07.41am

Lol called in for half day work cause I physically cant bruh somehow my fever progressed (or regressed) and became worse but psht what is medicine (jk im not anti drugs that is good just trying not to reach out for it too often)
I woke up and my brain was like "cOME ON WE CAN DO IT" but my body says no pls.... i cant move
I cant even watch the new dnp videos cause im feeling so disguspink
I'll go back to sleep and hopefully a miracle happens goodnightttt

//edit//
13.16pm

Woo literally just reached the office
Totally needed the 3 extra hours of rest plus the weather is so lovely and the road was so empty I loved the travelling!
Ideally I wanted to leave home early grab lunch and then roll slowly to work but obvs that didnt happen hahah but it's ok just 4 hours 12 minutes to go and then im good for-
i was gonna say weekends but training first
Have a splendid day ahead!
(the weather really is good)

01.10am

Oh nonononoooo
I tried sleeping early like at 9.45pm
And then I woke up like "aye alarmless"
But then it's 1am
Ok la hahahah

//edit//
13.20

Just finished the raya performance at windy outram, I love it here cause I dont walk around here in the day enough (it's always at night)
Currently waiting for bus
Oh did I mention I butchered the performance
The past few performances of my life has been disastrous for me like it's so not normal I usually slay and I know it
Ok wait my bus is here
K back why is this bus crowded what are humans doing on a weekday
As I was saying, no idea what is up but I gotta step up- not even a need but more of a want

Tonight will be the night we finally test our sound using mics, aka my first acapella experience with that device

You know what I gotta stop blogging the view outside is too nice to ignore
Buaii ttyl

//edit//
18.45pm

I set my alarm to leave 2 hours and then an hour ago but then hahaha cant drag myself up
I fell sick quite a few time this year I blame my life choices entirely thats not normal

Today was a day of blessings btw, I mean morning began quite alamak cause at 8.53am I was at YCK mrt and was supposed to reach primz at 9
Grab was high demand but just as the door opened at YCK I checked again and the fares went down so literal bless
Reached like 9.13am hahah had to do makeup otw ah man
And the traffic was quite bad I was thinking about a few things like oh no late how to do my hair are they there yet crap makeup not done we need to leave soon innit!
And suddenly We are the world played on the radio and the first few notes I was instantly smiling to myself cause like thanks universe for reminding me that there's so much more to life than petty thoughts
And ya everything turned out great in the end I reached in ample time and survived well ehehe

Ok I really should go lol not even ready I hope traffic wont be too bad or better not bad at all ok por favor!

Eight thirty-nine pm

SHEASARO'S ENTRANCE IS SO CHEESY I LOVE IT

walls of jericho hit my town im both shaken and stirred

random hsm shizpost whats new

Ok so troy chose a school 32.7miles away from gabbie that's like the distance from the south to west of singapore ok ah dekat jugak they can meet at orchard or my house in the central

Aka yes im watching hsm 3, (and 2... and the first one fine I watched all ok everyday it helps with the wwe angst)
Almost took half day off cause I fainted halfway (by fainted i mean took a nap) and what felt like an hour was really only 15 mins hahah
Anyway shoutout to cik khairani for buying me lunch hais semoga she dimurahkan rezeki!
Why am I bloggin so much today obviously nothing to do + pent up emoness cause this version of hsm 3 has 2 scenes i HAVE NEVER SEEN
(actually I think I saw before ah but like ONCE compared to the thousands of times ive watched the "normal" version)
And both were highly emo scenes- including me suddenly realising that gabbie and troy are actually freaking small kids who were almost willing to give up their future for each other IDIOTS I tell you
Luckily it didnt happen ah
And taylor and chad are horrible friends (but irl i think most of us would have their mindsets too but still be more supportive guys) man what is high school if not the best place to find lifelong friends hahahaha delete them
(Ok maybe not chad cause he has been with you since kindergarden, troy)
And ok I immediately take back all I said above and go back to loving all of them equally yay

01.27am

I am almost exhausted so the last thing I should be doing is blog but just needa clear the mind for a bit
Shoutout to my blog for being such a reliable source of everything (most of the times ah except the times u crash and burn but nvm i accept u whatevs)
Managed to complete 3/4 of my to do list today!
Work, dance and harmonix- which meant I didnt get to see yol off
Hope she doesnt find trouble in a foreign country
(Might be hard for her but- hahaah)
More importantly may she learn to grow tired of kpop muahahaha

