I trust you, sleep calculator (01.08am)

It told me to sleep at 1.30am if I want to wake up at 4.45am
Almost forgot I have work later in the morning, but this time i'm not dreading it cause rehearsal afterwards hahahha
This is one of the tricks to dragging yourself to work or school, find something to look forward to and idk rehearsing is just one of the best motivations.
Looking forward for our journey ahead!
Hmx is love ♡

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07.26am

Had a few things to say but I couldnt find it in me to sort my mind out yet so I took a nap instead hahaha and snoozed 4000 times cause I couldnt even (surprised I could sleep though it took me an hour aka I only fell asleep at the time I was supposed to wake up, and woke up at the time I was supposed to leave home)
My ideal worktime for now would be like 11-5pm idk but I cant seem to lock down that timing
I'll either seek that out or just stop working altogether ah hahaha life is too precious to continue doing things that neither value adds nor bring joy

ps yes sleep calculator works- when my alarm rang i felt like i was already awake omgosh always impressed hahah maybe i should use this for chiqa so she doesnt wake up groggy for school especially on days she sleeps late

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14.40pm

Ok just another proof that mindset is everything.
Today began quite whaaatish- but work went so smoothly :')
Got released early cause there's not many kids, and my jobscope today was either playing with kids or just taking babies' temperatures which ugh everyone is so cute!
(And i mean everyone ceh hahahah kidding)
Almost had to wear a mascot costume which not gonna lie, I was excited at the thought and it's in one of my life to-do list but I wasnt feeling it today like Ok sure (?) but not like YES COSTUME and thankfully it didnt happen
Was supposed to knock off at 6 which wouldve been perfect for me to go straight for rehearsal afterwards but now im like 3.5 hours early so im contemplating whether to hang out here in sentosa or go home (im actually walking towards the shuttle bus to vivo anyways)
Ok maybe I should go home and put my work bag down
Anyway im wearing this new cotton on cardigan and didnt realise how bright it was until I saw myself in the mirror in bright lights hahahah
Really really thankful for my work being eased today despite the trying morning, Alhamdulillah.
Here's to a grand day ahead!

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23.35pm

Walking back home
Late for an hour and ended up just bukaing at home
Another morning shift tomorrow, and kb94 will be at MBS :')
The past two days I have been quite human and managed to sleep so hopefully tonight is the same
Okey reaching my door in like 20 seconds
Adios!

ps wants to revise my espanyol full force now and master it once again goodluck me hello duolingo (good way to pass time this ramadhan)

pps also bought Binge by tyler oakley! fun so far

A curse? (16.47pm)

Stumbled across a video of Eva G telling a story of how she had been haunted and ended up watching those kinds of videos till sahur.
Weirdly it feels scarier to watch it after sahur ???
Idk but I couldnt go on (especially after a video about a lady who babysat a seemingly possessed girl) so I moved on to back to school videos hahaha
Ok brb alighting a bus
Ok im back
Rehearsal is in 2 hours but I just arrived at the other side of Singapore with mama to buy kuih stuff and go to grammy's place
Back to youtube stories- I saw a video of demdems performing SNS recently on live tv and her voice sounds so overused takecare my love
But I saw a comment that said Demi has the curse of live tv because she always sound flawless during tours and her concerts but messes up these performances (obviously not always)
And I was like Oh my toyib she IS vocally flawless during her concert I went to and other concerts I watch videos of
I think that's why I always dont really care if she messes up performances cause im like "Gurl u have nothing else to prove it's ok but why"
I mean not everyone can be tokti and ace every single performances but dems' amazing anyways.
So losers around me who tries to bring up like "omG did u see her performance" i'll be like "of course I did she sucked but ehh"

Btw im like roaming around redman I should go enjoy the sprinkles and chocolates
Bye

Unpopular opinion, again (07.10am)

Though I was woken up abruptly (my enlightening dream was interrupted) I feel like I had a good rest.
I was telling someone "Sometimes people forget that true happiness comes free; Peace"
Hahaha why was I preaching in my sleep (ok to be fair in the dream I was approached by 2 salesmen who said their collaboration to share contacts is a win-win situation for both businesses and consumers and im like Bruh what win-win the true win is not being disturbed by yall)

On to the blog topic- trump's writing style in his letter of cancellation to north korea
K first of all I dont care about politics in fact I have zero to negative interest in it we all know it disguspink.
But im seeing posts circulating making fun of the way he wrote the letter, people calling it 'undiplomatic' and 'informal'
I don't get why humans are insulting his writing style (out of all the things we could insult) cause formality is man made and if anyone could not be formal and proper in a formal setting it is the POTUS- what the heck he is taking advantage without even realising (it's probably ignorance on his side but point is why is it even wrong)
Loser man.
I wouldve lived happy without seeing tons of the same posts on my timeline.
I get it, you English and you won't put "Totally" in a formal letter because that's a blasphemy right (or am I also totally misusing the word blasphemy)
But I dont care much about the circulatingness cause that's how social medias work but I just require humans to reflect why they are willing to jump into a bandwagon that leads to nowhere because who in the hecking polar bear decided HOW FORMAL LETTERS SHOULD BE WRITTEN and since when was there a rule as to what words to avoid (Do not include words and phrases in formal letters: Totally, Literally, Like, Um, Bro, Haha, LOL, I can't even, Super, R u keeding me) no thanks to u for making our lives troublesome I have been granted with the power of vocabulary I can use all the words I want to (hahahaha is this a hate mail to the creator of formal letters ok no its existence is ok and doesnt disturb me, I just personally find it unnecessary especially when IM asked to do it)
Why cant we just write memos with emojis to everyone cmon straight to the point like "Yo malaysia happy 80th birthday *inserts party popper and smiley emoticons*"
That or check my facebook daily.

