Now this feels normal (04.10am)

Hello!
Im recharging quite well, though not fully rested but im feeling normal
Just got back from 3 hours of karaoke and supper
Was asleep almost the whole journey here for the first time ever, omg it was so weird but much needed.
It was quite torturous cause it was really too cold in the bus (maybe it was just me) and I think that that combined with the no sleep took a toll on me cause I somehow managed to fall sick (for awhile hah)
Checked in, had fun with makeup and then went mall hopping but we set a curfew at 8 so I could complete my essays hahaha lame
Wouldve been able to complete both early but because of heavy traffic we had to walk home instead of grabbing so I was left with less than 2 hours haha but I wasnt worried cause I usually spend less than an hour for an essay
The problem came when the wifi went down zzzz I couldnt even do my research but I continued writing ideas without content (aka a lot of 'insert examples here') and I met half the wordcount but left with 10 minutes and so my priority changed from working to karaokeing hehehaheha
Wanted to continue my essay right as we reach the hotel but now im considering to continue recharging myself before resuming it.

I had a lovely but really tiring past two days- Apa H.A.L went well!
Mel and I managed to do our job and finish earlier than our set time hehehe.
It was quite a long day and we were both sleep deprived; proven by the fact that we were discussing about giving birth at 9am hahahaha it only got weirder from there
Ended up laying down a huge curtain as a mat in the dressing room to crash for awhile during the Gala show
Thankfully I got a hitch to woodlands checkpoint, and the driver was so interested in philosophy it was heartening.
He gave 2 pieces of advice:
1) If a potential boyfriend is not a fillial child, forget it
2) If anyone tries to talk to you or give you anything, ignore them
Context being that I was crossing the border alone (for the first time!!!) at 11.30pm hahah
Was initially slightly worried because I had to grab from CIQ to the hotel but I was blessed honestly.
While waiting for grab, these two young adults walked up to me and asked if they could borrow my hotspot and bruh it was my first time activating data roaming idk how much data it was consuming so I offered to just book a grab for them.
But then I already had a booking, so they ended up following me to my destination before I could book the grab to their hotel.
We were both blessed honestly; I got company and they got transport hahahah I couldnt stop thanking god afterwards.
Truly alhamdulillah!
Sat in the lobby for like 5 mins before kak faizah and gang walked in and thus we were united
Went for supper and I was feeling quite exhausted (but the burger was nice ahahah)
Ok it is 4.36am and I should rest and charge my devices ehehe buenas dias i'll probably edit this post in the future.
May today be another good day!

Finalmente. (02.18am)

Here I am exhausted, but as if on cue once I get ready for bed my brain gets ready for life
But no please my physical being is feeling so down
Such an interesting day full of blessings, but I will
Finally settled down in our rooms after a short solo adventure, will tell you about it later.
I also have 2 essays due in 20 hours and it is the case that I either have to only write one or end up writing both at the same time.
If only I didnt get motion sickness i'd be able to do them during the bus journey and then proceed to enjoy my getaway
Ok although my brain is adamant to stay awake, I just want to sleep to recharge (though i'd have to be up in 3.5 hours meh still better than nothing considering my current state)
May we have a fun and safe journey ahead!
♡

Exciting week ahead- also a positive title (01.18am)

I feel like I blogged at 1.18am a few times before or is it just the number 8
Anyway I should really be sleeping soon, it's production day!
Although i'm not dancing I can feel the hardwork put in by the dancers, crews and cikgu, and I hope all goes well for all of us tomorrow.
Got to assemble in 7 hours time
Watching the full run just now makes me falsefully miss Anjung adat cause yes it was fun but I remember how tiring and tedious it was (not to mention them darn quickchanges ugh that was the worst worry honestly hahaha but I sooner got over it alhamdulillah)

Also, it is bahas finals day which I was excited to emcee for again but clash of schedule boo
Hope all goes well there too

Ok like I said I should try and sleep soon although I just know it won't happen
¡Buenas noches!

ps i wonder how's the greatest royal rumble going

pps ok this is bad because i reminded myself of the GRR happening i... feel like... i should... watch it live........... i really do.... oK I MIGHT GIVE IN TO THIS TEMPTATION dont blame me reyrey AND taker is there

ppps but i already packed my laptop... but reyrey D; HAIH i'll find a way

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04.07am

HAHA that cage match ending- but whatever as long as reigns doesnt beat lesnar im happy
And hornswoggle is back!!!
Aka yana's twin hahaha love it what a reunion
Why did wwe not post anything about the triple h-cena match wtheck disrespectful

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04.15am

Aaaand husband number 1 is in!
You go reyrey, have fun in the ring

Man the crowd dont deserve these humans. WWE should bring this entire cast somewhere nearer to me somewhere like idk Singapore (give taker premium first class flight) but ok wait I dont think i'll be able to handle this much amazingness HAH jk im always ready 

If anyone were to break any records in this royal rumble it'd better be rey beating his own record if not dont even think about it wwe 

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04.55am

Huhh my appetite got lost once Jericho was eliminated what even strowman won mehhh lame

Go home guys reyrey and taker were the only good things about this event as expected (ok and y2j and lashley, not to mention titus falling ahahais why)

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14.49pm

Matinee show starting in 11 minutes, best of luck Beztari!!!! 

