Friday, May 21, 2021

02.04am

Just finished reading Chamber of secrets
Cant help replaying the movie scenes in my head (i think it's my most watched HP movie)
Got shook at some missing scenes in the movie, like the gnome clearing at the weasleys, and how dobby was On top of a cupboard while levitating the pudding
Hahah ok not a nerd
Somehow managed to do some work today
Havent been anywhere close to productive the past two weeks
Hais.

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02.09am

Just got reminded by fb that this exact time 4 years ago, I was climbing mount ijen
Freezing and without any visual aids- was neither wearing my contacts nor specs
And enjoying the beautiful sky FILLED with stars
We wouldve been almost halfway up, I think
Want to do that again in a heartbeat

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04.54am

The lack of peace within me is showing hahah so yes I need peace and positivity
Aka didnt I only fall asleep an hour or 2 ago why am I up

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19.15pm

Not lucius malfoy avadaing 12 year old potter
But also, oh no wait I forgot what I was going to say
Oh ya
My personality trait is Not accepting Sry and Thanks as sincere messages lolll
If anyone sent that to me I read it in a half assed manner
I know not everyone mean it that way but my brain auto reads them as such
Actually even in real life lol like if I say Thanks it doesnt reach the capacity of Thank you
So yes if you say thanks to me I do take mini offences lolll jk but not really
Worse if you type Sry instead of Sorry. Those 2 extra letters too hard for you???????? K bye

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20.56pm

've been zoning out a lot the past two weeks
Just anytime im alone i find myself staring into open air unsure what to think or feel except keep still enough to experience the beating of my hurting heart
I hope to be ok soon