K these few days I feel like im blogging things that makes me feel like deleting or editing a few hours later but meh i'll review them later I cant even right now

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07.35am

Ok let me just add one more thing completely unrelated but once you cross over the line of judging by the cover (which honestly sometimes is subconscious and uncontrollable and natural, really) and assuming things you'll realise (hahahah spoken like someone who already did- Truly hope so) how impatient and unnecessary humans are.
Earlier today I saw at least 2 kids being reprimanded cause adults assumed that they were doing something wrong when they couldve either looked a little better or asked first.
The first time we were queueing in front of the door and the kid first in line was adjusting the door cause it was not closed properly and he got scolded for "trying to be funny and playing with the door" when the adult was way behind the queue
Lame????
And oh my gosh this second one.
The kid has a muscle disability so it took him a looong time to climb up the stairs (kids would usually climb up under 20 seconds, he took at least 5 minutes)
While he was going down, he was struggling so bad cause he was already tired from the hike up so I suggested for him to sit down on the stairs and slide down slowly.
Then came one human forcing him to stand up because he thought the kid was being difficult.
Even when I told the person that the kid is in pain, he dismissed it as the kid looking for attention and pretending to be hurt so he didnt have to move and listen to us.
(idk if it's an unspoken law that it is better to assume that kids are joking for efficiency purpose but i'd rather be wrong a million times than cause 1 harm) (ok exaggeration hahaha bye)
And I didnt say much because I thought the person was used to handling cases like these seeing how sure he was in wanting to pull the kid up- until I realised HE DIDNT KNOW.
The kid eventually got a piggyback down the stairs and turns out he was not supposed to go up the stairs at all- when I walked in he was already halfway up the stairs so who do we blame the boy or the people around him huh huhhh ok not the point
(ok mate if somehow you come across this please know i mean no hate honestly this is a habit a lot of humans have so no personal attack here let us just all strive to be better kinder more understanding people)
The hypocrisy of humans, expecting to be understood without trying to understand.
It's a common flaw and it's ok to admit it as long as we put in conscious effort to change.
I hear people saying that when you seem to not get the treatment you want, look into other aspects of your life and check if you're not giving that same treatment to anyone in your life.
I feel like children are one of the most mistreated and misunderstood creatures on earth can yall just stop

May the force be with us (01.35am)

Literally had 3 free days this month but i've conquered majority well!
Had buka at big box, aka my first shell out experience lol not baaad but the crab was the crumbly kind so it wasnt peaceful to immerse in (warning weird sentence)
Then chiqa wanted to play at the indoor playground but Anga offered ele and I too so obviously we went and played inside while the old people walked around
It was funnn! (reminded me of work bluek)
I was wearing a jubahish dress and it was super super slippery and I even let ele sit on my dress while we slid so she can experience the speed.
Also shot a lot of videos for our Mencari Chiqa series (hAHAHA)
Ended the night with 2 sessions of ngeteh, ape lah mak2 ni (drinking in a halal and adult way)
First we ate icecream and had shaker fries (ahhh the best) while sharing ghost stories
Then we took a bus to bukit merah and drank AGAIN while Ele and I made noise hahhah choir songs ftw

Anyway I dont know how and why but my legs hurt like throwback to post production but x0.75 more
It's so weird hahaha I think cause I was doubting KK when he complained his legs cramped after we went bowling.
It was only 2 games and ive never injured myself from bowling so that was weird.
Maybe karma hahahah jk
I feel like eating maggi now help
I should sleep cause my first opening shift tomorrow (ok la no difference cause my first morning shift was at 10 and this is half hour earlier) will last the wholeee dayyy
I really hope it goes smoothly, insyaallah!
And then yay rehearsals and this friday I have 3 events I want to catch (not sure if I will but I always surprise myself so)
Buenas noches!

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02.54am

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04.42am

Not the best decision staying awake but it ok I have tomorrow to recharge

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09.05am

Reached half hour early thanks to F1 shuttle bus driver
Bruh I was trying to sleep but he was speeding the whole way which was nice but I felt scared for the vehicles in front of us hahha but all is good and it rained halfway
Currently lounging in the lounge ive never gotten to be in cause I always arrive on time and leave when everything is closed lame
Anyway thought of napping but the idea of having to restart my brain activities is just... neh
12 hours ahead of me-
After a week break this is so not an inviting stance.
I feel like I appreciate my free time more and I want and need it more and im gonna do all I can to get it back in my hands hahhaha
Soz workplace u came unexpected and if u dont get better soon imma leave unexpected too
(Is this my delirious brain speaking or am I for the first time being decisive hahaha jk im drunk bye la i want to nap but naps are too unpredictable)

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12.29pm

OH. My. Goat I typed a long edit and it disappeared
Ok patience
Bye im not enjoying whatever is happening now I deserve better but sesungguhnya gue berpuasa yaa

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21.25pm

Guys this is an emotional cry of I surviveedddd
Anyway had a life changing experience right before buka and idk it was... upsetting yet inspiring at the same time
Will share later right now im too done to do anything
Temptation says go to the beach it is literally like 10 metres in front of me (ok fake more like 50) (ok faker i dont count) but body says gO homE finD fOoD hehehahhe k bye

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23.42pm

Usually nights like these i'd be having a full on hour shower and do face mask but you can see that i cant even right now
Goodnight
(went swimming today btw loveeee swimming hehehaha)

Oh man (15.36pm)

Blogging to wake myself up
I think it had been months (or years actually) since I last hibernated
Slept before 1am last night and woke up at 3pm
Didnt even rise for sahur and it was mostly non-REM sleep cause I only had 2 dreams in that long slumber.
It's really weirdcool how sometimes I can have 7 dreams in an hour's nap but things like this also happen.

Work resumes tomorrow and it's a full day shift, may He ease our affairs.
I'll need all the strength I can get man.
Ok my brain is happy to be conscious but physically I need time hahaha

What why how (07.25am)

Ended up staying over lol dont ask how
Everyone is asleep now though
The exit sign is obnoxiously bright when will it be turned off man
Managed to sahur in like 4 mins hahah cause idk what the kangaroo the cashier was doing we waited at the counter for like 10 mins (not sure if exaggeration or true) but either way he served very late and hais cobaan hahaha drama
Kk is sleeping with his glasses on and emmaus pushed all the blankets to me hahah
No idea if i'll survive today but im just glad to have been with both my Aura ladies and Harmonix
O my gosh shortly after I arrived we started on the most intense Uno game ever and it lasted almost an hour mate hahahaha it was so dramatic cause keichi the evil kept trying to sabotage everyone, but when he was almost winning, andy pointed out that he broke a rule and thus he ended up having to continue hahahah karma
Went out to bowl at like 1.30am with kk and kj (aka what a lolrandom decision but much needed) and they were playing malay songs throughout which was nice
Learnt a lot of weird terms and traditions from them lol and it was quite a good game!
When we walked back it suddenly became a ghost storytelling session until I realised it was 4.50am and I had no food near me hahaha
So we ventured out for food and went back to eat while co-judging a show about a painting competition on the tv (mate ok no kidding there is too much blanket for 1 human on me right now)
Without it it's too cold but with it it's warm
Que pasa man
Ok im trying to sleep too but haiz it's ok

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22.43pm

Had a lovely family buka session, izzah finally laughed willingly hahahaha omg so cute
And izzul was copying everything I say and idk who taught him silat but he did it right after someone put wonderwoman's headgear on him
Too cute
And for the first time the kids were quiet the whole time cause they were occupied with star wars monopoly
But of course they still asked me for our ghost story session but I told them cannot this month but they were like "this month no ghost" hahaha dasar doraemon you all no cannot ok hari raya then can
Ok looking forward to settle down and be home finally after a loooong two days.

