NO (00.00am)

So annoying I thought I blogged what the bullfrog cheesehead godzilla

Ugh (01.50am)

Just had to pause to say how annoyed I am at Nate for falling for (and pursuing) every girl he mildly interacts with wtheck I thought you were different you were my hero
Right now Chuck is more of the real deal also im blabbering
I should rest but im still cleaning

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03.57am

Honestly cant even tell if im not sleepy or just not used to being asleep at this timing
Id think the latter cause I dont feel the freshest like I could sleep just dk why im not doing so
Long day ahead, may it all go smoothly insyaallah!
Also need to restock on my mentos so I can make more friends heheheh jk I don't need a weapon

Earlier tonight Daya was like "Stop watching gossip girls" cause I am evil and obviously you'll act like every movie or series you recently watch
But like im actually enjoying it?
It's giving me a glimpse into my self like 4 years ago
Yoloing and rebeling and being present
Ok maybe sin the mean side but the rest of it- the living, the acknowledging others is a good revision
Maybe you just have to fall into the well to see how deep it goes before you attempt to climb out and decide which depth you prefer
^ ah couldve done a better analogy but eh
Meeting twomonix in 7 hours to check out club stuff ah I actually do have time to rest we'll see

Grateful weekend (02.38am)

I was walking to rehearsal while thinking "Hm being mean is fun" and then a bird hopping beside me immediately flew away
First of all what an anti snow white moment usually birds feel safe walking around me wow it read my mind
Needless to say I had to explain to said bird that I was just kidding
I had a lovely weekend, equal amount of play and rest (rehearsals barely count as work) and is a great propeller to the week ahead insyaallah!
Currently spring cleaning- this is why I never complain about mood because sometimes it's an amazing thing like if it's up to logic alone, I do not guarentee things are done but MOOD come on noone can fight their mood
Will go back to it then
Here's to an amazing week ahead

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08.31am

Call it a curse or a blessing but I have this ability to lose appetite to sleep
Like I could be exhausted and ready to crash anytime but something could happen and i'll just give up the idea of sleeping and would rather stay awake and see where life takes me instead no matter how on the brink of faintdom I am at
Like right now
Who cares if I crash later hahahahahahahaah not me

Procrastinators win sometimes (01.20am)

Currently contemplating (not really) between sleeping or starting on season 2
Had a really weird rehearsal earlier today cause we are learning 8 songs for a gig later
Basically all foreign songs but hey if I had to do it i'm glad it's with somemonix specifically Jasmmaus hehe
Meeting them in 7 hours
I don't think i'll sleep OH WAIT I have an assignment due at 1pm later who sets deadlines at 1pm people who are wrong that's who pfft

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05.06am

To be fair I stopped at like episode 4 or 6 ok  (ok it's 4)
Can what your body tell you be wrong like if everyone says 8 glasses of water is important but you drown after the 3rd cup who do you listen to
What is self care anymore
Here's to a lovely day ahead
Also hmx's first wedding gig!
Though they think we're a choir (we're not)
Look at me defending A cappella dont worry choir you are a beautiful art form people are just not exposed to the differences
Whatever
My alarm is set for 2 hours later so do I nap or go learn the songs
Based on the past week my nap schedule has been pretty reliable i'd wake up way earlier than my alarm rings (also means a supposed 1.5 hour nap turns into a 0.5 hour one)
Isn't it fascinating
Not for you but very, for me
K bye

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05.36am

Just saw a video of a friend at the prudential carnival
I could feel myself melting idk if physically emotionally spiritually or what but if I were there at sunset, no crowds and Something just like this playing too loud for humans, I might just break and not function due to overwhelming emotions
Not necessarily bad, just very nostalgic
But if hmx were there we'd probably be crying aha ha ha

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19.12pm

There are days where peak hour and crowd brings comfort.
Specially in an empty bus on a jammed road with a beautiful view of the skyline outside, looking forward to an empty home where everyone's out having fun while I lepak
Gig went as well as we could've ever hoped for, will deet later
Let me enjoy this ride home
Perhaps it was post-performance high and relief, or just being at a wedding
But I feel pretty good and at peace alhamdulillah

ps also managed to submit my assignment on time so like double yay

Aw man (00.38am)

