Oh man (01.17am)

I was so engrossed editing a video that I didnt realise the time
Today was a beyond beyoooond lazy day
Woke up watching a video (I forgot what) and then craved pizza
Then I left the room and saw pizza on the table :')
Bless.
Tried to push myself a few times but obviously didnt work
I have to be up early later omg
And ugh I have dance at night

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02.58am

I want to sleep soon lets hope it happens

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05.02am

I JUST REALISED 10 YEARS AGO I WAS IN P5 WHAT I ALWAYS THINK 10 YEARS AGO WAS oh im in k2 just learnt how to ride a bike BUT NO I WAS BEING PREPARED FOR PSLE BY THE SCHOOL HUH??
that fact just made me upset x7
Ok im obviously not sleeping since the day just began
Let's get ready, have breakfast, finish ancient essay and finally start on my self knowledge essay.
And then we'll see where the day takes us.

ps actually had a sudden burst of life after realising the people i've cared about in the past are all doing well. im happy for yall ♡

HAISH (02.13am)

The day it'd been nice if I slept early is the day I DONT sleep early
Is it my subconscious rebel at it again?!?!?!
Anyway today went unexpected hahaha ended up in school at 7pm and idek things happened
Essay still not happened
It's not a good progress but still progress ok
Will resume and FINISH later.
Heard it????
Finish.

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03.28am

Demi FINALLY dropped a christmas track!?!?
Couldve sworn i was just wondering when she'll do it like this past week watching her amazing live christmas covers (Silent night and All I want for Christmas is you)

I don't understand but im not complanin' (06.49am)

Good morning!
Fell asleep almost 10 mins after the last post and my internal clock just woke me up very early
Anyway it's always great having a full day ahead of you, knowing you're basically unstoppable.
I had a lovely lunch with lynn yesterday where we actually bought the literal same food even though we were from different stalls hahaha
Then she attempted to revise while I attempted to write my essay
Then yol came and destroyed my progress cause she was talking about the kl trip so I went from essay to google
Then we basically spent an hour talking on fb even though we were beside each other hahahahaha i cant
Watched some youtube, made some youtube, then basically watched 2 HSM movies before lynn came back from her exam and we headed for dinner
Today will be good.
Have a lovely tuesday ^^

Ayy good morning (05.17am)

Sometimes I find human quirks so adorable ahhaha no link
Slept around midnight and i woke up an hour later so I forced myself to sleep again then I woke up 3 hours later
Can also, thats the most sleep ive gotten after so long hahah now idk if I should wake up for good I mean technically I had 5 hours
2 ESSAYS TO FINISH TODAY, LETZ DO IT

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22.57pm

Idk why i keep telling myself i'd be more productive outside and with people
Literally all the assignments ive ever done are completed when im alone lying down in the room
Hahahaha will still convince myself otherwise even though I know it's not true

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23.23pm

I feel like it's time for beach day. Since no environment is working, perhaps a reflection session by the sea will let me see the light hahahha k goodnight im actually sleepyish

Connections beyond time and space (04.07am)

Idk if i ever mentioned this but when dems' cover of the Too good at goodbye song dropped i was like "really no other songs" and then i was like "ok if anyone can save it it's her"
And of course it wasnt the best (since hahahaha the song is not really our type) but i was beyond elated she didnt tolerate the falsettoing for longer like my heart leapt when she belted the chorus cause i was so done listening to other humans sing it with that- ok you know what whatever this didnt deserve a post im not a hater i just appreciated the song better this way

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05.38am

Oh and Echame la culpa is da bomb
And she is beauty i cant wait for TMYLM music video to drop

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22.29pm

Supposed to be doing 2 essays but Im like on a ptx binge i even learnt the sop-tenor parts for one song girl what u doing 

Ugh blessing and a curse (04.24am)

I got the date wrong but NOW PINOF will be dropped at any time
Didnt plan on staying up but since it's bound to happen anyway hahah I cant even
Guess what, I actually submitted my first assignment since my first semester :') (it's now my third)
Lowkey planned to get an extension but it's video making and I love editing video but it was 10pm and I still didnt feel like filming.
So I began writing a script and then began filming about 50 mins before deadline
While filming I accidentally said "Ok let's try this in a song" and since not being prepared is never an issue, instead of pausing to find a song, I went with the first words in my head........
Guess what.
Hahahahah nope (ok idk but the possibility of people guessing is non existant)
I heard there was a secret chord- ahahahahah hallelujah wtheck I havent heard it in like a month.
Managed to edit and submit exactly at 11.59pm (ok actually 11.58 but I was waiting for youtube to process and it literally was gonna take 2 minutes so I emailed Prof Chia the link at the literal last minute)
Anyway all is good, just 1 and a half more essays to submit before i'm freer!
Not that bothered about my sleeping schedule now that I don't have classes
Will still travel to school for comfort hahahah jk but for real, freaking exam period stealing all my friends away and making them so stressed
Ok i'll wait for PINOF patiently and then try to sleep (or not)

