The only downside to my body clock being restored is how uneventful I feel !!!
Wouldve been asleep now since i'd have to leave home in an hour to head to telok blangah and then mersing, but im meant to spend my homeland's birthday right here where I belong where I keep my heart and soul jk my heart and soul is kept in the universe
Looked through old photos to tbt on instagram (by old I mean within the past year lol)
One photo was taken when I skipped hiphop rehearsal (very unnecessary then, still unnecessary now in hindsight)
The past few days within that day I felt so trapped- if I dont go, they give me shit and i'd feel somewhat guilty. If I go, not only do they give me shit but I would be so unhappy
That day I took the risk, I decided to do what made ME happy because all these troubles are like I said, unnecessary and wouldn't matter by the next week
And I was right- those people I felt accountable to, doesnt even matter by the time one particular tuesday came (aka last lesson), it's like they dropped off the face of earth right after I excitedly and very quickly walked away from class and never looked back.
That day I YOLOed hard and decided not to go, giving whatever excuse I could at that time and no longer caring about repercussions
And I headed to Johor with my family for a wedding
Can you scream Best decision ever
Sometimes it might feel like you have no choice, or you're trapped
But almost always we do have choices
It's just whether we love ourselves enough to accept the repercussions,
It's whether we're courageous enough to put ourselves first
It's whether we accept that it's always worth it to risk a bit of trouble
Life is not a videotape, we don't have to pause to reflect or stop to change things
We can do it on the spot, anytime, any place
It's just whether we want it badly enough
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23.17pm
Me scrolling through instagram: imagine if i had friends from uni
Then I remembered hmx lollll cant a girl get normal friends why must I get a frog farm filled with more family members
But I wouldnt trade it for anything else
Losers