Alhamdulillah finally I have gathered sufficient strength and interest to go back to doing work
I think doing earlwork last night helps churn some inner momentum
Finally watched upin ipin keris siamang tunggal after 2 months of wanting to
Hahaha cute la and really well done, the story just felt a bit rushed and I guess for people who dont really know the folklore characters they dont get to enjoy it as much (a bit like Magika) but for us it's fun easter eggs (dilanggar todak though) (and the tanggang sinking scene was so epic) (also when the hidden ship was revealed dang)
I also UPSET that they never explain why upin ipin can carry the sword is it just cus they main characters thats underwhelming
Mat jenin being the prince was a plot twist hahahaha
Okay I gonna take a mental break from thinking
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18.49pm
I litrally have 2 music videos due in 5 days but I havent started on either
But premier pro is lagging on me I think it's sulking cause I long time never use it hehehe
Just recorded my part and just happy I have an excuse to play with makeup
But the removing part... I should restock on my micellar water haish I keep procrastinating
Ok now elephant is listening to ndp songs cus I made her record my video for me lol
Also mothers are truly superwomen idk how they get strength to DO things and Go THROUGH things
It's no wonder they are the highest of ranks
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22.22pm
Sometimes I feel bad for (to? idk) my family that I didnt graduate
I was the hope, I was going to be the first University graduate in my immediate family and closest cousins
Everyone was so excited, supportive and proud of me
Like was there really nothing inside me that could push me through the last year of education, just to do it for them?
But that's the thing, I feel bad for reasons that are entirely not me
Me is proud of my courage to leave when I know school no longer serves a purpose
I have long felt that the paper chase is outdated- at least for those who is not looking for merely a comfortable life
Of course there is no reason why one cant achieve both but personally since young my intention to enter uni was to learn philosophy, and to buy time to think about what I want to do for a career
And I got both of those, I dont need the paper, it wasnt my personal goal, it was only my goal to make my family proud and happy
Although it did cause annoying backlash now when everyone asks if I graduated and depending on my mood i'll either say yes or no followed with Not studying anymore
But this fact also gives me the drive to work even harder- to show to my family that my dropping out was a decision i'll forever be happy and proud about
Because the success I aim to achieve will not spare a glance at whether or not I have a degree in my hand
May Allah ease my affairs and give me strength to fight through
Through this all, im just yoloing through life, having fun failing and throwing myself into situations and it IS a privilege that im able to be selfish for a while- But insyaallah my family's patience will pay off
Im just ready to hustle like a free bird bro