11.34am

Sike 7am me is not gone she has postponed her bedtime to 10ams
But right now im at one of the big 4 markets waiting for mama to buy some durians
And i've just been people watching a bit and there's probably no correlation (hahaha) but it is so crowded today compared to when before the IC thing was implemented
Oof maybe all the pasar goers have IC numbers that ends on an even digit
It really it crowded compared to the previous time I was here where it was relatively empty but maybe it's just the timing
It's still morning so people more likely to be marketing
I wonder if i'll crash when I reach home
Oh well im supposed to cook for buka today but if I crash im sorry family one of u take over lol
Ok drama i'll probably nap a few hours

07.11am

Cant believe ive never watched edward scissorhand hahaha I always assumed it was one of those thriller films but alas it's a wholesome cute movie (except the love interest she didnt deserve his love lol)

07.40am

We wouldve been countdowning a week until freedom on 5th May before circuit breaker was extended
Somehow feels worse to know it couldve been next week that I get to reunite with the outside world
But honestly seeing the drop in the number of cases is making me and im sure many others more motivated to survive this quarantine
Hopefully the restrictions get looser in less than the expected number of days I miss my family both by birth and chosen ones hahaha
May we have a lovely and safe day ahead!
I'll get to go out today (of course essential trips only) and im quite happy hopefully my non-existent sleep wont bite me in the afternoon

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09.26am

Oh no it's my bedtime in like an hour
There's not enough sunshine to keep me awake though
The receptionist at this clinic is so nice and warm, and she speaks good malay wow (even saying how houses with many children would be meriah from fights hahahah)

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10.36am

Not gonna lie the songs from Love never dies is playing at the back of my head im surprised the melodies stuck with me despite watching it once yay

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11.30am

My heart is so warm and my extroverted side is quaking
There was a group of 6 people (of course including mama) just befriending each other at the waiting room and even the nurses/workers joined along
I havent heard a room filled with strangers' laughs in so long
And idk but everyone here is so nice???
Perhaps the less stressful and rushed work environment gives them the time and energy to go their extra mile and be more able to serve the patients beyond the best of their abilities
God protect the essential workers insyallah!
Also next up we'll be heading to the market I hope mama doesnt buy too much things my body is not fully charged im not weak just unwilling ahahaha

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12.15pm

Okay we went home instead and postponed the marketing cause of exhaustion
Im so cold and didnt get as much sunshine as I wanted but it was way better than the nothingness ive gotten the past few days
Contemplating whether to nap now or not
Probably will fall asleep anyway lol

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23.57pm

Can we believe this quarantine I havent eaten maggi once

07.21am

I forgot how much writing helps
How dare I forget

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18.20pm

My dreams have been very random, frequent and vividly eventful
I wonder why haha like it's so much going on I dont even record them down but maybe I should maybe it'll let me control my dreams again

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19.55pm

Sometimes the thought of existing alone is enticing
No responsibilities, no hurting others and no chance for others to hurt you in any ways at all
But thats naive
Love is pain.
Ok no thats unhealthy hahaha

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22.47pm

Havent visited tumblr in so long and can I just say visiting my own tumblr makes me happy
I love past me for the things she reblog
Hahaha

07.35am

Maybe I should cease seeing mornings as my sleeptime
I should push it to between 1-4pm instead
Ye okay i'll try that

19.34pm

Since they already think im invincible why not play the part
But then again I dont live to please
Meh

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20.19pm

Two things
1) It felt so good to scream after so long hahaha like my neighbourhood was silent so of course my family screAMED out our door and slowly people started screaming along and at the end people were applauding and screaming yay
Last time I got to scream was PTX concert

2) Love never dies is great, I think it's important to follow ALW's tip of seeing it as a separate storyline entirely like it wasn't really made to be a sequel anyway so enjoy it as it is
I enjoyed it but it made me want to rewatch Phantom again whyyy must they take it down so fast hais copyright

Salam Ramadhan (01.05am)

Oof idk where this fever is coming from
How quickly things can change hais was healthy and at peace one day and now all around uncomfortable
Doesnt help that I cant sleep to recuperate
Ok lies I fell asleep at like 9 and woke up 2 hours later
Why am i complaining lol ok but for real it's too cold and hot and my head hurts but whO cARES not me im cool

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17.06pm

I feel like I want melted marshmallows
Since the day I binged watched Pregnancy craving videos I myself have been wanting nonsense hahahaha like cream cheese with samyang sauce
But I havent done such things
Yesterday I put cream cheese and nutella on bread then I was thinking of how perfect it'd be if I could dip the entire thing in sambal

