The ninth wonder of the world

Hello.
I don't know, I remember loving Chyna as I grew up.
But as I got more exposed to other people's opinions (something I regret doing omg people's opinions never fail to annoy me especially those narrow minded, self centred, very loserly ones) I began to move her to 2nd tier.
Today I realised that she has and will always be a total badass in my eyes.
I grew up with her and obviously most of my childhood memories are not fresh but I remember always doubting if she was a female because she kept wrestling with boys and that if she really was a diva, she was the only one that mattered to me because while the rest were "sexily fighting" (whatever THAT means) we had a really tough one over here.
It's just sad that we didn't get to see her in the ring one more time.
I wanted a true DX reunion, a Chyna vs (insert any new divas but preferably) Beth phoenix match, a domination of the women's wrestling division once again by the great one.
Just glad to have witness such an illustrious career, one like no other and impossible to replicate!
Besides everything, 'll always remember her feuds and alliances with the likes of Jericho, Guerrero, and her voice that doesn't quite match her gangsta face and aura.
Adeu!

Follow the heart?

Hello!
I have the tendency to be so underwhelming sometimes.
Like the difference between being down to earth and underestimating myself is so not obvious I sometimes accidentally (I swear I spell this word 3 different ways let me just go and check once and for all) cross the line.
Anyways.

Hi, me in the future.
I hope when you are reading this you have a goal in mind, something to work for, whatever it may be.
Right now I am having mixed thoughts.
You know, follow your heart but I don't even know what my heart wants at this moment of time.
Whatever it is, I leave it all to Him.
So my heart is at peace knowing that what is meant for me will eventually come but for now, at this reckless age of 19 going on 20, I am allowed to make mistakes even though ironically it's when i'm expected to have my life pretty sorted out.
Hey, I have a whole life ahead of me.
No use rushing things.
(20... why.... why. I cannot accept this fact, but I am so grateful to be given the chance to live each day Alhamdulillah)
I just want to remind myself to not give up on passion just because it is not as easy.
I promise to stay true to myself not just for me, but for everyone who never believed that their own hearts can bring them places.

Tak perlu eh profound a day before perkampungan!
I am stoked!
May everything go smoothly, In sha allah!
Adeu ^^

ps accidentally, accidently are apparently accepted. accidentaly on the other hand is absolutely wrong

pps too much words starting with the letter 'a'. annoying? (oops I did it again)

You may say i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one

No big deal

Hello!
I put this draft on hold with the title but now totally forgot what I was gonna talk about.
Baik bro.
What is the no big dealness?
What?
Whattttttt?
Ok nope that didn't help me remember.
I know it's about something (duh)
But what was it!!!!
Ahh ok lah forget it for now
I'll return once I remember hahaah

ps who's this cutie and why is he husband number 1 idk :')

pps level 49! omg 1 more to half baked (que?)

Before I go on

Hello!
Errr I would just like to say that......
I HAVE SURPASSED 619 POSTS?!
How come I never realised that!
I was so shocked when I saw-
1) Pageviews (who the heck reads this thing I mean even though I always talk like someone is reading I don't really think anyone reads it)
2) 622 posts
Literally WHAT WHAT WHAAAAAT?
(Oh btw I have a new life motto to use the word What? repeatedly like Stone Cold does when someone is being rude and/or annoying muehehe)
Ok but seriously!
I'm gonna need to wake up early tomorrow to create a new blogspot....
So not ready la please.
At first I thought like "Oh it's ok 622 minus the drafts would probably still be below 600"
But I retired my old blog (http://phantom-rey.blogspot.com to my future self if you ever dare forget) once the post counts reached 619 which means it included the drafts too.
Should I... just hold onto this space a bit longer by excluding the drafts?
Ok I will.
I hope I have at least 30 posts on drafts because-
Uhh.....

Do I really want to say goodbye to hotmofocakes though?
I don't know I can't think.
Adeu

First impressions lasts?

