It upsets me that people will do anything to go into University, including taking a course they have no interest in.
I get it, sometimes we sacrifice for the greater good; a better pay to fend for our families, and doing anything to break cycles.
But idk sometimes I just- wished people have more heart and courage to go for what they want, and give themselves time.
I know of some lovely families who never rushes their child, who believes that one day no matter what their kids do, it'd be for good.
And some families are more... I wouldn't say impatient but probably lack belief.
Im sure sometimes it's out of desperation but looking at the long run, I just hope whatever people do brings to themselves happiness, too.
See i'm always torn between believing in the paths paved out for us so much we walk into it blindly, and creating our own paths.
For now im just eternally grateful to be placed in a spot I have always wanted as a child, which both benefits me and Insyaallah my family and the society in the future.
Days like this makes me want to chokeslam myself for being so annoyingly procrastinative and complaininative in school-related stuff when I literally have no right to.
I'll keep trying, anyways.
Did I tell you I did my essay afterall?
Though I know it was pure bullcrap, and there was no content at all, it was all I managed for now.
Proposal is done for now unless it gets rejected bahaha...
I was asking myself why don't I do more of the things I love if I can help it, so with His will hopefully I want to begin tomorrow beautifully.
Aka solo secret project because Elephant will never wake up early and she might complain a lot.
Just one more essay to settle this week, and meetings aplenty as usual but i'm looking forward to a calmer week than the last one.
Yay to choosing positivity!
Have an amazing week ahead please takecare of thy healths!
