11.43am

The first thing that came to mind to celebrate my new freedom is i want to be in Sentosa lol my tru love 

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13.09pm

You know I love to do a lot of things

But some things i'd rather watch and enjoy people be good at it 

Like beatboxing and piano

Didnt manage to wake up for sahur today, cant remember the last time that happened??? Which is quite cool actually that it has been so long

But secondary school me who (if she did, i dont even know) (are we the same person if i dont even know what she did wew existential crisis) (this is why a line of philosophy of self argues that you are who you are because of memories) (ok tangent) missed sahur will continue playing basketball during recess and after school 

K idk why i saying this bye

Wait what im alone at home I just realised 

Hello family where u all go

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14.07pm

Trust yourself and everything is possible

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17.47pm

Kinda random and unnecessary but I kinda hate it when bridal makeup has OMBRE lips bluek 

Anyway I feel perfectly fine since waking up so thats amazing

Alhamdulillah for today 

My family went grocery shopping for raya hehehe as much as I would love to bask in the lively crowd of geylang on a saturday morning im thankful they didnt bring me along I do not have strength for that

11.41am

Kinda in pain, not even cause of the booster alhamdulillah

The ofis is just so freezing cold nothing is helping

Even after I stepped out with a hoodie the warmth isnt making me warmer

Last day of tolerating this unneccessary cold

Goblet of fire accompanying me today

Oh I wished lol campfire in office

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17.57pm

Im so exhausted

So exhausted

So exhausted

It is a miracle and only by His Will that I got through this freezing day, got a hitch back, and made it home without crashing 

I feel like I have no more energy left for the next hour hahahaha I used the last of it to change into my pjs 

I need the toilet but the thought of getting up is painful so I shall just rest

Last day of work was grand in my head- me dressing up for fun, strolling in and out of the office at whatever times I pleased (hahaha jk), and me even having energy to celebrate by helping prepare for iftar

But it's none of those hahaha

I wore pyjamas, the cold literally gave me a fever, booster shot making me physically exhausted which made me nap twice

Lying down in a non-ventilated room to hopefully warm myself up (ok to be fair I just drank cold coffee I had to do something I cant crash so fast!!!) 

(It's the last day of my period ok)

So alhamdulillah because I got to drink a hot drink to attempt to warm myself up in the office-

I am too exhausted to type I will brb lol 

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22.26pm

Alhamdulilah, feeling much much better after napping for what, 2 hours?

I had fever but I truly dont 100% blame the booster shot I swear my office was negative degrees just now and my entire body was in pain 

But now I had sufficient time to defrost my fever and pains has reduced significantly

Still havent process that Im free from torture 

15.35pm

2nd last day of work

Quite surreal

Very exciting

But of course a small part of me will miss it (just the setting, not the obligations lol)

No idea what im doing in life next but excited for the endless possibility 

What i'm sure of is no more 9-5 for me 

May Allah ease my journey 

Amin

Actually fell asleep for like idk 5 mins lol another nothing to do afternoon

Even edited 2 videos

Didnt bring my phone charger but thankfully I got a tiny usb from my portable

Ok just an hour to survive

I'll leave earlier today I dont even care

05.34am

Woke up to one post of zuhair murad's spring-summer 2022 couture collection 

And I checked the full collection out

And I just want every piece for my daily life

You know everytime I (used to, pfft) scroll insta and a dress appears and I love it, 9.3/10 times it's zm

Either red carpet or bridal I feel like it's all impressive

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12.46pm

Dobby's death is still not okay

09.44am

I have had 3 consecutive horrendous experience with (grab-booked) cab drivers going the long way including right now

Wtheck a 15$ ride is going to be 20 for no reason

Like how my 9$ rides to lasalle turns out to be 15

Yes im unhappy??? 

And no it's not traffic i check gps before i accuse ok

First of all i take cab cus i want to be fast

Secondly it's only cus grab is high demand and cabs can be cheaper so u are not fulfilling any of your objectives pfft

Whatever cobaan puasa

My heart is screaming seeing the meter right now

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09.55am

22$.

Anyone else want to test me this fine morning? 