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05.19am

CAUGHT IT LOVED IT im a changed person
It felt so short wtheck it was that entertaining
Phil is reallyyyyyyy beautiful and the selfie dan chose of him was beyond AND him being dressed by dan in THAT OUTFIT idek how even
Dont get me started on daniel that red shirt is majorly approved and him tattooing his own face on phil was super adorbs u lil pooh
I luv these bois and i cant wait to see them next year (with adeline and daya?????!!!! i mean we reserved each other as soon as the announcement went live hahaha)
♡
Thanks for yet another year of sharing this lil bit of friendship with us all, it's beyond hard to find, not everyone is that lucky, but at least we know such love exist.
Haizzzz ♡♡♡♡

ps NEXT PINOF IS A DECADE OF PINOF AND A DECADE OF DNP WTH I DONT WANT THIS OLDNESS

An off day is still a day (01.15am)

Idk why im blogging im like walking home now hahah but it's ok no humans at this timing so i cant run into anyone
Today was a good day, very relaxed, very pleasant.
Alhamdulillah.
(but yol brought my fav cardigan home dasar doraemon hahah jk)

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01.50am

im not ready for pinof but it will drop any moment now omG ok pls dont upload before I sleep no wait maybe upload now so I can sleep afterwards
Or....
Maybe I should self-restraint and not watch it until I finish my ancient essay or use it as a halfway mark motivator

Time to take control (04.32am)

I told myself i'd be in school by 10am but I failed to sleep
Too bad; I can sleep on the way or at school but for now nuh uh I shall not sleep.
I used to have better control over my body clock but I think idk it's just idk
It's ok we'll work through it.

It's apparent how as we take care of our relationship with god, he takes care of us too.
Let us all do better and strive to improve each time.

ps kau bikin gue kaget sama foto ini wth demdems thou gave me a heartattack

pps but then again she'd tell me if anything so it's ok

ppps oh my gosh my blog titles are getting more and more similar haha this is what happens on uneventful days so let's try to make everyday an event day 

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13.08pm

Ok so 15 mins before my alarm rang I was like ok let me get a shut eye so to make sure i dont fall asleep i played a youtube video thats about 15 mins long but her voice made me sleep hahaha but it's all good im otw to school now today will be good

pppps im so not ready for pinof but also bring it on but more so just wait hold on dont but ok

ppppps I LEFT MY BEAN BOOZLED AT HOME i was so excited to bring it out and prank people psht 

Hahaha (04.00am)

Ancient philosophy essay due tonight- havent started and havent slept
Is this what hannah montana feels like (no link)
Weird how it was the only class I was so sure of taking this semester but ended up being the most neglected.
If only I could retake you but it's ok let's move on and hope that more socrates appear in my journey towards a degree

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16.43pm

1) I should really get out of home and either to be productive or roam around rather than doing what im doing 

2) So surreal seeing esplande posting about harmonix im so excited for us- literally just performed for muara at the concourse and now im (actually elephant is performing too wth so cool) so we're back with acamazing surprise hahahaha k lame but true

3) I still dk if i work well under pressure I tell people im not but i also know it's not true but then again lets not limit ourselves by definition

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21.55pm

I think i literally am reluctant to do my essay and idk why- im fighting against this instinct though

Btw, I was watching vids of wwe superstars doing the bean boozled challenge and was like "oh i miss that and why they so loser never swallow the bad flavours" 

And chiqa came home with a giant box of bean boozled hahahhahaa thanks universe now if you could just cooperate with me and bestow me with physical and mental energy that'd be beyond excellent insyallah,

Thank you 

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22.39pm

Huhhh I read this post and what was I typing ??? Lowkey drunk ah what is this man 

Quite weird to (not) be in control (01.36am)

Idk it's either my brain and body is out of sync or my brain really has 2 parts to it- the motivated and the lepak side both not actually competing but still simultaneously exists.
I knew monday would be a down day and it was, just had lunch with the famz and then hung around the whole day and ended the night planning for a trip with north pole ehehe
Thought i'd have an early night but here we are freshly awake but with not much motivation
I would probably head out tomorrow to start on assignments but honestly cant decide where yet, we'll see my mood in a few hours time.
Goodnight dear self, time for the brain to recuperate before I overwork it with philosophical thoughts again

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14.24pm

Ok I should finish both my essays and video assignment asap so I can do these things
1) Watch Survivor Series finalmente
2) Focus on my art better
3) Finally bring myself out for no reason again
4) Get the trip planning on full force
Ok goodluck, see you on the other side.

