Ok I had an entire day of rest it would be crazy if I said im still tired hahahah lozur
Anyway yes reflective post ahead read at your own caution cause you know the whole sometimes-i-dont-even-agree-with-what-i-type thing might occur and there will be no way to tell which me is the real one (maybe there is no real me hmm who knows)
Ok so I once did this tag post and one one of the questions I've answered is like What's the worst insult (or was it What was the last insult) i've gotten
My answer was "i dont think i've ever been insulted"
And it's true because see, in order for someone to feel insulted by anyone's comments or actions, these people has to bear a weight or value.
If I don't care what you say I really don't, even if it relates to me and especially if it adds no value whatsoever to my life.
(Constructive criticisms are different; they sound different and they are meant for a different purpose- even if it comes from a stranger)
And while we cannot delve into their minds and hearts to read their intentions, we have rationality to decide for ourselves which comments to take into consideration and which to ignore like the passing wind.
This past week though, i've been hearing negative comments from people around me, and they are about things that honestly if they even thought before they spoke, will realise that it is not only insignificant, but if I were to change things, it would literally do nothing to me or for me.
I know none of them meant their comments as an insult but the fact that they decided like using their conscious, working brains to bring up these points are like... art thou kidding me is that really what your brains decided was significant enough to bring up???
Lol okay?
Ok an example is I was eating with a group of humans and one of them asked, "Do you always eat this slow?" and I kid you not, everyone around the table snickered like "Haha ikr, do you?"
And I was like "Yeap."
Idek why it was a thing to be teased about like if I have an hour to eat I will take that hour to eat, none of my atoms are asking you to eat at my speed or wait for me, so beat it.
And then there were comments about me as a physical being- now this was amusing because if you think about it, merely changing how you look will literally change nothing- okay perhaps a little extra self-love but do you really want that self-love to stem from such a shortlived source?
I understand that it is a root of many good things- perhaps more self-confidence or idk, what else- more better photos (???)
But like... ok how do I put this
If God had a standard of beauty he'd make his creations equal man.
Ok nope too deep and debatable.
What even is beauty except in the eyes of the beholder honestly
And what even is beauty in the eye of the world?
I am more interested that we all were granted a soul, a beating heart and fighting spirits.
THAT'S what I care about.
So if you want to strut in my life telling me how I should do my hair or walk, kindly explain how that will be beneficial for the things that matter most; on whether it will help me help humanity, or add even the slightest bit of value to the world.
Because beautiful things are meant to be enjoyed and appreciated,
But our standards of beautiful are too well defined for any of these to matter.
The day everyone realises this is the day insecurities about looks die, because we'd all be too wise to be hung over if we're a bit too chubby or short, or have acne-prone faces and straw-like hair, or walks like a duck or has crooked teeth.
Because while not everyone can seem beautiful, everyone is beautiful- and this cannot be defined by any brandings or tabloids.
The easiest way to put my takeaways are by these 2 scenarios;
1) The sun is bright whether i'm indoors or out. It is hot regardless of my realisation of it. My acknowledgement that "OmG it is hot and bright today" was not the cause of the sun being hot and bright- it just is.
So are all of us.
2) The best part about beauty is that it's subjective not only to the audience, but also to circumstances. Have you ever known someone who is cute until they spoke their minds? Or until you see them acting rude or immature and just plain dumb stuff? In contrast, someone whose looks never struck you at first but as you spend time with them and learn their hearts, they suddenly appear to be so beautiful in ways you can't describe? (Yes Phil lester im looking at you- except your beauty struck me even at first ok hahahaha)
3) God gave us faces, dammit, faces and a working mind and bodies and even beyond that, a SOUL and existance. If we can't see these as the greater blessing than some random bones structure and DNA arrangements, idek why you even exist like go spend your time worrying about your life instead of your reflection or photos u lil shit bE THANKFUL FOR LIFE
Ok im totally off tangent why is this suddenly about beauty hahaha
Back on track, it's about how this sudden onslaught of what i'd call attempted insults just made me feel one thing; that i'm one step closer to greater self-acceptance AND success.
Of course it's not always a bad thing to not accept yourself totally, because there will always be ways to better ourselves- but it doesnt mean we shouldn't acknowledge our own little progress.
I saw a quote earlier on which vibed and was cool because i've been putting blogging this for like 2 days hahaha but seeing it reminded me of this overdue post-
Ok la I forgot but it's something about the toughest battles are reserved for the strongest soldiers
(Ahahahhahaha I totally made that up I really cant remember the quote, I thought I liked it on Tumblr but nope I didnt pfft)
Ok la,
On the note that we should all love ourselves for who we are while simultaneously continue bettering ourselves, not only for our own good but the good of the world (because we all share this world ok none of your righteous nonsense here)
Adios and here's to a less shallow humankind ahead.
ps lowkey made this post because a lot of the people i love and care about or know is just so caught up in their instagrams and ok do what makes you happy but if it just makes you feel worse and insecure and troubled then take a step back and look at all these because sistas and brothers there is noone in my life that I love because they are known to be good looking