Ok i need sleep more than I think
And remind me to eat properly wth I was dancing in pain ceh drama hahaha
Ok SLEEP GOODNIGHT SWEETDREAMS

Welcome WWE to SG, pleaseeee come more often

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01.52am

In the span of half hour I managed to run a high fever and I got visited by the sleepless bacteria again ahhahahaha what a talent right
Pasrah dan redha

//edit//
11.14am

Barely 2 hours of work and im hahaha ok i told you i dont do office jobs man so peaceful but wayyy too boring
Ok for a part time but not full time pls never ever
(I like hearing my colleagues having their banters though hahaha)
Anyway im wearing 3 layers of clothes- a freaking sweatshirt, cardigan and the thickest jacket I own, and im still shivering hahahah literally I thought I was prepared for this
So wrong
(I wore thinner layers for ijen and survived; ok la that one hiking hahaha this one sit down do nothing)
Even hot coffee couldnt help zzz nvm u tried

I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN WWE TICKETS
Like I dont mind not going now cause there's always next time but JERICHO and Sheasaro T.T
No luck this year?
We'll see, I have 8 hours more for a miracle!
Kemon universe!
Whatever it is, I hope they come back again more frequently ah but change line up pls noone wants to see the shield
(By noone i mean me)

Anyway I am so happy that sleep calculators exists because I woke up today despite having such an odd amount of sleep I woke up right at the end of a sleep cycle which meant freshness and no signs of crankiness (at the time I checked, the calculator said if to wake up at 6.30am, I should sleep earliest 3.05am and I did exactly that)

ps remind myself not to wear palazzo to the office it's not helping with the cold

pps maybe i must wear 3 layers of pants and socks too

ppps gloves even

//edit//
16.17pm

I suddenly got really like really sad at the thought of missing tonight's show
Be still my heart and let me emo for 3 weeks minimum

08.57am

Guyssss y2j is on his way here D:
Im panicking cause the tickets we wanted are sold out
We need a miracle

Anyway im back in the office again hahahaha actually I didnt even agree to this (I said i'll check my schedule and "if 2 weeks can la") skali got appointment letter for a month.
It's ok ada hikmah hahaha anyway I dont really mind except trainings at night and having to wake up early again (boooo)
This is something-
Ok brb I feel a task incoming
Ok no false alarm
As I was saying before I rudely interrupted myself, I will learn to say no (lol not really cause my brain is always indecisive and I dont like negative things so i'll always be like i'll see! instead of a straight up i cant... nooo... buaiii which is so inconsiderate but I try)

Actually what I wrote above is not fully true idk ah to define is to limit
Anyway like one of my favourite quotes say; man, sometimes it takes so long to sound like yourself
Especially online
May we all find it in us to speak from our hearts
Ceh haha whatever
I need to think about lunch since daddy is not working today (hE HOLIDAY HOW COME I WORK no fair)
Since the nearest canteen is 3029km away I am so tempted to foodpanda (just cause I love pandas)

Ok im yammering nonsense (is yammering a word well it should be)
BYE have a great day

(hard to when you could be jalaning raya .....) hahaha k bye i have training tonight let me not crash

ps this photo is so funny hahahahaha cena being bullied by lesnar and big show great tag team 

00.56am

Ayy
Had a really nice day Alhamdulillah although yet to meet STYLO!
In a few hours time we will ok
(Overly attached gangmates hahaha)

Ate so much amazing food and shared laughters with loved ones and carried izzah today ehehe she is so cute izzul is too but he was sleeping half the time aiseh abang ape ni
Because I have moved on from stilettos last year to a chunkier pump this year, I dont hurt anywhere ok hahahah yez

Ok I need muh rest
Another long day of visiting tomorrow!
Goodnight, sweetdreams

ps hahaha why the selfie got watermark one lame la camera 360 go back to your glory days pls

pps today me and tokti wore really similar outfits we always tend to wear purple together eheheh 

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI (03.41am)

Finally done with the henna wearing session
Pretty sleepy I hope I can fall asleep
Yay goodnight sweetdreams

19.04pm

HELLO
In a grand mood, because soon it's gonna officially be lebaran homagash
Alhamdulillah we've come this far, may all our deeds this past month be accepted and our sins be forgiven amin!

