Oof usually my naps lasts 90 mins but today 4 hours what is this sorcery
Very unproductive day but I probably needed the rest more than I think I do
+==edit==+
03.52am
Finally getting around to checking clips for the music video thingy
Then I found a video of me teaching farriealfarleyaleesya dance and I think one of the worst things humans can do is to underestimate children
Ok bye
+==edit==+
20.11pm
Lost sense of what I wrote here or didnt
But today my prayers got answered and i'm probably pushing through to getting my degree lol
It's such a personal drive thing, since i'm not extrinsically motivated
I will do it because I am accountable to so many people and myself
Because He has put me here despite me being undeserving (if only any of you knew my lack of school ethics- idk if I have ever studied for anything)
Because I remember cikgu siti telling me that this is my amanah from Allah
Because my intentions are sincere and I believe He will ease my way if anything
Bismillah for this newfound motivation, I owe this to myself
See isnt this drive lovely even though I have no idea how long this drive will last hahaha
Ok context I was telling a few people how right now I dont really care if I finish my degree or not
And I know now especially that I have explicitly renewed my intentions, it will get challenging (like my subconscious ignoring all alarms for class hahahahaha I swear it's a legit thing dont @ me)
But ditching school has never been like a serious thought la it was just playing in my head
If nothing feels right then I shall just trudge forward, if I have nowhere to go then any step I take is the right one insyaallah
Ok bye hahah
+==edit==+
23.39pm
Sad is learning Johan isnt a fixed judge for MLM
But also watched GV live for the first time today cause I have gang (agressively texting yol and nab until yol abandoned me during results she is still missing hello)
Really impressive today I love Naqiu and Wann extra tonight
Also one part they showed khai and naqiu on the same screen idk who to look at both too cute
And bunda was scolding the contestants for bad micing techniques im like It me to hmx
Okay I wanna eat