Real Eyes Realize Real Eyez

Hello!
Hahahaaa title has GOT TO GO
I know it's not the actual quote but hey.
Anyways I have come to realise one fact that kinda stops a lot of people from living a fulfilling, successful life, and that is the fact that we rarely, if not never, live in the present.
As much as it sounds like some sort of time travellish witchcraft here it's just all in our minds.
Like you know, when was the last time you actually stop your mind from going astray?
Like you'll just be staring into open space and idk, either reminiscing or imagining or planning.
You're just never present.
Being in the present is having your all at that particular moment.
Being able to observe and not only "attracted" by interesting events.
Oh how much time have I wasted in my thoughts (and the internet) that I forget that TODAY is the day to sieze.
That I can't wait for the 'right day' or time cause it'll never come unless we create and seek it ourselves.
(just hold up a second why am I getting all philosophical at 3.26am pfft)

One thing I dread more than being unable to fall asleep is waking up in the wee hours when you have school/work in like 3-4 hours, and you can't go back to sleep cause 1) You just can't 2) You're afraid to miss the alarm
Not always a bad thing though, sometimes it seems like my body's way of telling me to prepare my things early or something.
Anyways, now I can't fall asleep and as much as I resisted the tempation of whipping out my mobile device (the light from your phone makes it harder for humans to fall asleep) (or we can blame it on the apps hahahah) I just couldn't.
And before I try a meditation technique I just saw online, I figured I should blog first so as to keep my brain slightly active and perhaps reduce any chances of oversleeping.
(My logic. MY logic) hahahahaha

Anyways ya, it's my last day of work today and how apt is it that my last day of work coincides with christmas eve! (which means; Half day!)
And then off to KL in several hours time.
Ayy Im looking forward!
May god protect us throughout the trip and let us have a safe journey to and fro.
Amin!

Alrighty, since I have.. 2 and a half hours left before i'm obliged to get ready, I shall take Nikki bella's advice of "Having 2 hours of sleep is much better than none at all"
So... Good morning humans and all.
Adeu ^^

Something To Hold

Hello!
Hahah my title is so random like im holding nothing but bread right now.
(make that a super duper deliciouso bread omg idk where my dad bought it but damn son)
Alright it's tuesday!!
I surprisingly (not) (but quite) reached work at like 8.27 when I woke up late today hahaha but then I forgot my jacket.
It's ok, freezers gotta freeze....
(what am I, a fridge stocker?)
Oooh talking about stockers, christmas eve is tomorrow.
Me and wana are gonna miss our annual christmas party at grandpops D:
But for a great reason, we're heading to KL!

I was excited to see Ropie live but they got eliminated so i'll just take another photo with his cardboard cutout... :(
Only this time if Fazura ever walks by I won't ignore her like I ignored nora danish and luna maya HHAhHha I love me fazura.
Quite stoked as it's the first time i'm going with the fat banana who insisted to follow even though she doesn't follow MLM (LOZER)
So I hope the shopkeepers don't take a day off during christmas anyways it's a muslim majority so Pls stay open i'd appreciate that very much.
Alright, let me get back to my abandoned breakfast before I continue with my second last day of work.
Adeu ^^

ps im totally gonna miss this place and the colleagues omg

pps wait for me jep and zizan hehhehe

Plans Are Risks

Hello!
(wow I totally typed Hell9 instead)
Why am I even telling you hahahaha.
Ok so before I dive into the very fun JB trip, let me just share my current woes.
I've planned to revise and keep track of my homeworking works (mmhm) this holiday, since next year is A levels year.
And I don't want to give my motivation any chances to die out.
But heck, i'm not even down with one assignment.
I mostly attribute it to my job.
But then again, if there's a will, there's always a way, right?
I mean if we really want something, we'd do anything to get it.
If I truly want to revise, who cares if I do it in the bus, (despite the headache), the toilet, or wherever?
Honestly speaking I did, of course, plan to bring my study materials to work and perhaps steal some study time.
A big fat but though, (wah redundant) my job itself requires dealing with books and worse still, E-books!
Yas I do have some sentiments against E-books hahaha I love me some physical copies ok.
Which means my eyes hurt SO bad after every page.
Not to mention the fact that I have to face the computer for like what, 7 hours.
So to take a break from books by reading books?
I dont think so.
Hahahaha not safe for my health ok.
See, excuses again hahaha.
Ok whatever.
*Plays It's my life by Bon Jovi*
(wait I heard demi lovato's name on the tv what)

Alright I know 3 minutes ago I said that i'd share my JB trip but I decided to go somewhere else.
I hate school already and school haven't even started pfft.
Be right back!
Adeu ^^

ps anyone who mentions school outside of school deserves/are asking to be punched

pps miss my choir so bad

Out And Away

Hello!
Friday night beneath the stars~
In the field behind your yard~
Gahahahahah currently at grammy's place.
Should really be asleep!
Just stoked for the next few days ;)

Had a pleasant day at work today!
I forgot to bring my jacket and suddenly Aunty khai came and lent me hers.
And then I almost fell asleep when Aunty fit came and gave me chocolate hahahahaha.
Such sweet humans they are, bless them!
Okay yep I really should be asleep.
Hope everyone has a great weekend, takecare!
Adeu ^^

ps checkout demi's new MV with olly murs that song is just boss

Quirky

Hello!
So I had a pleasant week so far!
Met mama at vivo after work yesterday for dinner.
Can I please commend the service at secret recipe like they were prompt, polite and importantly, they served with a smile
Perhaps the two pizza hut outlets I went to last month can learn a few things about customer service, given that we pay the same 10%.
Got two pairs of shoes (finally found hookless wedges) at a steal alongside a few multipurpose mineral eyeshadows.
Now I just need to go out more (hahaha what kind of logic is this)
Reached home a lil before midnight.
Christmas sales are legit insane I need to stay home more.
And save some for the malaysia trip.
Ahh yes, there's the stokeness!
I'll be going to Johor over the weekends, like after how many months of not Malaysiaing.
Hahahah feels exciting!
May god ease our affairs there, Amin!
Anywhere is fun with the right company and I know my STYLO won't disappoint ;)

Occupied myself with crashcourse, Vsauce and other Sciency videos at work cause I was so sleepy for whatever reason (I think im bored of the work already hahahah but i'll survive)
I've always loved science, but not a specific subject like chem or physics or bio.
(It's a given that for a matter to be of my interest, it MUST be mathless)
I like different things from the different branches of science.
Like i'm interested in some degree of astronomy, some interesting physics laws, the human brain and much more.
I have, of course, thought of working in the science stream like idk i'd be happy with anything I mean scientists (at least the ones studying the things i'm interested in) have a pretty rad job.
But I don't think i'll enjoy having to learn unneeded (in my book) things just to be tested and forgotten again so bye bye my sciency side, not today.
Hahahah
But i'll allways feed my brain with these knowledge just to satiate my inner scientist.

Ok how did I divert so far hahaha.
I need to find new ways to occupy myself at work!
I have tried music, raja lawak, WWE, movies and IDK pretty much everything.
So I need a new accompaniment.
Hahahaha accompaniment.
Ok I'll go back to reading where I left off.
Have a great wednesday humans and all!
Adeu ^^

ps on wednesdays, we dont wear pink. never.

pps currently reading subhas anandan's "the best I could" and it's real interesting.

Phoneless

Hello!
Had a productive Friday!
Woke up in the morning feeling like M nasir and then got dragged (not really I kinda walked) to toa payoh by mama.
Had a great brunch and then went to my school (eww) for awhile and when I say awhile I mean AWHILE.
(now the word awhile looks weird like is there a space in between a and while or not I am disturbed)
Ok whatevs, we then went to catch Pyramid at JEM!
See, i've always wanted to explore the insides of a pyramid, to check out the ancient tombs, see sarcophaguses and decipher ancient writings.
Also trying to reveal and find entrances to secret doorways, escape death traps and trying to leave that giant maze of danger.
Sounds thrilling right but the movie made me realise that hahahahahha there is no way out (WWE mode)
Even if there is, the fact that many different roads lead you back to the same chamber and having to crawl through dark, dark tunnels which we have no idea what lies on the other side and best of all, knowing that you're not in there alone makes the whole experience disturbing.
So shall I spoil the movie for you?
Nehhhhhhh
But yeah I shall
In the end....
A little boy came and ignored a woman's plea for help and went to grab her camera instead hahahahahahahaha
What a loserly move, kiddo.
(no worries this isn't even the climatic ending)
Ok then we went to toa payoh again and I got to buy my coral lipstick finally!
We headed to SAFRA after dinner to bowl.
After what felt like forever hahahahah and I won the first round duh.
Second round I gave chance la so anga won bleah.
Chiqa's first time wearing bowling shoes! Hahahaha so cute
And she did quite well (she gave us her princess powers resulted in our few spares)

Reached home around 11.45 and ofcourse, I rushed to watch MLM
Laughing alone at 1.50am in the morning is like my friday routine ahahhaah.
Alright, today would be another productive day, if god wills!