Virgo's brain? (00.12am)

I just got home from a getaway and the first thing I felt like doing despite my lens being almost dry is to clean out my wardrobe.
Thing is I already have everything strewn onto the floor so I have no choice but to do it
Not like I needed to choose
Haha hahah

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02.10am

Bruises everywhere, dead eyes, broken phone and lost belongings- I should call it a night soon.

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12.57pm

Two things, im not ready to watch survivor series and secondly I need one bright sunny morning this week- hold up the november blues for a while I need some vitamin D and sea

Less apparent (01.54am)

Sometimes it's worth it to ignore stuff but sometimes they speak to you so much- it's propelling me to disappear more often.
I had a lovely day today, and I fell asleep for 10 mins earlier tonight before I got awakened by freaking motorcyclists revving up their gear wth it's 1am u distorted doraemons
Trying to go back to sleep to no avail but it's ok.
Patience.

ps happy belated birthday to my (forever babies) nephews farrieal and farley pls dont grow too fast u cuties D; ♡

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13.26pm

Currently waiting to checkout- I wished it lasted longer but im also excited to begin and finish my final essays and submissions
My meditation continues back home ok hahah
Hope to have a great day and safe trip back home

ps gonna miss the breakfast here

Ok phew (01.12am)

Just checked into a hotel hahahah
It's a very i-didnt-know-i-need-this getaway before starting on my assignments
Very impromptu too which is always a fun thing
Here's to a weekend of self indulgence and befriending myself even more because I dont do that often enough these days
♡

Oh my Thursday ended up well; I finished both tests first hahahaha cause anyhow
Then for singing assignment we balloted order and I got 2nd ahahais which was great because the relief afterwards meant I could cheer on my classmates more heheheh they all did great- I wish them success in life!
Chloe drove us to town where we had dinner and I met her cute mum and aunt (they look so young???) before I ran over to admiralty for dance
I think we completed half the song before we all went to macs for supper ahaha and then when I took the train elephant was at yck and I saw her outside the cabin I was in wtheck what luck hahaha
Ok la time to ignore all messages and everything hehehe
Buenas noches!

EH? (22.01pm)

Is this a mark of last day of schools cause I lost sense of time I didnt even realise I didnt blog yesterday
But be right back

Sometimes, but no idea when (11.54am)

I mean technically I would still be in class now if not for the final test which hahahaha I have no idea how to do so I left early- I did what I could though and no regrets
Although I bet if I had actually took the course properly I would've been able to ace it because logic is quite a straightforward and (lowkey) fun module

And now im 2 hours early for my next class which will consist of us having to sing or read a passage for 3 minutes (as im typing im singing Hero- is this considered revision because if yes then it's the only revision ive done ever and the most fun one too)
Followed by a 15 mins quiz which I have no idea what is to be tested (wow my english)

BTW Anga bought me a new laptop for my birthday present D:
(Cause I kept using his maybe hahaha)
Anyway I love it im currently blogging on it and I keep bringing it everywhere
Ok la technically I got it at like 1am on 15th November so it's 1 day old!
Ah I should probably charge my phone it's on 1% battery

AND today marks the last day of my first semester as a sophomore!
I have dance tonight ahahais first training for the upcoming Anjung adat 2 next February
You know I woke up panicking this morning cause I heard mama and chiqa's voice and mama said "I just got home and (idk what)" but that sentence meant they both have returned home from school and that also means that it is after 1pm
Skali it was only 7am and chiqa has no more school and mama came home from the market
Hahahah false alarm
Okay yo necesito como ahora!

ps deadlines look manageable to me so far- if only I push aside procrastination and takecare of my scheduling i'll ace it

No words (01.53am)

I have a lot of things to say but I also have a lot of things to complete before 7am so I will just say 2 things

1) Happy blessed birthday to Anga and Elephant, love you guys always! ♡ and grow taller if you insist, whatever, cause people will always think im younger muehehehe

2) Idk if seeing so many people pulling all-nighters to meet deadlines is comforting or weird cause the nights are mine ok yall go sleep

