In pain, cold and sleepy
In a very Dont talk to me mood but im taking it slow today
Hoping to go even slower just noone bother me okay
Cant wait for nap time aka lunch time
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17.57pm
Barely survived today but I did because of how passive I was lol
The one day my arms hurt I had to do heavy lifting so like how rude
Currently tethering at the confirmation to leave this office job because I cannot stand working in an office anymore I cannot stand 9 hours of my life (plus 3 hours of travel time to and fro) wasted on something that does not make me happy
Knowing me i'd try and tolerate for a few more months but dear me from me: Leave soon please thank you
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23.14pm
Also the things that are pushing me towards early retirement from office life all happened today:
1) The higher up walked by my table while I was resting my eyes from the screen and asked "What are you doing" and that is offensive is it my fault I do my work really quickly that I can afford to take a break and then he says "Be careful if people come in" (I assume in case other people sees me 'idling') First of all, I do my work well and efficiently. Second of all I dont want to work at a place where the culture is we have to care about what others think and that appearing busy is better than doing nothing
2) I had to do heavy lifting today. I carried about 350 books and now my recovering arms are even more sore than before and it made me realise I am not physically cut out to do this job my strength is for wrestling not book stacking
3) Out of nowhere im being trained to do two people's jobs because they're both leaving BUT my pay will remain the same even though im tanking two people's roles (this is a rich concern coming from someone who never cared about her salary but girl knows her worth lol)
So yes. I think it's fair that the universe is presenting me with these red flags and I urge my innermost self to not see these as something to push through and survive because it's not worth it
But also I was reminded about how when I was on a week mc from vertigo they kept bugging me to check my emails and that was very annoying I couldnt even use facebook if I wanted to and you want me to reply to work emails please
Honestly, the hardest part is not leaving or job security because I am beyond that point- happiness is my priority I will work hard somewhere else
The hardest part is just telling them im not continuing but I have to do it soon so they can start finding someone else who is more willing to be a government slave
Im not it
Peace out
Im hungry
ps honestly if im being selfish I can just leave in 3 months when work will be idle- but they will suffer because the person who can train my replacement would be long gone by then and I wouldnt have learnt enough to train them