Was scrolling through fb at 3am when I came across a movie recommendation, which usually i'd ignore in all its glory but I saw two words; Gerald anderson
Oh my Jr the last time I saw him was in tayong dalawa like 8 years ago
So I decided to check it out cause why not
And I learnt that after all these years he's still charming hahahaha ok not the point (ok kinda is)
The movie was actually good, scary in all its form but sometimes scary is what propels change.
So like all was good, JR got a new girlfriend and they seemed happy, but then there was still an hour left to the movie so I was like "oh2....."
It's about a guy who found hope in an unlikely group of friends (and a girl of course what's new) after losing his girlfriend and job.
He was doing so well away from civilization when he was woken up by reality- whatever joy he was experiencing was only real inside his head.
The second last scene where he made a choice to say goodbye to the universe in his head was so heartbreaking.
It reminded me as to just how scary and real mental illnesses are (schizophrenia in this case)
He was standing on a long bridge, with happiness on one side and uncertainty on the other.
He chose reality, he chose to leave the woman he loved and the place that helped him get back on his feet, a place where he learnt how to love himself again and a place that reminded him to smile.
When she said "Once you check out, you can never check in again" he realises that although it is difficult, this is a separation for good.
And it is, indeed.
He walked away without looking back.
I would've argued that happiness is happiness regardless of which reality he was in until there was a scene where he almost drowned while hallucinating (aka while he was in his happy place)
To think that there are people out here who does not even realise that they have separate realities is troubling.
Today I pray for those who ails, and for those who takes care of the ill.
May you be granted patience and health.
May you be rewarded limitlessly and your affairs be eased.
And to the rest of us-
Let us make full use of our physical and mental capabilities in being supportive and inclusive.
It's always easier said than done, but we could always attempt to make this world a little brighter.