Ok one more thing, Anga bought ME a present even though it's his birthday hahahahais beyond blessed thank you may Allah grant all of you with health, wealth, prosperity and love muehehehe

I have a test and presentation tomorrow and then 3 tests on thursday- all of which I have not touched see or heard of before tonight (hahahahaa bastad) but after that im back to my comfort of nothingness to do the 3 final assignments before I am called freedom so let us hang on and find our own motivations (cause too late to create discipline hahahaha)
Reminder to self; youre a student so act like one ok

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14.57pm

Ok I literally have a presentation at the end of this class but we have neither our slides nor scripts ready hahahahahaahh crap la major procrastinators.

At least we have 90 minutes to chiong

Most probably (01.35am)

I guess im over ascribing the norm to myself because thats something i'd probably not subscribe to
Idk if there's an elf inside me who just makes me subconciously rebel against things hahahahaha
(Ok both sentences above do not link to each other but they seem to be but dont be fooled)
I will stop asking myself why im not asleep because that is my life hahahaha especially towards the end-of-the-years because idk holiday mode or what but that's a thing

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06.52am

At like 4am I was too sleepy to even watch dnp's liveshow but now im awake again I shall eat breakfast then see where life takes me hahaha 

What motive (12.07pm)

Idk what I was trying to achieve but I set my alarm once every half hour and tried sleeping back in between hahahah I woke up everytime but idk what that was for nevermind probably lowkey training my sleepability
Today will be an intensive day of self-knowledge just cause we have a presentation on weds- we actually chose the last slot of the semester but managed to procrastinate until 2 days before what even hahahaha prangai man
And it's also the last week of my first semester of the second year!
May every semester be better than the last.

Oh wait (00.39am)

Idk why I thought it was yesterday that I slept at 10 I was looking forward for my brain to release some sleep hormones is it melatonin idk more like idontknowmin
Then I realised I slept at 6am aiya talk to my hand la I hope tonight wont be the same
I like how I have to hope hahaha not like I have my sleeping schedule under control right
Planning an early morning of attempted readings before harmonix
And then dance
The post-muara burn never did come which is good hahahah thank god
I do miss the dressing room though like getting ready in there was nice
And the performances itself of course

May we all have a blessed day, and spare a prayer for my dearest uncle who had a (hopefully) mild heartattack earlier today, I hope he's doing better by the second ♡

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23.31pm

Shaggening day. I think I managed to sleep before 4am- the rain didnt help but yeah had a mostly peaceful ride to smu for training! I was just happy to be there doing our songs hahaha ok I almost didnt want to run to dance even though it ended up with just the 4 of us but ya had the first day of production training today- met the other groups' dancers and recapped some good ole zapins. 

Headed to the hospital to visit pak jo and Alhamdulillah he's doing well, still his cheerful bubbly funny self heheh- get well stronger! ♡

Managed to eat half a prata as my meal for the day wtheck and then I suddenly craved mcwings ive never cared about mcwings but i shant entertain that thought. Fever has still not subsided but I guess it's normal this monsoon season- the fluctuation of hot and cold aiseh it's ok just dont disturb my functions 

Goodnight sweetdreams 

Bad decisions (00.57am)

First bad decision is financially wTH I should stop grabbing everywhere it's just my lifestyle of refusing to say no so i make like 2 plans in a day and then I rush to places and grab is just a good friend but NO
And then I spend on unnecessary items stop since when have I been a reckless spendee this is not a thing

Ok another bad decision is I DONT KNOW WHY IM STILL HAVING A FEVER
But I played in the rain just now so it will either worsen or cancel out the fever (not scientifically logical but do I look like I care)

Met cena today aka impromptu roaming session at vivo- and then we travelled to paya lebar to karaoke but once we reached we just bought some clothes and then went back to dhoby for mind cafe with maleena :')
My craving was fulfilled but 2 hours of games is so insufficient so we shall make a return
Thanks to the waitress who entertained our nonsense beginning with our ordering session
Ika: Can I have coke please!
Waitress: Sure
Ika: Do you have like coke zero or less sugar or something
Waitress: Oh no we dont! I can give you coke with no ice?
Ika: Oh it's ok I like the ice
Me: It's the coke she doesnt like

I think we made each other choke from laughter like once every 5 minutes ah hahahaha
I played coup with them ok la unfair advantage I won like all except 1 round hahahahahaha love that game
We also played like 2 telepathic games which was really fun I love those games and while ika went to the washroom, Maleena and I made a pact to cheat so we prepared a list of answers but Ika somehow knew we discussed so she made us choose a different card
We still trolled her anyway hahahaha high ten

Ok tomorrow will be a day I begin on presentation and essays.
Last week of school commences in 2 days and I have 2 trainings on Sunday.
May I get well fast but it's ok fevers are okay.