Not gonna be (03.55am)

Along always sleeps half hour sometimes just 20 mins before sahur then we have to wake him up again hahaha what a toyib
So like whenever I start activities at the kitchen (activities ranging from food related to just roaming around) he will start to sleep
Anyway, meeting my Aura ladies for buka after what feels like foREverrr :')
Even our common stan is now married with a newborn babygirl
And then I have to (hahaha yeah right have to) run to changi for mark polo's chalet (warning not real name)
Feeling delirious now like I cant tell if im tired or not hahah self awareness nada

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12.44pm

Just after a few consecutive days of going out I feel like I should stay at home more hahaha
Anyway idk why but im watching sesame street interviews on youtube (not like anyone needs any reasons to)
Why are they so cute elmo u r rude cookie monster u r rude all of u are too cute

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19.07pm

Why am I always late for outside iftar plans excuse u but maybe cause lowkey dont enjoy waiting so hhahah
Ok reaching admiralty soon to meet auras im excitessss
Did I mention I dont like hanging out at woodlands are anymore cause too many humans I know but weirdly I never do see people I know which is great (btw dear universe this is not an open invitation for you to send these humans in my way ok muchas gracias)
Ok im hereish why do I have to walk excuse myself man

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21.46pm

Im 2 hours late hhaaha but cmon, I couldnt resist leaving Aura early!!!
The last time we met was.... ugh at least 3 years ago which is too much if you asked me!
Ok dizzy bye

The lowkey joys (04.08am)

So for the first time during rehearsal I had a sure part to learn hahaha k fake but it was nice cause I joined larrie lynn and justine learning the alto part for our new mass song
Loving the song!
And bless chloe for leading sessions hahaha her patience is astounding cause it's not easy shutting humans who wants to sing up

Oh yes while on my way to school (left home 2 hours early but still missed buka by 5 mins what even) I was contemplating either alighting to buy food (like twice) or buy food before boarding 179 but ultimately decided to buy kfc at north spine
And while on my way with my phone at 5% I found out yol was bukaing with her sisters there hahaha
Telepathy as usual
Managed to eat with them for awhile before walking to hive aka was 40 mins late soz but when I reached they were just breaking into sections so
It went quite well i'd say, we kinda finished the song!
Idk why I dont rehearse with Larrie more she's so drunk but efficient at the same time I love it hahahah especially the drunk part (ok i was too idk what nonsense came out from us till lynn had to question if the aircon was contaminated HAHA gurl dont act like you're not used to it ok hahaha)
Once while we were mass singing we all stopped but larrie continued babbling idk what and we all were like ??? que es happening i cant even hahaha I wished I recorded that
Ended up singing in the train where giant gonzales suddenly appeared lol uncle genie

Rehearsal again tonight (thankfully not at school hahah) we're starting a new song hopefully!
Here's to a smooth day ahead
I feel like going Geylang again but maybe I should give other bazaars a go
(this what happens when the biggest bazaar is also the nearest to your house why not hashtag blessed)
K gotta wake the fams up soon
(am i not the best alarm clock yes i am)

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05.55am

Aw man be careful what you wish for
Mama asked me to accompany her to geylang later in the day aka no promises cause it's my bedtime (hahahah right) but she insisted she'll wake me up if I fall asleep
So i'll try not to sleep but it's an odd timing she wants to leave home at like 10
Haiseh ok maybe I could nap but not even sleepy
Oh yes dream update I got a normal dream the past two times and it was quite fun hahaha the weird storylines again.
My dream analog is getting fed once more
And no I wont try to induce lucid dreaming it's more like if it comes cool if not then ok
Im not a seeker of trouble (actually kind of am) (or am I peaceful)
Noone knows

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10.02am

There has got to be a way to back up humans with different internal clocks in life man
Like is it my fault that we dont sync with the society around us no it's not

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11.19am

The weather is AMAZING!
Has it always been this bright and sunny and blue this past week because if yes i'd go out more often
Ok on the way to look for spongebob's house hahahah time for kuih prepping begins

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12.43pm

Ok finally home
The best thing about doing things early is that you do can do so much and it's only lunchtime heheha
Is it my naptime yes it is but i'm probably gonna go test henna designs on myself
Bye

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13.31pm

Unpopular opinion (?)
I dont mind surveys hahah just got off a phonecall survey and he was like "May I know, in your household, whose birthday is coming up next?" and im like "Mine." And he said "So between now till your birthday is there anyone else's birthday?"
-____-
Bruh what do u mean hahahahaha but ok I understand the feels of needing to communicate properly but cmon
Anyway what luck is this im the only one at home and im the one they ask for
Ayyy

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17.09pm

Im fascinated over the fact that everytime I take an afternoon nap i'll almost always wake up 1.5 hours later
Thanks internal clock
And the best naps feels like a whole night's sleep but with way less hours

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23.46pm

Finally got to eat!
Training went quite well, kinda finished a song draft
Feeling quite artistically restricted but this too shall pass

When even was the last time (01.31am)

Fell asleep at about 10 but almost an hour later shammy lopez came to disturb and like "Youre pretending to sleep!" and I managed to respond with "Not pretending to sleep im TRYING to sleep"
Glad I went back to sleep instead of waking up
Now im awake yipee
Wouldve been ideal if I woke up in 1.5 hours instead but oh well just happy I got rest
've been exhausted this whole ramadhan when I barely did anything
So glad to take a week off from work
Ok now idk whether to fall asleep again or just wait till sahur but i'll just go with the flow

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03.59am

Have you ever seen something so cute you dont know what to do with yourself and it's so frustrating
Cause I just saw a video of a kitten just waving its paws repeatedly and then I scrolled further and saw a doggo laying down with its soft toy beside its owner strumming Boulevard of broken dreams on the guitar and idk I wished I could copypaste that video and show it to eveRYone because it was so cute (actually im going to go replay it a few more times now bye)