(NOT a challenge i will literally chokeslam you im a wrestler) 

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12.49pm

Hehe nothing to perk me up like empty office and harry potter

The 7 harry scene still blows me away it's so epic

And ron saying thanks when hermoine hugs him HAHAHAAH what is that

Did you know ive watched the movies tens of times but never caught that moody was killed until I READ THE BOOKS LAST YEAR

Literally i think i just dont understand their accents and ive never watched with subtitles

But cool cause i'd never thought i'd had my mind blown that much

K bye back to watching

06.50am

It's literally my last week of darned office work but there's no spring in my heart whatsoever 

It's purely survival

Having me go into the office everyday was dumb and waste of my resources cause I literally have nothing to do

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19.40pm

And suddenly 4 more days of office life feels so short

But trust me I wont feel the same in the morning HAHAHA

Also I love mornings just not loserpurposed

I decided to live in fantasy world for a bit cause I require mental stimulation in the form of dreams

Ok bye

02.17am

Had a wonderful day, but the exhaustion is real

Thanks to my period which just came

Immediately felt my body go weaker wew

Sleepy

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19.41pm

In my happy place

Just ate chiqa-made kuih suji and i put 4 reese's peanut butter chips on top

So delicious

Also I met both my groups yesterday ♡

15.43pm

It's friday, i have 5 more days of work left, the idc levels are at an all time high

Bleargh

An hour to go

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19.38pm

Im so happy

The ease of restrictions

:') alhamdulillah

2 things that's most exciting: family gatherings and HMX

Random but I grew up with people saying Dont be too happy but thats dumb like if youre not happy when happy things are happening then when anyway every feelings fade so let the high be there for what 2 seconds

K bye haha

05.16am

No hate to Depp, but the new Grindelwald is an absolute yes

The charisma of calm, i'm-not-evil-evil matches young dumbledore well

The movie is definitely visually stunning but i'd prefer tighter storyline than the general actions

It felt like a decent transition movie, more like an episode in a drama besides the grand cinematography and settings and special effects (the disappearing note, the bridge of paper are two that immediately comes to mind)

The Qilin not cute hahahahaa oops it definitely wont bow down to me now

I was 40% entertained, 60% wanting more answers

But at the same time appreciated it wasn't (too) rushed, but at the same time dreading that the next movie will take years again (keep up the moMENTUM, cmon)

Admitantly I never watched Fantastic beasts, I watched Crimes of Grindelwald a few times

I don't really fancy the way the stories are conveyed, script wise, even though the concepts and connections are all mindblowing and very value adding to our love for the HP universe 

And I always loathe a love storyline within an otherwise/already great story (Wonderwoman i am looking at YOU)

Also I totally thought the german minister guy was Grindelwald they look the SAME but humans said not at all pfft u all are wrong hahahaha

Of course, can feel the absence of Nagini and Leta

Also ugh @ singapore cinemas can stop making the movies with chinese subtitles the most timings I swear english subtitles timings are always too early or just non existent I cant decipher the european accents sometimes ok i need subtitles

But also the quality of vfx makes me wonder how epic actual harry potter movies would look like

But dont want ah they too much sometimes lol so many visuals no content (coughs marvel movies cough)

K bye

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12.52

I have no idea what I typed above but im happy to not be at work

16.54pm

Pls my office was so cold my phone is currently experiencing condensation

Wtheckie

Also contact lenses are a blessing to mankind

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16.57pm

My compact powder mirror is also condensing!!!

How the heck did I survive that long my hands are numb 

05.49am

What can I do to make work less dreadful

Zz

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09.00am

Waiting 20 freakin minutes for the bus is just a sign I just shouldnt go to work

Really challenging me this lovely ramadan day 

It was 6 mins at 8.40am

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09.08am

I give up man im just taking an alternative route to work i dont even care

The one day i woke up and left home earlier

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09.57am

I have 7 more days of work, officially (I got 1 secret off day unused so I used it)

Ended up wasting 17$ to go to work I literally can get an mc for cheaper

Trying to ikhlaskan everything that happened this morning and start afresh even though this place makes it hard to

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11.41am

Mentally settled down and just here to say marvel merepek sia hahahahaha the more things I read about it the more I want them to shut up 