Despite the myriad of horrible grammar and vocabulary you read in the previous sentences, I had a great day.
(dont mind me, my brain is not in its english mood today)
Hope yall had an amazing day too!
Now, go enjoy your weekends!
Adeu ^^

Fresher

Hello!
Feeling rather inspired and relaxed today, albeit a little sleepless.
Working in the office makes me feel so constricted and bored like ok I have only been doing this for less than a month now, how do these people stay 15 years in the same company doing the same thing sitting on the same desk :O
I am legit curious.
It feels horrible to leave home just after sunrise and reach home after sunset and being stuck in the office for the hours in between.
I understand that work is indeed a must but IDK I guess the thought of doing one job at one place bores me.

Went to esplanade after work to meet mama and my sisters hahaha they wanted to walk around.
Had an intense game of UNO and Snap at merlion park and headed home around 10.45pm.
Now i'm wide awake.

MLM in several hours time and seeing people go on holiday makes me feel stoked muahaha.
Updates on that "stokeness" will be posted soooooooon when i'm ready (cehh whatever eh hahaha)
Alright, may tomorrow (today, technically) be a better day than before, may we be blessed with abundance and health.
In sha allah, Amin.
Sweetdreams of brock lesnar, every human. (sorry)
Adeu ^^

ps why is my instagram not working well pfft whatevs

What A Marvelous Tune

Hello!
My healthy eating plan is failing miserably.
Didn't even last a day hahahahaha maybe not the right time.
Okay whatevs.
Along treated us dinner yesterday (yay)
Forever eating prawn aglio I am still trying to figure out why how when what (dont they have anything else on the menu well if they do I just dont see it)
And pizza hut service sucks 78% of the time, so I wonder why the heck do we pay 10% for service when it sucks.
Why am I inculcating Mathematics into my posts?
Ew.

Anywhoo, Jep's new instavideo makes me sad that Soep doesn't have an album like WHY what art thy waiting for, the dude's superb!
And this week's MLM theme is Parody so I expect something great from everyone!
(ceh contradicting myself when I said comedy isnt about expectations hahaha trust me I am 799% kidding)
(about expecting something great from everyone)
They'll deliver.
I believe in them!

Ahh, I have been more sleepier at work lately.
Guess i'm getting too comfortable!
On my fourth book and though this book is easy to work with, its rudeness comes in the form of having 200 pages in ONE chapter.
The previous books had like maximum of 70 (idk just shoot any numero here) pages in one chapter so this is a challenge.
Ok this is pointless.
(duh it's not a pencil)
(im out of point aren't I)
I shall go now and do something.
I don't like how fullstops looks they look so... Definite, so inflexible.
But who cares!
Alright, have a great slumber, sweetdreams of mary poppins (what am I talking about)
Adeu ^^

ps im looking forward to the weekends yet embracing each work day!

Sunday Night

Hello!
Just felt like blogging before I sleep.
(im lying sorry I just need to waste 10 mins waiting for this face mask to dry up)
Had a great weekend actually, it was so peaceful.
Yesterday I had the house all to myself till 3am when along came home hahaha.
I movie marathoned Harry potter (stopped at goblet of fire) and finally got to watch the new Astro ceria telemovie.
Not too impressive but enjoyed it nonetheless, Nabil was hillarious.

Spent half of today derping around, cooked for mama and along and then did some wardrobe cleaning.
Then mama felt like walking around town to see the christmas lights so we left the house after maghrib.
Enjoyed immersing ourselves into the (quite) festive atmosphere and adoring (packaged with endless touristy poses) with the trees, lights, fairies and unicorns.
Sidetracking for awhile, Chiqa just called me a doughnut after I told her I cant talk to her cause of the mask.
Ok baby ok.
We walked from Orchard mrt to Plaza Sing for our dinner.
Tried the new pizza from pizza hut oMG the cheese is boss.
So perfectly baked grilled whatever they did to the cheese sooo savoury.
Anyway, finally got around to buying my 'healthy food' ingredients (just experimenting) and hair oil after months of forgetting.
(Done with serum for the time being)
Alright, I shall go to sleep soon.
Have a great night, sweet dreams humans and all!
Adeu ^^

ps if you show kindness to others, may you get repaid with an even greater kindness

ps it's good to be cautious but it's better to be morally upright

Weekend

Life's what you make it so let's make it rock

Hello!

My plans to have a solo outing foiled, (no) thanks to the rain.

I mean I can totally go out and play in the rain but there's lightening I wouldn't risk my life.

Jk I just found something to do indoors that doesn't include youtube or instagram.

Or facebook.

I had a pretty nice week, colleagues are great as usual, but I have been getting less sleep.

MLM yesterday and from the previous years, the Retro theme has never failed to bore humans and stress contestants.

So I REALLY wonder who's the mastermind to come up with such a GREAT theme.

A challenge is a challenge but if tried, tested and never worked, why bother?

Dudes gotta chill the heck down and think HARDER and with more creativity.

Nabil was impressive though, so was Zero.

Sepahtu was so weird hahaha but I liked it a lot.

Comey, Bocey and SYJ were not bad at all, but perhaps the delivery wasn't too clear.

Still made me crack up!

Virus apparently didn't live up to "people's expectations" but then again, since when was comedy about expectations?

Being unexpected is what makes comedy amaizing.

I got so many plans, hopefully the weather cooperates with me.

But it's okeh (jozan style), we'll make the best of what we get.

 

Went cycling with yol last saturday and it was so fun and tiring cause we ended up buying mofoish clothes and city plaza and then travelled to jurong for more walking and dinner (treat by her aunt I think omg thanks)

Alright, my fingers hurt somehow.

Adeu ^^

ps have fun mama!

Bring It ON

Hello!
Just saw instagram, Pak ya is hospitalised, so probably Jep and Shuib duoing tomorrow!
Whatever it is, I believe in them.
If Zizan can perform for Jozan, so can Sepahtu for... Sepahtu.
Hahaha.

And they got new shoes.
So Jep are you finally waving goodbye to the black shoes??
We'll wait and see
And he is seen wearing that grey sweatpants again (I think he knows he looks good in it so why not)
Or maybe it was pure coincidence.
Hahaha whatevs!

I have school tomorrow, bleagh.
But ok since we're doing drama.
Just... No PT pls I really hate running I'd rather climb mount everest equiptmentless.

Had a tiring day at work (the new book is so fat) but then went to clementi with papa.
Alright, goodnight, sweetdreams humans and all!
Adeu ^^

After Midnight

(my workplace)
Hello!
Let's just take a second to celebrate the fact that 'Bae' wasn't chosen as the word of the year.
Hahaha ok sleeptime.
Goodnight, sweetdreams, humans.
Adeu ^^

SOS

Hello!
Woke up late today ahaha my phone kinda died and then I got stuck in the middle of NUS (luckily a taxi uncle was dropping a human off so I got a ride hey)
And then I took the wrong bus home and I got locked out of my house for half hour or so.
But honestly, today wasn't a bad day at all!
I got great colleagues who baked lemon cupcakes (tastes grand, lina) and a great papa who sent lunch to me.
And a great mama for preparing dinner.
But I attribute my lack-of-annoyment (WARNING: WORD DOES NOT EXIST IN THE REAL WORLD) to the starting of MLM.

Omg did I tell you this?
My phone got thrown down the rubbish chute.
No thanks to WANA luckily she was the birthday girl so she didn't end up bald right there and then.
After dinner she was in charge of clearing the food so at first I was annoyed that she threw away my (more than) half filled red bull.
Then a few minutes later I realised my phone was.....
"WANA DID YOU CHECK THE NEWSPAPER BEFORE YOU WRAPPED AND THREW IT?"
"No, I told you the redbull can was empty"
"It is SO not. Anyway, where's my phone?"
"How should I know?!"
"I put it on the.... OH MY DIOR DID YOU THROW AWAY MY PHONE? YOU.. YOU.. LOSER!!"
As eloquent as I think myself to be, swearing just doesn't come.
But insults do though, original ones.
You look like a lemon who just ate a lemon.
Oh look I just made that up.
Hahah ok anyways my reaction was that I just sat infront of the TV (sepahtu was on tv)
I was not angry cause firstly, obviously it wasn't on purpose
Secondly, I was gonna change to a new phone anyways.
Thirdly, what's done is done.
But then seeing Jep on TV makes me realise I still have our selfie in the phone.
(im just kidding this isnt the reason i went to find my phone afterall)
So me and wana went down to the rubbish chute and luckily, right on top of the pile, safely wrapped in newspaper and tied in a plastic bag, my phone.
I love it more now somehow.
That was an interesting experience.
Even better, I didn't have to do the dirty work.
The loser did it.