Made myself sleep at around 9pm hoping to hibernate but eh turned to be a power nap instead
Had an interesting day with bouts of happy and ugh bursts
NO MACS ICE CREAM
Catching up with belvico
CLASS
Writing a lot in class
Getting chocolate
Harmonix ;') ♡
Friendly grab driver (also an impulsive grab ride home but perhaps my body just knew it was tired and needed a break)
Ok I will hydrate myself and then decide what to do with myself

ps life is filled with people who don't mean what they say- honouring their words is not a general expectation. but eh

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02.26am

Has my expectations of friendships dulled so much it feels weird to have people do nice things
I truly hope it's my hormones raging making me both emotional and very unemotional at the same time hahah
Daya's passing of emotions were delayed

pps all these emotions went away after i ate chocolate wow magic

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06.25am

You'll never be good enough for a person who doesn't want to receive your good.
And you'll also not get answers as to why
Humans are basically losers, rejecting things that are good for them and chase the pain
Cant relate dont want to relate
Just got done with season 1 of GG.
Other than the fact that the army only got together in episode 17 (aka what an epic moment) it was fun
As much as i'm looking forward to season 2, I just want to skip all the drama and get spoilers
I'd probably just google everything and not watch lol
(except I need to know how serena and nate works out they were my otp)

Lovely Wednesday (06.05am)

Had a productive rehearsal after what felt like so long
I've always been too occupied doing stuff that I don't have the capacity to make time for actual music making with the club together on Wednesday nights
Had an impromptu stage workshop while 7/8 of the club was busy learning how to beatbox
Let me just express how much I believe in our craft.
My harmonix babies are just so talented and full of soul (wow daya tried to pass me the emo and love bug 2 hours ago but I refused- this is not me being emo hahaha it's just full on appreciation)
Somehow stayed back an extra hour doing nothing with somemonix, (ok fine we were all waiting for each other hahaha) and ended up having supper
Intense times are fun, but downtimes are very much appreciated.

Also I have to be in school in 6 hours does this mean i'm finally going to go sleepless after some time (my some time is like a week ok lets be honest)
I've been very kind to myself ok, still trying to get naps when I don't feel like sleeping
^ idk what the past two sentences were about im yammering
Meeting my belvico for idk what (she replied asking me if there's halal food at north spine when I asked if OCBC would be open during lunch hours??? Wot m8)
Then a class which I have no idea what they're doing but im hoping to catch up
And then probably rehearsal

Just wanted to spare a moment thinking of anyone suffering from any problems, big or small
Pain, sadness, sickness or anger.
This too shall pass, and truly god gives his toughest battles to his strongest warriors.
I hope you find peace, love, happiness and cure
More importantly, I hope you find strength and patience.
Here's to a beautiful day ahead. Reminder to go out to find love, if love doesn't come to you. You deserve it ♡

ps can you believe the first thing i said when i saw the menu at the supper place was "so what looks smashing" WHAT AM I where is this line from it's familiar but i cant place my finger on it is it merrell twins i think so

pps also introduced jing yong to si nopal's videos and as expected she loves it just as much as i do hehehehe time to sing it too many times

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15.24pm

I'm in class and he is giving us 10 minutes to write a short story.
Thankfully blogging is writing because I just had to share my sentiments at this very moment.
I'm in a class filled with undergraduates.
Undergraduates- the alleged pool of future leaders and labourers of the country
Our education system is just creating ROBOTS with nil common sense and social skills, eyes merely on the prize leaving everything else reckless
I am very troubled.
We have such passionate and professional teachers who (ok chope this boy is asking such a dumb question I am breathing to keep calm but in my head im smashing his head onto the table im not violent I swear) is willing to pour their skills for us to absorb but noOooOoOOOO
These robots around me are just ugh
This generation is doing many things right- education and learning is far from one of them.
Funny how actually being in uni opens our eyes to how hopeless educated people can be.
Truly embarrassing
I feel terrible for people who still stereotypes based on education level- honestly grow the heckiedoodle up

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15.39pm

My heart hurts. My brain cannot do this omg
There's a difference between genuine lack of knowledge (which is totally normal and okay) and people who do not even know that they don't know things, pretends to know it anyway, and doesn't shut up about it

We can do it (01.55am)