K bye

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13.46pm

Random opinion but I dont actually like mcspicy with cheese??? hahahaha 

What I like, however, is mcspicy with smooth bun

Das nice

Also hmx ate at hot chix on sat and now i can only think about the dirty taters

Im not even thinking about food i just saw a pic of mcspicy with cheese HAHAHA ok bye back to freezing 

My entire hands are so numb

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14.59pm

Wow I had a pep in my step cause I thought it was 3.59pm but not even

Hahahah

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19.43pm

Currently hearing raya song on the radio while eating bangkit cheese :')

Alhamdulillah

Also, YES bangkit cheese i was just thinking about it 

Not as lemak and creamy as the one from johor, but still very delicious

I also have cheese cadbury kuih snuck into my room hehehee but I only ever eaten one so the second one is gonna happen right as I hit post

Oh have I mentioned how much i love raya songs 

08.40am

Another workday another struggle

The temptation to just take unpaid leaves 

I shall push through though

p.s. ironic photo

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18.23pm

Ugh another day of doing absolutely nothing at work

Im sure this is someone's dream job

I loathe it

Was asked to carry heavy books again despite my many MCs regarding back pain so i guess brainlessness is in the company 

11.38am

Alhamdulillah for yesterday

It was all things good 

Right as we finished singing I felt an exhaustion I havent felt in sometime- the feeling of giving it your all 

(also because lack of performance stamina lolol give chance it's been 2.5 years- anugerah dont count cause no audience)

Im so so happy to be around both real family and chosen family (HMX!!!!) 

Felt so right to be with each other we broke fast together and let the bois finally eat fried chicken and spicy food (aka pre-gig aversions)

Then we sat (and inevitably lay down of course) for hours just doing nonsense

It was so lovely and I appreciate everyone who came down to watch our first gig it means THE MOST!!!!

Had a going back home trouble last night- high demand, no cab, battery dying- but kind soul saved my life got me back safely when my phone was at 6% ;') 

Ok haiz idk if I feel tired or just post-show blues

Hehaha

00.46am

So tired but happy tired

Tired from rehearsing, raya prepping and fasting

Alhamdulillah

Exciting day ahead

Also yea happy to see the crowd at geylang

Wouls rather that than the past 2 years

08.17am

Writing to hopefully wake me up

Dang it doesnt get easier

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16.59pm

Heard the first raya song on the radio today

!!!! I LOVE!!!!

Happy 1st birthday, Lut alfie (00.10am)

Feels like just last week your mama told us she was pregnant with you

And then when she told us your gender and name on the same night

And the first time I got to see you

We even got the honour of seeing you take your first steps!

Little honey bear you are growing so so well, we love you more than words can say ♡ 

I'm always excited at the thought of seeing you again!!!!

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08.38am

-__-

Literally had to drag myself out of bed

Tis a struggle

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20.10pm

Spent 21$ on grab for what

For there to be no network until literally the last hour of work

For me to be tortured by the cold

WTHECK ugh

At least I survived and tomorrow's the last day for the week

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20.52pm

Ten years or 10,000 hours. My goodness, what an incredible journey it’s been. I spent four of those years running around like a headless chicken trying to figure out how to break into the industry, struggling with credit card debt and taking any job I could. Another three years were spent trying to break into Hollywood, sinking my precious life savings into something many would call a pipe dream. It’s really only been these past three years that anything I’ve done has begun to bear any fruit.

I don’t know who needs to hear this right now, but no amount of money is worth compromising your vision for yourself. The pursuit of a dream- YOUR dream- against all odds… that’s what life is all about.

You did for me what I never had the courage to do myself; you destroyed a life that I was building for someone else, so that I could finally begin to build a life for me.

- Simu Liu

13.02pm

Why. Is. The. Office. So. Cold

Ughz

Anyway major time wasting today whats new 

But whatever I have personal funner things to do so

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17.00pm

By gah that was so boring and a total waste of my time (ok, not total, mostly) 

But honestly it's a good thing that my last few days in the office is filled with nothing so muahaha yay

Just 2 more days of that to go through this week and then...

Our first live gig as E.A.R.L

I SCREAM

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21.30pm

Good things will take time

Also I am freefalling

06.56am

Ok ive just been denying that the exhaustion and the back pain is period symptoms cus why u gotta change shift now so hopefully still not that 

Anyway I love monday mornings

Except when I HAVE TO GO OFFICE bluek 

Cant wait to leave I have 14 more days of work which is honestly 14 days too long lolol 

But I shall find positivity (more like create it) to tide me through

One day at a time! 

