A heartbreak is having a piece of your heart hanging by a loose thread, but a death is having that piece falling off.
It is most horrible to have your lover leave your side because of their passing away.
Does love become loved, or does it stay the same?
You never know and never will know what was in their mind all along.
You never know and will never know how sincere they were in opening up.
You never will know exactly how much they love you.
You will never be able to feel their touch again.
Hear the words only they can say to make you feel complete.
You will never feel those butterflies again.
The tingling sensation they leave on your skin.
It's like breaking up without the goodbye.
No more photos together.
No more dancing to your song.
No more movie nights, or late lunch dates.
No more weekend plans.
No more going over to their place.
No more anticipating their arrival.
No more dreams about travelling the world together.
No more talking about the future.
No more wedding plans.
Hell, no more fights.
No more tears.
No more making up.
No more fixing the broken relationship.
No more awkward silences.
No more painful silences.
You no longer have any choice.
And what's harder than losing them? Losing yourself.
They made you who you are today.
a part of them, incorporated into your soul.
And what's harder than losing them? The future.
Your next decision.
Guilt follows your every step after the tragic loss.
Love life becomes disastrous.
You don't want to move on, but everyone tells you to.
You don't want to move on, but it's the only right thing to do.
The relationship between you and his family becomes strained.
You are afraid to face them, afraid of what they would say about your next step.
You feel guilty if you fall in love with another.
You feel guilty, as if you had hurt them by moving on.
I know, it's easier said than done.
It's always easier said than done.
But you can never move on from him completely.
He left so abruptly, and your relationship is not even established.
You're neither a temporary partner nor one for life.
And even though you will move on one day,
there'll always be a space in your heart.
there'll always be that aching portion, begging to not be forgotten.
there'll always be a longing of his return.
imagine on your altar, when you finally get married.
you feel his presence.
overwhelming.
you see his smile.
you feel him around you.
approving, laughing.
happy for you.
happy that you moved on.
but still, the guilt wil never go away.
he loves you still, and you love him still.
forever isn't just a word;
forever is your promise.