Spent the last 4-5 hours discussing work while picnicing near my place
Looks like i'm missing class again but this time it is a conscious choice already hahaha I cannot dumb myself down just for grades it's the opposite of what education should stand for
Loser
Most of my life i've been in organizations whose heads don't believe enough, and are not daring enough to take risks and follow their guts
Sometimes I forget that i'm at that position now, and that while it is always more comfortable and PR to stay safe, there's always a risk I should take
I don't fear us failing, I don't fear people losing faith in me, I fear spending a year leading the family and letting us continue living in the unknown not unlocking our full potential because we feel safe and I wasn't yolo enough to decide to take the chance
Also I don't fear them losing faith cause I trust that they trust me as much as I trust them
K too much T word
I should sleep and hopefully my brain will give me answers over the debated topic earlier this morning
Oh wait before that
Had a mini bonding session with hmx earlier today and...
My heart broke but also grew
Just a simple question; when was the last time you cried-
Garnered such an array of answers.
There were a few 'Yesterday', 'Last night', two 'two days ago', one 'this morning' and i'm over there perplexed like how dare you all come here being so happy ALL the time
Like i'm so glad hmx is a place for you to find joy but also you guys MUST know we are here through good and bad we are a marriage too bad you can't run away
Ok I see the sky has turned bright
Should I eat breakfast then sleep
Yes I should
Here's to a beautiful day ahead, Insyaallah
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08.08am
Can't sleep oi
Dk if too much on my mind or im too tired to fall asleep
Familiar but an always-why pain hahah
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14.13pm
4 quality hours of sleep and now im on my way to an arts school
Also i've said the past few weeks ive been feeling heaty like gonna break into fever but not
Today I woke up with a sore throat so either fever will come, or the heatiness will go away with the sore
Who knows idk myself well enough
K bye