Anyway I have school tomorrow, can you believe it?
Had to take leave from work.
Heard Feera is unwell.
Oh babe, without you i'd be so bored.
Thank god for Isreen.
Talking about Feera, ughhh Taufik.
I have no idea why i've been listening to his music all morning.
I think being a MLM judge makes him 300% more... Noticeable.
I've always been a fan of his voice and some of his songs are nice but i've never been a... (what do they call it...) fan.
Too much fangirls, lazy to compete.
Hahahaha just kidding.
But just imagine though, if I had been a Taufik fangirl since SG idol.
I would go to MLM and cry cause we are not chameleons and our eyes cannot look at two different directions at once.
(they'll all technically be infront of me but whatevs)
Like I have Jep to stare at, and now Zang, and ofcourse Fazura (nah why would I stare at her that's creepy and weird)
Alright, i'm off track.
Though I never had a track.
Hahahaha.
I'd better fall into a slumber lest I arise late.
Goodnight everything and everyone.
Adeu ^^

The heat is back on

HELLO!

Just done watching the first week of Maharaja lawak MEGAAA (dato AC style)

They were impressive, like all of them!

The two least funny one got eliminated but kudos for trying!

(Kepoh and Sayot)

I love love the judges, (maybe i'm biased cause I love fazura but who cares)

Wasn't so sure about taufik but his comments were quite constructive and to-the-point which I really like.

Overall they didn't disappoint one bit.

Had a major laughing workout tonight, thanks superheroes!

And can I just mention how jozan is technically sponsoring MLM.

Like kitkat and Johara hahaha amaizing.

And don't get me started on these two.

Drumroll....

Missed seeing them on stage and guys Jep mentioned Hulk hogan ahahahais :')

Virus is undeniable i'm sure they'll be the ones breaking our funny bones yall.

And these guys look amazing my feels are just bursting through the rooftop.

Okay exaggeration hahahha (not really)

Alright, my day at work was literally fulfilling.

People kept coming to give me food omg i'm so thankful for these people around me.

My mentor bought me breakfast and lunch "in case" I forgot to bring mine.

God bless their niceness!

(ya like that's a real word)

(who cares)

Went home and cut the cake for wana and anga's birthday!

Happy birthday fat twins (twins... 8 years apart)

Have a great day everyone

Adeu ^^

ps im not letting you out of my sight jep sepahtu hahahah great job tonight, your charisma never fails

pps im forever yelling "MEGAAA" and "Peace Yo" with dato AC, love his hosting

Polled Apart

Hello!
Out of title ideas so I used a SWAC episode title.
Hahaha okay just confessing, I listen to SWAC episodes while doing my work.
Who doesn't do that right...
(err, lotsa people)
Hahaha anyways I am here to just splurt random things.

Let's start with Devonne by Demi have you guys even seen the packaging I am obsessed



It's purple for crying out loud.
But international shipping starts next year (international, not worldwide?)

And hmm bad jam at clementi today bleargh it took forevuh but luckily yol and soep were entertaining me at whatsapp.
And trust me they were entertaining.
Hahaha

Okay what about the fact that MLM2014 starts TOMORROW?!
I am SO stoked to see my heroes, my penyelamat lawaks!
Last year I think Nabil, Shiro, SYJ, Comey and Bocey stood out.
(Ofcourse my Sepahtu and Jambu was amaizing I didnt have to mention this)
So this year I am pinning hopes on every single contestants!
Special mention though: Goodluck Virus and Sepahtu!
Finally seeing Zang again on stage.
Johan next year okay (and have a safe delivery ozlynn)

And people have to stop making stupid people famous.
No matter how much I avoid these stupid things there will always be someone in my circle who gets hooked and keeps doing it and disturbing my peace.
I don't hate any of these people fyi the only things I hate in life is maths, pink, and kpop.
But you knew that.
Gangnam freaking style was the single MOST ANNOYING phenomenon to EVER occur on earth.
Seriously hate that season everywhere I went that song was playing I almost broke every single radio.
And when it got a billion views on youtube it made me despise humans like REALLY you guys watch that video????
Ok whatever!
Nicki minaj (This lady is talented I agree but bleargh, after listening to her collab songs with other artistes I feel like rewriting all her song lyrics even though I have never heard a nicki minaj song)
Doesn't help that she has a song that degrades my religion.
And her image someone just please bubblewrap her.
Wait no, aluminium foil this person.
Just make her go away.
That solero girl from malaysia.
Ok so she does a stupid thing, and suddenly she's an actress.
Big whoop and WHO made her and the other humans famous?
US
(just trynna be inclusive here)
And losers who spends all their time on the internet.
OmG I am rambling I was supposed to talk about something else
Dont take these to heart (actually feel free to do so) im just ranting for no apparent reason I am very happy with my life thank you.
And my idols are doing idoly things.
Just sayin'.

Taylor swift's new album is pretty bad...
Probably that's why the promotional efforts are extravagant.
I actually like her music, my favourite album of hers was the Red album.
But when I heard the songs in 1989 (or something) I was disappointed.
Whatever.
Life goes on.
Hopefully Demi's new album next year will not disappoint me (though this is unlikely it might happen but as long as demi writes her own song she's good to go)

Talking about Demi, her mental health programme thing is rather interesting.
Since i've always dreamt of being a psychologist (one of my dreams hahaha) this topic is intruguing.
Go Dems!

ps the MLM fever is making me miss the KL trips with Aura ladies!

pps saw 2 white vellfires today... Hi Jep

Trippy

Hello!
So I googled what it means when you dream of being given a pen and the results were that I was going to gain new knowledge and/or skills.
And ya I guess it was true cause I did learn new things yesterday!
Pretty cool huh ;)
I got nothing much to say except I need to rest my eyes and I still dislike the travel time back home.
Hahaaah okay
Adeu ^^

New

Hello!
Despite a (very) weird dream last night, I had a pretty good day today!
Tiring, but still okay.
I dreamt about a schoolmate I never talked to before and the person gave me a pen (???)
I know right, weird.
Hahaha okay maybe I somehow borrowed their pen and forgot to return (even though i've never spoken to that person)
Whatevs

So today was my first day at work!
The bus ride in the morning was so peaceful and since it drives past esplanade and town it's a real nice ride.
And it isn't crowded which is nice.
Met my dad at seah im and then took the bus where the driver took a wrong turn cause she thought she was driving another number hahaha.
Got introduced to Aunty khairina who then introduced me to everyone else.
They're pretty nice people! (even the boss)
Makes me feel so welcome and like hakuna matata hahahah (what is this inappopriate use of life motto)
Learnt that my job is to edit and wow does it hurt my eyes but hey it's not bad I actually enjoy it.
Like I was watching SWAC while doing my work hahaha.
Lunchtime came and the canteen was quite far away but it let me explore the place.
The staffrooms were literally rooms like individual rooms for each humans.
Uni students looks so big.
To think they're technically a year older than me is so trippy and weird.
And get this, NUS canteen food is cheaper (and nicer) than my school's.
So worked till 6 and went home~
Didnt really enjoy the travel back home though, it was peak hour so road was jammed (especially around ngee ann poly)

That sums up my day!
It was a blessing cause firstly, all the buses were so prompt I didn't have to wait more than 5 minutes for all the buses I took today (except that bus which made the wrong turn)
And I met real friendly colleagues who are just so warm and welcoming (though they kept getting my name wrong for the first few hours)
One of them even gave me a pair of flats that she bought but never wore cause she couldn't fit (welcome present anyone?)
Aunty Khairina who was there every step of the way and treated me to lunch.
I hope to pass on their kindness, and I hope anyone reading this will do too!
Adeu ^^

Most Annoying Things On The Radio

Hello!
Tonight I have two things to talk about.
Cehhh what is this introduction for hahahah.
Ok whatevs let's jump into it.

Firstly I was looking through (actually no I just saw it in my bag) the maths paper like two minutes ago.
I know, why hadn't I disposed of it?
Probably cause I haven't found a creative yet environmentally friendly way of disposing it.
Anyways yes I saw it and I realised that it is the first ever exam paper I didn't doodle/write nonsense in.
Save the applause.
It's weirdly proudenning (WARNING: Word does not exist in the real world)
Ok next!