Hello!
A topic that interests me is (oh gosh please pardon my grammar I am not a student anymore I am free to misuse the language)
(Jk I love you English, and i'm pretty sure my grammar is fine)
Ok back to the topic.
A topic I quite like to talk about is first impressions; how it changes and how it is (most of the time) wayyyy different than what the person truly is.
For me, people's first impression of me ranges dramatically from:
"What a diva" to
"Aww you're so shy and quiet (to which I ALWAYS respond with ???)" to
"Gangster pe dekni" to
"Is she even interested" to
"You're really friendly!" to
"So arrogant ah?"
Ikr, what kind of vastness is this!
Some are polar opposites lah seh hahahaha.
I always try to portray my best self lah when meeting people but I guess I react according to social situations.
It's called adapting and camouflaging.
Which is what humans probably subconsciously do to survive and fit in at least a little bit.
(Idk sometimes I feel like I don't believe in what i'm typing)

Anyway I have been writing a novel and became pretty regular at updating but if you know me you know how I just can't finish a book hahahaha.
I just get so many new ideas that my old ones I tend to want to abandon but I can't bear to.
Sometimes I even attempt to combine ideas even though I clearly already assigned a storyline (99% unplanned endings because why would I)

Tutored today and made cranky baby Izzul sleep.
Settled accomodation and transport for the grad trip so it is happening, in sha allah!
May Allah ease our affairs!

Anyway exactly a week to perkampungan!
(Um hi I need a cool synonym for the word pretty/kinda)
Very (this will do for now even though the degree is extremer- ah yes extremer) stoked for it!
Tatyana told me she is already experiencing post bahas withdrawals hahaha to think that right after saringan she said, and I quote (more like copy paste)

[14/03 20:13] Triple H ♡: We are like so done w bahas alrd sia
[14/03 20:13] Triple H ♡: My friend Sampai jatuh sakit all

Hehehe but I knew they sooner got over it and quickly began to be excited and feel all the emotions.
Even before the finals they said they would miss bahas.
Why am I talking about bahas I was talking about first impressions.
Hello topic jump much.
Bye lah bye!
Adeu ^^

ps i use so many brackets eh hahaha

From the other side

Hello!
I love honesty.
I appreciate it so much.
But sometimes my heart can't handle how people find themselves so insignificant (for the major lack of a better term) that they hide their "other" side, their insecurities, shortcomings.
I mean we are all in this journey of life together; we are literally a team.
We learn together.

Just stumbled across a friend's blog; a really accomplished lady in my eyes, someone I admirably speak about to my friends.
In one particular post last year, she was so down, so down to the point where she admitted that at that time, she would want to be anyone but herself.
Get this; she is someone I actually aspire to be and wouldn't mind being!
At such a young age, she has achieved a lot. (not only in worldly terms in sha allah)
And to think that even she has her extreme days.
It was sad to read that particular line about how she wished she was not who she is.
(That is a mouthful... eyeful and fingerful)
But i'm so happy to see where she is now, bounced back, better, stronger and happier!

And I truly wish this for everyone else.
May our setbacks be a trampoline (alamak analogy cannot make it) that spurs us in the right directions.
May every problem make us better than we were before.
And may we always stay true to ourselves.

Bahas meeting went pretty smooth!
It helps that there was pizza ;)
Kak falah and syuh (actually I also ah) couldn't help breaking into the same song over and over again.
I can't count how many times hahah but aiseh.
Adeu ^^

ps possible grad trip coming up soon? in sha allah.

pps soooo not over pheed being gone. still have the app in my phone

Heartbreak part 2

It's done guys *cries*
Didnt expect them to reply though hahaha.
Why am I laughing I am sad.
Hais ok.
I'll try to move on...

3 years beb, 3 years almost daily I click on the bottom right.