Im just blogging to distract myself (as usual, I feel like I do this every year) from the plethora of raya food on the table
Patience young (and old, whatever) jedi

Met yol yesterday for buka after so long! (lol last time we met was before I went to bondo)
And then training with earl which went productive, im so proud of the team and I pray we can only go up from here
Let's go Harmonix!

Ok I should go get ready for buka hehehe like 6 mins to go
Probably paying bazar geylang a visit tonight but for now priority is to break fast

Have a splendid day ahead my friends, I know of some friends who might have a heavier heart walking into syawal this year- i'll always keep them in my prayers insyaallah

03.04am

Yo
At least I dont feel as tired as the past two nights hahah
Had a conjuring 2 session before training today
Went pretty well; yes to progress and prosperity!

Might be meeting yol for buka tomorrow idk if she exists
Anyway I should rest but my virgo brain is screaming at me to continue spring cleaning what even stop it brain
Bubye buenas noches sweetdreams

01.38am

I feel like ive blogged at this time before hahah
Anyway whoa last night was torture
No idea when and how I even fell asleep at all in the end

Went out with family tonight to buy the remaining raya necessities (wants, really)
Finally (hopefully) learnt my parts for the songs pls internalize, body!
Was practicing with elephant and without realising we have practiced for an hour wow much dedication
Ok I shall rest for now

ps mbak anggun and wulan I miss these kids and more honestly

//edit//

07.03am

Mmmmmits happening again this annoying pretty physically mentally painful process of trying to fall asleep when you are simultaneously too tired and not tired enough

I hope none of you reading this experiences this cause man it sucksss- despite going through this more often than normal I still find myself stumped as to what to do; exhaust myself beyond oblivion or continue fighting this losing battle

Hahaha k idk why im laughing im not even smiling k bye pls pray for me idek this better not go on anymore nights Insyaallah

Lolwut

Okay im sorry
Guess what I just found out, i've been overestimating a friendship i've been keeping for years
Overestimating
Who does that :')
Hahahahha but anyway, life goes on, better hopefully now that i've been splashed with cold harsh reality
It's ok, all is good.
All is good.

00.00am

Ayy im actually munching right now so it's not weird that im blogging exactly at 12am
Just got back from what I would say a productive session cause we technically finished learning our songs???
(Well atleast they have, my part is still hahaha on the way)
Tomorrow will be a rest day aka resume springing before a run of events
and ultimately, RAYA!

Though I am real sad that ramadhan is bidding us goodbye for this year-
May we get the opportunity to see it again next year.
In the meanwhile, let us reap the benefits of these last few nights with His will!

Goodnight, sweetdreams!

ps the new dnpgames hahahaha i love it phil is so cute! SO cute

pps dan is too of course

//edit//
06.41am

One of the worst feelings- being too tired you cant even fall asleep
Even tried a sleeping mask which usually helps but even that feels constricting

00.35am

YOU DO NOT BRING THE DEADMAN BACK FROM RETIREMENT JUST FOR A REMATCH WITH REIGNS

that is absolutely out of the question u lil shiz get out

23.41pm

And spring cleaning commences aka i'd rather do work alone but on my own timing por favor

I still yearn (ceh) to give geylang a friendly visit again namely for my yearly dose of keropok and bunga api 

Hello havent got those idec priorities

I feel like drinking frappe or something should I hahahahaha yeah right i'd simultaneously be surprised and not surprised if I did go out
See even I dont know myself
So noone knows me really
Atleast humans dont
(Why does this sound creepy I didnt mean it that way)
Ok la let me finish this by 2am and then sleep cause training resumes tomorrow and I need the rest to learn my part hahahaha crabs

Goodnight, sweetdreams!

ps if this isnt me in the future idk what is

14.01pm

Phone battery is at 12%, i'm 2 hours late to training and idk it has been a very, very trying day and it's barely afternoon :')
But it's good (ok why is the train so full wth)
It's a true test of patience which always happens when i'm fasting, I guess it's a good thing I mean since we're practising restraint might as well go all the way
Simmer all heartpain out with istighfar and keep-calm breaths and positive thoughts and chanting "sesungguhnya aku berpuasa" over and over
It's my personal patronus

