People... often find it hard to be themselves.
We're never happy with who we are- well, at times.
There are bouts when we begin comparing ourselves with others and there are times where we say: What am I even thinking, im perrrfect
It's so weird how normal and abnormal this is because if we know for a fact that somewhere out there someone wants an aspect of your life, why do we still NOT want to be us?
Humans are weird and fascinating.
(Dont think so lowly of yourself, I hate math but I am willing to bet statistics supports my above statements)
I was reading an acquaintance's blog and she was so, idk how to put it, uh, upset (couldve used a better word but none seem apt) over the fact that she's a burden to her friends, that she's a needy person and all that jazz.
Im here thinking literally- people like me who are more emotionally independent (i guess... hahahah remember i dont like labelling myself ok pls take this as a passing remark) would find that a totally okay, and perhaps even good thing.
Being able to be human, in a world where the need to portray perfection is strong, is a breath of fresh air.
You might find yourself a burden, heck your friends might too (if theyre not true friends of course, but even the best have their limits sometimes- let's hope not) but the fact that you bare it all out there, is commendable.
For me, im comfortable in dealing with my emotions internally by myself.
Im not the kind of person who needs to rant to others, I rant to myself for myself by myself (explains my blog and myriad of diaries hahaha)
Two of my bestfriends are the same, which means I never know about any of their problems because they're either just like me or they have other people they're more comfortable talking to.
That doesnt make me love them less, I just understand.
But of course I have friends who are otherwise, theyre more expressive and verbal with their deepest emotions and things bothering them.
I love listening, I love being able to understand them, I enjoy sitting there and thinking about how i'd act if I were in their shoes and NOT tell them anyway because most of the time, people just want listeners, not opinions.
Just for me, I dont even want listeners hahahah no paparazzis pls
I love it, the more I read the more I learn about the nature of people, and all the more I see with my own eyes how similar mankind is. (ah im sure noone will think this but I just need to mention this: not mick foley mankind)
Afterall, we're just beings who wants more than merely survive but sometimes life shove us down so hard, we give up.
People always say to never give up but it's not actually the worst thing to do.
I have given up on a lot of things; friendships, hopes and idk-what-else-to-put-as-examples
But I always find new ones, had I not given up on the past, I wouldnt have space and energy to focus on the new.
So go for it, literally let go of things that makes you unhappy.
As much as there are things worth fighting for, sometimes we just have to jump the cliff and just believe in fate.
I end this post hoping and praying anyone reading this finds love and kindness within them, and then spread them like (insert whatever analogy you like: sunshine? peanut butter? confetti? idk)
I wish you happiness and anger, sadness and boredom.
Because these emotions reminds us that we're just humans, we're one and the same, and we have each other.
From one human to another, (unless an alien is reading this hello from my species I wish you well too)
Lots of love.