Now this one deserves a title.
Most annoying things on the radio.
Technically on Warna cause it's the station my house plays.
(do you guys have that like just a radio switched on though noone actually listens)
Ok so three things annoys me most.
If you guys listen to Warna too then please tell me you find these annoying too.
If not then.... Whatevs.

1) "Cuti-Cuti Oren"
Like OH MY GOSH it is THE single most annoying weird pointless triset of words EVER existed! And the worst part? It's NEVER heard as a one time affair. It is always, ALWAYS repeated. Ugh why.

2) Ekspresso warna morning song
Ok I get it that Sufie has a nice voice, but this song has got to go. Doesn't help that he sounds so agressive, so it's like having someone forcing you to listen to the radio early in the morning. Nope, doesn't cheer my morning up.

3) Repetitive song
I am very sure most radio station are like this but I needed a third point hahaha. Ok so like at 2pm i'll be sitting eating on the dinner table and a song comes on so okay, cool I sing along. And then I go wash my plates, sit down for awhile and play my phone and then I find myself singing the same song again. (this might be a bit exaggerated but hey it happens) I'm just sitting there like "I thought the world has more songs than these" but nope they choose to play the same songs again and again. No thanks to you!

Okay so I just chopped off my fringe.
Regret will come later probably but for now i'm enjoying it fullheartedly.

ps watched demi's world tour videos and then watched camp rock, makes me so emotional seeing how far she has come

pps have been dancing to hsm for the past 300 weeks (maybe more)

Over and done

Hello!

We're so done with maths!

Let my alter ego show you my excitement

This means that holidays are FINALLY here

Stoked!

Have a good mooooovember ahead everyhuman!

(ooh das right I said everyhuman)

Adeu ^^

Identity

Hello!
Currently outside esplanade library, waiting for its grand opening
*coughs* sarcasm
Can't believe maths paper is tomorrow!
Like I don't even know what to feel and react.
Ha ha ha
Ok hopefully when I look back at this post like 8 years from now i'll be like "Haha why am I even worrying"
But for now it's ok I need to give my remaining all.
And then i'll be maths free.

Anyways good morning!
It's such a beautiful morning.
Go do something, paint or dance whatever just go do something
Don't waste such a great day.
Adeu ^^

Lost Focus

Hello!
Shagged for no reason.
Hahaha.
I CANT FOCUS ON MY WORK!
It's like i'll be facing my papers and then the flexi plan jingle comes on the radio and boom it's in my head for the next 3 hours.
Sooo annoying but ok lah who am I kidding it is catchy.
And doesn't help that I know the dance moves....
(spent like 15 minutes outside courts watching a repeated video of the advertisement)
(and ya I danced with ika and yana)

Watched lilidong's OP earlier today haha.
Their ending was so cute.
Not as cute as flexi plan but a very close second.
And and Khaijo got promoted!
Happy for that goblin.

Moth paper on Thursday.
Half of me is like "can we postpone that shit" and the other half is like "YASSS it's gunna be over soon"
Conflicted yet again.
What I know is im not ready but i'll do all I can.
Failing is not an option.

Let me end this post on a high note
It's a brand new week!
New chances to redeem, renew, reach.
All the 're' words.
Reuse, reduce, recycle.
Whatever else you wanna do.
Do it!
(how is this a high note)
(oh well)
Adeu ^^

ps seriously maths can just eat itself and evaporate into darkness I don't want to be associated with you ever ever EVER.

Booya-bye?

Such a sad day.

Though I knew it was coming I dreaded the day I read this headline.

He's really leaving....

Argh way to go reyrey.

Rey rey where do I start.

He's a superhero to millions of people out there.

I don't even know when I started liking him.

What I know is as a child, i'd always love it when he enters and wrestles against the bigger athletes.

He's the epitome of 'impossible is nothing'

You've had a great run.

Love u always, plsssss come back sometime.

Goodbye just means till I see you again.

Adeu

whatcha gonna do when he comes for you?

Chemistry

Hello!
I wanted to blog yesterday but stopped halfway and realised the draft is gone.
Hahaha tsokay.
Remember the time I told you Demi needs to try dirty green on her hair?


That settles it, it's proven that she can hear me (or she reads my blog) and that she is my ultimate alter ego.

Last day of school yesterday and it was so slack.
Almost too slacked.
Whole day was free and easy.
Started the day with OP and spent the rest of the day watching DW's group and then lepaking.
OP was fun like I always imagined it to be.
PW was fun.
Don't get why the teachers try to stress us up since day 1 when it's actually an enjoyable experience.
I'm gonna miss rehearsals hahaha.
And I wonder if I can still memorize my script next year?
Whatevs.

Happy Thursday of the year!
First two weeks of november is gonna be so hectic.
I got to go to school to watch my homies, and yet the job starts on monday.
This is an ultimate dilemma that i'm facing.
Like I promised to help out on the job but I didn't know when it was gonna start (they could only confirm nearing the date)
And I obviously want to go to my classmates' presentation.
Oh god please show me the way.
Thursday is the math paper.
And all this during the holidays.
Wow

Spent the whole night last night tilll midnight watching jozan videos on the ps3 cause seeing Jozan on my TV makes me high.
(not the illegal way)
Maharaja Lawak Mega 2014 has started with the hotseat!
Man is in sia hahahah I watched the videos and hey, they're not bad at all!
Ofcourse, like thousands out there I can't wait for the veterans.
But still, the newbies deserve a chance!

I missed spooktacular once again but it's okay, not much of a loss I guess.
I mean I spent 10 months this year in a place filled with zombies and corpses.
(ya, school)

Enjoy your holidays kiddos!
Adeu ^^

FINALLY

Hello!
Good, good news!
If yall hath been viewing this since the start of last year you'd have known how much I dread school.
And tomorrow is the last day of school!
*tears of joy*

Okay tomorrow is a big day for me.
May my groupmates' and my efforts pay off.
//Grammatically nonsensical as usual//
Adeu ^^

ps a week to moth A levels

pps how do we even measure readiness

TMMS

Hello!
So yes my title says TMMS
That's an abbreviation for Too Much Math Syndrome.
Side effects includes headaches (severe cases), obsession with numbers (can be curbed by burning calculators), tiredness, inability to speak properly, and much more.
Curable disease if you stop doing more maths.
But it's ok, really, no deaths are recorded from patients' records.
Just one more week to tahan!
And then guys I can finally live life MATH FREE
If I could I would've ended my math career like in kindergarten (more ideally when I was an embryo) but ugh.
It's ok it's ok a week more!

Had a chillaxing day at school cause it's like almost only PU2s present
Which is good because everywhere I went, it was empty xD
Reached home at 7.30 due to the OP rehearsal after school.
I think I am already too comfortable with my script, so much so that I feel like i'm reciting the pledge hahaha
The RTQ caught me off guard cause i've never thought of the question Ms Er asked, but I managed to bullshit (with, ofcourse, a lil' laughing spree for no reason lol)
I foresee a lot more of script recitation in days to come and so i'd have to learn to fall in love with my script all over again.

I probably have a holiday job waiting for me, which is weird and cool cause I've never really had a real job.
(DHL counts though, right? But it was more leisurely than jobly. But I still got paid. Whatevs ok it was a job)
//Sentence above consists of nonsensical grammar and spelling//

Got MLM2014 to look forward to!
And ofcourse to start working towards quality grades (hey i didnt spend 2 years in prison to get Cs and Ds ok).
Thankful for the extra year in MI though I really despise the school.
Okay, I really do feel dizzy.
Stupid numbers.
Adeu ^^

ps smile more, you look good

130 to goodbye

You, you, you
//ZL//

Dream Hair

Did you ever see dem's previous hair that lavender ombre THAT is what i'm talking about


She is like my... Pilot tester
She has done all my dream hair colours (solid blue, purple, coloured ombres EXCEPT PINK)
So now I need her to try dirty green hair.
It would look so ssssick!
Go dems i support you.

ps you can say anything you want about my husbands but sorry love is love i wont change my mindset (unless it comes from within cehhh)

pps i need more reyrey in muh life

Past Vs Present

Hello!
*Marcus butler style*
Hahaha I was reading my february 2013 archive and there was a post that said:
"I missed school for the first time today, woke up at 6.15... Lazy to rush"
Now i'm laughing hahaha like legit now I wake up at 6.30 with no rush.
Veteran already la hahah just hope the buses cooperate with me for the next months ahead.
(that is gramatically nonsensical)

Supposed to be on my way to meet my PW mates now but sorry not sorry i'm too engrossed to move.
Engrossed with what I don't know haahahah ok this makes no sense.
Perhaps i'd be going to ghaya's house late afternoon...
Alright, whatevs.
Have a grrrreat day ahead!
Adeu ^^

ps which alien took my portable charger

pps i will find u, and i will......take it back heheh

pps i notice most of the time i make grammatical or spelling error i'd point it out rather than backspacing to edit

Gratitude: MI So Far

Hello!
It's me again.
I feel like i'm being too... IDK spiteful towards the school.
But ok don't get me wrong I still hate the school and its system but there are still few notable worths.
(I'll try to think of some)
Umm ok firstly guys let me share the good news...