(Bleargh) (but alhamdulillah I still have a job)

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14.12pm

Surviving but unhappy psht

Haizzz only.. 2.5 hours to go

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19.45pm

Finally get to lie down for a bit and put on plaster on my sudden cuts on my finger hello I think my hair cut it

Who knew office is a backbreaking job

Cooked right as I got home and finished just in time for buka alhamdulillah

K bye I got... 3 more days of office before I get to have fun psht

20.29pm

Had such a fun day of rehearsearl and buka

But now im so tired hehe and feverish cus the weather hot and cold

Work ugh but at least it's 4 days work week instead of 5 

Bluek

18.32pm

Idk what this exhaustion is I think it's the 2 weeks of daily office-going catching up to me or maybe body clock switching

I hibernated today wow

From 1pm to basically now I sleep and wake up idk how many times hahahaha hais

It ok 

01.03am

Just one day of no work and I feel like myself again

Aka me the past 2 weeks wont be awake at this timing lol lame

I got 2 days mc so im very happy thank you universe i needed it

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03.03pm

Why do I keep getting shook

Dolph ziggler is 41 years old.

Fourty one

I thought he was 28-33 at most

Dang it 

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05.49am

Random but I havent blogged about taker's HOF speech cus im procrastinating the processing

But just know for now that he is a badass through and through, in ring and out

And his message that rings in my head currently is live life on your own terms- i mean i didnt need to hear that cause we are the same person and it's also my way of living but I can only imagine how much those words could mean to people who arent like that, hearing it from taker's mouth must mean so much

K bye 

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22.08pm

Pls it felt so good to revisit my soprano self 

But can feel the lack of stamina in breath support wew but yayyyy my entire vocal production mechanism definitely did right today

2 hours of (yes they pushed me to) soprano 1 singing and I barely feel like I sang 

K bye 

10.41am

Any day I spend not in the office is a great day

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17.32pm

Watching the eddie guerrero tribute episode and im only 30 seconds in and seeing hbk comforting reyrey and triple h comforting benoit and seeing demon kane looking like he's crying is INSANE 

I watched it live, I remember seeing reyrey crying and taking off his mask and I actually bent down to see his face (HAHAHA good old days of no internet/google) ok i know i cant i just hOPED TO okay

But now we all know he handsome boy so it was worth the wait lol 

Ok bye back to watching i wont cry if i feel like im gonna cry i will just watch tonight

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18.09pm

At this age, I still dont find it acceptable to squeeze a lime into food

Like it's different if cooked with lime but to squeeze it myself is a no no cus then all i can taste is the lime HAHAHA ESPECIALLY in soups

Blasphemy

Leave my soups alone in its glory it dont need no taste enhancements 

05.44am

Currently neither a night owl or a morning bird

I have missed my alarm for the past 2 days of sahur even though I fall asleep anytime between 9-11pm

And I wake up so tired???

Dang office life 

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13.11pm

Two fasting humans in office means pre zohor naptime lolz my eyes are dry but im not sleepin cause it's too bright here (but good)

Shall just do more content managing for framework bts vlog

Yayayaa why is it so cold

16 more days left in this office

Thats 16 days too long hahahaha ok fine pfft 

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14.37pm

Ok I feel it now

So sleepy, bored and cold

I can do things but it's just too cold to function and my eyes are getting dry and sleepy zzzzzz 

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18.22pm

Alhamdulillah, I survived the last 2 hours in the office cause Bellapark went live thank u sista

Also He eased my journey back home

I took public transport all the way and I got home in exactly an hour

!!!! Thats the fastest ever

And Wrestlemania 17 occupying me in the train and bus

I knew I watched it the week it came out, but now rewatching it, I totally forgot most of it

Like how badass chyna was (I always knew but) in her shiny purple gear and purple choker and purple headpiece!!!!?? and apparently Ivory was slightly crazy 

How much I missed seeing matches like Angle vs Benoit

Crazy storylines like Mr Mcmahon drugging his wife before beating his son up 

Truly the good old days

Hehe ok less than an hour to buka :O 

Eating outside food today for the first time this ramadhan!