So for my current situation, and to the other tests awaiting me ahead today-
Expecto patronum (x29091)

Lol right as I posted this my dems' I will survive plays
Thanks for having my back sista

//edit//
19.52pm

Aw man I can feel the sickness coming hahahah I usually don't get affected by rain but I realise as I grow up getting caught in the rain=fever.
The weird thing is, if I intentionally play in the rain or walk under the rain nothing happens
I think it's just mind over matter ah hahaha but seeing as I got stuck under the rain shelterless twice today... let's just pray for the best

Anyway my day turned out being not so bad afterall, thanks to the absence of dwelling over the past
Patience means everything will turn out okay eventually, Insyaallah.

01.32am

Before anything let me just say I still havent gotten my wwe tickets what loserity is this
Japan gets orton... D:
But we get jericho (maybe I hope IT BETTER BE THE CASE)
I need a miracle
Hahaha k emo

Anyway today turned out good somehow!
Had a pretty bland afternoon doing nothing like I was feeling so lame up to 6.30pm- the time I was supposed to be at paragon to meet shabs and asyraf.
Ended up reaching about 7.20pm ahahais
Instantly felt better upon meeting them though, missed them tons!
And of course, happy belated birthday to spicy mango shabana ♡

Grabbed to pico for the inaugural Acamixers hosted by the Apex project, pretty darn cool seeing the acacommunity in singapore and I enjoyed the event though I reached at like 8.45pm.... hahaha
It was cool meeting the more established acagroups and making new friends.
More importantly, the dinner-that-suddenly-turned-into-a-meeting afterwards hahaahahah idk but just being with my harmonix makes me happy ah even though it's business talk and half of them were busy being starstruck hahahaha
Left the place a bit after 11.30 thanks BK for being open till late(r than usual)

Literally gonna attend harmonix tomorrow morning before running to dance cause i've been missing so much training and acachamps is in 3 WEEKS exactly
I should sleep but ah let's see
(What do I mean "let's see" I SHOULD sleep)
(Like pronto)
(Ahora)

K goodnight sweetdreams!

ps no idea if i'm even going for wwe but just in case, let me just mention how heartbroken i am

00.19am

O snap
I kept telling myself to blog later but hahaha......
Brb

Btw abang arul was like "you're taking philosophy? isn't that thinking about nothing?"
yea pretty much nothing but everything
Love it though

//edit//
14.17pm

Okay...... let's get down to business
I kinda survived this week Alhamdulillah!
Ended the jenb x jamiyah (wth what kind of term is this) by spending an afternoon at marina barrage playing games (and being deprived of fountains) and finally back to the home for mass iftar.
Also a very quick goodbye to the team cause me and naddy had to ciao
(Btw hi naddy syaz and aziz if you're reading this hahahahaha)

Followed mama the next day to roam around cwp before training
Now i cant walk and tomorrow got training again
I havent even prepared that much for raya but hey that's what the last week of ramadhan is for too (too meaning let us not forget our deeds insyaallah)

Meeting los españyol ninos tonight for buka and am somehow trying to fit in an acapella event into my schedule but bummer clash in timing 
Nevramine

ps finally at deathly hallows part 1- it really is a potter week

pps cant believe I havent mentioned this but im digging dems' new jam! really like it like it's such a feel good dancey song (i just rlly love her art)

07.33am

Weee somehow woke up an hour ago.
The night I actually had a decent quality sleep I had to wake up at an unneccessary timing hahahaha
Spent yesterday packing and distributing food hampers with the jamiyah kids and frickfrack I keep grabbing everywhere im annoyed at myself (promo codes are blessings and a curse at the same time I tell you)
Headed to dhoby afterwards and found ms green tea in the train hahah
Bukaed together and had a much delayed catch up session before crawling to training again where by this time I wasnt even mentally present hahahah
Reached home a bit before midnight and I think I fell asleep before 2!

