The night did get better!
I felt high as soon as I saw Belvy and Steifan while I was walking to VP training heheh and then the high lasted through the night thank god
Got a ride from jorene's dad, bless them
And then got splashed by a bus hahaha luckily it wasnt a big puddle
I felt high as soon as I saw Belvy and Steifan while I was walking to VP training heheh and then the high lasted through the night thank god
Got a ride from jorene's dad, bless them
And then got splashed by a bus hahaha luckily it wasnt a big puddle
More trainings upcoming, things are still creeping up at the back of my mind but honestly if I cant do anything about it i'll just have to reposition the priorities in my life.
(ok why so emo things can and will be settled)
Here's to a better day ahead!
Goodnight sweetdreams
(ok why so emo things can and will be settled)
Here's to a better day ahead!
Goodnight sweetdreams
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12.48pm
12.48pm
Im glad I woke up too early again because it meant I left time for nothingness which is so necessary especially seeing my agenda for the next few days (and weeks let's be honest)
So I am going to have lunch, get ready and then head to the bank before rolling to school for a short training session
Ok hopefully that works out hahahah k have a lovely day ahead, all of us!
So I am going to have lunch, get ready and then head to the bank before rolling to school for a short training session
Ok hopefully that works out hahahah k have a lovely day ahead, all of us!
right place, right time.
fate is never wrong,
but sometimes it requires nudging,
And cold hard faith
fate is never wrong,
but sometimes it requires nudging,
And cold hard faith
ps ew i cant believe i said bank what am i, an adult? no
//edit//
15.07pm
15.07pm
Ok la I cant expect the bad day yesterday to disappear just like that, it has to fade away somehow so let's hope whatever happened earlier today were the remnants of it.
//edit//
16.36pm
Guys, it's not getting any better.
I don't know what it is, but it's making me stop in my tracks.
It's bothering and it's making me so consumed and occupied that I can't think of anything proper.
It was a joke as of yesterday but right now it feels so real, almost like a personal attack.
But I know better than to give in to this demon of self-pity and worry.
I know my steps trudging forward and I will take those steps, even if it means I can't walk.
Even if it means hitchhiking with another person's kindness.
Even if it's being dragged across the mud by the enemies.
I'll get through it, I always do.
Keep me in your safe hands Oh Allah.
//edit//
23.19pm
Im walking home with headphones on and no music playing cause I can see signs that things are getting better slowly and im happy about it
Bless!
Didnt manage to do some important things today but insyaallah by tomorrow i'll settle everything and then proceed to have a burden free weekend (ok I foresee 2 to remain but still)
K I should not play my phone while crossing the road bye
(I had to mention that after the previous edit, Belvy came to where I was just to share a hug and spend time with me and that made me feel so lovely, can't thank you enough belvico! ♡)