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04.03am

Ok great news the dog has an instagram @maple.the.pup and that video can be seen on the owner's profile @acoustictrench
K just doing some lightweight charity work here but if you do check it out I hope it makes your day (oh wait you might feel the same frustration I did sorry not sorry)

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23.41pm

Currently boarding the bus ok let me sit first
Ok hahah hi almost missed my stop cause I didnt realise where I was lol
Im so happy rehearsal finally resumes hahaha
And guess what my yolly telepathy made us buka together at kfc today :')
Will edit this post later ok dizzy bye

Happened again (21.45pm)

At this point I myself am unsure if it's bullcrap but I was in control of my dream again last night, but it was weaker.
All I did was try to grab a bicycle handle to see how real it felt and then I was so excited it happened again that I woke myself up
Tried to fall back into it several times but it only worked for awhile before I really woke up
HAHAH ok I betrayed myself but honestly it's a cool feeling.
Normal dreams are like watching (or being in) a movie, and experiencing the pre-written storyline, but in these lucid dreams it's like you are a character with a setting without a plot (like I didnt choose where I ended up at but I could control what I wanted to do)
Dreams are afterall still a mystery and sometimes mysteries do not need to be solved :')
Aka let me go google more about this weirdcool phenomenon
This time round though I started in bed and had to let my soul physically try to leave my body but when I managed to finally sit up, I didnt see my body (so it's not astral projection I guess which is good cause dalton)
Ok this is a really weird topic hhaha but ok instead of complaining about not being able to sleep im now complaining about waking up at the best parts

Rehearsal tOmOrRow after what felt lik2 forever

Can't fix what's not broken? (02.02am)

Someone said she thought I was 18 hahah
Anyway last year's ramadhan set a lot of expectations for this year's and just reminder man this is a journey not an event.
I pray for myself and my fellow muslims to be stronger in faith each day

Going to school later ughhhh why
I was gonna blog about things but as of now I cant remember what they were
Anyway started on the family a cappella project after breaking fast just now, we got the first 30 secs of intro down and just that took countless replays of the song and at least an hour hahahaha
Now they know why ele and I always come back from rehearsals late hahahahah anyway it was a feeling I enjoyed and missed
The frustration of not hearing the parts you need and just deciding to wing it but after you create and internalized the new part suddenly you can hear the original one excuse you music and ears
Ok I need to charge my phone and probably sleep

ps finally got to sleep before predawn last night though it was for an hour it was necessary

pps didnt go for training afterall

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Maybe I should start a new blog section with things kids says (not like im not a kid) or like just overall weird things humans say cause I always tell them "I'm putting that in my blog" but I put it in my private blog instead

Kid 1: (after we finished colouring and as I was walking with her to the playground) Are you married?
That came out of nowhere man hahah but thanks for the question

Kid 2: I am 5
Me: Guess how old I am
Kid: (pauses to think for like 20 seconds) 5
This is such a typical kid thing to say but I dont hear it often enough anyway we ended up cheering cause she guessed it right

Kid 3: What other fruits should I draw (she already drew like 9 fruits)
Me: Have you ever heard of durian?
Kid: No but maybe I can draw a canteloupe
Ok cultural barrier how is a canteloupe a more common fruit than the king of fruits
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21.28pm

Had a lovely day, the meeting with jem turned into talking about meditation and superpowers HAHA productive indeed
Went to Geylang afterwards for buka (the waitress was so lovely! Bless) and then walked into the bazaar to (and I quote) "Buy henna and go home"
But obviously that didnt happen ahahais 1 curtain and 5 lipsticks later we forced ourselves to go home to send food to the fams
Anyway at the henna shop we were looking at the bridal henna for design inspirations and I think the people thought I was interested so they gave me their wedding package brochure and namecard HAHA loser man que pasa not yet ok :')
And I love my makeup today!!!
Wearing mostly new products so I can safely say they're all a plus.
Ok gonna go remove it and rest hahaha
(Yeah right)
Adeu!

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Mama; Stop buying lipsticks finish the ones at home
Also mama: Wow this colour is nice...... let's buy this one
Same hahaha
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23.01pm

Just watched the BBMAs performances (ok just demi's and kelly's who are we kidding)
I mean dems and xtina were off track hahaha but it ok girls I know yall talents and no excuses do better next time stop screaming so much
Still proud of dems for fulfilling yet another dream of hers ♡
Kelly freaking clarkson though she stole the show twice (or did she MAKE the show bruh) honestly girl is extremely amazing how is she getting better im so proud of her :')
Here's to continuous slayage!

Survived well (02.21am)

Adopted an Australian accent from 10am-9pm yesterday haahhah
Survived my first full shift!
Did a lot of hand and face painting which was real fun, pretty proud of the outcome
I dont know why I paint better than I draw arent they the same usage of hand skills?!?
Three sweet kids drew me something out of nowhere today hahahaha and one of them (the cause of my Australian accent) made a clown out of a balloon specially to scare me and it was quite creepy because what she drew looked exactly like Pennywise but she doesnt have a clue who that is (I even showed her a photo and she was clueless hahaha ayooo)
Went for supper with some of my colleagues, there's always a first time
(My previous job was office hours so no such thing as suppers- or dinner for that matter)
Aka getting questioned over what Philosophy is as usual :')

Realise I have training later on and then a busy week ahead! (including HARMONIX REHEARSAL HOLLA)
No idea if i'll be going though, I dont feel the best physically, I need rest but I can't rest.
Let me go and convince myself to sleep soon

May nineteenth (00.36am)

Ive been in bed since an hour ago trying to sleep but it's just not in my current structure of DNA.
At work today I heard the manicurist share a (chinese?) quote with the customer saying that A daughter is a father's lover in his past life
And that is sweet until I realised what if a dad has many daughters are they all each a fragment of his past lover
Who knows

And happy 22nd birthday to my girls the great khali and yol :')
May they always be protected and blessed with health, wealth and happiness.
Truly appreciate their existence in my life ♡

Anyway a long day ahead.
Lowkey trying not to dread it.
Let me try and channel this Ugh feeling into excitement hahaha
Bismillah to a smooth journey, I honestly praise god for easing my affairs at work the past two weeks.

