hello, i reached my 300th post :)
so i got back my results.
meaning...
rant time!
ehehehe.
so firstly mr chai tried to trick me into believing that i got an E8 for maths and C6 for science.
im guessing he and me issac did that to make us panic and then "boo you actually passed."
(i only realised this after seeing raiyini cry beside me and suddenly stood to beat mr issac. i swear i thought she was frust so she did that hahaha i panicked for awhile i swear)
but i kinda gave the wrong reaction omg haha thinking back i must've been so weird xD
i was like, "eh, ok. still pass"
but when i took the result slip like my heart sank.
my results was unexpected, in a bad way.
i first lookout for the grades.
Bs, Cs.
so i was like "okayy.. this is horrible"
and the ever so nice mr chai tried to make things better by showing my science result and saying that there's nothing horrible about that.
it was then that i realised that dayum, i passed my fricking maths.
and combined humans i passed combined humanities.
and then before i could feel happy my eyes landed on my english, literature and higher malay.
okay this broke my heart hahaha.
no, it broke me.
i then stood and left the table.
i mean i did expect to not get an A for lit but i didnt expect it to be that bad.
i disappointed myself.
and mr issac was rubbing it in my face by shouting "richard you're the only A1 for lit leh!" walao i can cry tears of blood sia haha.
i didnt even get my A1 for higher malay.
yeah yeah A2 is good enough but you know i know my capabilities ugh.
english walao.
then when people asking my results they were like "what happen to your lit"
and every time i hear that question i feel like a) crying b) beating them
hahahha ok kidding but really it's frustrating.
i didnt finish all.
i didnt even complete one essay.
all i do halfway and had to conclude.
some even had only the intro paragraph.
why because i fell asleep.
ya for both the paper.
no use regretting lo, it was like what, 2 months ago?
hahaha.
and people tried to make me feel better by telling me that "EH you pass your maths!"
and i am here like, i really dont care.
no, honestly.
im really very very very thankful that i passed maths but it's not what i care about.
it's not why i travelled to school for.
it's just not.
whatever it is thank allah for the results, may you open our hearts and guide us to the right path in the future allah. amin.
and idk if it's just me or my brain or just coincidence.
every single time i pass maths in an exam, my stronger subjects will drop.
yup it's me.
haha.
next step is hardest.
idk where to go.
i planned to just swim all the way to san diego and marry zac efron.
idk why san diego but nevermind.
haha most probably im appealing for m.i.
i cant go to poly because idk what course to take ughh.
anyways congrats to my best buddies for their results, im legit proud of them.
i wished i couldve gotten good results so we can celebrate together but i cant.
and thanks yollie for the cakepops hehaha.
needless to say i didnt achieve my targets for all my subjects, but i passed all which is a blessing.
and shoutout to my choir juniors for being so lovely and supportive.
thank you to elika, ponggu, maisha, annabel, atiqah and more you girls are just too sweet to exist i love you girls so much xo
and this results thingy brought me to reconcile with lost contacts, alhamdulillah.
my cousins managed to go to poly too, congrats for that.
and i really wanna thank (and apologize) to mr chai and mr issac most for guiding us for the past 2 years.
Mr chai is sucha believer, it's so comforting to know that he believes in all of us.
Mr issac helped me get above C for lit and english and he's just so awesome words cant describe. like i cant imagine having another lit teacher, ever.
They really like deserve the best in life so whoever is gonna marry them in the future better be nice and awesome if not you know they got a crew of 41 here to hunt you down. *wink
also important to thank are my favourite lady teachers ms seah and ms chan
they, like mr chai, is a believer and is constantly motivating.
they're just so nice and loving, always there for us and they're not tired of talking to us and advising us.
Ms seah surprises me though, she came across as very independant and strict but a simple word from her changed my whole view on her. im most lucky to have choir which helped us bond.
also gotta thank mr sng and ms chong and mrs rajakumar for not giving up on me though i constantly dont do work and dont pay attention in class.
the world wouldnt be the way it is now if people like you guys dont exist.
to my friends hee nelly eatgo and yol thanks for being my maths tutor i owe it to you guys man and also for other subjects too.
lungless thanks for teaching me chem i love you but you're still lungless and like mr chai says "born to annoy people"
most importantly (and basic) i wanna thank allah and my family. no words can say how thankful i am so just know that im happy ehehe.
overall i got only one comment, if only i can mix prelims results with this hahaha i'll be like, 2A1s, 2A2s, 1B4 and 2C6s.
ok whatevs lengthy post heh.
adeu ^^
ps: giving up on ones self is the most disrespectful thing you can do.