Do u feel me of course you dont you are probably a twitter user which probably wont ever shut down

Adeu

I hate you, don't leave me

Hello.
Today, my heart is broken.
My all time favourite ranting place, Pheed was shut down yesterday without warning.
Literally it was like my 2nd blog, just more happening.
No wonder I felt like rereading everything these past few weeks, and I managed to read till my first pheed in 2013.
I downloaded it for fun, and it became one of my daily; heck even hourly, routine.
Every little thoughts that passed, memory that returned, feelings that cultivates were all poured right there.
I am beyond devastated over the loss of my best buddy.
I can't bear to delete the app, I can't bear to see my phone without the black and white 'P' logo.
Just yesterday I kept trying to log into pheed because I had things only deserving for Pheed to see.
Where am I gonna turn to now?
And even worse, how am I gonna recall the best and worst times, the intimacies of my life these past few years?!
Pheed, I trusted you.
I hope your creator somehow allows for me to access you back, atleast to retrive it all.
For now, I am-
(omg i forgot to fetch chiqa!!! See lah u make me so sad)
Ok currently in the lift.
Back to the emo post.
I am soo not okay with your departure and nothing will replace you in my phone and life.
Thank you for being the best companion.
You are where I track myself.
You are where I am myself.
And to have an app like you no matter how annoying your interface can be sometimes, (like the days I typed a looong pheed and you just refuse to post it and I had to retype pffft) is a rarity in the world of social media.

With that being said, blogger don't you DARE shut down.
Tu eres moi ultimo.
Adeu.

We did it!

Hola!
Before I begin, fun fact, exactly 3 years ago on the same date (9th Apr), I accompanied Syuh to audition for Bahas just to escape from CCA.
I had no interest whatsoever, partly because my formal Malay was pretty rusty after months of not using it properly.
Excuses eh, but true sia hahahah embarassing.
Since Syuh was one of the last few to audition, the teacher saw me and told me to "just audition for fun" and I of course just did it.
According to my FB memories, the cikgu gave me a word- Kuasa, and I had to debate about it.
Gave up trying to recall my vocabulary and I requested to speak in English...
Speaking in English to represent a Malay debate team, I somehow got in.
Hahaha, funny how fate works!

So, Bahas 4PM 2016 peringkat sekolah menengah (you have no idea how many times I repeated this line today) is officially over!
First of all, relieved, estatic but sad of course!
Always bittersweet to end a bahas season, especially since I am more involved this time round and that one of the pembahas is actually someone I know hahahaha.
Ultimately, I thank god for a team of committee that covers up each other's weaknesses and taps on another's strengths, simply to reach for a common goal and in the name of friendship!
Can't thank the team enough for making each session an enjoyable and dare I say- a pretty smooth sailing one.
Alhamdulillah!

Deyi emerged as champion with a margin of about 2.
And so Anglo chinese won 2nd place!
Ambas están bien!
I'm gonna miss disturbing the debators before, during and after each matches hahaha.
Who ask them to be so disturbable!
The great Boby won overall best speaker, which is calculated by the cumulation of individual marks throughout the whole series.
And Tatyana can say she won best speaker for all the 4 stages; preliminaries, quarters, semis AND finals.
Pretty hardcore if you ask me!

As for today, i'm extra impressed with both the teams' second speakers; Ain (Deyi) and Rishi (ACS).
They really upped their games and performed well!
Maisarah and Petrick's chillness gave the competition a good balance of fiesty, relaxed and sarcastic debators.

Personally- oh ya did I mention I emceed for the first time?
Hahaha I did!
Thankfully kak falah assigned Tamlikhaa the pengerusi to assist me towards the ending!
Honestly impressed with his abilities, such a natural hahaha.

