Hello!
So i'm on bad terms with myself....
Hahaha.
You know how it feels to have so many people surrounding you, but when you need someone, none of them is actually there?
Yeah that's kinda how i feel right now.
I've never been affected by pressure, neither peer pressure nor society's.
My parents never once pressured me so im thankful for that.
But this past year, with changing family conditions, comes changing individuals.
Including me.
And i hate that.
Now as i try to listen to what people are telling me, i realise it's not worth it.
I mean you make your own decisions.
It's your dang future.
One slight problem though.
i dont know what i want.
It's like, I don't even know the next step.
And the people who matters, dont even bother.
Not my family, they're always there.
Like you're used as a stepping stone for them, and after they safely cross, they dont even bother to turn back to see how you're coping.
I've made mistakes, and i dont wanna repeat them.
Im slowly turning into a wreck and i hate it.
Do you know how it feels to know that you're changing, but you feel like you can't do anything?
Whatever it is, god has better plans for us.
I just hope that i make the right choice, take the right step.
Two disappointments are enough man.
2013 is gonna be good, im gonna make it good no matter the problems.