Blessed morning!
I am up early from a sad dream about breakup again thks I hate it but also dreams are dreams they replay your brain's latest activities back to you in deformed ways so
I see Allah's blessing everywhere
I give so little and get back so much which in turn makes me even more humbled and grateful
Insyaallah endless cycle of good
Had a lovely past two days in school meeting with somemonix
Even watched david blaine float on balloons live making me almost miss my last bus but got a blessing in disguise cause driver was heading to town so I got a ride back home from school for 6$ :')
God bless
Woke up with even more rezeki being blessed upon me
Alhamdulillah
May I always find it in me to give
So early bird me today will be a beautiful day inshaallah
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14.23pm
Shed a few tears today after so long
No idea why but again, going easy on myself
I put my heart in Allah's hand
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16.58pm
Yesterday I felt sad for awhile cause I was with two groups of people who made me feel (dramatic word ahead but cant think of another so) unwanted?
Like both were like You can join me if you want and I know they mean well but it feels like you know whether I was there or not made no difference to either party
I was so close to just going home cause if I had to make a choice i'd rather choose nothing
Does it sound bratty probably but at that point of time I was just like Wtheckkk if u dont want me here just say so (even though it is irrational but girl is emotional okay her hormones are out of her control also so valid reason) so I dont feel like im being accomodated for
I used to know my place but now I have nothing again so I need to regain my own footing
I'll be ok even if alone
Also I want this sad phase to go away idk how much more of it I can take