Hello!
So i'm 209- (actually 208 including this post) away from saying goodbye to this blog.
You've meant a lot to me.
From October of 2010, you've went through a lot.
You've been with me throughout secondary school.
You noticed my change in mindset.
You witnessed my graduation, the breaking and creating of friendships.
You've been there through the ups and the downs.
You're more than a listening ear, a ranting web.
You're a friend.
You were there when everyone else bailed on me.
You bring me calmness when everything felt wrong.
You are here and will still be here when I look back years down the road.
And that means a lot to me.
I guess those days I felt like nothing went right and i came here, inspiration came.
Making me a better person each day, learning from past mistakes.
Being able to laugh at myself every time I scroll down my archives.
And for that, I thank you.
Look at me, it's not even like 10 posts to goodbye and i'm already writing a thank you post.
HAHAHA.
It's okay you deserve the appreciation post.
Anyway, words cannot describe how much i miss secondary school.
To think that I will never experience that setting again kills me everytime.
Not being able to see the schoolmates who were once passing strangers.
Hell, not being able to avoid crossing paths with your old crush.
There is no going back, and while i regret nothing during the four years in there, I do wish I could've learnt more in the same amount of time.
I was surrounded by people.
People who moulded me unknowingly.
People who affected my decisions.
People whom I was forced to work with when I was at the lowest point in my life in 2011.
People whom I dearly appreciate now, even though we barely spoke two words to each other.
(random break thought: why am i so emo)
(random break thought's answer: i don't know)
Okay, I missed school just now because I overslept.
I feel like slapping myself but self harm is not cool.
Haha.
It's cool though I have kinder bueno beside me right now.
Guys I've been watching sappy love Malaysian and Indonesian movies these few days.
Why?
Don't ask me.
I dreamt about babyshark last night.
(i think it's weird how i throw around that name freely when I know it's the most obvious nickname ever)
(i'm so weird)
and in the dream we were friends.
Which felt really odd considering that I don't think we were ever like friends.
Whatever, put the past behind us.
Everyone of us has changed.
Some for the better, some took a turn down the wrong street.
But that's life.
God created a path for us, to reach a destination, a dream we were meant for.
But in the process, we as humans keep making the wrong turns.
But god, being the amazing creator he is, keep paving new ways for us, to reach that same destination we were meant for since the very beginning.
Every wrong turn brings a new path down a new road.
Some may be rough, others may be smooth.
But each step we take brings us closer to what we are meant to be.
We may question ourselves, "What's our purpose in life?"
And I think we live not only for ourselves.
We live to not only fulfill our ambitions and change the world.
We live to not only fulfill our ambitions and change the world.
We live to touch others.
(now now don't be a mood spoiler and think weirdly)
We live to impact others.
Be it a whole country, or a single person, that might be our purpose in life.
And I pray that all of us will get to reach our destination before our times are up.
Dreams will come true.
And you know it.
adeu ^^