13.03pm

Wow I totally forgot lunchtime existed 

Honestly wouldve kept going if cik khairani didnt ask me when im gonna rest

Lolzers

It is freezing cold

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23.16pm

I have dilemma of fully utilizing wwe network now that I paid 9.99USD for it 

But everything there will make me cry 

I gave in and decided to finish episode 1 of Brothers of destruction and MY HEART IS DESTROYED

Im simply not ready and I dont want to cry but I need to watch it all but I cant handle it 

Dang it why were kane and undertaker so sweet to each other at the end of episode 1 how dare they!!! 

20.12pm

I did it

I sent my one month notice and I only have 18 days of work left, with 9.5 days of leave which im planning to use up no matter what they say 

If I dont know where to go next, then any way is the right way

Salam Ramadan! (06.04am)

Alhamdulillah, He let us meet the holy month once again.

Bismillah to making this one better than the past, as always

Livelier this year with new family additions, and sleepover at nenek's house right after rehearsearl (which.... is the FIRST in 2022 that is so wrong hmph but it was so good to sing together again)

Even got to see babies disturbing terawih session

Here is a pic of me crying non stop watching undertaker in the grab (I started crying not even when undertaker appears, it's vince's speech HAHAHA once he said LOVE I lost it and once I exited the grab I threw away my mask it was tear filled)

(But once again, my makeup did not budge!!!)

K bye cant wait to rewatch 

Anyway I didnt prank anyone for April fools so I will prank them another time but fasting month so I will prank after breaking fast yess 

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14.27pm

Kane is genuinely scary so it is culture shock when glenn jacobs appeared and he seems like the sweetest kindest cuddlebug of a giant man I cannot fathom 

Right now im watching first ever MITB and kane wow 

I love u kane 

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23.25pm

Alhamdulillah, had a wonderful first day of puasa

Of course, adjusting to the season needs energy and effort but may it just get better from here

Not only did I get to spend sahur and buka with the extended family with the best food, we also got to witness Alfie taking his first steps!!!!

Tis cutie boy also always want everyone's food hehe wait ok once you have teeth and is big enough we will feed you all the good things

Ok back to work (boo) tomorrow but somehow it being fasting month makes me not dread it as much, maybe cause I will be occupied 

Definitely clearing my leaves this month though, since im tendering my one month tomorrow im excited

Ok, goodnight 

Hall of fame (09.55am)

2.5 hours to the WWE Hall of fame

Im beyond sad that im not in the arena

Im gonna watch it live in a room alone and crying so leave me alone please

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12.46pm

I genuinely dont want to let it sink in yet

So I will distract myself by saying that after an hour of crying, my MAKEUP DIDNT BUDGE???

Wow sister 

I love you taker I didnt expect to be so inspired by your words

Didnt even sink in that undertaker doesnt talk but it just felt so natural 

Like family

Thank you wwe universe

ps i did watch it in the room alone crying

April's fools! (10.39am)

Of course the ONE day of the week I have to move around a lot I cant walk properly 

Me and yol did a first in our friendship yesterday- hang out overnight outside

Growing up it's either she had curfew, and when curfewing stopped, her body clock just cannot do it

K brb

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20.44pm

What's with this 'new?' version of Mengintai dari tirai kamar ive been hearing around it's SO annoying the lyrics arent even nice wtheck 

Where did it even come from shut up everyone who plays it

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20.47pm

Ok i just googled it

It's disguspink and offensive to the original song

Just leave things alone okay

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21.27pm

Just reread some posts from november and I spent 22$ on grab to work and reached 10 mins late!!!!

Do u know I literally wake up at 8am now and take bus to work and reach 1 hour late

HAHAHAHA character development 

Supposed to go to nenek's house but im like too comfortable lying downzz

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22.25pm

Ahaha the comfort made us procrastinate and go tomorrow morning instead

Anyway whenever i meet yol we will end up walking non-stop accidentally 

Last night we walked from marina south pier to idk where and then back to mbs

Wouldve been dandy if my slippers werent so frictiony and thus yea the blisters and this whole day I cant walk properly hahaha wew