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21.32pm

Currently on my way to vivo cause I missed my 9.15 bus haiz cryes but it ok impromptu colleague bonding
Kk brb mabuk

The way it felt (02.26am)

Mama and ele is sahuring now what even
Thankfully work hours later has been shortened :')
Me gusta
Right when we arrived home earlier today we set up a dart and whoever got the least points have to help mama prepare sahur and what the heck I missed the board on all 3 tries HAHAHA butttt I demanded a second trial and got the 2nd highest score pshttt the first round was a just-kidding round ok

Anyway just for future reference, the process towards lucid dreaming felt exactly like the time I got sleep paralysis.
So it's like as long as your body is asleep but brain awake, it could lead to one of the two things which let me tell you one of them is so fun and the other is traumatising hahahah what an unworthy gamble so note to everyone please have enough rest to avoid this situation
And this is ironic cause I posted on instagram a few days ago an image of a guide to astral projection and some singing bowls- IRONICALLY of course im not that crazy im not a yogini like Mrs evans but yet I experienced it
Hahahaha didnt even finish reading the book after a few pages cause it sucked I thought it'd be more of a practical, logical book but noooOo it was a whole cult of astral projectors' step-by-step guide
Like the first step was to wear a special stone-decorated headband hahahah im sure it'd work for some people but personally I dont need it so I stopped reading

Ok here's to a smooth sailing day at work ahead
Harmonix rehearsal resuming in less than a week im excites to see my fammm

ps throwback to the time where my supervisor was bringing me around and I pretended like I didnt know sentosa like the back of my hand hahahahah it was so unnecessary he was like "here's the fort siloso!" and im like "oh wow ok" when internally im like "-which ive been to like last week" but thanks for effort

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03.44am

Getting hair advice from jorene at this timing hahahaha girl why are you awake
But also @ me havent u learnt ur lesson not sleeping???
At this point it's not even that I can't sleep it's more like I dont want to and im happy being awake throughout the night

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05.23am

Eating dates before drinking water was a bad idea because the sweetness amplifies the plainness of water by a mile
Just 1/5th of a cup left lets go
(hahaha am i being overdramatic bye)

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22.50pm

I dont know why im blogging while enjoying mcnuggets but my brain just wants to talk
I realise nowadays everytime someone asks my age i'd take longer to answer than usual cause like am I 22 or 21 or should I say 20 cause it's easier
So if I stall when you ask for my age it's because I myself am trying to comprehend how old I am like ew

Bad decision but hello Day 1 of fasting! (04.31am)

Probably should have slept
What if I end up hibernating and waking up weird hours
Anyway just realised I hadnt eaten yesterday, good prep for today
Mama already cooked before she slept so i'll probably wake them up in awhile
Hehehehe selamat bersahur time to spam them dates and cOFFEE and (bluek but important) water
I think a yearly mistake we make is ele and/or I would accidentally take ice from the fridge and pop it into our mouths everytime we walk into the kitchen HAHA loser (her not me)

Btw I still dont know what to do with my hair really 67.8% of me just wants to let it be especially thinking of the limitations (cant have layers cant have bangs cmon man)
But the other percent (HAHAH lazy calculate) wants new hair
Lame man go away from me you unnecessary consumerist craving

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05.27am

Honestly the people doing food preparation for sahur and buka deserves all the love and awards D; ♡

Im probably delirious and will change my mind in a few hours but in an attempt to blog more openly, I have removed my bloglink from facebook so whoever reads my blog will remain the same ole people.
I actually have another blog, a private one that only I see but I respect yall enough to idk, share more hahah (not like yall are obliged to care or find out but cmon who doesnt love a lil storytime now and then)
(Now and then wtheck u blog daily)
(Shh)

Ok so let me begin by a rookie mistake I made right before sahur.
While helping mama prep the utensils I was counting the number of plates like "Why so little" and she was like confused saying "Correct what, 6. How many do you want" and I was gonna laugh when I realised that wow...
I like how my subconscious still knows.
Yeah so I realise it takes a whole lot to maintain relationships when you're not in the same household.
But I pray we'll continue taking care of each other's hearts heheh.
Ok this is not time to be emo bye I can drink for 2 more minutes

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17.15pm

Pretty sure I was lucid dreaming earlier today
It was coool I could decide where to go and I was even conscious of thinking whether this was a lucid dream so I was trying to find signs but I couldnt remember any except that we could attempt to fly and I managed to ayy
Then I went ahead to try on two wigs in a dodgy dark salon
Cool cool
It sucked when I felt consciousness taking over though like cmonn I was having fun in my dream
But thankful still cause I dont want no Insidious 5 happening here touchwood

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23.12pm

Currently on my way home from an impromptu shopping trip to mustafa where we somehow entertained the crowd playing hide and seek loll
In a weird situation cause I booked a 6 seater grab and a minibus came with 2 other families inside???
We are confused but I dont care but everyone is asking me questions im like Bruh idk dont ask me all I did was click a few buttons
But all is good seems like we're being sent home now

Again (04.33am)

I have a post on draft again, just cause I couldn't finish typing it hahah
I can hear the caretakers sweeping under the void deck in this silence.
Thank you to all these people who does this job, I can't imagine how underappreciated you all are.
Just found a series on youtube where Dbryan asks the Bella twins trivia questions and I couldnt stop laughing
All 16 episodes made me laugh ok hahahah please make more of it thanks
Also I thought I could align my internal clock to other humans' before Ramadhan but obviously not happening so it's ok
I feel healthier as of now; the whole day ive been raging high in temperature and good old headache accompanied me at work but all's well that ends well
I am normal again weee alhamdulillah
Kbye

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17.06pm

I just realised that now the bazaar is open, i can finally get my orange babies!!!!!

(ya a fake fren if ya dont know what it is)

(hah jk)

(crap i tried googling to insert a photo but omg it has no name and it didnt work????)

