha ok brb im sending content to the group
Im very sad that Roy is eliminated this week both MLM and GV are wrong they eliminated Jambus and Roy which are by the rational sane human mind NOT the weakest ones in the competition
So like wake up but also I believe in rezeki- perhaps something better is waiting for them beyond the shows
Will always support them and that is what matters!
Had a lovely rehearsal actually, I feel readyish for Voices which has never been felt before hahaha
Hashtag trust
Ok yes I have to send content
I love you Roy please continue making music for appreciators like me
I was genuinely pleasantly surprised when Wann and Sham got it like I scramed-surprised like totally did not expect that despite hoping for it
BUT ALSO I WAS UNPLEASANTLY SURPRISED WITH ROY'S ELIMINATION astro u suCk

How is it Merry December (06.23am)

Look at me sleeping by 1.30am and waking up 4.5 hours later I can jive with that
(Ok I just checked I fell asleep 2 plus instead but still, about 4 hours of solid rest)
Had a lovely day and seeing baby chiqa so sleepy was so funny
She didn't sleep and claimed she wanted to be like me
The ONE thing she shouldn't take from me she did
But to be fair I think she does have the nocturnal gene
We were walking to esplanade (why am I always there I was there yesterday) but ended up going into the national gallery
Managed to catch a short performance by ohnoiforgotthename perhaps it is singapore symphony orchestra I cannot recall but it was really good!
There were instrumentalists and classical (opera?) singers and they were each great at what they did
Entered and roamed around a bit where elephant proudly said "Omg SR Nathan" to a picture of Yusof Ishak everyone please attack her for it
I had to leave halfway to meet Yol cause the fam wanted to continue museuming
Had a lovely catchup session, perangai memang sama but she is goldfish
I think we walked literal through and fro suntec like 17 times
I finally brought myself to try omoomo and oof it was nice
Then we wanted dessert and because the Marina square Mccafe betrayed us and disappeared without warning, we settled for coffee bean instead and like some fishermen we bought 3 different kinds of dessert what is this
I showed her the last episode of Cemburu seorang perempuan and she stress hahaha everYone same emma did really well in this one!!!
Road closures aplenty, I reached home about 1230am and didnt stay up too long wow the only way to regulate my sleep schedule is to exhaust myself weeks in a row but eh I enjoy it either way
Ok, I have rehearsal in like 11 hours so I have 11 hours to do nothing by nothing I mean HMX work
Kay have a lovely day ahead it is exactly a week to voices

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11.25am

Mama MADE french fries what even
But also I cannot handle the fact that GV is tonight
Can I take the elimination round idk really depends on their performance eh
I mean Jambus got eliminated from MLM this week and I am so offended but hopefully it just pushes them onto better things
Im mentally prepping myself for tonight JIAYOU MY TALENTED GRANDFIGURES
Also I keep feeling like I want to nap because im not used to this schedule yet but everytime I try to I realise im not tired at all
Circadian rhythms are so weird and doesnt make sense