07.22am

How do people fall asleep
Also happy that I got to see and hear hmx ♡
Have been rereading old messages and realised there was a point of time where my body clock was so conventional like it was so easy for me to sleep and wake up that was cool but obviously a phase
I want to nap at least por favor im tired of sleeping but I need to recuperate

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09.41am

This is miserable D;
Fell asleep just to wake up to my left leg hurting like heck
Cri

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20.19pm

Omg I have tears in my eyes hearing the Ramadan azan :')
I pray for a month filled with healing, light and love.
May we be steadfast in doing our deeds insyaallah ♡
Thinking of my family and friends and everyone especially the underprivilege or the sick
Allah keep us all in your protection

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23.53pm

Hunting for positivity and good vibes
Noone should have power over anyone but life's unfair

20.25pm

Mini hibernated today oof I should get food to kickstart my day
Also ramadan is approaching alhamdulillah, no idea if i'll be able to fast the first day but regardless I hope this blessed month is filled with recovery and triumphs
Bismillah for the holy month ahead!

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21.45pm

I can cry tears of joy cause Along ordered my orange keropok online I thought I wont get it this year but I am getting it my life is complete

00.35am

It's both a curse and a blessing
I'll be falling asleep at midnight and waking up 2 hours later in an almost guaranteed manner
In fact I cant remember the last time I had a full night's sleep
Oh well I enjoy this lifestyle except when nights feel long but im used to those too so

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02.55am

As expected
This mirror may seem unforgivingly reflective
But it absorbs some light

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08.42am

Just watched Dangal and it has been so long since i've watched something worth reeling over
Cinematic masterpiece I applaud it
I also applaud the fact that I am not asleep

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11.37am

Running on 2x 2 hours sleep (12-2am, 9-11am) is the current schedule but it's not new actually it's one of my favourite cycles cause it's efficient and I miss nothing much
Speaking of miss.
I miss hmx :(
I miss hearing them and seeing them
How funny yet blessed (because we're the chosen ones) that my comm's term is cut so abruptly
I feel like the past 2ish years of work is non-existent
Rest assured we will be well

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13.57pm

Had a 10 mins nap and intense dreams
Who needs netflix

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17.08pm

Imagine implementing measures with the most cushion because you trust your citizens to comply for just the 29 days and seeing them fAILING

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17.27pm

Oof.
Got to take this day by day
Insyaallah this extension works and brings nothing but good results

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21.01pm

Hate it when im not in the cleaning mood but everyone else is like im obliged but it feels so dreary but things get done but at what cost
Ok idk why hearing Nirmala play on the radio suddenly makes things feel better
Thanks tokti

07.20am

My sleep schedule currently is tentatively 7 plus-10 plus am
Which means a hibernation is imminent cause I dont/cant even nap to recharge throughout the day
POTO has been removed I wanted to watch it again but alas, a tad too late
Managed to watch it only 1.5 times oof
But it ok hashtag blessed
Ended up watching KKKG instead
Worthy trade off honestly king khan is worth it hahah

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16.10pm

Tokti vlogging her quarantine days is something I never thought I needed but I love it

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19.38pm

NO WAYYY I JUST found out patrick wilson (ed warren from insidious/conjuring) played RAOUL IN THE POTO MOVIE
Okay to be fair the hair in that movie was crazy compared to now but oh my gucci I am very very shook

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22.41pm

A desert of untapped potential,
With noone to stop me but me
The day I understand this will be a good day
For now i'll remain ignorant in this self declared mediocrity
But what exactly, am I waiting for?

07.04am

Movies with great concept executed poorly seems to be the trend these past few years I do not fathom
It takes so much to make a movie great
But eh as long as they entertain and/or make you think
Hard to find both in one movie oof

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13.34pm

Im in tearssss after watching phantom
I think when you've watched a play as great and impressive as that you'll understand how the audience has the stamina to applause non-stop for that long
It just feels deserved
Also as great as it is to watch it live, I loved being able to see their facial expressions upclose
Especially when Christine returned the Phantom's ring oof her face kilT me and I wouldnt have gotten that full impact from the far away 100$ seats hahahah
What a work of art
As great as sierra's vocals are I am amused by how her sustained high notes sound like actual sirens
Is that a mark of good support idk but hahaha kudos man idk how the heckie doodle doo any of them manage to sing so many (tough) songs in a span of almost 3 hours
I think I was fed with the movie version so that more innocent christine is etched in my brain but I enjoy both takes equally
It's a whole new other level to do all that live though so Sierra (and Carlotta lets be honest what the heck are those notes) is just insane lol we been knewn
The cast is amazing and Ramin's vocals is crazy crazy
Okay bye thank you ALW

