I just made buttermilk chicken and cooked rice because I have been not eating well at all haha
I'll get over this rut soon I know it
It just takes time and im okay with that
Have been going back to study singers singing live (I try to ignore the lyrics but sometimes it doesnt work so I just go back to watching rhett and link)
Also ballinger family posted their first vlog in a week so that is good news!!
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20.36pm
Im not at peace
But my fb and insta timeline is filled with people getting married and engaged TODAY
Ah okay I just realised the date no wonder la
But really im so happy for everyone god bless i cry
Also I have not mentioned this but one of hidster's baby cats passed and im heartbroken.
She gave me most love and I got the honour of spending one of her last few days receiving and giving her love
It's an indescribable feeling, i've always had a soft spot for her and her soft but unpredictable personality
Happy youre free of pain, Meeko.
Rest beautifully insyaallah
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22.44pm
My heart will heal via other people's happiness
That much I know
And I would not have it any other way
Oh Allah please bless the people around me with happiness and I ask to only bask in it from the sidelines
And it's not like im pretending im ok or anything it's just easier to not explain myself to anyone
As long as I can bear to take it, I will
Excited for tomorrow ehehe impromptu plans