But also im not interested to know why
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23.08pm
Have been trying hard to resist external forces pushing against me
Today I am tired.
Today I had no strength to fight
But I wont let the negativity enter my system even for a minute (few seconds can but must leave immediately)
Yesterday I was just reminded of my place
Today I felt like running away
But I stayed present
I tried putting in energy and effort
But internally my heart is on the verge of tears
Just because im reminded of my place
Usually im great at ignoring this feeling but mostly it's cause im just not feeling well ah the cold weather is just horrible to me
This afternoon my fingernails were legitimately purple because of how cold it is I also had a fever and I just feel physically weak which contributes to my lack of emotional and mental strength too
May tomorrow be a better day already
I am light
I am happiness
Noone's lack of love or concern for me will affect me cause I am love itself
I am also stoic
Most importantly I am speaking nonsense hahahaa
Had a pleasant day although I was very very low in energy, my eyes were heavy and my heart was burdened over other people
Helped set up a new TV
Had my only meal at Sakunthalas
And now im home feeling no better than I did when I left home
This too shall pass!