01.07am

Me: appears on tv
Also me: doesnt watch tv
Hahahaha

22.32pm

What a dazey day
Hoping for inspiration to land, and more importantly for trust to be formed
Also early calltime tomorrow oofie doofie ok la not that early but

23.15pm

Im a lack of rest human

17.31pm

HOW have I gone 2 days without blogging
But also have spent yesterday recuperating
Alhamdulillah, the short break will end soon heheh look at me being excited over lack of breaks

01.37am

My eyes are hayy vee but the thought of falling asleep is so distant yet necessary
Thank god calltime is not morning
Ive been tired and sleepless yes but I still find my sleeping schedule quite good aka better than it used to be (thanks to that somehow longer than usual morning bird phase)

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22.48pm

Welp. I did bad.
But pretend it never happened but everyone will remind me of it
Ugh

15.46pm

I think I am a rockstar soul without the rockstar sound
Lololol random thought
Had a cool few days, and tomorrow will be another exciting day!
Alhamdulillah for the opportunities we got
May He keep us all safe and bless us with health and abundance amin

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22.50pm

Not very sure what to feel or what im even feeling right now
Just finished watching Suara WGS 2.0 finals and im so happy for all of them!
Really rezeki is unquestionable la whats meant for you will be yours and otherwise too
I should rest soon but tired is the last thing I feel
Ahhh

23.44pm

Have been an intense week, but im not complaining at all
I just need quality rest hahaha have just been pushing through
Two more days of hardwork before resting for awhile and I mean a while
Hehe

00.43am

Did i mention i dislike telegram strongly
It's so slow

23.34pm

Wow have been such a bad blogger um my week was packed and I have lack of rest
Blehh

05.03am

Major whoops
Finally met other hmx members today aka wayne and kk and realised how much i missed them

23.57pm

Left home right as I woke up hahaha hashtag just Awwcappella things
Intense week ahead bismillah

09.50am

Wooo tired hahahahaha
But it's ok

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12.16pm

Wah I cant take irresponsible people
Also I changed bag but not fully so I left home without my wallet earpiece and hand sanitizer what is life

22.35pm

Had a lovely day alhamdulillah!
Morning met with north pole and watched movies, and then dinner with family
Full day of rehearsal tomorrow- cannot wait to build our stamina but also already tired but also I love my art so it's ok

01.30am

It's just sad that I cannot act the way I feel without people questioning if im ok like I dont want to talk but also acting like im ok gets tiring lollll lets laugh together hahahaha hopefully one day i'll really be laughing
Or is my soul just one that refuses to be known
Still putting out hope that everyday will be a better day

00.48am

Me outside: so tired want go home rest
Me at home: still so tired but cant fall asleep
FunnY ah

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21.36pm

Very lazy day today, not as cold but still uncomfortable lol
I feel quite drunk with all the well wishes we're getting
Like I have butterflies and my heart is beating so fast cause people ive not spoken to in YEARS are DMing me wishing us luck and im just so JausMkwHhaNahKao THANK YOU
I can scream
Also ironic cus im a total diva irl but im also like this but whatever only my Centerstage Spotlight stealing persona is valid
Also I might be getting the crave xxl chicken tonight cus I made ele buy it for me it was so delicious the last time I tried it

07.49am

Ok body whats the point of waking up early if you are still tired
And this is after i fell back asleep

01.37am

Hi yes im unhappy enough to request for a ballinger family vlog pls upload soon i miss having something to smile about
Also im so down in the dumps right now but I do know there will be a time I get tired of this and actually decide to choose happiness I know it's up to me and all but meh may that day come soon
It's all fun and dandy in the day but when nighttime and loneliness visits it reminds me of pain and I always feel like crying but I hate crying so I dont do it and the result is just heavy hearted for days until something new makes me happy
This is such a terrible way to live thanks but right now i'd rather wallow in self pity
(Also, cue me laughing at myself for writing this post when the sunshine hits cause I think im just lacking vitamin d)

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07.26am

Sis just wants to wake up without defrosting lolol the cold weather is making me a morning bird but not in a good way cause it also makes me unable to sleep so ive been getting short hours of rest during a busy period in my life aish

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19.39pm

Hi radio, im having a good day pls stop playing heartbreaking songs thks im trying to ignore the lyrics

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23.35pm

Generally a lovely day alhamdulillah
After a tough night of annoying emotions, eatgo texted me at 7am asking if I could go over
Watched movies as usual and besides that I was feeling overwhelmed by the support shown to my group because WE MADE IT TO TOP 18 of Anugerah 2021!
It's pretty cool, we have indeed been going to a few events organized by them but had to keep it a secret until today
Bismillah for the journey ahead!