You know ive always wanted to start watching Gossip girls after reading all the books, but like my drama free brain is also very lazy to watch a drama filled with drama
Tried to watch 1 episode and I stand by my team serena principle so far.
Also chuck and dan DO NOT look like what I envisioned.
Nate is quite spot on though.
Also from the cast photos im very sure the rest aren't properly casted too (jenny, vanessa etc)
Im gonna check for spoilers before considering whether to continue or move on to Glee cause let's be honest I read the books like almost a decade ago who the frog remembers

Wow I posted this and then realised I forgot what I wanted to post about originally hahah
I survived the first Latin test earlier today
I knew i'd hate learning a language in class but I took it anyway cause reliable resource
Now I realise there really is a thousand way to say anything in Latin.
Also passionate professors = exciting learning
He lent me his textbook cause I haven't gotten my dictionary yet
To be fair I had an online one but eh no devices allowed but he also saved me in the end
Crashed peanut's rehearsals afterwards and they're doing so darn well idk im too proud of my frogs
Kay time to rest and have a productive morning ahead!

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04.29am

Oh no I should eat properly I feel an impending gastric but I refuse to let it come im sure I mentioned about the first and (hopefully last) time I had it
It wasnt a fun experience though I got all the attention hahhah aka getting mcdonald's cause I couldnt down anything else (at that time fast food was luxury ok)
Then when I finally agreed to go to the clinic (wow I was like either 6 or 8 either way how could I do that) I waited for the doctor for so long, I was cured right before my number was called
Pffft
I think since that day ive found that id mostly rather self heal than go to the clinic cause the amount of time I spend waiting is enough for my being to self heal hahahaha ok jk dont listen to me if youre sick go see doctor ok
What was my point again
Ah right, health and food.
Idk whether im gonna risk sleeping this pain off or go find food eh we'll see my mood

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07.57am

iPhone alarms- the bane of human existence.
Bruh

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09.44am

Seeing how im being tested with people wearing my patience down, I should probably rest my physical being for a few hours before heading for rehearsals
I don't want to be the spoilsport, but I also don't want to allow comfort and stagnation without growth.
I also don't want to push
So what do I want?
Breakfast and a nap.
Ok?
Also I watched one episode of Glee and went back to gossip girls.
Thankfully it got a bit better but eh not counting on it at all

Complacency (04.21am)

Finally settled down
I update my blog so early in the day I lose track of time hahaha
Brb okay

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06.00am

I think I had a good sleep last night so it's pouring over to today haha it's a system I am engrained with it's called seasonal hibernation
I have a test in like 12 hours and idk anything about it
I should sleep a while then go read some things
All will be well

Had a goodmonix session fixing bohrep (again, wow)
It's forever a work in progress especially with new singers
But eh end result will be worth the pain

Rewatched pitch perfect today and I realised I forgot most some scenes and facts existed haha
Haven't finished it though will either do it before I sleep or on my way to school (motion sickness who- jk it me. not as bad as reading though videos are sliiightly better but not much difference bleah)

Also had LF rehearsal on Sunday, we kinda finished the arrangement?! So exciting
We went to a foodcourt and like Why is there no halal food you have 20 stalls so much options much wow but noOoO even though it's 2019 folks still living like it's idkwhatyear but whatever i wont faint there's macs like 2 mins away
Not a big deal at all la it's such a first world problem especially in freaking singapore where i want to sit at a place with non muslim friends where we can eat and scream together so like ew im not proud

K la bye

Telepathy (03.58am)

I swore I was tired enough to sleep an hour ago but apparently not
Had a lovely no contacting day hahah
Aka ignored all messages (especially work related)
I was watching rachel ballinger like 2 hours ago and she was ranting about how siblings always hog the toilet and im like ok pause I need the toilet and right as I entered the bathroom elephant whatsapped to ask "WHAT ARE YOU DOING I JUST WANTED TO GO TO THE TOILET"
Im like wow
Then like 15 mins ago I was watching Wahlie's vlog and wanted to go to the kitchen to grab something I saw on the counter when I saw ele bringing the thing to put inside the fridge I was like Excuse you I was just going to take that
Hahahah frogs we are twins but she is the loser one
Here's to a beautiful Sunday ahead- a wedding and then rehearsal!

ps bought the born this way foundation yesterday; coincidentally the song we're gonna rehearse for later is the gaga song this is fate

How dare they (01.59am)

