I should sleep I should sleep
Early day today
Or maybe i'll just have a midday nap later with all my raya glory
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05.37am
Now that im feeling better I think from everyone's kind prayers and self-distraction via singing for the past 8 hours, let me blog about my first experience (hopefully LAST unless childbirth but even then im thinking twice now) being an outpatient at a hospital
I went while I wasnt feeling the worst- world was still swaying but wasnt spinning and hurting like the worst case scenario, but I wasnt feeling straight so I decided (i'd say i regret it but i dont believe in regretting cause everything happens for a reason) to go to the A&E (also cause the idea was planted in my head by people- real me would've stayed home until im cured which if I could turn back time that's exactly what I would have continued doing)
It was a traumatic experience- don't get me wrong it wasn't bad at all I think it was as smooth as it could've been (and I didnt have to wait at all cause the hospital was emptyish) but the whole night once I was at home I kept catching myself relieving the moments there and thanking god I was home comfortably
I got blood drawn and got an IV drip for the first time which i've personally been the human to wait for another to finish their IV drip and now being in that spot- I recognize the feelings that comes with it
It's the What would the doctor do to me next, I could've been at home, I wished I didn't have to be here feelings that kept replaying
The doctors were so efficient I didn't know what was going on until the very end right before my discharge.
Suddenly I was having my finger pricked for sugar level test, suddenly I had to remove my top for heart scan, suddenly on that same bed the doctor put up the sides and rolled me out of the consultation room (shirt already on thank you very much), suddenly I was lying down waiting for a doctor to come and see me, suddenly he brought over a tray and announced he would be drawing some blood (which I was like THIS is what I was hoping not to happen but alas, thankfully it was painless!!!! Alhamdulillahx3, it wasnt any more painful than the vaccination jab aka it looks more painful that it felt. I was so scared right before I asked "Pain or not" but as it happened I was literally like "Wait that's it? Lol that was alright" and doc was like "See I told you it's nothing")
Suddenly I was rolled to the nurse's area and got an IV bag attached to me. Suddenly another IV bag was put in place. Suddenly 2 hours has passed and the doctor (same one who drew my blood) briefed me about follow ups and medicines and saying I could be discharged right as my IV finished
I was so so relieved when I heard that
Two separate humans told me when they went to A&E for vertigo they got a shot and then almost immediately felt better
I got IV drips and felt the same lolol
Still had vertigo even to this evening, (I brought myself to bugis dizzily please dont do such things I trust myself only) until I had a 2, 3 hours nap and then forced myself to socialise and relearnt how to play the guitar (my fingers are unhappy with me) and then sang until 4am
Ok thats all, my story
All in all, traumatic even though smooth, the feeling of uncertainty waiting for doctor's next move sucks, and just being there sucks.
Thankfully my phone was fully charged???
But also yea that made me rethink childbirth ive always not minded it just by the sheer fact that so many women around me has went through it and life goes on as normal (now even literally people my age) but being checked upon for no reason (ok la baby is reason) is not fun lol
May Allah keep us all in good health always so we can continue our deeds perfectly Amin2
Cant wait to eat raya food actually im hungry now I should go and eat something lol
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11.36am
Kay got to sleep for 3 hours lol snoozed all my alarms but all is good cause we all know how long ele takes to shower anyway