Also I got 3 hours of sleep and I thought i'll go back to sleep but im glad I watched this instead but also time for a nap soon cause I dont want to nap nearer to the evening

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16.50pm

To the mind that is still, the universe surrenders

Constantly grounding back to the roots

01.03am

As you can see I have forgotten to blog
Currently watching police evo
I love zizan hahaha miss watching his stuff

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19.01pm

I just realised I havent consumed food wow actually yea since I dont move much anyway means dont need much food but still I want to eat ok bye

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21.54pm

Why are people eating sushi today isit cause we have been singing chopping man sushi man on repeat and the world can hear us

04.29am

Just ended the 2nd week of harmovideocall session
I miss them like crazyyy but so happy we get to do such thing as videocalling
We even tried to sing Imagine and it was the best tenor part i've done hahahaha
Okay it is 4.30am am I going to sleep at 9am again today stay tuned

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20.45pm

And indeed I went to sleep ok perhaps slightly before 9am but still
I cant believe how well we're surviving circuit breaker- except those who still doesnt care of course yall are cancelled forever
I urge us to takecare of people around us- families friends and neighbours.
It's impossible for one person to look out for the whole world but if each person looks out for one other person it'd be manageable and successful aka why the heck am i saying this as if it's not common sense i am obviously drunk hahahaah i need a nap

02.27am

Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like to do things out of spite
It sounds like a magic superpower that just fuels you to accomplish stuff
And maybe right now being triggered out of spite is what I need to achieve my goals
But alas I have no energy nor capacity to care about others' opinions
Also it is such a lovely night, the sky is clear, moon is bright and i'm sitting outside my house enjoying the cool air
Why have I not done this before (ok except when I get locked outside my house sometimes when I forget my keys)

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02.30am

Freaking insta I opened explore page and the post that comes up is about the tattoo artist who does things out of spite
Stalker much FBI
Oh there's a cat??? What is it doing here

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02.33am

Now I see a post about seeing the same moon shakespeare looked at
Hello stop it

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09.00am

Why. Am. I. Not. Asleep
Cant believe I wanted to go out but now the thought of it is just dreary cause my body decided it doesnt want to rest
Ok hope to get at least 2 hours of sleep before I get awakened by mama or any other disturbances (aka my siblings)

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16.56pm

Got like 4 hours of sleep which was nice
Went OUT today for grocery shopping
Who knew such a simple trip out would trigger so many thought bubbles
For one I left home and it was raining but once I reached home it was sunny and bright again (geylang was sunny which was lovely)
It was not that crowded and it was cute seeing people trying to social distance it's like a mass game of pepsi cola or the floor is lava
Will edit this post later but for now, leaving this post with what my mum said- After we do what we can in taking care of ourselves, should just tawakkal and leave the rest to Him.
Which is very true, Insyaallah we'll be protected

00.48am

A specific setting comes to mind- rehearsals at SMU during the Holiday season, going to raffles city to buy dinner and the crowd all in jovial mood
Perhaps a post-rainy night with lots of cars and us being stuck on every traffic light

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16.39pm

Both Socrates and Plato sees democracy as only working when people who vote actually took their time to be educated about who and what they're voting for
And I agree so if thats the case can we please exempt ME from voting cause i'd rather leave it to my fellow friends who are well read in politics and I know everyone should play a part but if everyone who cant be bothered like me are exempted too we'll only be left with people who are knowledgeable enough to decide whats best for the nation
And if you disagree it speaks about the level of your trust in our education system which same but hahahaha I just.
If people can specialise in sports and arts I think it might be possible that only some people are born to specialize in our flawed democracy- despite it being problematic it's the best option we currently have
Why am I talking about this
Whatever I might change my mind in 2 days anyway hahaha
BUT HI I stepped out of my home onto my corridor for the first time in 8 DAYS I was so happy I even told my mum to bring me the next time she wants to go to the market or grocery shop
Being home is amazing because I know im the safest I do not have to bother about what I touch and about washing my hands every now and then and I do not need mask or care about who is near me
But girl needs to walk my phone is giving me my weekly steps record and I dont even bother checking cause I probably clocked <100 for the whole of last week
Wew look at me talking a lot
Okay adious heheh

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18.33pm

How dare big show retire :(

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18.36pm

NO WHAT THAT WAS THE LAST EPISODE noooowayyyy ok im sad that was so entertaining I loved the series I love big show thank u for that