05.45am

Litrally woke up after cus of the cold lolll how is a girl supposed to get some rest
At least I got a solid 5 hours

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23.26pm

Want to throw away my entire heart and brain and clean them and then reinstall them because I shall be a fresh person who has no self and no thought no opinions no preferences and no emotions

02.05am

I should be asleep :(
Early and long day tomorrow albeit exciting if the weather is like this we'll be sleepY!!
I thought I am sleepy but idk why I refuse to sleep as usual lol um okay ryan higa is entertaining me I hope to fall asleep soon

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03.56am

Did I just wake up right after falling asleep rude

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08.47am

Wow what an unpleasant morning thus far no thanks to the people around me
With my lack of sleep I only hope I have patience to deal with more bull wtheck
But still, here's to a better day ahead

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21.43pm

Well, despite the really gloomy weather I had a fun and productive and fulfilling day Alhamdulillah!
As usual when im outside im like Once I reach home i'll CraSH but now im settled down im like. What is sleep.
At least I have the next two days off (ok maybe not, I still have editing to do)
But yes, Alhamdulillah for today and Bismillah for the journey ahead

01.41am

It is too cold to shampoo my hair because the process of drying it is enough to give me fever and yes I could use a hairdryer but it is 2am I dont want to make noise so what and how hais

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09.10am

Opened my eyes seconds before my alarm rang
Good job but also wew sleep deprived much what time did I even fall asleep

22.02pm

Happy birthday to my cute papa hehe ♡
Quite excited for tomorrow, may it all go well insyaallah!

22.49pm

Im feeling up and down which is not good I should keep warm and stabilize myself oofie doofie
Fun arrangement on its way being born yay

01.26am

I was in my room curtains drawn the whole day due to hibernation but I heard today was sunny with blue skieshehahe
Also doya supplied me with baby updates it made my day

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23.57pm

Why am I craving pho and why does it take so long to make that I cant aka refuse to do it myself and why is it cold again

20.00pm

Had a cool experience and a long day yesterday!
Today is hibernation kinda fake news have more editing to do actually psht

00.53am

I was just happy cause turning the fan on doesnt freeze me anymore but right now it's back to Freezing TM season it cold
Early call time tomorrow oof but hope it all goes well
Reharsing afterwards (perhaps after a group nap hahahaah)
Mm cold
K bye im not sleepy how

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00.56am

Ok I opened fb and they said newton was the lowest temperature in sg at 21.1°c SEE IM NOT EXAGGERATING
I could shut my windows (theyre bArely open) but I like the no fan life

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07.34am

The lack of sunshine is making me unhappy

03.53am

Thats cute my body thought im taking a nap instead of idk, gOING TO SLEEP
To be fair it might be cause I drank coffee right before falling asleep ahaha a coffee nap is not a far misconception
But good la cus got to cosy up cause it's cold coldd

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08.49am

Why is there noise noise on sunday morning at 8am
At first I thought it was kids screaming but now I have deciphered that it's a song
Also the day I can sleep in my body wakes me up early hahah aish

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13.46pm

Wah the cold weather kinda makes me miserable
Im in pAin

11.10am

Is this it, will this be the day I have to eat panadol for fast relief
Cause I feel the same as when I fell asleep
At least I got to fall asleep thats a blessing and very much needed
Singapore so cold for whattt but alhamdulillah
I think I will have to eat panadol and get a short nap before leaving home
But we'll see right after typing that my brain is like No you dont need medicine hahahahah
Hm

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12.31pm

Oh yay I feel better after drinking tea and eating a bit
No panadols for me

Happy 2021! (00.15am)

I dont actively do new years
But something about the calendar going 1/1 gives a sense of nostalgia and idk so many emotions but right now I hate it i didnt want to start the year with tears ok but here i am but here on out I dont want emotions ok thanksss
Kicking 2021 off with rehearsal later today

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23.40pm

Wholesome first day of the year but because of the weather im having a cold hais but it's ok insyaallah all I need is rest
Bismillah for tomorrow!
Also baby chiqa is making me hot tea hehe and I got spicy mcnuggets today :(
Bless nice people