Me and my classmates are promoted!
I truly can't imagine life without their nonsense.
Thanks ok everyone though I (feel like I) always ignore everyone's existance.
I've always envied (not really just using this word for dramatic effects) the girl gangs around the school like damnn.
They found their girls, you get me?
No?
Ok let me try and rephrase.
Mose people here are experiencing what I experienced in secondary school, which I really am not sure if it's a good or bad thing.
For one, I have nothing much to look forward to school and ya I know studies are the main reason why we even bother to attend prison I mean school, but we still need motivation la.
(Atleast I do hahha booo.)
For some it's the timetable, or PE, or school food (umm not in my school probably ha ha ha)
Mostly it's their friends.
I mean ya i'm blessed with my homies naj, li an and a lot more but it just...feels different.
I loveeeee hanging out with them though hahaha our philisophical talks will NEVER get old xD
Best of luck for your H1s ladies xx

And ok honestly I can't think of anymore positive things about my school hahha.
Not sorry at all.
But ya why am I even talking about school.
Next week is the last week of school!
//Can thou heareth me scream//
Though I won't miss school when it ends, there are some faces I wished I could look at more.
No not you.
Hehehha what am I doing with my life.

PW presentation infront of the class and 2 OP assesors today!
Pretty chill affair but omg I burst out laughing in the middle of my presentation.
When the OP assesors were commenting they were like "Were you distracted by your classmates?"
And I was just like "No i'm distracted by myself"
Cause it's true hahahaha.
Ended up rapping the whole section sia no idea why I was going so fast.
Rest assured that's not my usual nonsense xD
RTQ was unexpected and I just kept mum the first (hopefully) minute to waste time but meh still loserly.
And the assesors comments were mostly contradicting against the previous OP assesors.
Ok ok one example that baffled us all:
Previously: Your slides colour scheme is very nice and attractive!
Just now: The slides colour scheme is not very nice and clear!
But there were, ofcourse, some constructive comments amidst the very long lecture.

My classmates were so nice though, they gave good comments and i'm thankful for that.
My groupmates did pretty well!
Group coordination deproved but individually wow they rocked it well.
Always thankful for god for allowng me to be put with my groupmates.
They've been very cooperative and innovative and most importantly, FUN!
Spent after-school with syaf who was doing her PW slides which are so nice I'm just like........
Yesssss.
And I just am not in sync with the class' updates but it's ok I don't feel at loss ha ha ha.

It's the weekends!
Ghaya texted me last week inviting me to her house for Deepavali tomorrow but my PW mates are having a last minute practice....
Oh dilemmas.

And just for the record, though I made it to year 3, my grades are unsatisfactory.
Despite the improvement i'm just here looking at my results like "REALLY?"
And no, not really.
Hopefully, next academic year will be a more productive, enchanced journey.
Adeu ^^

Why so serious

Hello!
In the midst of the craziness (not really) I have neglected thee.
Heheh.
Happy birthday Chiqa and Along!
May you both be blessed with longevity, wealth and happiness and be successful in whatever you choose to do!
We love you both!


Promotional exercise earlier today, I don't get why they have to turn it into such a serious affair.
Like some sort of court trial.
Weird school.
And want to know what's weirder?
Hahha tomorrow we are 'encouraged' to bring our own food cause the gas supply to the canteen is... Idk not supplied.
But whatever, it's pretty cool i've never experienced this before haha.

Anyways my group is selected to present infront of the class tomorrow.
Good practice probably hahaha.
And PE should I play PE.
Always a tough question to answer.
Hahaha kidding.
I'll probably play handball tomorrow!
Kinda miss it.
I've been like soccering and basketballing for the past 5 years but no handballing.

ANYWAYS yes hot news, Zizan is joining Jambu this MLM!
They'll be calling themselves "Virus" lol!
Amaizing combination, can't wait to see their masterpieces!
Hahaha okay, I shall peace out suckers!
Adeu ^^

Ps I made it

Pps Today was so drama queenish but it was cool

You steal like a pro

Hello!

Happy good weekend afternoon!

Had to ditch two plans today for family but it's really ok.

Happy advanced birthday lilidong and raudha!

And hope you have fun during your performance Ika!

I turned out to have a pretty chill Friday.

But when nighttime fell I started emoing.

Come on lah, love of my life is 300km away from me.

Hahaha....OK what matters is that I know he won!

I was viewing my google plus page. 

Never understood how it worked but oh well.

And I am currently listening to my (now private) warrior cover and cringing.

Why did i ever post that hahahaha.

It's okay though Demi pride always.

You know you're famous when people refer to something like: That sounds so taylor swift

Or: That looks like something Beyonce would wear.

Wow what a topic jump :O

It's cause I recently discovered an underground (not literally if I MUST mention) artiste who has like his own genre.

I'd probably hear something in the future and be like "This sounds so him"

I like it though.

I have been watching a lot of chick flicks recently.

Not surprising considering the fact that I have so much freetime (not supposed to but...oh who am I kidding I need the leisure)

What shall I be when I grow up...

Why can't I change jobs every month just cause it's more fun.

Wait who said I couldn't?

Ok then that settles it.

Waiting for the furniture man to come and bring the correct wood for the wardrobes.

Lol in the meanwhile I shall try and talk things out with the calculator.

Hopefully it agrees to work with me during the exam, in exchange for new batteries.

If not then I have to go the long way and.. practice.

Oh the horror.

Hahahahah i'm totally kidding.

Alright i'm hovering.

(but it's ok it's my blog anyways I can hover as long as I want to *like a UFO*)

Adeu ^^

Realization

Hello!

*sings* For the first time in forever i'm using a laptop to blog.

Just want to share how surreal it feels to know that the wrestlers are already in KL.

Jep and zizan better say hi to them for me if they see them.

Seeing pictures of them makes me cry more.

Ahaha jk i'm not a cryer

(WARNING: Word does not exist)

Anyways, I heard someone say that there'll be no PE today due to the haze, so me and Naj didn't bother to bring our costumes BUT alas, there is.

Promotional exercise next week probably, not really caught up on it cause i'm busy looking forward to the end of PW (this is the first time I mentioned PW in my blog cause Ms er said not to blog about it HAHAHA jk i'm not that obedient.)

(I'll blog about my journey after 2nd Novermber)

127 more posts to 619 posts, which means I have to start thinking of a new URL.

I've grown pretty attached to this blog (like i've said countless times before)

Okay I think I need to find something to do.

Adeu ^^

Booyakasha

Hello!
I may be smiling but inside I am dying...
This might be cliche but cmon I had to use it hahaha.


A week to WWE in KL guys....
Why D:
Was only yesterday I was trying to save up for the VIP ticket but alas, it didn't work xD
It's okay though, i'm sure they'll return to Singapore soon.
Adeu ^^

Ps 3 days weekend ;)

Set My Heart On Fire

Hello!
Sometimes i'm thankful that I wasn't born with a particular, distinctive accent.
Like what accent do Singaporeans even speak, Singaporean?
Lol Singlish is technically our vocabulary.
Ok why am I even talking about this.

Today's timetable was tiring.
(OMG I can't type properly today it's so annoying)
I had like 2 hours freetime in the morning followed by 4 periods of maths.
And then a break again followed by 2 periods of math.
Whatevs, it's thursday yall!
and October.
I was thinking of doing the 31 day challenge but... I probably won't commit as usual ha ha ha.
Guys did I mention that joe suggs is sooooo attractive like I don't even kid.
Probably not.
Good for yall to know.
Do boys even know they're cute or are they just conceited like that?
Hahaha.
I'm asking cause Troye keeps on winking while singing like i'm legit turning into a white girl cause i'm gonna say the three magic words: I can't even
Seriously though do they know how attractive they are or do they have no idea what they're doing?
It'll remain a mystery.

I finally had a good sleep last night after a week of no proper sleep.
It was niceeeeeeee.