Had a lovely day
Still awaiting for PTX's SOS to drop excuse you dont make me wait so long please
Also, for the second time in my life I accidentally rebonded my hair again
Getting real tired of this
Jk
(Not really)
I regret cause I was so adamant on letting my hair rest after yearssss
But then I got like 2 epiphanies yesterday so like whatever
Also this'll last what, a year
Hehehehahaha I shan't think about it too much and embrace this softness
Ended the day with a tea session with mak idah and pak sani, and went home to cut my sisters' hair hahahaahahaha they both have bangs now
I wanna cut mine too but lets give it two more days im kinda enjoying the length
They played mario party which I had no interest in but was forced to play cause short of 1 player
Disguspink
K bye, here's to a lovely weekend ahead!

ps important news ele and i walked past the dessert kiosk at macs and wordlessly stopped together to start queueing lollll only right thing to do

pps it feels both foreign and familiar sporting straight hair again, I thought I Danned hard and embraced the curls well enough but ugh loser it ok it temporary

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05.40am

Was continuing with my Nur rewatching when notif for the SOS cover came in and I clicked faster than yall can say "Frogs"
It was great as usual I am very impressed as usual
How could humans keep telling us to stop doing PTX covers when they keep producing music LIKE THESE I dare you to tell me to stop one more time I will stop YOU
You are wrong
Like I get why we should vary and blabla their reputation makes the songs more well known and thus more expectations blabla
Bruh, my main agenda in music making is having fun and if mitch's note jumps and their fishcake tempo isn't fun idk what is
Point is they're doing really well and they continue to inspire me

Why am I always inspired at 5am is this my prime time must I shift my office hours

What do we want (02.34am)

Some of my favourite habits have changed overtime, and I have no idea how much of it is due to external influence.
I don't remember getting tired of doing things but perhaps i've just outgrown them?
Or is it just laziness on top of piling workload nope this is a terrible excuse
Ehh, not that mad though
Life is about experimenting and exploring and finding what qualities you'd love to live with

Watched the princess switch finally and I love vanannehudgs so much she'll forever be my gabriella montez but I love seeing her fly
Also everytime I watch her I feel a push to do theatre again
She's doing her job great- this inspiration can only be transferred despite distance and time if she had the purest intentions and true love for the art form
And she obviously does
I love it so much

In other news, I almost booked a salon appointment for later today
But I am so indecisive it's froggish
I used to care less
Is this what A GROWN UP'S BRAIN IS LIKE because I do not like it one bit
Disguspink
Glares at self for being a lollipop cheesejelly

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05.29am

What have I done
I was craving chocolates and there was an unopened box of mixed chocolates in the fridge
I read the flavours and like Naise orange chocolates
I ate one and now I got reminded of the Marks & Spencer's orange chocolate something I forgot what but it was....... I cannot find words hahah like noone could stop eating it

Also do you know everytime I don't sleep I feel like i'm the most (well at least conventionally) productive like I feel like working out and cooking and running errands
Eh the world isn't ready for a full formed me hahaha I wanted to say jk but im not really
K bye imma make breakfastish

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14.49pm

Honestly it's true fact that most young people are more polite to service people than the millenials are
Might be because our standards and expectations have went down so we've grown more understanding
But either way without all the negativity, i'd think life feels much more peaceful
I don't have to feel bad for anyone because noone is making anyone feel bad

Also, sending mama to the salon.
Hoping for a good session cause it took me FOREVER to research which salon to go to
And even this is a dive
Haha I trust the universe so let's do this
(See it's not even me I can't commit hahahahah)

Are you kidding me (03.17am)

Wot mate I told myself i'll sleep early today pshrhsjak I didn't even notice the time
Ok to be fair to myself this is early considering the fact that i've been sleeping close to noon the past week
Also cause I reached home at 1 plus hashtag justhmxthings
I feel like I have a lot to do but I also am not in the working mode yet
Eh will try to kickstart later before class

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20.15pm

Ok nope I managed to hibernate a bit today
Wanted to head out but the place was fully booked so tomorrow it is
Also I think my wrist healed heheh I hope so like it doesn't hurt now but im gonna be careful just in case
I miss STYLO we must meet soon dont be losers

Quite an eventful day? (00.55am)

What a day!
It was relatively normal but peppered with 3 memorable events which are just so, for the lack of better word, unnecessary
But entertaining nonetheless