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04.03am

SHIKES I just got a notif that daniel posted about their rumoured world tour and yessss it's happening and yessss they're coming to my island and weirdly all these internet humans I spend so much time with them online I feel like theyre already my friends so like the excitement is not of like "Omg im finally seeing them" but more of "Ok about time you losers"
And yes- it is about time.
I missed them when they were free-roaming birds here a few months ago.
Perhaps i'd catch them this time round?
Who knows, I dont think I will enjoy hundreds of screaming teenagers though hahahahaha bruh

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20.06pm

Omg I was scrolling through my archives and realised I gave 2 posts posted 3 days apart the same title???? Hahahahahaha what 

Btw celebfest is always a bad idea cause of the crowd and I love randy pangalila but no thanks lets meet somewhere less humany 

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21.42pm

It's so nice to know im not the only one already missing evokals hahahaha lame ♡ :')

Blessed (06.20am)

Was it window shopping that made me feel that inch of tiredness I think so because after meeting eatgo I had dinner at home and fell asleep before 10.30pm
I woke up in the middle of the night (hahahaha what song is this ah oh yes, Lonely) and looked out the window in case I was late to meet wardah and alwani but the sun has not come out and I decided to attempt to go back to sleep instead of checking the time on my phone so yep and in the end I woke up proper at 5.30am (anyway from track record everytime I sleep early i'll wake up at ungodly hours)

Met my ms green tea for a catch up session and idk our telepathy extra strong cause we were both craving makisan (bruh I just had makisan on halloween but still) then when we went to typo to look at nice things while I picked out some things to show her, she'll be holding the same things to show to me HAHAHA I cant even
We were lazy to pick a movie so we went for jigsaw and then regretted immediately cause of gore we were like "id rather watch ghosts this is bluek"
Ive never even came close to covering my face during a movie so congrats jigsaw hahahaha just ew
But luckily the ending was okay enough for an intellectual discussion
That was a good catch up but of course it's insufficient so I hope to meet her again with melly and yol ♡

Anyway I thought I wanted to rest today but after getting proper sleep I feel like I dont require rest that urgently
Meeting Alwani and Wardah and then Painmat later heheahaha why do I keep meeting people I should meet myself too
Jk I appreciate yalls

BTW Insidious 4 is coming out I couldnt contain my excitement when the trailer played I almost shouted Ellise's name in excitement when I saw her face

May today be a fruitful day filled with kindness and love for all of us.
Adeu!

What an eventful week (03.09am)

Ok first of all I got forced to update whatsapp and the EMOTICONS WTHECK HAPPENED HAHAHAHA EWWW idk whether to enjoy it
Whatever la lame

Did I tell you it's the 2nd last week of this sem!
Reached self-knowledge class on the last half hour and realised wardah, alwani and I were all wearing blue so duh selfies hahahaha (we have a presentation together next week, our telepathy came too early but it's ok)
Second last week of school also means we had our last official harmonix training for semester 1 earlier just now
It was so fun!
We had Earl leading warmups and we jammed different songs to the same 4 chords, super cool
Then we split into groups to train and for the first time Evokals finally got full strength and we got to put the pieces of our 'new' song together hahahaha so proud of us!
Showcase was really enjoyable even though people were staring with no expressions (ok maybe some had expressions) hahaha
I missed the feeling of doing a new song we learnt (didnt get this feeling for I need your love cause I didnt really learn the song hahaha more like listen to the rest once and tried to fit myself in- kinda worked)
Seeing the juniors perform for the first time reminded me of Evokals' first time hahahaha we were awkward, no idea what to do and where to look.
And then I watched tonight's video and saw my groupmates' progress and I just feel this sense of pride for us- yall are great people.
Also staring at the group photo we took reminding me that this time last year I missed out on the first ever harmonix internal showcase because I missed trainings for Muara with Beztari.
I remember skipping one or two dance trainings to join Harmonix even though we were tight on Muara schedule ahahhaah sorry not sorry guys
Somehow continued bugging them during christmas training (which I wasnt even a part of) even though I knew noone (at least not properly like theyre all faces ive seen once or twice)
And then had one of the coolest experience with our first external gig together!
Thanks Harmonix, I wasnt the founder but yall are babies ♡
May we all get the well deserved rest and ace our exams/work