Alright I shall go either consume dinner or do my maths.
I'm pretty motivated but seriously, that hatred and dread for maths will never go away.
Please please please brain keep up with my spirit.
I'll love you 5ever.... I love you like I love nutella....(almost)
K bye what is this.
Adeu ^^

Hole

Hello!
This post has a very... Weird title but hey.
The weekends are here!

Have you ever had those days where you have nothing important to do and you're just surfing the net (or youtube) and be like "Oh what's this show everyone's been raving about"
But then it's like 80 episodes so you're just like "Nope I shouldn't start"
Because you're scared of falling in a hole (does the title make sense now) that you can't get out of.
But you fail to resist that temptation.
Another round of fanwarrioring, this time with new people.
Ohh the pain.
Anyway I have been looking for new youtubers to watch and I am not ashamed to admit that I have found some old gold.
Ok that probably doesn't make any sense.
Like all these while, 70% of the youtubers I subscribe to are beauty and music channels.
So it's nice to find a group of new people.
On the downside though, I have been spending an immensely humongous time on youtube.
It's unhealthy because I have a major math exam coming up in about a month.
And i'm not great at math, so it means I actually have to spend all my time on it.
So, boo you all for distracting me.

(I think the voice in my brain is now british)
Alrighty, I have a baby sister to sit (not sit on her but I am kinda doing that; jk)
Adeu ^^

Reminiscence

Hello!
Had a night filled with feels.
Ah haha.
School starts tomorrow, I don't understand why they can't just start it next week.
Their eagerness to see us all again is suspicious.
Hahaha.
Whatevs, i'm definitely not looking forward for that.

I read back my old blog, this time goin further back in time.
Even though I cringe at my very... Embarassing posts, i'm very glad I kept that blog.
All the memories comes flooding back to me making me feel so nostalgic.
And apparently 14 year old me hated secondary school.
Well girl, i'm sure you wanna take back those words now xD
Pre-university life is much worse, and though it's the end of the second year, there isn't a single moment I can say I enjoyed.
Sad, huh?
If I could go back in time, i'd probably still complain about school, but what i'd do differently is not waste my time mixing with the wrong company, no matter how appealing it seems.
In the end, it really matters who we dedicate our hearts to.
Even though we say things like, "Making the wrong friends makes me realise who the real mates are" blablabla.
But the memories are not worth the hurt that comes with remembering, sadly.
Like Demi says, "Pain is more trouble than love is worth".
Sure I did have fun memories, sleepovers, outings, endless jokes and laughters.
But looking back it makes me more confused on how we loved and lost.
All of us went through changes and i'm happy to see us all grow into better people.
Even though a part of me regrets ending some friendships, I knew I made the right choice then, and I am still sure of it now.
There are days, ofcourse I wished I still have a group of girlfriends with me, making impromptu plans, crashing each others' place like it's our own, talking on the phone till late at night, complaining about school to each other, and just have each other's back.
But i'm sure there's a reason why these friendships don't last despite the effort put in.
And I regret not one bit.
I got a lot of things I haven't gotten closure for, and I have no idea how to ask for it.
Considering the fact that almost 3 years had gone by.
But I hope the closure comes, still.
No matter how long and tedious it might be.
Just thank you guys for making my secondary school life so impactful and well... Nice.
I appreciate all of you and I am sure the memories will stay with me for life.

Okay, emoness gone.
This sunday, SLFC tour at johor!
I gotta see number 8 score okay?!
The last time I saw him play he was pretty impressive so i'm looking forward to seeing him play again.
Though this time Johan is not coming...ugh.
Goodluck my hero, i'm sure you'll be the best one in the pitch, as usual ;)

And guys I truly miss rey mysterio I cannot put it into words I just... Haiseh


Besides that, nothing interesting other than an impromptu plan with wana on monday.
The good part about having a sister is that she is obligated to spend time with you.
Who cares if she has plans with her friends, I come first.
No more worries about who to ask along cause she is forced to.
Had a makeover and floated around.
Fun night!

Alright, I have not been feeling sleepy since the weekends, quite worrying.
But I still sleep though, the difference is I fall asleep at 9am and wake up at 11am.
Or 2pm.
Depends on my body alarm.
I think i'm gonna regret not appreciating the break by resting...
Once school starts i'm pretty sure i'll curse myself xD
Ok what am I, a witch?
Bleargh.
Okay it's 8.08am and I'll... Try not to fall asleep.
Adeu ^^

Hold On

Hello!
Today was just not the best.
I blame it on myself for leaving the house after an all nighter, which made me super lethargic.
But I needed the morning sun and air so wha-heck.
Went to accompany mama for Chiqa's appointment at KK.
Though I missed the bus stop but luckily transit nearby was easy.
Omg...the therapy room has like mats and gymnastics equipments I couldn't help myself.
It was so much fun in there xD
I balanced on a cylinder lying by its side and on a ball.
Ok did I really have to say that.
Ahh, wha-heck, for memory sake xD
And had an appeasing breakfast!
Though I was pretty annoyed with the bus home for taking so long to come, i got to sleep at Chiqa's school for a while lol.
*sings* Gratitudeeee!

I'm feeling quite unmotivated right now.
Quite very.
Ahaha.
It's my last two papers tomorrow but I am...
Ahh forget it.

I just came across this blog post where this girl was raving about how lucky she was to have friends to help her survive school.
They're there for her to find comfort in, they're there to fight the battle together.
And then she mentions that loneliness is a dangerous place to be.
And I totally agree.
Too much time spent alone might trigger more negative than positive thoughts, and in the long run might influence your mindset and actions.
And anyway everyone needs a support system, be it family, pets, your online life or friends.
Just remember, always try to put in effort to be inclusive.
Try not to let someone stay alone especially when you have the means to include.
Most of the time people don't choose to be lonely.
I mean ofcourse some people have those days and others just prefer being alone.
But it's always nice to try!

The outcome of each day depends on you.
Your reaction to things, your mindset, your spirit.
If my day today was represented in a graph, the line would not be totally stagnant, why?
Because I keep a constant effort to pick myself up.
Be grateful for the simplest things and really, sometimes, it's not a loss to overlook others' mistakes and shortcomings.
Everyone on earth fights battles, it's just the level of extremity that differs.
We're all given the same weapons; our heart, mind and soul.
Depending on how wisely we use it, we all triumph daily.
This is why sometimes I truly don't understand why people treat strangers so differently than how they would treat their friends.
I mean regarding general things like...
Okay imagine a stranger knocks into you in the bus, you're bound to feel annoyed and mad at how dumb the person is.
But if it turns out that your friend was the person, you'd most probably shrug it off and move on.
Why?
You really think the people you don't know go around with the intention of 'Knocking down atleast 3 people today'?
No they don't.
Which leads to another point; WHY the heck is "I forgot" such a punishable excuse?
Hello, humans are humans.
We err, we forget.
I don't think anyone walks into class purposefully 'forgetting' to do their homeworks when they know they're gonna get into trouble for that.
It's probably because this excuse is used too conveniently, but still it doesn't make sense to punish someone for forgetting.
Don't even try to talk about responsibility and shit cause I have totally considered that but like I said, forgetting is a genuine mistake
Okay, whatever.

I feel so sleep deprived (ok I should stop complaining) (Wait it is my blog I made this to complain here) (ok fine)
But I can't afford to sleep tonight.
There's a...friendly looking pile of notes waiting for me to flip through and memorize.
Sometimes I wished I was spongebob so I can just absorb the information and squeeze them out during exams.
Of course that'd look weird but it's worth the good grade.
Hahaha.
Alright, I gotta get down and dirty with people who are fighting for independence from 1876, (that was a random year) and William Shakespeare.
Okay then, it's 10.37pm I shall not push my luck any further.
Adeu ^^

ps Get well soon mama

How To Move On

Hello!
Urm dont be disappointed that this post is not about love...
Hahaha no link.
Just wanna say that today's paper sucks (technically yesterday since it's 4am but the sun is not out yet so...)
I wasted 1 and a half hour doing nothing i dont even know why!
*cries*
I was left with like 5 questions when the teacher announced we had 15 minutes left and dayum that felt horrible.
Still hoping for a pass though.
Boooo!
This is the first time I ever not completed an exam paper so... It felt extra bad.
But on the bright side, I have no school today.
And thursday would be my last payper *jozan style* (not sorry, I had to)

Argh im so annoyed at how stagnant my life is I should really go out and do things and not wait for things to happen to me.
My mind has always been a wanderer but physically i'm just doing the same old things.
This is almost like a new years' resolution except it's more like a post-exam resolution.
But then again, who cares.
Exams or no exams, if the dream is a callin' I shall get up and... Rollin'.
Just trynna make that sound catchy.
Kinda works, don't you think?
Hahaha.
Alrighty, I don't know if I should go to sleep.
It's 5am, I don't have anything to do, (okay actually I have to revise but come on)