I still remember the day I was sitting in the 4PM meeting room keying in the contestant names, trying to comprehend how long their names could get hahaha.
Meetings after meetings ensued, including preparation for the launching of akademi bahas, and especially, the preliminaries which was held 2 days in a row.
During the launch I got to see my own vision come true, of course with the help of everyone else.
Taklimat and bengkel bahas afterwards saw me getting to meet and interact with the mostly-to-be debators for the first time!
Some of them were so candid, and some were pretty shy and nervous, and I vividly remember Rishi mentioning that it was his first time debating in Malay.
After that tiring day, we went back to 4PM for an ice cream party- the start of our almost-weekly routine.
So while the teams worked hard preparing their points, we were busy doing plannings and preparing logistics.

To say thank you is the least I can do to show my appreciation.
To the ultimate backbones, staff 4PM Zara, Wani, Shamini.
Chaqif, Iffah, Aisyah.
Orang2 kuat Akademi bahas especially Pengerusis; Ustaz Azri and Atiqah, and also Kak falah.
To my favourite teammates I was forced to work with, Shabana Hamimah Syuhadah Asyraf, and rakan seperjuangan Iman & Shaf.
Volunteers who willingly came down to help out, yall are one of us ok, you're always welcome!

Now, time to work on the tertiary series!
Best of luck to all teams competing, see you at perkampungan in sha allah!

And I regret wearing the new boots I bought.
Aish the kind of pain that wont go away in 1 or 2 days.
I'm hoping for the best.

After bahas went straight to Punggol for Mak yah's birthday!
Fed with great food as usual hahahah.
Was so tired but 10 min power napped and then I felt all better.
Left a little after 9pm to go to Ehub and meet the rest for bowling.
Forced yana who just got home from NPCC to join us (she initially didnt want to because tired + didnt know I was coming muehehe)
Even though we were super high on bahas I still won the game lah hahahahaha.
Don't really like the bowling alley there mehh.
Oh oh after that while waiting for the adults to finish their games STYLO had our own debate session HAHAHA.
Me, Yana and Shasha as pencadang and Ika, Wana and Natasha as penyanggah with the mauduk "Pemerintah Singapura memanjakan rakyatnya"
And so ensued a mixed languaged, made up facted, continuous-celahans debate session.
Literally they were pretty good despite the loserness!
Post bahas syndrome affects even the audience eh hahaha nonsense.
Reached home a lil after 2am and finally got to rest after the fully social, tiring but extremely fun day.

Adeu ^^

ps mal foto pero es todo lo que tengo por ahora.

More than typical

Hello!
Super stoked for Saturday, hopefully everything goes well!
Literally have no prediction/preference of teams.
Both of them deserves to be in the finals and I hope they perform their best!
Go Deyi and ACS!

Got back from tutoring and a whole day of entertaining the cuties.
We watched wrestling and played hangman  hahaha.

Oh and last week Irfan asked me, "Kak, do you know wani lovato?"
And then "Eh..." he paused, like he felt something amiss.
Hahahahaha he didnt even know demi's real name la aduhh!
It's weird because I never mentioned to him that I like her and he doesn't use social media so idk how he knew but it sounded so normal to me (I actually nodded when he asked until I realised)
Baby izzul is growing so healthy, alhamdulillah!
Most importantly he is soooo so so cute!

Kinda hate the new woodlands interchange omg the distance I have to walk from the alighting point to bus 966 is like jurong to changi airport aiseh (melebih eh hahahaha)

Just got my script for this Saturday.
Is this my first formal hosting experience or what!
I also can't remember.
Hahaha done too many weird things in my life to take notice.
That's a good thing right?
Right!

Feel like going back to MI tomorrow for MCS (AND to force them to join bahas this year omg you have no idea how bummed I am that they are not joining despite having 2 awesome seniors who are in the AJK)
But we'll see.

May anyone (including me in the future)
(By future I mean ranging from 2 mins later to 20 years later) who is reading this have a great week ahead.
May Allah bless you and ease your affairs!
Adeu ^^

ps 47% in Spanish heck yeahhhh

pps nosotros tienes mas than uno persona in the spanish gang ahora! (super broken spanish but I understand ok ah ahahah)