Now that my performances for the first half of November are settled, I ought to get some rest before it resumes ahahaha a day's rest is still rest :')
It is 3.20am and I have no idea if im staying up or going to class later
What I know is that im meeting ms green tea later for dance-related catchup hahahaha (specific eh)

Mic drop for now- training continues for everything over the weekend and beyond but i'll hold back for a while.
Just a while.
Have a fantabulous day ahead, please!

ps ok looked over my most used emoticons and some are actually cuter like the kissy face but my sideways glance of death looks less deadly wtheck rETURN THE GLARE (at least now it's beside the smirking face ive always thought they were oddly placed too far from each other)

pps and the unicorn is more purple nice but still 

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10.13am

This is turning into a diary of my successes and unnecessary mess-ups which i'd probably question myself about a few months down the road cause like "what was so hard man" I fell asleep at 6 and woke up a few minutes later feeling super awake but somehow didnt end up in class ahh 

Yay redemption (01.07am)

Should I not sleep tonight to catch my morning class later instead of staying up tomorrow night or both or none
I feel like editing videos or doing essays but gopro studios is a major lag and I dont really have essays to do

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09.52am

Huhhh for the first time in WEEKS i've woken up super early on a wednesday morning and I decided to sleep back????
Now I must rush to class lozer at least I can make it to class today hahahahaha k bless

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14.10pm

Yo I have a class in 20 minutes and im still stuck in bed
Temperature increased overnight and everything feels weird ew it's both too cold and hot
I got sick more often this year than the past many years of my life combined la what even
Self care has to be boosted by 300%

Anyway internally im feeling good, yesterday's performance went really well!
I'd say it's our new benchmark for performances and that we can only go up from here.
We did a penta job which is probably why there were significantly less problems and kudos to the sound engineers' team for being so efficient and good???
And needless to say our VPs did amazing they deserved the cheers they got, im forever blown away
It was really fun!
Ended the performances with mcd and chucky before resuming practice for tonight's internal showcase
It's our last official training for this sem aka I used to be worried that i'd miss them but now im not worried cause I know we'll end up meeting anyways hahahaha

Now my job is to get ready for school and get brunch and try to reach class before the halfway mark at 4pm
Wish me luck

ps i proofread this post and wtheck was i typing before hahahahahaha drunk

Don't think too much (00.56am)

Eating tutti frutti ice cream which looks good and tastes good haiseh ice cream is always a good decision

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17.44pm

Currently doing nothing much hahahah I have food infront of me but im full from fries
Had our performance earlier today which went quite well!
Will update later!

This is hmm... (00.55am)

Im not logged in to my instagram account, so whenever I just ended an event or outing I always log in to see the photos and stuff
Im not prepared for the spam but... bring it on
Also, im not feeling the burn yet although I am physically in pain, it's not much tiredness.
It'd probably kick in in the coming week but lets hope it never comes at all yay I have another performance in 2 days time yay im actually happy ok this is not sarcasm
Muara 2017 was real fun, till next time! ♡

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03.53am

Dear self, can you release some sleep-inducing hormones because if it turned out that I have a practice session later on it's a no from me please
And I finally settled the too-many photos and videos from today (at least the ones sent to me)
Preparing for another round of spam later on ahahahais bring it on... again (semi-unintended I love the BIO franchise hahaha)

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04.09am

OMGOSH I was uploading more photos on fb and one of my persada dance seniors posted some tb photos and I mean tb like 10 or more years ago of us dancing omG MY FEELS WTHECK HOW DARE U but thANKS for reminding me where we all started from :')

Times like these makes it apparent who THE sisters in my life are- thank you from the bottom of my heart khali, triple h, kak syaz, ain, kak faizah and orton for coming to support us. I appreciate you putting aside time just to see me move for a few minutes hahahais love yall, too precious ♡

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13.15pm

It's annoying how 501 can be divided by 3 wth that is not a thing (hahahahahah drama)

Anyway wow I actually slept at 6 and woke up 4 hours later unable to move but that episode is over im better now except deciding which photos to post is horrendous no thanks to insta's multiple posts failing to allow us to squarize landscape and portrait photos lozer man adding extra step ok im kidding im not complaining I just... ahhh need to go to school soon 

Wow. (00.59am)

Today was so eventful, in every ways possible.
Im ending my day feeling good and not as tired as I thought i'd be.
Blog when I wake up? :)
(really hoping to sleep before 3)

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11.33am

I felt like I had a good sleep and I woke up well but now an hour later im feeling physically meh again hahaha lozer man
Ok yesterday-
Idek where to start ok fine the start of the day hhahah
Went to meet my harmonix at raffles city to sing by the fountain until it turned on and annoyed us so we ran into the staircase
Basically,
- Revonix triuni aca exchange
- Muara day 2 conquered with our first set almost flawless and second set quite disastrous (hahahahaha give and take eh)
- Rossa's concert
- Dinner with the dancers (the only meal I had time for what even)

Kk wait i want to brunch

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23.18pm

Amazing how a day can turn around so quickly.