Oh yes! Before I stop let me share something.
I saw this article with a screenshot of a JC/University graduate who was insulting ITE students.
Bad? Yes ofcourse.
And then the comments, wow the comments.
The public unites to slam this JC girl, and not only that, they begin to slam JC students.
Wow big whooop.
They say "ITE students are more street smart, more hands on, and you university graduates will only be slaves to the ITE kids in the future."
"Even the government is focusing on poly and ITE graduates, who cares about JC kids?"
None, and I mean NONE of the comments tried to nuance things out and at least attempt to acknowledge that even though this JC girl did something offensive and downright wrong, they didn't have to retaliate and demean the JC students just to make themselves feel better.
Now in the neutral public's eye, it seems like the people rooting for the ITE students are being more offensive than the original post itself.
So lesson learnt?
Noone cares if you're a JC or ITE graduate, only the employers do.
(and of course those rigid parents who would possibly disown a child for not attaining a degree)
Both education systems have their pros and cons and I don't even need to mention this shiz.
It's common sense.
So, let me go and watch videos of harith iskander because I feel like it.
Adeu ^^

Hearty Laughter

Hello!
We ended up going to vivo city, where we ate my all time favourite (not really, I just eat nothing else at seah im) beef phad thai!
Then we went to singtel and bought samsung S4 and S5 cause I can't decide which.
Ha ha ha kidding it was for my other family members.
I also want but I love my phone too much.
Whatevs xD
So... I did go to Sentosa again!
To catch the street buskers ofcourse!
On Friday there was a larger crowd but it still wasn't that crowded.
I caught a glimpse of a beatboxer called Pay-by-nets but didn't stop to watch cause we were on the way to 7-11...
Lol no link, I know, whatevs.
We got to catch Aerial manx, he was balancing a ball and a hat on his body.
I mean it's not really balancing, it's like those items were dancing on him (Sounds so weird and unflattering but I promise he is the bomb)
He juggled fire and lit a whip on fire, and for the finale?
He swallowed a sword, did a cartwheel AND a backflip while the sword was like 2cm away from his lungs and 2.5cm away from his heart (amazing stuff right here I felt like clapping till my hands fall off)
Apparently he got a guinness world record for this!
Truly, truly left the audience in awe!
And Mr Spin show, a very funny dude who juggles bats with a glass of water on his bald head while riding a really tall unicycle (impressive is an understatement!)
And the J show, the dude rocks his ping pong balls but I didn't get to watch his full performance cause my sisters wanted to go home bleahh.

Spend the weekends at home, plans to study obviously foiled boohoo.
Noone to blame but myself...
You know why?!
Cause I was watching bubzbeauty's honeymoon videos (IDK WHY I DID BUT I DIDNT REGRET ONE BIT)
Tahiti has always been my dream holiday destination! (aside from Maldives, ofcourse)
And like, most people go to Paris and stuff for their honeymoon but bubz and tim's honeymoon is like precisely whatever I had dreamt of as a kid (no dont even think anything kids can dream ok)
Except the cruise part though, never thought of honeymooning on a cruise but still it was amazing.

Ok for a student who is gonna take her history exam in less than 8 hours time I am too off track.
I just can't fall asleep...
I'm actually sleeping over at my aunt's place, she just gave me my belated birthday present ehehehe.

Meeting Yol tomorrow for a movie and apprently she's giving me my present too!
And guys get this; I still havent given her the gift I bought her last year cause 1) I have NO idea where I put it 2) I cannot find it till now.
And I didn't think I ever would, but I actually missed hanging out with her.
She has been so MIA from my life since fasting month but I don't really go to approach her since it's her A levels year.
Whatevs just leave that toyol alone for like 2 more months hahaha.

Exams are ending soon, tomorrow is my International history paper (think Cold war, Korean war, Global economy and China economy).
Tuesday would be my 2nd MOB paper.
Wednesday is a self-declared holiday (muahaha)
And Thursday would be my Southeast Asian history (think ASEAN, AFC and colonial masters) and my 2nd lit paper.
And i'll be done (for like two days) before I start my intensive moth revision and PW final lap!

I'm contemplating to go to the living room and join mak yah who is watching TV but c'mon I need the sleep.
I don't want to be unable to retain and recall all the information I managed to imprint in my brain.
Hahaha, but honestly I don't feel sleepy yet.
Okay, I shall go try make myself sleepy.
Adeu ^^

Realization

Hello!
You know, for a personal blog of an eighteen year old human, my blog is pretty mundane, lack of emotions and idk... Childish?
Well i'm not gonna define myself though.
I'm not gonna stand and argue that i'm maturer than you think (warning: not a word) cause that's so immature.
Hahaha see what i did there?
Ok trust me i'm not like this in real life.
(I actually am) (hahaha) (but I love myself)
Ok if you're confused on why I am even talking about this, don't worry we're on the same boat.
I guess after reading the blog of someone I know, (this sentence is gramatically awkward but not incorrect I think) I start to see her in a different light.
She is usually very laid back and seemingly uncaring but just like me and most people out there, she does care.
Probably just doesn't know how to show it, or choose not to.
For me personally i've been labelled as 'ignorant' and 'selfish' just because I seem to not care but honestly, I do and I thought I showed it enough (but apparently not, bleargh)

Anyway, all nonsense aside, i'm feeling this holiday!
Having so much fun with my family yet able to spend some quality time revising.
Before the dreaded A levels come, I shall enjoy as much as I can.
Ahahaha jk you know life is the same with or without exams.

On Monday afternoon I fell asleep only to be woken up by my sisters asking me to get ready to go to Sentosa.
Ahh, impromptu plans are the bomb!
Went to watch Wings of time (previously Song of the Sea) and I think i'd be forever amazed.
It was great and a group of arab-caucasian family sat beside us and the baby was so cute.
And then we strolled along palawan beach just to see street buskers performing.
There was a violinist player and the audience were sitting in a reclined chair agghhh so relaxing.
And there was a jazz band playing nearby too.
The atmosphere felt...perfect.
Night skies, windy, by the beach, soft music playing.
Ahh, if only Efron was there with me.
Hahahaha im totally kidding.
Family is the best company.
And then we headed back to the beach station to watch this amazing stunt duo from Canada called Le Dudes
They were amazing!
It made me really want to watch all the other buskers!
The festival ends this week though, but i'm gonna squeeze time for it!
Anyone wanna come with?
Leggo!

Anyway, superlawak fc is playing in johor on the 28th september, so i'll probably see the Jep.
And Anugerah Lawak Warna is set to be on 19th september.
I hate this cause they're making me choose between Zizan, Johan and Jep.
Like are you guys serious right now?!
So I chose not to vote.
Actually I did, once.
I voted for (this is not a presidential election thus I do not have to keep my votes private) Jihan (duh), Sketsa spontan Johara, and.... *drumrolls*
Jep.
Gah tugging on my guilt strings (is there such a thing? Well I think there should be)

Might be going to marina barrage tomorrow, or vivo city.
If it's the latter it means that I get to go to sentosa again!
Alright, I should probably go to sleep.

But before that, let me spend a minute to pray for the health of the people I love.
Dear god, you are the most merciful, so forgive us all for our wrongdoings.
Strengthen our hearts and minds to overcome any challenges you give us.
I pray you grant us with your blessings and protect us from harm.
Amin, amin ya rabbal al'amin.
Adeu ^^
Ps If I pass my AOI essay, thank you Shirley.

Pps If not, still, thank you Shirley.

Butterflies

Hello!
There are thousands of butterflies species out there in the world.
Being at wild wild wet, (I know, what a weird place to have some life enlightening process)-
I realized that inside me, there are 2 kinds.
One I embrace, while the other I detest.
The first kind is the jitters I get before any performances.
The nerves while facing your crush (coughs jep zizan)
The excitement when getting back the exam paper i'm pretty sure I did well in.
The anticipation for things, you know?
Things to be excited about.
But the other, oh behold.
The black butterflies who prevents me from doing things I want to do.
The ones that can be gotten rid of but is too influential on you to give you the push you need.
Meet coward, the black beauties.
These are the butterflies I feel while facing a gigantic ride.
Not that I had always been scared, i'd been a pretty brave kid- but these butterflies seems to have developed over time.
These are the ones that lets me exclude myself from activities, the ones that drains out one's self-confidence.
But it has been proven that these butterflies takes a little to get over.
Just like last december in perak, I took a ride similar to the slide-up with no qualms at all.
But today seeing the slide up in person, (im pretty sure the one at Perak is higher and as steep as this), I chickened out.
No idea why, but inside me was a burning desire to ride it!
I was so annoyed at myself (hahahaha kidding) like why am I even so reluctant to ride it???
Arghh, mysteries of the world.
Hahahhaa okay exaggeration.