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19.42pm

Loser blogger
I was talking bout how I am randomly watching videos about Titanic and it said "We know on April 14th-" and I was like isnt that soon or today
It is today!
Hard to fathom such a tragedy ever took place

10.21am

Have been waking up at 10 regardless of what time I go to sleep which im not complaining about
Am back to the hot and cold phase why ah
Usually I only fall sick during busy periods in my life this is the opposite of busy
But then again im not even like sick it's just my cold bloodedness probably hahaha what am I talking about okay oof

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15.43pm

I dont watch shows but when netflix released an entire story about Big freaking Show bruh im sold
Actually surprised I havent watched it the day it was released
Am literally not even 90 seconds in and I love it already
His daughter is like "Stop comparing me to Mick foley" which I always do to Chiqa except Chiqa is big show too
Hahah ok bye im gonna have fun

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16.09pm

Wow how did the first episode made me emotional im tearing up now im contemplating whether to continue or not cause I didnt sign up for feels
Literally avoided watching all Hindustan movies cause I have enough sadness from being quarantined I dont need more

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23.40pm

Never thought I needed to see Mick foley Mark henry Rikishi and Big show sing backstreet boys together

10.21am

I relate to phil lester saying that he doesnt partake in fancy coffee conversation and is happy with his Nescafe which he has been drinking since he was 10 years old
Same man
Also be not fooled I have been sleeping at 6, 7am but since yesterday found myself awake at 10am which is great
I definitely want sunshine today so I shall sit by my front door a bit like a baby sunbathing what
Or if im feeling dangerous i'll even stand at my corridor
Wew
Hahaha okay have a wonderful day ahead

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20.37pm

Day 6? Of circuit breaker
Some days are easier but today im really missing the outdoors and my family and friends and just being free
Did a makeup challenge with chiqatito where we did each other's makeup hahaha twas fun but we started too late so the lighting was nonexistent
I hope SGeans are staying home this month cus I want to terawih with the masses and visit my relatives and buka with my friends and family
Let's do our part and keep our faith insyaallah!!!
It sucks cause most of us are struggling to stay home while some selfish losers are still going on with their lives meeting friends and hanging out
Like I could be doing that too but alhamdulillah I have been granted with sensitive thoughtful friends
Not ONE of them have even remotely suggested an illegal meetup hahahaha which im proud of cause we all have the same mindset honestly just get this over and done with
Ish humans.
My phone has been in the blue light filter mode for 6 days now I cant wait till I get to change it back to normal cus I usually do it when I leave home heheh

15.43pm

Today reminded me that I dont need much sleep it's just people telling me I do which pfft ok boomers (even if u are a 3 year old who tells me that)
Got almost 3 hours of sleep but I woke up quite refreshed so I was ready for the prospect of doing things then taking an afternoon nap but I realised I dont have much to do so I slept again at 11am hahah
Why am I talking about this but it's ok
Gonna go do my duolingo now muehehe im on a roll

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17.50pm

Just read the article about new zealand's latest status, and what the PM said struck me: ‘You are breaking the chain of transmission. And you did it for each other.’
That's it.
That's what this nation is failing to want to achieve
Singaporeans fail the marshmallow test

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21.43pm

My heart might explode with all the nice words and support from people
Thank you for even listening I cri

13.41pm

You know what I wish I can do
Remove all tiktoks from my instgram explore page
Or at least the dancing ones
Too much cringe bluek

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20.23pm

Our first hmx "music video" will be up in 7 minutes I think I scheduled it to be uploaded at 8.30pm
Excited and nervoussss (lol not really) cus like I wasnt entirely satisfied with the video but my groupmates are imPATIENT so we yoloed and just uploaded cause what matters for now is the sound and message of the song and heartwarming music
Yay

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21.34pm

Oof I cant deal with niceness everyone is being so nice about our video T.T
My heart

07.17am

Overnighted after I cant remember how long
Except I cant push my limits cause I dont have activities to do or people to meet haha usually i'll recharge around people hashtag just extrovert things
Had a lovely evening because finally reunited with hmx albeit online- so so happy to see their faces and hear their voices :')
We even played a game and noone had curfew cause everyone was home HAHA
Should sleep soon, I wonder what my brain would want to do on Day 3 of Circuit breaker.
Also I really hope Sgeans are staying home- if not this one month is for nothing those of us following rules would have done so for nOtHinG pls dont be annoying losers

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18.45pm

Contrary to popular (or mine) beliefs, I do have things on my to do list hahahaha
But idk I guess im just embracing this "boredom" before I get so bored I am productive
Thankfully I dont really have deadlines, except for school related stuff
Taking this break has made me realise how much I actually do enjoy school, which I do, and I never take it for granted
But just not as motivated especially when it comes to assignments hahaha I hate homeworks
But insyaallah once school reopens, i'll remember how this feels
I'll remember how it feels to not be hustling as much as I can, rather than want (which for me is zero% want) (my english dont really make sense innit)
Think im falling sick due to lack of sunshine idk perhaps i'll just stand outside my house to get some Vitamin D hahaha
Im curious to see if this cabin fever gets so bad i'll actually want to go out to like walk in the park
Or will I be fine ultimately
We'll see hehe
May this situation improve fastest insyaallah!