Btw I should stop letting people be aware of my sleeping schedule cause they keep asking me the same questions which gurl, im lazy to answer

Anyway today will be the last day for jentera's post-ex- aka the last day we work together as a team of 27.
I keep going back to the beginning, to the day I realised halfway through the adhoc interview that I went for the wrong one.
The really long delay between the interview and the email (aka half hoping to get selected just cause it's an overseas humanitarian expedition and it didnt matter who I was with, I just wanted to do something) that made me feel like "it's ok if im not in, I did go to the wrong interview anyways"
The congratulory email, the first meeting.
The many meetings I had to miss because of trainings and other meetings.
Everything was just surreal, I kept visualising the day we would actually take off but nothing beats the real experience.
Still can't believe bondo was a project we're done with.
This end will definitely be bittersweet.

Oh ya btw a weird thing I (didnt think i'd) missed when I was devoid of devices for 18 days was actually listening to demdems!
I just realised how much I missed her voice during the bus trip to the airport on the  way back home

ps woke up to a dnpgames yay

00.36am

Ayy had quite a nice day, ended really well
Spent like 3 hours at east coast for jenb x jamiyah but for my role it was practically doing nothing but talk nonsense with jannah while enjoying the breeze
The weather was beautiful!
Headed straight to geylang where I spent a good amount of time roaming around in giant with 2% battery while waiting for the fams to reach
Walked to onekm for buka and guess. WHO. I. FREAKING SAW
BARNEY BJ AND BABY BOP!!!!!!!
We couldnt stop jumping in excitement and I got a bit emo cause ive always wanted to see barney and friends in front of my eyes and BJ WAVED TO ME AND him and barney blew us goodbye kisses
Omg i cant I will cry tears of joy again if I recall
And THEY SANG I LOVE YOU
(We only caught them when they were ending their 2nd last song)
I GOT TO SING ALONG WITH BARNEY LIVE
day=made
More than made, it was aMAZING
I HOPE TO SEE THEM AGAIN this time round sing all their songs together!

Then bukaed and rushed off to harmonix training which went quite well alhamdulillah!
Supposed to meet them again tomorrow but got called for dance training hahahais can also

Ok now it's time for order of phoenix before attempting to sleep... another loong day ahead
Goodnight sweetdreams!

//edit//

11.26am

I just really really really love raya songs on the radio it makes me so... aHhh happy 

3.19am

Why the goat cant I sleep
Honestly prepping myself to burnout by the end of this week which would really suck but yknow, just prepared.
And what is ms orton doing replying my texts at 3am hahah gurl
A whole day out ahead including harmonix training
Pls slumber come to me

13.35pm

Boy was I exhausted this morning couldnt even drag myself out of bed.
But here I am now, not only out of the house but actually off to school for post-ex prep (which I am very late for)
Buka date with the new bahas volunteers tonight and then training right after
Thankfully I managed to sleep before 3 last night- at this point it is lucky

Ok im in the bus and dizzy buaii

//edit//
18.08pm

Actually went to school por nada plz bless the 8$ i spent on grab
Currently at amk library waiting for the right time to leave hahaha ideally between now to 6.15 would be great but I want to make sure I wont be the first to reach
Currently feeling so sleepy???
I got at least 6 hours of sleep last night ok but what did it do to me, make me sleepier than usual zzzz
(almost had to drag along a fat plastic bag full of logistics haih thankful for naddy)

Looong week ahead and then another.
Let me just remind myself to take it step by step and to give my best in all I do.
May He grant us all health and blessings in every forms possible Amin.
Ok happy breakfasting (exactly an hour!)

17.03pm

Happy birthday daniel howell the ever loving fluffboi

Ahhhh just got back from dance today, quite fun but of course mis energio ahora es nol
(Hahahaha chiqa just asked mama if she's supposed to let me keep the duit raya she will get later)
XD
Heading over to grammy's soon for mass iftar
Ok let me rest
Goodnight....