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19.56pm

4 minutes to the Gala show, muy cansados and I dont know why I subject myself to what would possibly an arduous journey ahead. Insyallah all will go smoothly for all of us.

ps thankfully mel is here with me hahaha and we are both sleepless and highkey drunk on life

Not feeling too inspired (00.24am)

Got to continue making the best of things.

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03.17am

Feeling better after some self reflection (hahhha ok lets be honest dnp helped too they cute)
Kind of excited to start my Race and gender essay- not sure why I didnt start though I had been very free the past two days
So many possibilities of what I could write about and word limit is 1500?
Count me in bruh i'd write 3 essays
Ok I should probably sleep in case I have to tutor tomorrow I would faint cause it's also the final bump in day for Beztari's production before the actual show aka IM GOING TO KL SOON?!?
Yay

Anyway I am very Harmonixsick (like homesick not like sick of it) I miss the humans I miss the noises and beautiful sounds I miss rehearsal I miss it all but like the old people say (hahahaha who am I calling people old) absence makes the heart grow fonder
But seriously I hope each and every single one of them are coping well with their studies because I can't wait to reunite
Was watching the bonding camp videos and I still cant believe that happened it was amazing
Ok I shall stop being emo now

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12.28pm

Ok a discontinued sleep schedule aka I didnt nap at 10am but it's ok I have Sunday to rest
Anyway there are a thousand ways to wake up but to wake up because your little sister sprayed too much perfume on before going to school is muy rudados I cant even hahahaha
I was like "sTOpPp!!!" but I kept my eyes closed so I think she thought I was dreaming cause when I opened my eyes she was looking at me
I won't be surprised if she comes home still smelling like ariel because literally I feel like half the bottle is gone (ok exaggerating maybe 1/6 but still)
What a morning

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16.24pm

Ah yes luckily I did not submit this before proofreading

The okay division (00.22am)

We are so divided in unnecessary ways sometimes; race, socio-economic class, education level.
But a divide i'll accept is how some humans are excited about Avengers (which I know nothing about other than the fact that Thor is beautiful) and some of us (my gang right here) are living for the Greatest Royal Rumble (and still I dont understand why it has to be in Saudi- their budget must be limitless lol priorities but whatever)

Spent almost 4 hours with sha at NLB thank god she was there hahaa
Ended up taking a thousand photos with the stage lightings.
I mean everytime im on stage and there's lights im always doing something so to do nothing was nice for once hahaha (jk i miss performing already it has only been what, 2 weeks since my last performance? And 2 weeks to my next one hahaha ok no wonder im deprived right smack in the middle)

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14.07pm

My sleep cycle has been so weird but very consistent but still weird 

Anyway im here to say that jep is a father now this is so weird to comprehend but congrats :')

Also, the undertaker and reyrey are finally sharing a backstage again and I feel... so... I cannot even describe this in words :') 

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21.14pm

Hahaha i've taken 4 Chris mods and this will be the first time I submit a final essay lol I love how... open ended it is (aka he didnt give us any questions go make up yo own)

With a heavy heart (14.46pm)

The last time I got to see you was last october, not recent enough honestly.
Your shadows will still play where you have been.
♡

Things are always easier said than done, easier debated than practiced.
In moral class when we discuss the act of deciding to put down someone or an animal, it seems easy to say "it's for the moral being's good" "we should be able to decide for those who cannot decide" but to see it happen in real life is always tough.
A thousand questions follows but I put my fullest trust in the caretakers.

ps Is it ok to settle when you know what you are capable of giving, or is it always better to be the bigger person? 

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20.22pm

This greatest royal rumble messing with my mind wtheck reyrey is in the line up how dare they there is taker triple h cena orton mark henry khali literally the whole STYLO except HBK what this is too much 

It's that time of the year (00.56am)

Have been procrastinating for the past 2 days hahaha now it's 11 hours to submission and i'm still choosing which question to do
Honestly they all are equally fun and im equally clueless for all so like people say, if you do not know where you're going, it does not matter which path you take.
As of now im looking for the most inspiring question to do.
I have issues with profs (ok actually so far it's only this one) who set the deadline as 12PM like why who hurt you to deprive us of 12 more hours
I hope you change in the near future hahahais que pasa mi profesora
K bye I will either finish bullcrapping this in 50 minutes or struggle till daylight
Either way I deserve a break afterwards hahahaha

ps how dare i procrastinate dont i see my lack of freedom what is wrong with me hello

pps how dare i talk to myself like that apologize now

ppps perdon....