The opposite of weekends (00.14am)

Good day, need to rest because I have to be up in 7 hours and be physically mentally spiritually on point for the next 48 hours

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01.25am

I cant sleep D: disguspink
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02.18am

Actually ya why did I assume my body clock will fix itself over this week hahahahahahahahaahhahhhahahahahahahahahhahahaha lame

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10.51am

Weird how things can change in 1 second- I shall not act according to what I feel as of now because that would mean disaster... hahahaha ok kidding im not that havoc
Either way im doing well currently lazy to think of the future and I will be cool for the summer spring winter all the seasons in this universe even the ones undiscovered
Obviously idk what im talking about but idk why and how and what even
K la bye I should stop talking

Don't think too much (01.37am)

What's more frustrating that ignorance is being knowledgable but not being able to do anything with that knowledge
Today turned out fine despite both daya and I missing the test hahahaha please la I woke up 40 minutes before the test I cant find it in me to rush to batam (im exaggerating ntu is not that far- but technically batam is nearer to my house hahahahaa ok kidding again)
So I left home and at the bus stop decided that perhaps I should skip school altogether and it would be nice to visit vivo or sentosa instead.
I took the next bus that arrived which turned out to be the bus that goes to Harbourfront hahahahahah fate
So in the bus I texted my Chloe asking whether she was attending class because last night she said we technically could skip class since we booked the vocal coaching session next week (but I told her we could go support our classmates hahahah)
Skali turns out she was going to class so I alighted at Newton and made my way to school ahahahais
When I arrived, Dr Chia was coaching only the 2nd person because apparently everyone wanted to go next week instead hahaha.
Also, 2 things happened simultaneously as I stepped into class
Vicky said: Wani you're next (psht obviously not im scheduled for next week)
Zhi xuan said: How was Sentosa (aka Chloe told the professor why i'll be late and apparently the class heard it hahahahaa I cant even)
And then Dr Chia started calling out 2 names who refused to sing today and it landed on my name but then he said "Oh wait you're going next week right"
And idk I just had a Mitchie torres moment (ok I actually literally quoted Mitchie from camp rock HAHAHA) by saying that I'll sing if noone else wants to
And that's the story of how I got stuck with the song Hero because I actually didnt prepare any songs beforehand and it was the only melody in my brain as I stood in front of the class hahahahah whatever man
Then Chloe with her sick self volunteered to sing today too (since too many people wanted to postpone) so we turned from being the only humans who put down our dates as next week to clearing our session today (the rest actually selected both the days man hahaha)
Ok la then we walked around JP trying to find food and because we were trying to avoid humans we ended up at pizza hut- the emptiest place we could find
Journey home was peaceful I missed my personal bus time haahahah got such thing

AH I keep forgetting I have a performance later in the afternoon I was excited at the thought of going to vivo or sentosa since I didnt manage to do it just now
This is a weekend of wilderness (ok no animals involved but still)
In the words of my demdems, I will survive!

Btw I slept at like 10.30 just now, and woke up 2 hours later please I couldve used a better sleep experience but ok la better than nothing right

Hmmm decisions (02.19am)

I dont actually feel like I cant sleep but I feel like I could be studying for the test later but you know just intuitively studying feels wrong hahahaha
It's like asking a pilot to land the airplane blindfolded with one hand
(hahahaha fantastic analogy)
Today was quite fun (hahha I describe everything as fun)
....although I missed morning class AGAIN wth pls la I miss sitting in that class
Felt like calling wardah when I arrived at school as I was walking to koufu and turns out she was eating there alone hahha so yep right timing
For self knowledge, we had a special talk by Prof snowdon (aka noone can spell his name and we all thought he was one of the ancient philosophers but nooOooo)
It was an honour really!
He sounds like a british barney hahahahehe I loved hearing him speak!
2 hours into the talk people were pulling their hair in frustration and confusion it was amazing seeing a group of humans who are passionate enough to spend 3 hours together discussing how we know ourselves.

