What time did I knock off even hahah
But hi
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05.45am
Aiyo I can't go back to sleep
Too much
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10.52am
Already having withdrawals from rehearsals, especially with LF cause these frogs idk our working styles just jive so well it's so easy to be creative with them I love it
One of the best parts about a big event is that leading up to the moment, nothing else matters
Work and studies are pushed aside, messages and emails left unanswered, friends who
And it feels like a valid excuse who am I kidding it IS a valid excuse i'm in my zone don't touch me
But also comes the post-event wave of having to clean up the mess
It's always worth it though
Here's to tonight.
Whatever happens I love Harmonix and how far we've come.
♡
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16.01pm
So the (ok I have to pause to announce that bert is a peasant May and him are singing Part of your world)
Ok so I have something weighing on me now and I didn't want to blog about it yet until I get confirmation but then again this is the place I do self-reflection and it's how I make my best judgements.
I'm more upset that I won't be the only one affected by this.
Ok i'm just going to spill it.
The competition i'm in was rigged last year, and we entered again in hopes it doesn't repeat but... we think it might be the same old.
And this is not an entirely baseless accusation
So now i'm debating between two line of thoughts
1) Continue as if I know nothing and still be in it to win it
2) Don't bother too much and stop bending over backwards catering to their requests.
I mean i'm definitely not planning to underperform, the audience is innocent and they don't deserve half of us.
More importantly, we respect and love our craft enough to do our usual (excellent, btw)
We are planning to do our best
I know my members will be okay once they know the truth (if it happens) but it doesn't discount that the hard work everyone has put into this competition is futile.
It's not just my group, the 9 other contestants are working so hard and their craft is 100%
If it really happens, rest assured I won't keep quiet.
Someone has to answer to all my fellow performers.
But who knows, this concern might be invalid anyway.
(Best case scenario of course)
I'd willingly take a loss-
If the winner deserves the win.