I like how consistent with the timing ive been the past few days ahaha shows that I unwind at the same time
HI, TODAY WENT SO WELL, so well that my whole body begs to crumble into darkness and just go meditate hibernate all the ates for a week or month
I cant even bend neither my legs nor my back seriously the only body parts functioning are my hands and head
This is the kind of tired i'd feel happy experiencing after a show but not when I have 2 more of the same thing to conquer omg
Had two full runs earlier today and I think while doing those I was imagining what I needed to do for quickchange and Alhamdulillah, the visualising meant I wasnt rushing as much and I was a lot more calmer (people around me were still so panicky I had to remind them to breathe bruh do not pass me your lack of calmness)
Ok no kidding im surprised I even had the will to perform, it felt like a third dry run except with more commentators.
It wasnt until the curtain call applause that (omg i cant hear zapin songs at least not now why it playing on the radio) all the tiredness went away
(Dana was extra fast wtheckkkk I mean we finish earlier and can get away with not so perfect executions but bruh my breath ran away from me)
When they clapped after dana I felt grand but lowkey "ah well deserved applause yall have no idea how we feel right now" cause really it takes a toll
And with this newfound leg and back pain, even the simplest choreos felt so difficult by the second dry run.
I think the muscle relief cream abg arul was giving around helped to slightly alleviate the pain cause initially I couldnt stand OR sit
(OMG sekapur sireh is playing on the radio hahahahahahaha i want to laugh this is our first item) (is my smartphone gossiping about what im blogging to the satellites)
But ya now im lying down my legs feel relaxed but my back is crying
Ok im gonna force myself to sleep now, calltime in 8 hours time and 2 rounds of shows to power through.
I really hope my pain reduces by the time I wake up I honestly cannot imagine continuing feeling like this later on.
Special thanks to everyone who came to support!
I heard a lot of good reviews I felt so inspired and grateful.
To the family
Ms eatgo for always being there to support me (she even gave me a welfare pack hahahah ♡)
(Oh must thank my future brother in law too right hahahah)
Thank you for coming (they were so impressed at how many items there were and how quickly we changed)
Ok our pain is for all yalls pleasure k
K bye will force myself to sleep
//edit//
15.26pm
Half hour to the matinee show, and my spine is hurting in an unusual manner I kid you not it hurts to sit in the grab and I cant sit and stand
You never know how much you use and need a body part until it hurts ahahaha cant even do mundane things like lift my hand to eat or cough or lean backwards on a chair or even sit on a chair la actually
Lowkey want to skip this show and rest for tonight but champions never quit
But champions also know their limits ahahah ok I feel like shawn michaels everytime I see him hold his back in pain- and this dressing room is lowkey old folks home cause everyone putting salonpas and tiger balm hahaha
I truly am hurting and this is not fun at all, but this will all be over soon.
I sincerely pray I get strength and the power to push through!
(on an important note, besides the obvious dancing which would be extra tough, how am I gonna deal with quickchanges) :')
God send me Angels