I have things in my mind why do I have things in my mind
Reading my posts from few years back and how many times must past me prove that she's more stable and mature than present me
Frog I just need time alone
I want to stop explaining to people who can't see things I don't need to prove that my brain knows things and my heart feels things
I owe it to myself that much
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15.05pm
Woke up feeling better generally, like I felt happy and at peace for no reason I love it
Is this the mark of well restedness cant be my body still tired but im not complaining at all
Also who knew Undertaker would be the one giving me solace over yesterday's internal debacle
I guess people were trying to tell me I might be pushing too much or going too far despite me knowing they just don't know my intentions behind things
Went onto instagram 2 minutes ago and Undertaker posted with a quote saying "Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go."
And if the deadman says this,
I got nothing else to doubt because other opinions don't matter (not like it ever did)
Admittedly the people you hang with affects who you are to some degree, especially if you are unable to reconcile things with yourself at every possible time
And as much fun as i'm having, I failed to have that self reflection time that helps keep me grounded and true to myself
This year especially, I have said things I don't mean, but also was bolder in my actions
Like I always said, sometimes we need to go too far and then backtrack to get to the ideal point
I think i'm done going too far as a person for now
What is life without mistakes
I'm planning to have a kinder, beautiful and productive day ahead!
Hoping the same for everyone else too
ps how did i turn from 1 to 4 songs for this showcase lol extra