(u know the brandless nameless long orange keropoks that looks like fries)

k bye again 

21.38pm

On the way home, feeling dizzy and hungry yay buenas noches where is el autobus

00.21am

So ok I had a lovely Sunday!
Started off with what was supposed to be a 3 hours meeting but since it was only gonna be half of the committee we decided to meet half an hour later
It was my first time conducting the meeting (cue functionless vice pres music) so I was extra thankful it was with humans im super comfortable with
Ended up having a 5 houred meeting hahaha but it was necessary to clear stuff so yesss
I also got to overhear the alumnis singing and wtheck they sound splendid (apparently from afar but i think theyre just being humble)
Joined them for dinner cause noone was home and thankfully I did cause halfway I realised I neither brought my ezlink nor my house keys hahahahah this is very unlike me but hey im giving myself time off
Justine the sweet angel (ironically a demonix) bought me a box of panadol honestly bless her soul D:
And I saw chik and jm whom ive not seen for soooo looooongggg and it was just so amazing to see everyone (hahaha slight exaggeration here) there :')
Went to eighteen chefs (or nineteen according to jm) where everything looked nice but unappetizing at the same time
Then we all followed farouq go chocolate hunting where we saw so many merlion chocolates???
For what but ok they are cute (but are they nice?) (meh my chocolate standards are low as long as it is chocolate i'd say it's nice hahaha no discrimination here)

Thankfully I didnt eat though cause ended up meeting mama and mak idah all at Geylang (the bazaar is alive and kickin!!) where they were out of porridge so I made my makeshift one with chicken rice aka it took me an hour to finish it (ok when do I not take an hour)
Was with kak syaz and adib and I cant even adib is soooo big now :')
I remember when he was a small boy but now he's hais so tall and not little anymore
But yeah it was really nice seeing everyone I saw today, made me happyyyyy veryy
Makes me want to stop working completely but guys it's just been a week ok make that 3 days HAHAHA
Note to self: next time, just dont
I knew I needed free time but why did I still apply to work- ok in my defense I thought the website was dead and gone when I applied ok

Okk elephant is at the door im supposed to go surprise mama with her but she said "standby ah we sing" and i just replied her "sing what"
HAHAHAH OK i should really go now bye

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00.39am

Ok surprise success I pretended to find clothes drying outside and we sang "happy mothers' day to you, you are born in the zoo, with the monkeys and the donkeys-" omG i forgot what we sang next maybe it was another "happy mothers' day to you"
Hahahha siblings telepathy didnt even need to plan what to sing
Ok I want to rest earlier today humans were like: drink lots of water!
Me: ew
And then they said: sleep more
Me: ??????
Foreign concepts honestly hahaha but i'll try regardless.
Wish me luck adios

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21.54pm

Currently at burger king enjoying a malty float cause chiqa insisted on treating us desserts tonight hahaha
Just got done sending mama to her floating pod experience which I am very jealous about it will be my turn after ramadhan pls
Ok im still not feeling well but icecream makes me feel nice

In what mood (01.09am)

Ok my actual post is on draft but im just here to say how it's weird and unnecessary (actually it is equally unnecessary for me to say this but it's my blog k bye) that people bash on celebrations like Mother's day
Just earlier today two people in front of me high fived saying "i dont celebrate mother's day" and that is totally fine bruh these humans are harmless
It's those who straight out hate on these days who are the pests of society "No i dont do mothers day we should appreciate our mums everyday"
Ok???
It's just a special day to show appreciation???
You dont see me singing THIS IS MY COUNTRYYYY everyday but that doesnt mean im not showing appreciation to my country on a daily basis
Just let other humans be la ok just like how we're letting you be- yall losers.
(applies to all the other days like fathers day valentines day grandparents day etc)

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22.47pm

Ayy the universe is making me find happiness again.
Harmonix and family today and geylang bazaar
Ok brb

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23.55pm

I guess a happy place can either be someplace you're at ease, or a place you'd want to be the best version of yourself at for absolutely no reason (or at least not a motivation but an added bonus)
Im actually locked out of the room so before I tempt myself into breaking the door (aka finally being able to use my non-existent karate skills) let me find other distractions

Brain treat (00.51am)

Currently in the last bus home.
One of the things I end up doing is think of fate and how some things are weirdly (but not so) put in place for another to happen
It's great to reflect, and we dont have the answers why- but we can assume if it helps hahaha
This might be one of those posts that you won't understand until you experience it yourself.

Had a pleasant gig (it was too cold wherever we went) and right as we walked out to leave we heard the lobby pianist playing sway (the song we performed) and it was cool haha
Ok im looking forward to food at home
And the fever is finally emerging I truly pray I feel better soon.

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21.31pm

A few things to blog about but im on the way to grammy's so not yet but honestly im not at the best place right now (spiritually and happinessly- like im not unhappy but im not happy enough to feel pleasant so it's just neutral as of now) and im just looking for cure- or at least more temporary distractions.
May this being be healed soonest

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23.28pm

(i secretly wished for it but it turned out to be unnecessary because) Family does make me happy eveRytiMe im healed hahahaha
Surprised nenek and atok at their place and met stylo, made noise as usual but it lasted too soon booo
We also had cake!!!!
Always a good time for cake.
I want-
Omg I HAVE cake in my fridge mama made us milo moist cake 2 days ago omg ok bye I found a new activity to do (ok it is 1.16am im editing this post sneakily hahaha)

Ok like I said I have a few things to blog about but I dont feel like typing now so brb

Finally? (02.05am)

Currently wearing a clay mask and part of the instructions included "Do not do any other activities while wearing the mask" and at first I was like "How would the mask know what im doing" but there's actually a difference when I sit down and do stuff and when I lie down and nothing wow ok mask rules respected

Got home from rehearsal an hour ago- ended up catching the last bus hahah harmonix and last buses are best friends (or grab wtheck) (i foresee it progressing to first bus hahaha ok no)
Finally had rehearsal omg I cant describe the feeling- like Keichi said "This feels surreal" and it felt exactly that
:')
Readyish for our gig later- sadly we cant all sing together but eh there's always a next time
Might be meeting more harmonixers in the evening so major yay to that
Ok estoy muy feliz

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03.52am

Kinda blearghish having a job cause I need free time man my scheduling is based on free time
Hopefully it gets better
I realised I have to tutor later hahahah one step at a time
Just excited to perform after what feels like forever
Also work tomorrow
I should sleep but it's almost 4
Note to self; please try not to be awake 24 hours from now ok

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14.20pm

It has been 2 days and I still feel like im going to get a fever but it's still not official like im not sick enough to make an excuse but I feel miserable anyways and I know it's literally just internal heat maybe I should just snack on aloe plants

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18.52pm

Our item has been pushed 2.5 hours back ;')
Help me im stuck with crazy people
"We are homonix"
HUH go away hahahahaha

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22.35pm

Currently at SMU awaiting the humans to assemble, remind me to go home early ok because I need energy to entertain kids ok bye

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23.04pm

How can Celine dion and Mariah carey visit singapore this year together man this is rude for our wallets and stuff hahaha bring Beyonce in too cmon 

Do you understand (01.03am)

