No idea why I keep waking up every 2 hours hahaha is it because my system is "not used" to being asleep at this timing if yes PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER MATE WORK THIS OUT
Anyway, I love it when I naturally awaken (meaning: not forced to, not by alarm) in the wee hours of the morning (ok la at least 4am onwards) because it means a headstart to the day and I feel like I can do sooo many things if I wanted to.
Go far away for breakfast?
Sure thang first bus cmon
......jog around the neighbourhood?
Hahahaha yep you did that like once u can do it again if ure crazy
Need to get on top of the readings before classes begin
Idk if it's just the people around me but this sem, academic-wise, has not been too positive.
Like I walk into class with no expectations except to learn as well as I can, and literally not fearing if I "can do it" because what even, we're all there to learn together.
But people have been like "Oh mann you sure you wanna take this mod it's hard"
(Acquaintance, stop talking)
Like muchas gracias for the heads up, it's thoughtful of you to warn me but until when do you expect other humans to stop doing something just because it's hard?
If you know me you know im probably the least... what's that word... ah persistent human out there.
Make my life easy you know, you want you go, you dont want you avoid.
(Not that easy in practical but you get the drift)
But this time round I cant even care im here to learn and that's what im gonna do
Being afraid of failure is something I have never felt, but I truly sympathize and totally understand if another person is- just dont drag others' morale and mood down with your paranoia?
I mean sometimes reminder is good, you know when a friend is like "oh no im worried i'll fail this totally important exam that determines my future"
And you're there like self reflecting "hmm true but do I really care will it really matter in the long run" and you realise "no but it's not wrong to take caution for a bit and handle things on your own as much as you can"
Ok stop stop stop why am I on a rampage about this the sun is not even out yet
No link but hahaha excuse for myself to stop typing so much my hand hurts
Have a great sunday ahead hahahah
//edit//
7.49am
Was so ready to sleep but instinct told me to check my youtube subscription box and wallah A WILD DANISNOTONFIYAH uploaded!
Now im in tears of pure laughter and relatability and sadness
Needless to say phan's first video of the year added value to my life
Here's to more!