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04.36am

Three things,
1) Introspection
So I was watching bawang merah bawang putih (because not like I had anything else to do) and there was a scene where Andre the lawyer was doing some self-reflection but a literal hologram of himself appeared beside him to give him advice and I was thinking if that was a weird way of how introspection works because imagine yourselves multiplying each time you have an internal debate- I thought it'd be the angel-devil thing but it's just one other him helping himself. Maybe it's just his more enlightened subconscious who knows better what to do. Still, the idea of having your thoughts manifest into a physical(ish) being is so weirdcool.

2) Cancelled job
I was supposed to help do something in 2 hours time but right after I agreed I realised it was a bad idea cause I havent even started on my paper and by the time the task ends i'd have 2 hours left- but then I couldn't back out but thankfully it all worked out cause the task was cancelled! Alhamdulillah. And note to self, stop saying yes so much omg hahahah at least not now ok (um ok but no promises)

3) Bullshitting prowess
How is it that i'm more than halfway through with the essay wordcount without having neither content nor idea of what i'm writing hahaha but as proud as I am for this magic power, I am inclined to write a proper paper because I finally decided on a question and it's arguing about Human nature. These humans (rousseau and hutcheson) have pretty bold views but that is what makes philosophy fun.

I have been editing and watching vlogs, and just taking 2 hours break after typing one sentence so you can say i'm progressing well HAHAHA jk it got better because I was forced to wait for my vlogs to be exported.
In other news, I hope to finish my paper before I get sleepy because that would not work at all
Saying that makes me realise that i've never actually tried staying up to do work, instead I do work because i'm staying up
I dont think my internal rebel would enjoy being forced to stay up anyways
Kudos to humans who go against their natural tendencies and stays up just to study or do work, jiayou!
We got this

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12.16pm

Like 20 minutes ago I was so relieved cause I managed to write in 2 hours but right after I submitted it....
I realised she changed the due time to 11.59pm
I wanted to apologize for whatever I said earlier this post but I also realised she did indicate 12pm as cut off time -___-
So now im either going to let it be- whatever I submitted would have to do, or attempt to improve it in the next 11 hours.
Eh.
If she werent so troublesome to deal with it wouldnt even be a dilemma :')
(Im not judging but the whole class experienced her firsthand)
Doesnt discount her niceness although probably our work ethics are conflicting
Ok bye 
If I didnt think it'd be due at 12pm I think I still wont finish the essay so it was a good (rarely works but still good) push hahahaha bye

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17.44pm

It's been 2 decades and I still get goosebumps listening to tokti why is she the best
Just left home to meet mama and chiqa
Feels nice to be out hahahah

Help myself (02.13am)

Plans to have an early night today
Buenas noches!

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04.05am

Yeah it's not happening
Maybe next time I should tell myself that I want to stay up maybe I will fall asleep
Unless I know that im trying to placebo myself
Which I probably will so it probably wont work
You know what I will go back to letting myself be hahah go on sleep whenever you want
(see disassociation cause even i dont understand myself)

Can't be helped (05.28am)

Oh oh.
I feel the procrastination bug coming along
Someone call the disciplineticide
(That someone must be me)
But I guess this is just my personal small challenge-
I will get well quickly (by quickly please be today I cannot be resting any longer only losers rest) and then start hustling.

Anyway, I guess my few months upcoming will be busier than expected.
Actually, we can safely double the craziness.
Am I up for it?
(yes)
(ok insyaallah)
I really don't feel like sleeping.
Perhaps breakfast in a few hours and then find ways to zenly cure myself before attempting to do anything else.
Honestly the temptation to go for dance training is getting stronger every week, although I know I will immediately regret once I get on a roll because im just getting used to at-home Sundays
Mm.
We'll see.
As of now like I mentioned prior, i'm very happy to have any free days off.

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17.57pm

Woke up from a nap and I thought it was already night and I had hibernated accidentally
So much for avoiding work messages on weekends, I am spammed with so many work related stuff from all genres of my life hahahaha
Thanks though, excitable.
But man I really must ignore yall for a bit
(but i cant ignore messages help)

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23.31pm

Today being the last lepak day before a full 24/10 ahead, what best to do than sitting in the coffeeshop till midnight
Hah

Just a series of thoughts (00.51am)

First of all MCS had their SYF yesterday and this year I didn't get to be part of the process, kind of bummed but it's only making me more eager to come back.
And I know they'll always ace every task given so kudos my sisters.