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20.58pm

Reopened netflix after a long time and the first thing I see is KKHH wth
If freakin kuch kuch hota hai can be on netflix idk why Harry potter is not
Cmon ppl I dont want to emo

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22.10pm

I just. Looked outside for the first time in 3 days
I miss going out but im responsible and I CARE
Freaking 10k notices were given out in the 3 days what is actually wrong with my country's people are u crazy and dumb yes you are
Like I mentioned earlier tomorrow I might crave sunshine so i'll sit outside my door
I dont feel as feverish anymore the accidental naps works wonders hahah okay bye

00.59am

Oh my this is not a good time to be feeling hot and cold
Happier today cause I finally interacted with hmx albeit a little bit after so long
But yes im hot and cold I keep switching my fan off and on bleh

21.11pm

Personally idk how im gonna stay home like usually im fine like I love staying home but again my internal rebel is bubbling maybe cause im forced to stay home so it dislikes it
But i will try hais one day at a time!!
Also I have a goal of learning languages and idk stuff so i'll be fine

13.40pm

It's actually exciting that all of us have a part to play by STAYING AT HOME
I know it can be dreadful but literally it's logical, noone go out noone gets infected we can play faster
May we continue being productive and healthy, calm and happy this month of mini quarantine
I think what's as important as washing your hands is keeping yourself sane and at peace- stop fear mongering and stop feeding into them
Allah does not give us diseases without cure and this faith will continue tiding us through
News can be overwhelming but insyaallah, again, I can't stress enough- prayers and social responsibility as well as personal hygiene will do the job
Ive always thought I wont blog about this but like it's a cool (not necessarily in a good way) experience we are all going through and I can look back years down the road and be like We survived that!
But what I can do is document the light side of it
I miss hmx so much

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15.28pm

I want to rehearse and watch harry potter

03.55am

One of my fav things to do is rewatch my old vlogs or selfies and wonder for the life of me what LIPSTICK I WAS WEARING
I should just announce in my vlogs everytime from now on right yes im right

22.15pm

Unexpected outing today but am glad to get out of the house
Hopefully this month's safety measures works wonders
Great reminder to not take our safety and health for granted especially here in SG!!!
Hehe okie im tired i miss hmx

02.29am

Just watched Colleen's vlog and im happy she's continuing her daily vlog!!!

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05.54am

This current sleep schedule is one of my fav I think cus I live on minimal sleep and naps are optional like if I had to do things I dont need to nap which is cool and I also fall asleep usually before 7am
I want to rehearse today but my frogs are being quarantined which is good but also boo but it is good and necessary

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15.15pm

The weather outside is so good
Adults choosing to believe AND spread unconfirmed/fake news are zzzz cmon man
I hope sg cooperates with the government well so we can get through this pandemic together!
Am excited to beat this sucka but it can only be done with social responsibility, compassion, and prayers insyaallah

06.29am

Fell asleep for like 20 mins and right before getting ready to sleep again I opened my fridge to get a drink but I saw chocolate instead so I ate one and now im awake again so in conclusion who needs sleep
Jk pls rest losers
I'll see how much longer this sugar injected into me can keep me awake for

Merry April (05.09am)

Aw man, today was supposed to be April fool's dress rehearsal for hmx's external showcase (full dress rehearsal if you dont catch it hahaha jk who wouldnt)
God has better plans insyaallah
Redownloaded duolingo and was doing wordsearch while watching Ro bake stuff and make slime with Miranda and I am acknowledging that my brain wants to be active and used so it's making me multitask hahaha
May April (wow look at this weirdness, May april ahahha) be a blessed month for us all, filled with joy, love, blessings and kindness!

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18.05pm

It's rare that I feel like going back in time is okay, but whenever I rewatch old evokals videos or like old hmx, I feel like i'll be okay if we went back to that point in time
Hmx has achieved so much and grown so much, and ive always enjoyed every step with the fam
But the good old days have always been precious to me
Brb