I feel tiredish but I dont want to rest like I dont feel like lying down will help
Feels like doing something impromptu later in the day before heading to training
Like I feel like going to the salon
???
But it's like pointless you know as a dancer spamming hairsprays is our pasttime also I might need to jump in the pool for work and speaking of work i'd have to tie my hair
Why did I agree to this again hahaha
Ok im not that impulsive I usually let an idea sit in and later (ranges from 20 seconds to 2 days) realise that I don't actually need or want them
No harm going for a blowdry though hehaheha I need food but I cant move but I also dont want to stay still
Do you understand of course you do(nt)

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06.56am

I've never realised how important the malaysian GE this year was, but i've seen more people buzzing than ever (or is it because I made a lot of Malaysian friends over the past years hahaha) and headlines about fellow Malaysians helping their sisters and brothers get home to vote makes me feel like I want to know too.
And the results are out, and I see a lot of comments on how their flights and long travel back and traffic jams were worth it, and how they finally feel a sense of belonging and pride for their nation.
They even compared it to the feeling of independence, saying that this is what their (grand)parents must've felt when they were first granted independence.
(Im disturbed by my lack of vocab in this post)
And this touches me.
Is this the start of the younger generation pursuing changes our older counterpart has never been 'courageous' enough to?
I mean our parents' generations are amazing at many things, but they also tend to prefer to stay in the comfort zone- which unfortunately sometimes brings more trouble than comfort.
I'm really happy to see my Malaysian friends regain their sense of pride for their country and government.
May we all feel that pride soon too, however it takes- we need to regain our pride for the nation we've witnessed grow
And with that pride, we'll take this development to the next level
Majulah.
This hope lives on.

(Yes i really hate politics bye should i go to the salon today???? Idk)

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19.26pm

No salon for me afterall hahah ok good
Anyway am otw to rehearsal, supposed to arrive by now but something nonsensical happened aka one of my contact lens fell out of my eye (for no reason???) and it was on the bus floor so (thankfully it happened 2 stops before a mall) I had to alight and purchase overpriced lens (just cause it's in a mall loser) but what to do
Now I just took another bus hopefully i'll reach soon hahahaha what even
(i needed to get another lens anyway but not this way ok haha but all is good my vision is restored)

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20.04pm

Help my ulcer hurts I cant smile talk or (ok havent tried but i assume) sing and im still feeling hot and cold and there's heat trapped in my head (which mama's suggested cure was to put my head in the fridge muchas gracias mi amor)
At least im hearing beautiful sounds now

Anti these (18.30pm)

I really am disinterested in any forms of politics
But I realise the next GE I have to vote bruh this is disguspink now I have to care????

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21.46pm

Crap just woke up from a 2 hour nap
Supposed to help at the tutoring centre but I dont feel good at all
Probably lack of rest idk
Thankfully my shift tomorrow is postponed, another thing I didn't know I needed but Alhamdulillah.
I think im going down with a fever it's hot and cold and I got an ulcer (after what feels like years since the last one) which makes me incapable of speaking eating and drinking so internal heat get out

Met los espanyol ninos just now afterall, though a short while, it's always nice to see them.
It was supposed to be a sendoff for lola fancy but a few days earlier
Havent had a meal today cause no appetite but will probably look for food later
Ok, adeu

Haahaha (01.03am)

I totally left the last post hanging hahaha ok will update soon ok for now im at the chalet avoiding social interaction but my phone is on low batt so im forced to k bye

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23.49pm

Ok just had dupper with the fams
It's been quite an eventful two days, and now im looking to rest por favor muchas gracias
Where did I stop blogging yesterday oh yes the chef
I was googling the chef hierarchy and it's another reminder of how much I dislike corporate formalness honestly por que
I should revise my españyol in case a spanish speaking kid comes in hahaha the past two days there have been chinese, korean, australian and arabic kids and it tested my mandarin capabilities (not so much)
The job... when people ask me how it is I say okay but- ok it's not that it's not ok but it just does not align with my personal values and needs.
Perhaps i'll blog about these the day I stop working there but for now i'm keeping an open mind and anticipating making new friends
(It's so lovely to have kids remember you and the workplace itself has an amazing view too bad i'm indoors most of the time)
The seniors have been guiding me quite well and clearly too, so that's something i'm grateful about.

Ended work at 9 yesterday and then went for ASB chalet where I arrived around 11pm but they were still gathered watching the Anjung adat 2 dvd
Stayed over with fiqah and a few others and woke up to breakfast ayy
Then fiqah and I went back for a "nap" which lasted 2 hours and then I had to rush off to work but I managed to clock in exactly at 2pm
And then I was asked to draw up a notice board idk why I am assumed to be 'good at art' bruh im great at tons of things, visual art is not one of my forte (although I do love my own work) but hahahah it's ok it was fun playing with chalk

Quite tired, although it has been quite a cool day jumping from one resort to another.
I'm just happy to be home and have a day off.
Supposed to meet los españyol ninos tomorrow but idk where they are hahahah poyo
Ok bye

Priorities (01.43am)

Yeah like I said I woke up at 10pm and managed to sleep again (yay) and it lasted an hour
Anyway im here because two things
Firstly fiqah is also starting her first day of work later in Sentosa HAHAHA so close yet so far!
Excited for us both and I have a few concerns for my own jobscope but we'll take it day by day ok worrying is for losers

Secondly the concept of rezeki is so important (sustenence if you will)
I grew up learning that everyone is given different kinds of supplications and that we should be grateful for all we get.
A common phrase we'll hear humans say in response to any kinds of news is "Rezeki masing-masing.", everyone has their own sustenence.
And it is true.
Once we grasp this idea, there is no room left for envy or jealousy, and any desire to improve is based on a clearer intention which is to improve our self rather than to compete or showcase.
It also makes it easier for us to be sincerely happy for each other
And this is also where altruism can begin to exist because when we do things without expecting anything in return, not even good for ourselves, it is the highest level, and is truly achievable.
May we all be this person.
(though it is a noble cause to strive for the heavens but personally ideally we should go beyond wants)

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04.24am

Should probably sleep soon

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14.01pm

Currently waiting for someone to come fetch me from the office.
It is so weird to be in a corporate setting and actually being part of it
I wonder what today would be like, orientationish or will I go into full swing who knows
ASB chalet later tonight, and though i'm looking forward, it is quite the bummer that I end work only at 9
Omg a small lady chef just walked past me and smiled so cute hahahah
Talking about chefs (or cheves for the educated)

Felt like some time since (00.27am)

