23.15pm

Cant remember the last time I felt this exhausted

But I totally called it 

The physical tiredness has caught up and caught up good

I need to eat 

17.52pm

Hate... listening... to... speeches.....thatarenotinspiring

01.03am

Long day ahead

Calltime at 750am

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14.13pm

I dont understand people who hold onto unnecessary pain and exercises no transparency in communication

Like life is such a lollygag it's so fleeting and unserious

Just talk like a person

If yes then yes if no then no 

Grey areas are troublesome

Sometimes stoicism is a good guiding principle lol

(This is regarding interaction outside ourselves)

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19.10pm

So unlike my heart

My brain is getting kinda frustrated at how quiet it has been 

Quiet but deafening

I hear so many things but also nothing

It's never been so indecisive before

Stop okay im being gracious 

Had a long day, I feel like my insides are so occupied that I can't feel my physical tiredness at all

I just know once I sort out my insides the physical part will catch up hahaa but it is okay we are troopers in here

Got 3 hours of sleep yesterday but I dont even feel tired 

Good I guess, maybe a chance of me sleeping early even though tomorrow's calltime is not early 

12.40pm

Had a dance rehearsal at 9am yesterday and it felt nice to be forced to do cardio 

And I realise I wished I never stopped dancing

I think I do really enjoy it; literally my first professional art form

I just don't like the community lol mostly so toxic and political for no reason at all

But yesterday, being around passionate professionals all working together to create a show made me feel homesick for earl (who simultaneously was having a soundcheck for a gig)

I wished I was doing this but with my band instead

Anyways last night was tough but whateva 

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19.39pm

So funny to be confused over a decision that isn't even mine to make

02.04am

Forcing myself to sleep never works and idk why I tried 

I was unconscious for probably 15 mins in total after trying for an hour and now im just jolted back up

Brain let's rest okay, calltime in 7 hours 

My band also has a 9am calltime for a gig later and I wished I was meeting them instead but it's ok, girl hustling for unlimited holiday funds

Hahaha

Okay

Bye

Goodnight and I hope you're sleeping better than me 

00.00am

Hey I actually saw the calendar changing dates in the app

Cool

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17.14pm

So rare to work consecutive days in a row so it always feels weird but this time it's just five days normal humans work five days 

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19.22pm

Made fried rice in a rice cooker today

Also,

Some people run away by standing in the same spot for too long

17.08pm

Got violently woken up to do spring cleaning but thank you much needed

Now day 1 is done and I stepped out and realise how beautiful the weather is today

Hope everyone is having a wonderful beautiful day ♡ 

14.45pm

Intuition, 

Universe,

Could you speak louder?

I really can't hear you amidst all these chaotic, unruly thoughts

I know I just need time to myself to sort out my insides

And all will be clear and all will be well

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18.28pm

Fell asleep for 5 minutes but it felt like hours

My fav kind of naps, supercharge

03.31am

Not gonna force myself to sleep

02.09am

Tried to make myself fall asleep around 1am but I can still hear my insides laughing at the absurdity

01.20am

Finally settled down and lying down after a long day

Travelled to the West twice in a day for work, once at 10am and again at 7pm 

A rest day tomorrow which means chores

I gotta go out to replace my screen protector though cause it unsolicitedly removed itself hahaha funny

Cant tell if my eyes or body is tireder but my brain is happy being awake

I dont know why I typed all these

Hope anyone reading has a wonderful day ahead 

16.06pm

God is with me and he will guide me

Merry October (20.50pm)

All will be well

Gotta start the new month with nothing but positive vibes that everything will work out when you leave it to the universe

Take care of my heart dear god 

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21.41pm

Sense of time has eluded me

I thought it's 3am, maybe 4am

It's not even 10pm yet

When I wake up i'll think it's 2pm

But it'll be 6am

You know how when you stopped schooling you don't really know the day of the week

That's me but worse 

I like it though, being lost in time.

Just sometimes it feels nice to not think