Also I do not for the life of me understand why or how people can be bad like you have been bestowed with rational minds and emotions but you don't- no wait, can't seem to put it to good use.
Not all of us has to be an angel but at least be decent.
Here's to changing the world for the better,
Starting with the human in the mirror
(Hahahahah just because it rhymes and drives the message home)

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12.53pm

I guess once you decide on something, the universe just chips in to make it possible or happen.
So, decide good things ok

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22.46pm

Currently at raffles city with lola fancy, just questioning myself because for a self-declared gangsta, I realise I dont like saying No.
And sometimes it causes me trouble, (sometimes just in the mind but still, trouble) but 100% of the time I conquer it well so I feel no qualms about saying Yes all the time.
But still, the trouble
Is it worth it :')
However it is not my main concern as of now.
In this meanwhile, I think I can still live happily without necessarily putting myself first
It's like a test for myself.
But definitely will have to put my wants first sometimes.
Just not now.
Hahah

Just watched a really beautiful music performance by a turkish group at esplanade.
It was so impressive, each of them were masters of their craft but when they worked together it was pure magic.
The crowd gave them a standing ovation which was a pleasant surprise because I always thought it wasn't a norm- especially for an informal concert like this but they deserve it
I was most entranced by the percussionist- the level of trust in his instrument was so apparent, he literally created beautiful sounds by TOUCHING the drum
And I mean a gentle tap and it reverbed throughout the whole chamber.
It was amazing and has to be seen to be believed.
Ok Lola is back

ps should i do my readings outside of home or at home i swear im more productive at home

Why! (01.31am)

I was sleepyish the whole day I couldnt understand why- was it the awkward amount of sleep I got? (Like almost 3 hours)
But I gave myself caffeine and food and I even exercised and had mental and emotional stimulation but my eyes still felt heavy and my body just tired hahaha lame (I even had a pep talk with myself saying how Undertaker dont feel tired so you shouldnt too)
Two, okay three great things happened today though
First of all is the completion of all tests, also marking the last day of my sophomore year!
Secondly I hung out with yol twice in a day, we even ate fruits again and intellectually (and emotionally) critiqued the actors in a drama hahaha
Thirdly, I finally had rehearsal again.
Although we just sang like 4-5 rounds in total and spent more time doing nonsense (cue Sam and KK and their music taste), just being with harmonix makes me happy and it was much needed.
Ended up taking the second last bus home though hahah
Contemplating to eat but my physical being is too exhausted to move.
Did I mention once I settled down, I felt wide awake?!
Ok time to rest.
Thankful for today ;')

tb to when we had a random meetup at kampung glam after harmonix's choreo workshop

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19.15pm

Was gonna start on my essay but I woke up with a sprained neck and high fever (?) What even did I do while sleeping did I fight crimes under the rain (I think so)

So anyway yes I cant move and I have not done anything yet but I will hopefully the pain subsides or just GO AWAY por favor thanks in advance 

Strategy, at least temporarily (03.12am)

Was tired, tried to sleep and failed and right as I decided to stop trying the tiredness went away
Is this placebo
Wished I could say im prepared for both tests (or at least one) but nope hahaha quota for trying used up yesterday (jk no such quota)
I have 5 hours to attempt to grasp stuff
And then another 3 hours later in the afternoon.
Let's do this!

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07.34am

Ok logic at 8.30am is actually a violation of moral law

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21.34pm

Currently judging sam's music taste help us guys hahahaha

How does this even work (00.43am)

I guess I reminded myself that I have 3 tests this week too early so now I forgot that they're here
Hahaha can yall move to another time aka never

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16.45pm

Oh my gosh.

Last night I actually tried reading the lecture slides from the past 11 weeks for a test which I just finished, and it was easy???

All these while I have been walking into tests hoping for the best and depending totally on my bullshitting abilities hahaha guys is this what being prepared feels like cause I can't relate but it feels good (kinda) not intellectually satisfying but feels easy. 

Which honestly as amazing as it sounds is not my kind of learning.

I do not need to be tested on whether I remember what the book says

-_____- 

Glad this is over though, onwards to two more tests and then final essays to complete!

And then, FREEDOM (academically) 

Oh I still have to wait for my Harmonix to finish their exams zzz it's ok patience is a virtue right Aristotle

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18.53pm

Is this a day of pleasant shockers cause did my tastebuds overturn cause I tried tofu and it didnt taste terrible! (Granted I had it with tom yum but still)

I was like basking in the revelation and then the aftertaste hit me and it reminded me why I dont like tofu but then I told myself it was chicken nuggets and now im eating another tofu hahahaha ayy here's to progress 

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23.07pm

Home at 11 on a Wednesday night?

Feels weird hahahha

I don't even know (05.26am)

I feel like going cycling in an hour's time
3 tests to settle this week but it's also the last week of school before I get even busier but i'm excited so may this week go smoothly, insyaallah!