Anyway holidays are finally here!
Kicked it off by meeting Jambu at Singapore expo on Saturday.
Boy were they hillarious!
I'm always entertained by their nonsense probably cause I do whatever they do on stage on a daily basis hahaha.
When we walked into the place Pak yus said, "There you guys are! I was waiting for you."
I was just like awwww.....
And Tauke is so sporting as usual!
He was initiating poses and made the cutest expression ever when I told him that "John cena said hi......to me" and laughed evilly seeing his reaction.
(I am aware that most guys do not like to be called cute but im sorry I can't think of a better word, pardon me okay it's 3am hahahah *excuses*)
They were a lot more cheerful than the last time I met them at karoot and MLM semis!
I guess there's no more competition stress haha.
Well, i'm not complaining, this is a good look for them.
Thank you guys for always being yourselves, humble and fun to be around.
And pak yus initiated a selfie with Wana hahahaha.


And I had so much fun today at WWW with my family!
Shagged though, fell asleep at 8pm and now I can't fall back asleep.
I seriously need a nocturnal buddy to stay up and talk nonsense with.

After the holiday, i'll be having 4 more papers before school exam ends.
And then the road to Math A levels and the climax of Project work starts.
And hopefully next year would be more relaxing just like sec 4 life was.
Just revision and mock tests and revisions.
If I do make it, I hope for the best!

Tonight, I pray for my health and for the ones I love.
Dear Allah, please grant us with your blessings and open our hearts to become better muslims.
Give us strength to overcome life's daily challenges and patience to face these events.
I pray for all muslims' forgiveness and wellbeing, Ya allah.
Amin amin, ya rabbal al'amin.
Have a good night ahead guys!

Ps to kekanda kulai, all your friends have reached. When are you coming dear Jep?

Happy Teachers' Day

Hello!
Today's a pretty amazing occasion, it makes me feel so nostalgic.
I mean, being in a school with no teachers who actually impacted me (except cikgu siti hello so thankful for you) makes me appreciate my past teachers even more.

From primary school, Mdm cahaya (and her mystery black bag filled with gifts!), Ms Salmah (fiercest form teacher ever in my schooling life, if I recall correctly), Mr Seah kek koon (one of my favourite), Ms rekha (one of my favourite too, I MISS HER SO BAD), Ms Ang hui li, and my other teachers Cikgu endon (who always give 50cents for those who tops the class; not sorry to say I kinda swiped all hahahha good times), Cikgu suriyah, Cikgu siti, (omg i remember her making us write a composition about a fish that looked like nemo on her first day of teaching us) Cikgu aisyah, (Love them!) Cikgu siti suhaida, the PE teachers, Music and art teachers, were pretty cool people!

And in secondary school Ms Chong, Mrs goh yeo hanni, Ms chan, Ms seah, Mr chaissac (best teachers ever, no doubt about it. Can't thank them enough! Sorry their names come together HAHAHA), Mr Sng, Mrs rajakumar, The awesome PE teachers like Mr amin, Mr Iwan and others who allowed me to skip my 2.4 xD

And my other teachers who ever guided me, Kak wefi, Cikgu Rina, Ms Tan, Mr Liew, Cikgu osman, Abg rizman, Abg mokh.

Most importantly though, my parents, aunts, grandparents, (and can I credit myself to hello experience is the best teacher)
Okay no cheesy things just thank you for doing your part well enough for me to remember you hhahahaha kidding.
Thank you for giving me the memories I can fall back on anytime I start missing primary or secondary school.
Everyone needs these great memories as it is the only way to travel back in time, and I am very thankful for that.
(especially you mr chai and mr issac, for the best classroom memories!)
ALRIGHT, HOLIDAY STARTS NOW!
adeu ^^
Ps shouldnt hve done this now im emo hahahaha

Pps Jk

Ppps I miss 3e3 tho

2508/18th

Hello!
I just returned from the chalet at costa sands with my family.
Boy did I have a great weekend!
I'll talk about that later but hey ho i'm now 18!
I guess the only major development is I can now register for my driving license (YES!!) and drive around the world!
I just want to thank, send my love and mention each and every single one who made my birthday celebration great!

First and foremost, Allah SWT who allowed all these to take place, and for blessing us with everything.

And to my family, Mama, Papa, Along, (even though he was at Jakarta the whole time), Anga (for bringing your friends and aka giving me collections muahaha), and my sisters.


To STYLO and Nikki for accompanying me throughout and giving me so much laughter and fun!

Isreen who joined in the sleepover!

To my beloved grandparents!

To my aunts and uncles, Mak ngah, Om, Aunty Liza, Akiff (Happy birthday to you!), Mak Yah, Abah man, Cik hussein (Happy birthday to you!!), Kak yati, Abg wan, Iqim aqil and aleesya!

Cik ya, Cik man, Cik na, Daniel, Ilhan, Mak ida, Pak sani, Kak syaz and her friend, Adib, Cik linda, Pak laili, Ain ika (who didnt sleepover BOOOO).

Cik lin, Tasha, Kak dayah, Papa's friends, Mama's friends.

To my earliest guests, Amira, Raudha, Teresa, Dhiya, Kristel, Cheryl. (Sorry for the late food but I had fun playing games with you all!)

To my lovely ladies who helped my parents, Yol, Hizah and Ghaya.
Love you all!

The three nights had been a blast!
Blog soon ;)



ps Thank you aura ladies for the videos! Thank you my hero luar biasa Jep, Hafiz and Azmir!

pps And I loveeee reading birthday wishes as much as I love writing them!

Being nice never hurts

Hello!
This is weird, blogging while a parade is going on.
But i just wanna share that i saw a small kid looking around and smiling at people.
I remember doing that all the time as a young kid, even as teen.
However these few years i've lost touch with that habit of mine.
Not sure if it's the fact that Singaporeans (or anyone here for that matter) is becoming more unfriendlier (is that even a word)
Or I just stopped for no reason.
Whatever it is, I know that seeing a stranger smile at you makes you feel better.
So I shall pick that habit up again.
I hope after years of stopping i'll not be ending up smiling like idk joker or something.

Anyway, congratulations anga for completing your national service.
Seems like it was yesterday you were being a girl in your room HAHAHA just kidding.
And along is at jakarta, how unfair!
Okay, MCS' first performance tomorrow!
My first performance in MI.
I feel blessed with the people around me and hope that tomorrow goes great.
I'll give it my all.
Cehhh hahaha
Adeu!
Ps Talking about jakarta, i wonder how rayhan, jasmine and mama is doing

Beast incarnate- NO

Hello
So as you guys already know, brock freaking lesnar beat john cena for the wwe world heavyweight titles yesterday.
Unhappy is an understatement, especially when I got the update during math class (no link but hello, two negatives does not make a positive) (it just makes the negative more negativer)
I thought after pulling the biggest upset ever in wrestlemania, they would be done with him.
but NOoooOo.
To be fair, lesnar is a highly domineering wrestler but seeing his position as a part timer, and the repulsive character, he is helping to degrade the value of those titles.
Okay maybe i'm exaggerating.
But maybe not.
Thanks a lot, man.
Since your job is to make us hate you then let me say you are doing fine.
But this is more than just lesnar beating cena, this is about years of hardwork going down the drain and it's a bad reminder of wrestlemania.
To make things worse, there are these new wrestlers lurking around.
The members of shield, oh and don't forget dbryan (who ironically got stripped of his title cause he cannot compete and wwe doesnt want a vacant champion)
Truth be told i'm rarely interested to watch matches with these new names.
But then again, they're the next generation.
They'll be taking over orton, cena, mysterio, kane, just like these people took over stone cold, hogan, rock, mick foley.
There'll always be changes as much as I hate to think about it.
(i mean everyone wants our attitude era back)
As for now, I cannot think of anyone else more capable of holding the titles but the oldies, perhaps Taker, to add to his endless list of legendary moments?
Or heck, the big show.
Anything but the newbies.
It's not their time yet.
As long as we still have these legends gracing the roster, I say we give them a chance.

Think of it this way, Lesnar is the champion
Seth rollins is holding the MITB case.
Lesnar beat the greatest names of WWE and has quite an unprecedented resume.
If this rollins guy suddenly comes rollin' (omg see what i did there) around and somehow manage to beat brock lesnar, THAT'S IT.
Goodbye logic because apparently we're living in spongebob.


ps The streak will always be.
pps The champ will always be here.