//edit//
22.53pm
Didnt sleep la hahaha anyway I had an amazing night!
Bukaed with food lovingly cooked by nenek ♡
Played telepathy games and of course as usual, we always end up wearing black when we meet homagad (except cena this time round hahahah)
Sang camp rock, (screamed perhaps) raya and national day songs on the way back and that's one of my favourite pasttimes with stylo
Haihh cousins are truly the best of friends

And I finally remembered what the long-post-that-got-deleted was about; but I dont think I will write about it again anytime soon hahahaha but basically it's about a note sent by someone who said that the person hopes I will one day be a master of one instead of jack of all trades.
And it's about how... lame that sounded cause humans are so capable of doing more than one thing at once but nvm I delved into so many aspects it was literally an emotional rational essay ok hahaha

1.02am

Bruh I just set my going out alarm earlier than my waking up alarm hahahhah

I had a beautiful day today, honestly!
Began the morning cabbing for no reason (we thought we were late but we were 2 hours early hahaha but nvm the hikmah is we got to bond with jannah and zaid for a while)
Conquered my second ROW, as a team leader this time round which felt weird cause I was helping out skali I found out my job included checking my phone everytime (something I dont really like to do) pshtt
Settled the home with the help of some care sg kids from st pats- dang people like kendrick, joshua, shiva (and some others alamak i forgot their names) were in game man I was impressed; especially kendrick and his life hacks hahaha
And of course kudos to my leaders team- elephant, jannah and dhan!

Walked to bedok int and took the bus to punggol (we literally slept the whole way man shagged)
And reached kak yati's place~
Had a great time catching up with the aunts and uncles, cousins and nephews and nieces!
Had a grrrreat meal omg but two things that are still in my brain are the colourful badak berendams which mama made and the takoyaki and idk ah ok all the desserts actually.
Ended the night with a (all time favourite requested activity) ghost story session ehehehe where baby izzul became our sound effect so cute D:
At first I thought i'd be too shagged to entertain the kids cause psht whats new havent slept last night- but I got a nap around isyak and then didn't want the storytelling session to endddd but they had to go home boo

Dance training tomorrow and i'm missing my ms green tea!
And meeting STYLO afterwards ermagerd cousins weekends are the best weekends

My days will only be more occupied from here on out- honestly cant keep track of how many buka dates I have set with humans i really hope there are no clashing dates ahahaha insyaallah

I wanted to say something but I forgot so forget it lah
OH i remember!
Im contemplating whether to continue watching Goblet of fire or sleep........
The right answer should be sleep but the right answer is... there is no right answer so k bye we'll see
Goodnight sweetdreams!

4.02am

Oh snap probably shouldve slept
Loooong day ahead and I need extra energy cause i'll be meeting my small cousins and nephews and nieces and I need energy
Btw my subscriptions' uploads on youtube are extra entertaining tonight hahaha thanks content creators

Just finished watching prisoners of azkaban, I always feel like watching prisoners of azkaban
(Or chamber or philosopher)
Ok a fact noone needed to know

Anyway im really missing bondo; the sky and the people and the wind
And kinda miss food time cause that's when I get to bull with kakek syaz and naddy
Truly hope everyone is doing great
(Lowkey regret not continuing my daily blog but full immersion sake psht next time do what I want ok note to self)

Selamat bersahur

ps daniel is turning 26 tomorrow wHAT THE ACTUAL- 

20.00pm

Comparison is the thief of joy

And king balor is in town aiseh
Wwe sg is so close I can feel it rumbling in my bones

But for now im back to restless days and long nights

ps happy national (lol im not american) bestfriends day my dems

1.53am

I actually had humans call me fearless.
Well it began when we were telling ghost stories (lol what else) and someone asked if i'm afraid of anything (of course besides the obvious answers)
I was contemplating and they took my silence as a "I knew it, nothing!"
"Yeah i've always had the impression that you are fearless."

And that I hope I am.
I rarely accept labels but that is one im onto.
Fearlessness in terms of embracing the things people shun from- bad emotions, awkwardness, mistakes even.
But this courage comes from nothing more than rationality and heart.
Take for instance how some people fear (ok legitimate anxiety or social skill issues aside) looking stupid for making mistakes.
(Ok I wanted to do some more elaboration here but my vocab just shut down ahaha)

It is 2am.
Supposedly going to buka with kak faizah and nadiah but still awaiting updates.

In the meanwhile, don't shun away any feelings.
Sometimes emotions visit us for attention- just spend a little time with it and let it go on, as you go on.

Goodnight, sweetdreams!

ps chiqa bought me maltesers seriously she is the best because you just show that you like something ONCE and she'll remember and always buy you the stuff

pps bondo is so cloudless i love it- clouds are beautiful but there's something about being under a clear blue sky that just... does something to me.