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05.57am

You'd think after years mama would be used to seeing me awake but she'll still ask "Didnt you sleep wont you sleep in class later"
And my answer is always "Not sleepy, what to do"
And she'll just give a fake sigh
Hahahaha dasar doraemon
I wanted to make apple cider honey water but then I saw chamomile teabags and im quite sure I dont enjoy chamomile that much but Mr fulton's words always ring in my ears (Chamomile would be lovely- for those media-culturally backwards psht get your hsm knowledge right hahaha jk) so now im stuck (ok blessed) with an even more weirder tasting chamomile tea (i mean it could turn out nice i havent had it)
Second guessing my idea of cycling im having an internal debate

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09.21am

Oh mannn I was looking forward to a Taker vs Y2J match another legends face off but noOoo rusev had to come back boo

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16.02pm

Currently on the way home, deciding whether to take a nap and then work or tire myself in hopes that my sleep cycle can realign for awhile (actually no I dont care)
And should I work at home or outside

Had a very unproductive day so far- but it made me realise my extrovertness.
My energy level multiplied when humans started interacting with me
Or is that a mechanism or reflex
Thankfully I didnt grab to class- it was half hour of nothingness
Rare guy talk with vani made up for it though so hahaha glad all is going well with esa hermana mia (direct translation whatsup)

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20.54pm

The aim is to make life easier for myself and the people around me

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23.39pm

Aw chiqa just suddenly turned into a kitty cat and then served me warm tea in a mini teacup what even is this baby, so precious I love her so much hahaha ♡

Neh (02.46am)

Wow my blogposts have been uneventful hahah is it due to me escaping events
Feeling like a solo outing later in the morning but I don't understand why i'm not sleeping I thought sleepless season was over

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14.18pm

I guess a good friend watches from afar to support, but the greatest loves will hold our hands and follow our pace, nudging when necessary but never forcing.
It's an impossible kind of kinship to find.
Curse dan and phil for setting unrealistic expectations hahahah jk theyre the lucky ones- I love their new video (except the part where my lester was forced to swear in front of the camera how dare they) I cant believe we're seeing them in 5 months T.T

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23.44pm

Ah I hear kb94 on the radio ;')
Still cannot believe how far he has come so proud
Just got home from the hospital, who knew there'd come a day where I help in the promotional efforts of a cub scouts' donation drive
Hahaha farley and I were drawing like 20 mini flyers to raise awareness about newspaper donation day
Farrieal wanted to help but he didnt even finish 1 before he was distracted hahaha abang2 why you like this xD
Alhamdulillah all is well.
Class is pushed back an hour tomorrow hehehe why cant logic be pushed back too
But yeah schooldays without training feels weirddddd boo
K bye here's to a lovely day ahead!

Why have my post titles been negativish (14.17pm)

It's raining quite heavily and I am tempted to go play in the rain but ...
And I want to go visit Inuka D;

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17.04pm

Watching old promo videos and relived wrestlemania 25 and 26 where the greatest of all time faced each other (aka the worst match ever cause how could they EVER have it in them to have a career vs streak match for taker and michaels)

Which made me realise two things

a) Maybe my username Unsterio rey (if by now you still hadnt gotten it it's a mash of Undertaker and Rey mysterio aka both are me) is more than just my love for them; it represents the two sides that I most often use- the (hopefully) intimidating anti social out-to-kill taker mode and the socially apt lively positive reyrey mode.

b) I've always said I want to be Brock lesnar cause I would go to work, conquer and dominate wordlessly and get paid but now I think I wouldn't mind being Paul heyman cause he doesnt have to get physical- just talk crap, get hate and get paid all whilst being under the protection of lesnar.

I wanted to go to sentosa again we'll see

Don't count on it (03.30am)

Me to me: i thought u said u were tired

Anyway just got reminded of that time I saw two shooting stars on a mountain and it was so magical and fateful because we couldve missed it if we blinked or were looking at something else
The second one was especially touching because we were heading to climb further up and it was exactly when I turned around to have one last look at the skyline when I saw it.
SO COOL UGH makes me want to climb mountains again come on free time and opportunity (both I can create by myself but still)

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14.24pm

Supposed to be at 3 places at once but I ended up ditching all of them.
Hello excitable solo saturday

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22.22pm

Can we believe I completed the Online mod a day before my stipulated dateline
Now if I can stick to them for the rest
You go girl

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23.56pm

Since im still alone at home, the only logical thing to do is... watch Andre the Giant's documentary on HBO.
Quite excited hahaha ok bye

Guilt tripping (14.23pm)

Hello there
Currently on the way to punggol from school for tutoring
Had to cab cause I was late for the test and nice prof gave me extension (which I eventually rejected cause my mind was blank even if he gave me 3 years I would produce nothing much hahaha but he's really nice bless him)
Cab driver was awesome cause he was speeding the whole time (I didnt ask him to but I wished he did and he did)
The test was easy but foreign so from now till the final test next week i'd probably have to conduct my own lessons for myself haha
Actually quite exhausted idk why but im hoping the kids' unlimited energies would be contagious- that is something I dont mind being infected with
Ok, a long journey ahead may it be of ease hahahah

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19.37pm

Currently entertaining Aleesya with her shopkins hahaha
Somehow gained enough energy see power of kids
And hereby concludes my working days
I have to have a productive weekend in order for me to be free sooner
Let's do this
In the name of dwayne johnson and john cena's hustle loyalty respect I shall do it well!