Currently karaokeing, my favourite spot is now baaad bruh the price went up and service went down such a loser move but whatevs
Went for a family dinner earlier on and was discussing with elephant if I should go for training later or next 2 weeks
And then as fate would have it...... we saw abang riz hahahaha he was eating at the same place
Chiqa was like "is that abang rizman yes it IS abang rizman"
Thankfully it'd be in the afternoon
Im just hoping I wont be too occupied in the nights in the upcoming month man so-
Ok wait my song is on

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03.09am

Being forced to finish my coffee pshtt ok why do I blog when I have to move actually no why am I being interrupted when im blogging
Dance in 12 hours time after a month (6 weeks?) of rest
Hahahaha goodluck to me

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03.51am

Actually what is going on hahaha are we drunk on morning air
Finally settled down time for some physical rest buenas diasss

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21.09pm

Finally home, it was quite a nice session aka we found a new cardio with this new choreo (and I forgot dana omg fiqah did a few steps and I was like Wow that looks familiar)

Looking for an early night aka trying to sleep now no matter what time it means i'll wake up

Buenas noches 

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23.04pm

I knew it'd happen but not this way hahaha I told myself i'd probably wake up at midnight but exactly an hour in and im already awake

No thanks  

What the dems (00.59am)

We all knew dems not falling during her tour is not normal but you didnt have to fracture yourself again hahahahais what even
Besides that, she recorded a song with xtina :')
Dreams do come true

Do I have to (02.39am)

The time might have come for me to update instagram after like 3 years because it keeps crashing
Ughhh time for an ugly layout, more ads, weird arrangements and worst of all, seeing faces lined up on top as if I care about what other humans are doing (dont get me wrong im more disturbed by the layout like why is it on top???)
(talking about annoying things omg when people watch stories loudly and for a long time around me like they have no social awareness bruh I do not need to know what @loser is doing)
At least it's purple
Still contemplating though it has been crashing for the past few weeks.
Do I really need instagram hahahahah I do not
K bye why am I ranting about an app I dont need but use anyway because it is fun to use
I always have internal debates as to whether social media should be used like half of me is "why not, it lets your friends know what you did and stuff" and the other half is like "why not just post everything in private as a keepsake and not a way to show off your life" and then the former half will be like "isnt the point of social media to interact with audience" and then i'll say "but why is that necessary"

Like wHAT aRe OUR INTEnTIONs
So I conclude, just do things that makes you happy ok fun can be free

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15.24pm

Just finished the interview and currently waiting to meet the HR! (Along sent me heheh thank u)

May Allah bless this journey ahead.

This goes down in history as the first ever formal job i've found and applied for myself hahaha
Heck it's my first ever job interview!
Still casual though so I love it.
Made two new friends, one of which is about to join NTU this August hahaha small Singapore (or big NTU who knows)
I can safely deduce that the time I spend in Sentosa will multiply at least thricefold

Tutoring afterwards and then forced to meet yol the loser
Thank god I have a lot of small humans around me, hopefully it's the best work experience i'll need
(elephant might be perfect for this job too since she loves kids)
Here's to a great day ahead!
The weather is amazing here hahahaha im so happy to be here

ps same am i plato nah i hate math

pps but yeah nobody can speak for me even me 

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16.39pm

Going up and down the purple line today what even 

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23.57pm

Homed, doing a hair and face mask and got myself icecream today- twas a good, fulfilling day Alhamdulillah.

Also making plans with humans usually dont work but @yol let's do this ok hahahah

Lost sense of time despite keeping an agenda (23.31pm)

First half of today was basically hibernation I dont even know what time I slept but last night we were making sweet potato dumplings and they were so nice (wouldve eaten all the fillings if chiqa didnt stop me)
Just got home from mama lin's place to help her set up her ipad pro which she has kept in the shelf for a year without touching hahaha but finally it is alive now
Forgot how troublesome apple is
(Hahaha jk i'll never forget)
Exciting day ahead just because i'll be heading to the land of funnnn even if it's just for awhile.
And then tutoring and i'm considering resuming dance training cause it's raya season (but I can just feel it in my bones that i'll start complaining to myself again but it's ok I hope I prove myself wrong)
We'll see.

ps anticipating harmonix rehearsals to begin im being more patient than master oogway

How is this possible (19.10pm)

Currently at NTUC jamming to Wrecking ball and entertaining mama and her fb recipes hahaha
Anyway how is it possible that your life can change in a split second hahahaha it's so weirdcool
I applied for a job just now (with not much hopes of getting it) and got a phonecall 10 minutes later
What even.
And then I followed mama to send Chiqa to her playgroup centre and im suddenly a volunteer candidate
Hahaha ok let me enjoy the rest of my grocery adventures byeee
(btw ben n jerry's has a 3 for 29.50$ que pasa)

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23.59pm

I did it!
Submitted my last essay for the semester a few seconds ago heheh (although I was 2 days late bye 20%)
I felt happy doing those papers, I don't even know how properly I did them but what's important is it felt effortless and I argued my way through hahahaha
Ok a busy week ahead but at least im free from academic weight!
I feel like a brand new person hahahaha

Weird (18.01pm)

Currently at the Singapore immigration, stuck cause there's so many foreign passports hahah and im sitting with bags cause elephant bailed on us and we bought her seats -___- 
Anyway for both immigration I got unnecessarily stuck behind different problematic humans what even but thankfully it wasnt that bad just like why did I choose those lines out of the others
So sad this trip has ended!
It was real fun and was long overdue honestly.

Yesterday began with a shopping trip (did i ever mention i dont like shopping it is more tiring than fun) where I maxed out my walking capacity but thankfully we had to go back to the hotel to put down our stuff (aka a 3 mins nap for me) Then we were lowkey forced to go to someone's house hahaha but it was worth it cause it was a 5 in 1 package- dinner, karaoke, (insert secret activity here that i will probably be able to reveal in a few months time) house tour/gallery visiting and photoshoot (He has a purple themed room what the purple it was so majestic and royal I cant even) 

Now I feel like going to Batam for another overdue spa trip cause I told myself I needed it after Anjung adat and it has been 2 months now psht

Just got reminded of how much I dont enjoy responsibilities hahaha I think it's just my internal rebel who hates following rules but equally hate rulebreakers so what am I really who knows
Ok may we have a safe journey home why are you so gloomy singapore im home now you can cheer up and sunshine up tomorrow
Also time to reply to messages..... can I ignore everyone longer (except my family hahaha)
K bye