So firstly I was late and had to cab to school psht
I entered the cab and the driver was like "Oh no, NTU so far im sorry im changing shift"
And im like uncle pls dont apologize and like chill ok I went out
Then I saw one of my dance students who was walking to the shops, had a short conversation and bid goodbye
That was when I realised my phone was not with me???
Then I also realised (even though it was VERY unlikely because it was VERY unlike me) that it could be in the cab I was in earlier
Bruh. I. Have. never. Left. My. Belongings. Excuse myself was I drunk (in hindsight it was weird cause it's not a habit of mine to put my phone at the car seat ive like never done that (oo maybe I thought I slipped it in my bag but it didn't get inside ok this makes more sense definitely more plausible)
So luckily my student was still within sight and im like "Oh crap whats her name i need to shout before she disappears" and I spent like 4 seconds brainstorming her name and I just called her and chased her asking her to call my phone
Thankfully the uncle picked up and he came back to return my phone (there were passengers inside bruh)
And immediately after I got a cab so that was an experience

Secondly in a literal weird twist in the cab, we were approaching the hive when I said "Uncle you can turn right here (where the hive road was)" but he responded TOO immediately and he turned right onto the HSS road which is not even a road
Oh my gosh I was so amused but at the same time I couldn't care less
He was like "Oh no this is not a road"
Im like "Yup but it's ok unless you want to reverse?"
And he also said "It's ok la"
So yup there was my vvip dropoff point

So then I went to class to put my things to chope my place before finding Harmonix
The prof was there and we greeted each other then I left
I ended up skipping class altogether (dont @ me)
Then after class ended im like I should get my bag before the doors lock- but I also know this prof tends to stayback like at least 20 minutes past class to finish his work
So im like pacing outside deciding whether to go in or wait for him to leave and then enter
After 20 minutes I (so annoying I keep typing 'like') decided I should at least say something to him so I went in
And this fisherman was SO NICE first of all he was like "It's ok as long as you are all fine!" MY HEART
Then he went through what they did in class and reminded me to email him if I needed anything
He is a frog cheese and I am completely tripped into not missing class ever again

Day ended calmer with Harmonix heheh
Rehearsal later tonight and I have yet to buy my secret valentine(s) gifts
I can feel myself not sleeping again but for once I hope im wrong hahahaha jk I have control over myself (ithink)
Ok buenas noches,
Sweetdreams

ps i hurt my right wrist and you never realise how much you use your body parts until theyre uncomfortable but i hope it's not a sprain

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04.52am

Ah I knew when I forced myself to sleep like 3 hours ago I would wake up in a few hours
That was a cool sleep though cause I felt conscious most of the time?
Both my body and brain were resting but I was still aware of every toss and turns and where my hands were
Like I only got into deep sleep in the last few minutes and I got a very faint, faded dream
I'd try and resume sleeping but my biological being might not want to eh we'll see k bye

What is it (01.31am)

Call it manifestation or coincidence, or even baader-Meinhof phenomenon
But like Pho
Hahaha im not meant to be cohesive (what kind of word choice is this)
Had rehearsal a few hours ago after so long :')
Looking forward to finding this group's dynamics (for now it's just us taking turns laughing and shaking our heads)
Also brace yourselves RVN is reuniting TONIGHT!
Ok afternoon cause of Latin class but oh my loch ness I am the most excited to be with and see those losers in one room again
May today go grand,
Here's to youth

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03.00am

What in the world was I talking about ^
Here I am calling people drunk hahaha ok
Told myself i'd sleep before 3 but right on time havent done a thing
I should make my office hours more productive

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08.35am

Whattt I didn't even realise the time
Fb is a rude place I was about to sleep 2 hours ago but someone uploaded all the episodes of Nur and I found myself skimming through the episodes
I just had to comment on how even though it's Adam's first time falling in love (i'd assume) he knew how to treat her right???
Like is that a result of good upbringing or just instincts idk but way to set the bar high bruh
Like he wouldn't touch her except in urgent situations (aka when her mum chased her out of the house and she would have stayed outside the door wailing if he didn't pull her away)
He never raised his voice at her despite being frustrated over his own mum's reaction against their relationship (she was really annoying and she couldn't understand his pov)
This level of respect man
Anyway yeah after a few posts ago of Malaysian dramas constantly disappointing me, Nur is a fresh.
Not saying it was dandy (some lines makes me want to punch a tree)
(Jk no tree abuse)
I watched it last year la but it's relevant seeing that they've started shooting season 2
Ok no idea why I typed all that
I should nap before heading out

ps when i said cohesive i meant coherant hahahahahahah cause (i forgot if i saw or thought first but) i saw like a few pho posts and now i want it (i think both at the same time)