Twist of events (01.50am)

Ended up having a good day!
Interviewed Chloe and then we roamed around the school, found Emmaus and roamed again finding food.
And then we made a last minute decision to rehearse and we finally finished the song!
Super proud of our progress, we can be very and I mean very indecisive but we still settled the song choices so kudos
And perhaps for the first time this sem, I have decided to attend both classes.
But now comes the question; should I sleep tonight or nah
We'll see!

ps yes ptx is doing sorry not sorry hehhehehe im glad they didnt mash it with anything cause it deserves to standalone- really cant wait to hear it

pps someone on insta used my hashtag how do i get rid of that post psht respect the non-existent copyright

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10.07am

You know youre in the right logic class when the prof constantly asks "Do you know what just happened?"
Hello Thursday morning
If I knew Thursday mornings were this beautiful i'd have made the effort to come to class
Oh well
All's well that ends well.
It is the last week of lessons.

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22.35pm

The weather today (sin the few short raining sessions) truly was beautiful! I felt rejuvenated thank you mr sun (haha when it started raining right as yol and I got under the shelter we both thumbs upped the sky what a loser she is)

Hung out with yol after class and we travelled all the way to hall 13 just for cake and fruit juice (very rare mark of dedication from any of us really hahahah) before heading to coffee bean cause both our groups we were meeting afterwards wanted to meet there ay thanks

Accidentally got a 2 hour power nap. Thanks self it was much needed. Woke up with missed calls and a fever- it was just the cold I think 

Ok brb I want to eat and learn 12 weeks worth of content before 1pm tomorrow 

Hard to say (02.16am)

Was considering visiting my MCS later to see their SYF prep but I realised I have class and work hais why
Anyway this time last week I was excited over external showcase
Now im sad cause no rehearsal hahha ok I say this so many times but psht just overly attached harmonixer ok who isnt
K I shall rest (ish)

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13.58pm

Really do not feel like going to class so I probably won't.
Also feels pointless to go to school just for work.
Maybe I could visit MCS today afterall....
We'll see

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14.01pm

Ok nope I have to go to work hopefully MCS has a rehearsal on saturday

Self deceiving (00.58am)

At 10pm I was considering going to bed early but who are we kidding
On the other hand why cant or why dont I sleep early what is my problem with myself hello
Ok I shall stop picking fights with myself

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03.19am

Hm times like this I question whether we really do need sleep or am I forcing myself to be tired just cause that's the norm but then again when do I follow the norm

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12.51pm

I knew it!
PTX will be covering Demdems's song
Maigahhhh im beyond excited
As much as I trust them with altering her songs I have implicit biasness for demi and I wonder what song- probably SNS since they're doing the whole top radio songs but it would be so cool if they did TMYLM??? (then again TMYLM is reserved for me so it ok)
Yayyy this is redemption
(Heard a snippet of their cover of Perfect and THANK GOD FOR SCOTT because he made the song bearable- the lack of unnecessary falsettos is just boss)

It just felt right

I miss Evokals :')
Hopefully they're having fun in their new groups.
It still feels weird to not meet them every week

Ultra offensive (01.17am)

I feel like if Reigns wins tonight against Lesnar, I have nothing else to live for in the WWE Universe (unless taker returns and face cena's challenge THAT would be the only way i'll forgive the event above) but really, please dont let that happen.
I can't sleep thinking about it hahahahah who says there's only can't-sleep-love cause who's in love not me i'm in PAIN D;

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09.18am

No. WAY.
Is it happening???
Is taker coming???
What the Elias go away u frog

Such mixed emotions so far this is crazy

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09.26am

IT IS UNFAIR UNDERTAKER IS BACK and idk what to do with life
Ok calm be still this heart
What the heck is he going to do???
Whatever it is im here to witness

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09.31am

Crap seeing them across the ring from each other makes me feel horrendous this is definitely a dream match that nobody is ready for
I hope it doesnt mean taker is retiring for good cause a) i need to see him live b) a wrestlemania after a quarter of a century without him is meaningless

Can you believe it, a dream match is happening RIGHT NOW on the other side of the world and im not there to witness it
Two legends facing off in the squared circle
Two humans with nothing left to prove but does it anyway because it is what is rightful
I love both of you and I am thankful im here to witness history T.T ♡

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09.57am

This is a sigh of peace guys.
It keeps us wanting more actually hahaha but im so so glad it happened- maybe will happen again mueheheheh not ruling that out
I dont care about anything anymore
Rollins can win grandslam for all i care, Charlotte can defeat Asuka's streak and Lesnar and Reigns can dance around the ring however they'd like.
I am at peace and the best place possible.
Welcome home deadman, for it is not a Wrestlemania without your irreplacable aura.
♡

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22.01pm

Just got home from exploring the neighbourhood with mama and chiqa- we found a shortcut through the expressway to the other side of CTE hahah. Did some grocery shopping and then hung out at the playground.

