I guess sometimes taking care of yourself includes taking care of the people you care about too
I've really been not feeling it these past few weeks but somehow it's picking up, mostly because of a balance of alone time and spending time with amazing people
It's a wild pendulum of excitement, enthusiasm for no reason (dont need a reason to be happy really) and bouts of what am I, why am I
(Nothing to do with being a philosopher I swear)
Sometimes we feel the need to point fingers at everything but taking a step back does it all
Trust me you'd rather disappear from the face of earth for a while to reflect than to act on impulse and make regrettable decisions
I've written every single thoughts that has passed through my head, and i'll probably be reading it back thinking wow did i really think this was a thing what no
Whatever you're assuming might be worse than what I actually thought so just stop thinking ok hahahaha
Im probably going to go reread what I wrote and then see what has changed and what has not in this short span of time
Whatever it is, im in a much better place than I am the past few weeks and im thankful for that!
After this month, my focus will lie entirely on the indonesian trip, I truly want immersion.
Wish me luck muahaha
Anyway I had a nice day yesterday, went to the library for food and random bants with muh cena
Afterwards, just because I wanted to escape the mrt, I ended up at their place playing harry potter scrabble
I know, AMAZING!
Ive been wanting to play boardgames (mostly scrabble and probably hot seat) for the longest time and yesss dream came true hahaha
Left a bit before midnight and tried to get back into essays but nah......
Hope iqin lesnar and khali gets well fast!
As of now im STILL trying to do my essay seriously no idea why it's such a struggle I think it's just pure reluctance and laziness which idk why when and where it came from because I usually love writing essays
NOW I need collective energy from the universe pLS PUSH ME TOWARDS COMPLETING THEM
Idk why the above is caps soreh didnt mean to shout
OH remind me not to buy things online that requires delivery cause I was asked to stay home two days in a row just to wait for a parcel NOOOOO even going to the washroom is dangerous
Ok I shall go,
All you need is truly yourself, god and love.
Give yourself time both to hurt and heal.
Give yourself time.
ps dan and phil are moving and im technically moving with them buaiii see ya in the new place
pps think and thing should not be put in a sentence together
ppps jk it's their choice to exist wherever they want to