Wishful thinking (00.08am)

Look at me setting an alarm for 5.45am as if I won't still be awake by then lolll
This is called wishful thinking ok who knows I finally am tired enough to get proper sleep
I've already been called out on it (my lack of humane sleep) for referring to rehearsal as tomorrow (it's wednesday psht)
But this does not prove anything except that I miss rehearsals HAHA (also after A levels I have no idea what days and dates are)
Ok Chiqa must sleep soon how dare she still do her homework
Dasar kepala doraemon
Buenas noches!

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04.29am

No points for guessing what im doing hahahha
Just applied a hair mask which could and could be not washed out (this is very english)
My forecast is I don't want to shampoo my hair it becomes too soft to do anything I do not enjoy
So nope to that
Ok I shall take a shower and then cook and then send chiqa and then nap and then shower again and then head to the hospital and then to school why am I revealing my day's plan
Jk im doing none of these

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08.02am

So far so good
Sent Baby chiky to school on a cab cause grab was rude with their high demands
Also I cooked at like 5am and after that started watching On my way home
I can't believe it took me this long to watch it
But seriously watching it made me feel homesick for harmonix hahaha
The little insider things they talk about that (probably) only acapeople can relate to is amazing
Keyboard on phone, laughing while singing, the level of trust and love for each other
Ok stop I am not being emotional
Had a lovely walk back from chiky's school it was so quiet and breezy (also I tried to learn my Daft punk medley hahahahahahahaha look at my complacent self learning it hours before the rehearsal but then again since when am I not jamming- also jk i'd think I have great work ethics acawise; work smart not hard eh)
I think I can get 3-4 hours of sleep if I slept before 9am
Wish me luck lol

ps grammy's today- honestly wont be surprised if demdems doesnt win, it's such a... unjustifiable awards show despite its reputation. my girl deserves better ♡ also means she has more to go through music wise

pps also wont be surprised if she won, if anyone deserves it it's her

ppps next grammy nomination AN ALBUM or another solo ok beb

This episode (05.07am)

Today on Oh it's still my office hours
Hahah honestly if even I don't understand myself noone should expect to understand me
Not that I care, as long as my path is not crossed it would most probably be out of harm's way
Why does this sound threatening idk

Did I mention I had a family filled Saturday which was lovely
Cue Izzul suddenly throwing himself at me and babytalking after being tired of playing with other people heheheheh I love you too babyboy ♡

Here's to another chill Sunday
Sundays without dance still feels wrong but I know it feels even wrong with it hahahaha I don't think I can commit to it professionally, at least not now when my hmx career is taking flight
Love takes time ok
Heheh
K bye I probably won't fall asleep tonight (hahaha tonight it's 5am you kangaroo)
Shall think about breakfast and then head to the hospital again

Night is still young (02.42am)

Planned for a lepak friday night by the bay but life had other plans haha
Ended up at the hospital till now ok I just reached home
As usual the hospital is always an adventure- inevitable seeing the long hours of wait
Today 2 people asked me for directions when I was sitting one corner playing scrabble on my phone
One uncle who saw this gave me a nod of approval and said "You're the information counter now"
Hahaha where is the lie
Ok hopefully all goes well
Imma rest and see where the weekends take me!

ps still miss my monix why they have their own lives how dare they

Is it ok to say (00.33am)

You know we humans just want to find something to blame
And I blame my tiredness on lack of coffee?
Hahaha as much as I love coffee I don't drink it everyday ah but when you do then you stop for some time I think it's the lack of caffeine crash which is a good sign going forward 
But who am I to eliminate coffee I love it it's one of my bestest friends
Not even to help me survive but the taste is so exquisite???
Like a cup of coffee made with love is like a hug without anyone touching you which is great
Hahahaha jk what a cliche saying

Still contemplating whether to go back to MI for CCA open house later
I just want to see abg mok tbh but he probably won't be there
My lazy to socialize self is fighting with my constant i-miss-mcs mood