Long day at school tomorrow- I am prepared to be productive no matter what it is I do 

Lazy Sundays feel weird (17.34pm)

I was actually considering going to training but had to babysit hahah
Wanted to bring her out but undone homeworks- bane of humanity honestly im a homework hater the reason the GPA system dont work for me is because of freaking assignments just stop I wont do it
No amount of percentage can make me see its importance
Hahahaha ok not a good habit but who's to define good

This has been a very lepak weekend and it feels weird but hey a downtime is always appreciated.

ps is this why choir and harmonix are addictive

pps oh crap wrestlemania is here soon pls hold it

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21.22pm

Currently at sentosa, going back to resorts world for candylicious hahah bruh I finally tried the thai milk tea ice cream AND the nutella krispy kreme doughnut both in one night so please it is an amazing way to kick off wrestlemania (no link but got link) 

I told chiqa to get ready after she finished her homework, and somehow she thought we were going to the playground so I played along and told her we will grab to a bigger playground down the road and even when we reached sentosa I told her it was a grabshare pickup and it wasnt till she saw me paying the driver that she realised the truth hahaha she wanted to bring her scooter along what even

(lowkey screamed when we first tried the doughnut cause it's been so long since we wanted to try it)

9.49am

Watching the Hall of fame red carpet and I just had to take time off being emo that the people main eventing wrestlemania these days are new humans, trailblazing the way in the best ways possible and you know as much as you want to compare the generations of wrestlers you just have to acknowledge when they're doing something right
That being said,
I'm quite dreading this HOF and Wrestlemania.
Where is Undertaker D;

Currently at kak yati's place, sleptover after tutoring cause chiqa fell asleep watching a ghost movie hahah.
All my plans for today cancelled just so I can spend time with the kids
Theyre worth it
♡
Am tired though, maybe i'll need to hibernate soon

I knew it but (11.09am)

Ok I was gonna type but elephant's iPhone alarm is annoying me I feel like curbstomping it hahaha go away
So my tutoring days resume today
(Omg the alarm immediately stopped after I typed the above HAHAH good)
As much as I despise mothematics and wants it out of my life forever ever ever after, I love my nephews and sister more than my hate so I shall train them to tackle the monster together.

Had a lovely day yesterday, I think just a day with harmonix humans is nice hahah
Worked, hung out with yol where we both couldnt stop singing a song we didnt know the lyrics to, and then had rehearsal with RVN (we are still trying to decide on a name hahaha)

ps the last one is me this semester- but at least I go for most tests hahaha this is terrible but it's an improvement

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13.57pm

UGH just got reminded of another reason I hate growing up- duit raya D; 

We are one tonight (02.36am)

What a fulfilling and heartwarming day ;')
Interviewed two fun people for work, (thanks guys for being entertaining hahahah), hung out with yol and of course the showcase.
I had loads of fun, and I only hope my harmonix and the audience all felt the same way!
While we were ushering, there were barely any humans but when we went down, the place was packed!
It went well and everyone had a part to play so kudos my loves.
Shoutout to my Gomez and Syahira who travelled all the way only to miss my performances but they still stayed for phototaking aishh too nice ♡
Thank you to my VP teams and RVN (hahah self declared abbreviation cause we can't decide on a name so we combined both Ransom notes and Vocanauta) for your talents and for the really enjoyable rehearsals (or lack of- for the VPs) and performances!
Here's to progress!
I hate that it's the last official training for this semester, but I find comfort in knowing that we'll start grinding very soon (actually later hahahaha)
Went for supper (wait..... I just realised I bought coffee when I had coffee in my bag what even) and then took the last bus home quite peacefully
They just truly have a special place in my heart, I love you guys a lot a lot a lot, Harmonix :') ♡

Looking forward for an ungaugeable day ahead- a test in 5 hours (I dont understand what im doing now instead of sleeping or actually finding out what the test is about hahahaha) and then work
Here's to a smooth sailing, good day ahead!

You don't have to smile when your heart is hurting,
Just call my name and i'll come running

ps i just sang a song on the spot ^ and mark liked the lyrics hahaha thanks

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10.28am

I like how ive been waking up too early this past week, regardless of what time I fall asleep that day I will find myself awake 2 hours later. Woke up 10 mins before the test was supposed to start with a fever but it's goneish now- but it also means I missed the test. Onwards to a better day! 