Harmonix is fun as usual la please stop asking hahahah noone is asking im telling
Did a bit of carolling revision (talking about revision my blog is a source of history textbook man sometimes when people are arguing about what happened when, I just ask for the date and check my blog hahhaha)
Then individual rehearsals
Spent a bit of time with our all time fav 21 pilots medley hahaha I almost dropped my phone down over the ledge because I asked keichi what a note was and he jumped from B2 to D1 and I was like "i dont even read scores that well and I know youre wrong"
They tried to chase the train but it didnt work so we eventually boarded 154 together and jammed till we all alighted yayyy

I have a logic test in about 7 hours time which I have no idea what it's about this is not ideal
But then I foresee voice class to be lepak because he's just doing some singing coaching heheheh should be interesting

Still mentally prepping myself for the weekend- muara is gonna be crazy but im sure we will ace the whole 3 days.
Ok gotta rest
Buenas noches

Hahahallo November (02.34am)

It's weird to think that I dont have a first language but while half of my brain says im more comfortable speaking in Malay the other half says that is bullshit
Whatever

I ended up having a great day afterall hahahaha impromptu days are nice days!
Met kak faizah at cathay for maki san and then we paid daiso a friendly visit and somehow picked up masks because we decided to go to Ashwood to check this out year's Halloween event
Since the last time I went (like... 10 years ago is it hahahaha) I always thought it was an unofficial neighbourhoodish family friendly event but there were security and roadblocks mannn legit!
Settled down at burger king when we arrived because we were a bit early + I had to give my plain white mask a makeover
Whatever was in my brain did not translate to my hand and appear on the mask but it turned out more than well because it turned out to be a hit!
We wore our masks from Fuchun CC and omg im so sorry for the people who got a semi heartattack seeing me hahahaha
People were running away and some immediately looked away pretending not to see me
2 kids were so scared they waved (literally facing their fears kudos) and gave the most insincere smiles ever hahahaha cute omg
We couldnt stop laughing because didnt expect people to acknowledge our last minute (and I mean laaaast minute) costumes and ACTUALLY be scared I felt like I did halloween right ahahaha
Another thing was that I was about to step out of my house wearing a blue dress with a hoodie but literally went back in to change to a black one which is longer but still has a hoodie and a black cardigan
Turned out to my advantage because the hoodie tied the costume together

Didnt want to trick or treat because bruh kids everywhere (give them chance la) but by the end of the night we were just like "You know what we deserve candy" and then the houseowners all complimented my costume HAHAHAHA it's amazing
I loved it, everyone was dressed up lovely- some notable ones were 2 flinstones family (who found each other and took a photo together hahaha cute), a Saw kid which was the scariest to me cause he (or she) was small and rode in a tricycle like idk his intentions, baby elephant and his safari family, baby pumpkins, a group of teenagers wearing floaties, a kid wearing homework, "No MRT service" signs, a baby minion (too cute i cry), a hawaiian family, a couple of chefs and their baby as a cupcake (CRAP LA CAN U SEE HOW AMAZING THESE COSTUMES ARE), King Elvis
I saw these two (I think) African-American kids wearing supergirl costumes and idk the contrast of their skin with the red and blue was so freaking beautiful I cant look at superwoman/supergirls the same way again I loved it (im only commenting cause ive never seen it in real life so I was in total awe maigahhh)
Then there were those costumes where it looks like you're riding dinosaurs or unicorns or a pony those were super cute
There were 4 sumos hahaha goodluck walking
A few marios (but I only saw 1 luigi hahaha)
A family was dressed as the scooby doo gang and they even had the van in their house???? ULTIMATE
And then nearby there was a scooby baby ahahahais i cant with the babies
A few pirates of the carribean and It (of course) themed outfit!
A loootttt of clowns and werewolves and vampires
And then there was kak faizah the catwoman and I the... scary nothing
(Did I finally find my stage name or what)
(Scary nothing hahahah)
Now im in a lot of stranger's camera rolls but it's ok cause noone knows my identity
Even when kak fitri arrived she didnt want to acknowledge me cause she said she was scared hhaahah rabak man give chance please
So, from a sick human in bed in the morning I ended my day being a source of entertainment and spending time with awesome humans
What more could I ask for!

K this post is long plus class in 6 hours time
Buaiii

ps actually im awake cause im converting clips from my bondo trip but it's taking forever (when i was watching the clip of the first time we met the kids I got emo hearing their voices man I miss them a lot a lot)