Managed to go to class earlier today
Forgot how annoying but lovable poetry is
Forgot how non-philo kids are so weird
I was in a very much can't relate mood the whole time and it's not even in an obnoxious or pretentious way our line of thinking and doing really do differ
Cool
Also the prof seems nice I hope she stays nice

More importantly, managed to gather somemonix for dinner!!!!
I missed their faces so much omg what the frog
We Arnolded and then stood for the next 3 hours or so no idea what we were doing but one thing is for sure we're forever standing in a circle
Not cultish at all more like cuttlefish (not me why did I type that)

Also I cannot believe I have to go to school tonight for a loser briefing????
Hoping for another somemonix night though so heh we'll see
Here's to a grand day ahead!

ps i feel like i have tons of emails and messages to respond to i cant even

pps yes im drinking iced coffee now and i feel so much better heheheh means i love myself (no link but got link)

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15.39pm

Why
Must
Malaysian
Dramas
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Omg just started watching a drama to support lizzy but the script and the directing is quite cringeworthy???
Like ok at least the people can act (previous dramas dk how some people even get casted im confused)
Hopefully it gets better
Either way girl is doing welllll!

Lovely break (03.55am)

Equally eventful and uneventful
Also can someone (aka myself) remind me that I have class in 11 hours and I can't and should not skip it I literally have two classes wot m8
Also hoping to see somemonix tomorrow hehaheh

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05.49am

Who allowed me
I think I can not handle a gender reveal party
As someone who likes (embrace, actually) spoilers, having to unbox something to reveal a baby's gender is too much ermagerd cut the chase
If I had to have one I will organize it myself ok

Oof I scared myself (03.51am)

I saw my post as "Happy new year" and was like Did I not update for days
Lol
Sleepover at grammy's with elephant and cutie chiqa
What to do tomorrow hmmmm

ps i cannot deal with nomonix omg guys come back to earth from cny land we must reunite i miss u loser frogs

Happy lunar new year! (00.48am)

Wanted to go out at like 5pm but then I couldn't stop watching kung fu panda (dont ask how many times i've watched it ok)
Went out anyway and boy oh boYyYyY was town crowded
Ate and hung around esplanade and there were so many humans but all the shops were closed as usual im like bruh this is when business goes good
Ok jk family first
Also I miss hmx daya and I are overly attached who isnt

Same difference (05.01am)

Just settled down
I need to hibernate (more like want)
Heheh

Reckless behaviour pft (03.57am)

I am a cheese
Because cheese dont sleep
(at least that i know of)
I told jing yong I would sleep to recharge my battery for the meet and greet
But I am not adhering to my own advice
K bye

ps i cant believe and didnt realise i did the bicycle joke twice yesterday what is this lack of self control (i even explained it twice in brackets lol)

This is why (04.29am)

How is it that when alarms are set my being refuses to adhere but when it's not suddenly i'm waking up early
(im not gonna say it's my internal rebel again but i just did hahah)
I think I fell asleep 3 hours ago but it felt like I slept for so long
This is why i'm not at my peak what is this rest deprivation
It ok I will recharge soon it just annoying when i'm physically tired like a bicycle (two tyred)
K here's to a grand day ahead!

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22.32pm

Currently awaiting my s(ervers)isters to buy us food hahah im bicycling (two tyred)
Had a lovely day of family, cable car, skyride and coming across my colleagues lol only Vj recognized me from a far the rest didnt have a clue ok to be fair who expects anyone to be near work
Tomorrow might be meeting somemonix and me excites hehehe cause of a special meet and greet
Details will be out when i'm there cause security purposes (aka im the security guard)
Ok hopefully food comes soon (oh no mama says the queue is long)

Merry February (02.25am)

I was gonna rant about how Not againn im awake but I realise I hibernated yesterday probably because my body knows my brain wants to stay awake today
Just hoping I won't suddenly feel sleepy at 7am ahhahahah
Finally reunited with Fres/Grablorry gang, we were all so old omg huge contrast from the last time we went karaokeing when we had energy to jump around
I'd say it's the sem 2 feels when we havent had a break long enough to lepak
Also talking about break I miss holidays with hmx we literally meet everyday for gigs and dk-whats (AND CAMP)
We even had a last-day-of-freedom-before-sem-2-starts party how extra I love it hahaha
Ok meeting somemonix tonight for exco meeting hahahaha idk why I set it and I forget it
Jk
Also I feel like eating isit breakfast or dinner who knows