2.41am

Dude why am I getting bad at this ahhhh
Whatevs no quiero pregunta y repondes
Hahahah excuse my españyol literally has been a year since I last practiced
Like I said, need to pick it back up soon!
(hopefully learn latin next sem because LATIN?!!!)

Had a great day out with evokals, or shall I say the not reallys as in not really bass not really alto not really soprano
Hahaha went for karaoke- I somehow reached before them despite leaving home late muahaha
3 hours of talent sharing (first time going karaoke with like singers so pressure was on hahahaha jk) and then went for dinner together before walking to bugis for dessert and spilling not only the durian snowice but also matters of the heart cehh.
Walked back to esplanade to lepak for a bit (lol kinda dragged them there subconsciously) and had a shared life crisis about marriage and BTOs and finances and... lynn's fault
Reached home 2 mins before midnight and somehow got around to upload the bondo photos and videos from gopro.

Aka still in denial that im not there pshtshsisemize

I want to try and sleep
Wish me luck
Buenas noches

5.18am

OH SNAP
I just realised I sold off my 10th june to 3 different commitments, completely forgetting the most important one ive been waiting months for-
The demon king is coming
WHY AT 3PM THOUGH??????
AND at tampines are u kidding me
I will attempt to sneak in a few moments to see you but if it doesnt work out then...
Ugh nevermind see you end of the month balor

23.35pm

I've been missing posts but im aware la ok I just... idk like I said im getting used to this life again, it was so easy to adapt to the bondo life of no updates and no news and no rush
Coming back feels like im going on holiday, something i'd like to escape from once again.
Which is probably not the best sign hahaha I guess i'd have to make a better life for myself.
(WARNING: the word life is being used very very loosely here pls dont overanalyse)

Had trainings for three consecutive days after merely 2 days of rest (merely as opposed to what I planned ok hahahah)
Today was wow first dance training in a long while- needless to say I grabbed to and fro because I couldnt even.
Thank you for promo codes u got my back, grabbro.
Hahah...
Took a nap right as I reached home and woke up exactly 90 mins later- thanks body clock you da best.
Now I need sleep

Erm... this whole month will be crazy I just need to reassess my priorities.

Today I learnt that being in so many different groups of friends and part of so many organization, it's not only improbable to act the same in all, but also to treat all the same.
It's a much needed social restraint that I subconsciously set.
Basically im not one for entertaining for the sake of it- sometimes when given the choice, (ok even if not i'll create the chance to) i'll avoid interations cause... just not worthwhile la.

But in the meanwhile, search for true friends will never end because people will always change and your positions in their lives will change and so does theirs in yours.
I pray we all get to find more humans who always wants the best for us and will love us selflessly- just as we would like to do the same for them.
Insyaallah.

Have an amazing week ahead.

ps this time 3 weeks ago we've probably just reached al-ishlah and is being welcomed by the family haiseh i miss them

pps my indonesian friends are texting me hehehhe

ppps so cute chiqa she bought me a white tiger as a homecoming gift :')

6.29am

I typed a really, really long heartfelt post for about half and hour non-stop, filled with honest confessions and then selected all but instead of selecting "copy" I pressed the number 2- replacing every single word with one thing I hate: NUMBER.

Oh well, patience testing is normal during this fasting month and perhaps the universe just isnt ready to let my thoughts out into the open yet.
Thank you for having my back, regardless.

Kinda wished I had everything still but bruh let us move on swiftly from this.
You'll hear from me eventually

23.53pm

Happy June!
Honestly still hungover, everything reminds me of how different normal life is compared to the past 18 days.
How fast prayers here are, how unproductive I feel although I woke up at 10am and had the (what I need to make a habitual) zuhur-asar nap (cause it works wonders)
But ay I just need time to readjust.
Just realised it has been 6 weeks since I last posted on instagram- I truly have let go of the need/want to update and be updated.
It's been a process, I mean cmon ive been checking it like daily for 5 years prior to this so stopping took a bit of time but hey im here.
Still love instagram, just dont need to see every post and post every events I go to.

Like ryan higa's new (idk what is new I missed 18 days of content and now im spammed but im not complaning) video, i'm at phase one one; twice the just-for-fun

Goodnight!