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18.28pm

May our hearts remain kinder than necessary. 

Quite hopeful (01.45am)

Kinda hope I could rest tonight heheh psa to my self let us try to sleep I know it's not appropriate this season but come on
Actually having mixed feelings about the external showcase-
Immense pride and excitement because we are Harmonix and it is our SECOND EVER external showcase
Emotional cause of the same reasons plus the fact that it is technically the last rehearsal date for this semester (nooOoooO)
Also feels like it can wait because the end of showcase means the start of the journey to champs and concert ;')
Bless our artistic journey

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05.06am

Lol I abruptly woke up for no reason
This is what happens when you try to make it rain on a summer evening
(ok all im saying is i shouldnt mess with seasons hahah it brings weird results)

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12.17pm

Currently at work, ending for lunch break soon before another session before I can hop over to my harmonix heheh
The weather is amazing Alhamdulilah!

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12.40pm

I think I might have just found out the meaning of my weird dream! (Or dreams since it occured twice)
:D

Mere mortals (07.21am)

Man I fell asleep at 6am and as consciousness took over it felt like it has been hours and I was thinking I might have overslept for class but kept my eyes shut anyway cause I wanted to rest
And then my 7.17am alarm rang
It was barely an hour but in my sleep universe it felt so long!!!
Hahaha the dreamland is so cool
Like you know how some dreams feels so episodic or like a full movie but it's all in a span of 10 minutes
In dreams there truly are no boundaries, no time and space or limits to consider.
We could be mere mortals but in dreams, we're anything and everything

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07.58am

I realise im actually dreading this class today despite it starting well at the start of the sem
It's probably not a student's fault for not wanting to waste her time in an unproductive class- I learn more from the readings than actually being in class excuse your fries
But because I have wardah and vani who i've not seen for weeks hahahah i'll just go then

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22.51pm

Currently on the way home!
Like I said, stoked for tomorrow heheh
We did choreo today and I have no idea what is going on with our sound but it was fun
Also have no idea what is going on with the VP groups
But all will be good!

Meh (03.57am)

Whattt even I was blogging halfway and my phone restarted excuse you
-___-
I was all emo about Harmonix's second ever external showcase and was reminiscing how this time last year Evokals were busy prepping our first and only song, We are young

And I was also announcing the start of no sleep season which I welcome with open heart but-
Why am I blogging in third person (ok not really but you understand me right)
Ok lost the feel to blog hahaha no thanks to you blogger pshht
Good day!

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06.36am

I can't stay asleep for 10 mins pls hahah I keep waking up if not for people it's myself loser
I feel rested though so ok

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07.07am

2/7th of me wants to go hiking or trekking now
I probably won't go though
I also feel like spending my morning at the library
It will depend on the weather ok hahaha if it's sunny and lovely i'll go out

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20.35pm

Hahah so I was helping chiqa with her malay homework earlier today and it was a crossword puzzle and I couldnt answer one of it which was really disappointing but I knew I know it, so I told her to pack first and i'll tell her once I recall even though idk when that would be
Obviously I didnt think about it cause you know if you know you know (hahaha annoying sentence but very philosophy)
Then I took a nap and the first thing in my brain when I woke up was a word and I thought of the alphabets pre-filled in and I was just like "CHIQA I GOT IT"
But she accused me of googling or asking a friend excuse you I painstakingly took a nap, recalled the answer and you accused me of taking a shortcut hashtag offensive
Anyway that was cool and I feel proud and people should learn to trust me more- but actually nah it's ok usually it's the people who are worth it who trusts me beyond the usual limits so thanks I hope it pays off

Also, I still feel weird inviting people to watch me perform cause why would you spend hours travelling to watch me do something I always do for like 3 minutes?!
I guess in life sometimes the only way we can convince ourselves is to think of reciprocracy- or putting ourselves in their shoes
Cause honestly i'd totally love seeing my friends perform but not myself
Maybe this could be a motivation to further work on my arts
Ok adios!

Merry April (01.13am)

I finally got to touch a baby since my weird craving days.
It just makes me want to touch more hahahaha
Still hadn't gotten to touch a cat por favor

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03.28am

Honey, you are too much and not enough for me.

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18.14pm

I have decided to not respond to any work related texts on weekends (maybe even fridays) cause this blurring of limit by technology is disturbing my peace hah
Talk to me on my working days (hahaha jk I have no working days)

Currently just resting after attending kak mira's wedding
She looks amazing really cinderellaish but better cause it's real life
Still can't believe she's married
Lowkey grew up alongside her so this is quite very crazy.
I wish the newlyweds a lifetime of joy and abundance, love and wealth.
♡