Ok I know it's not midnight yet but I wanted to start afresh
Also is it september??? Idk days
I did it I reached out to people
And it's not like I needed to put extra effort these were the people who proved they'll be here for me since we've known each other basically
Keeping myself busy wont help but I also hope I dont go on another crying spree cause my eyes cannot take it, my heart cannot take it too
Better days ahead.
Also to future me youve spent the past two long sad days binging on the ballinger family, colleen, rachel and rosana pansino, freaking miranda sings even
Honestly no other videos could keep my attention long enough before I start feeling sad again but these people somehow got me through the long nights
I guess people underestimate vlogging they think it's useless and weird even but it has kept me sane and even made me smile at times when people cant so
Thank you(tubers)
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12.29pm
May I always remember to put my faith first in everything
Dont worry im not sad to the point of loss of faith I hope that will never happen if it's within my power i'll make sure it never does happen
This is placed sadness ok insyaallah i'll always confide in god first
And he has indeed answered my prayers by sending me such great people around me
My heart may take time but I know he'll keep me equipped