11.48am

I have been so morning person that I lost track of days I thought I missed a post which means it's already February which is not true
Had a lovely thursday (i thought it was the weekend or like friday see again no sense of time)
Jing wen was so sweet to prepare food im scream!!! She even bought new utensils cutleries pot wtheck im offended at her niceness D:
Her friends were ultimate mums too they were the ones who prepared everything :')
Got tired early last night actually even before midnight but of course when jing yong and I are involved we fell asleep at like 530am after doing some harmowork ee productive (but also laughing at 5 minutes craft videos it's like kidzbop for self-help)
Have been having on and off fever since tuesday night like everytime I think im okay again it's a nope
But also nevermind distraction is the best cure I guess hahahah
Have a lovely day ahead!

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15.49pm

Im born to do a lot of things that I didn't because of who knows what
Is this the result of active decision making or am I just genuinely part of a bigger plan I have no say in
I think it's both

15.50pm

I feel so sad when I intro people to demi cus they see her new works and not her old masterpieces pop rock dems is love
Also didnt expect to cry last night thanks to Earl ugh it's like sending one of us to exchange but his speech made us CRY
Thankful for this family always everytime so gross ♡

06.33am

Idek what time I fell asleep

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15.53pm

I cant bring myself to get ready aishhh the rain is not helping my case
Lucky i love hmx

20.14pm

So happy to see HARMONIX!!!
Finally theyre back from their second families
3 groups practicing side by side hehehe

00.04am

Me: Drinks coffee
Me: Falls asleep right after

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01.08am

Sometimes I feel relief at the setting of the sun because it means safe haven, it means assurance of the night sky blanketing gently but thoroughly over us and moonlight softly lighting the faces of people around me- either that or the comfort as I get into the safety of home unwinding knowing that the air outside is still, calm and cool.
Sometimes I feel relief at the sky illuminating the horizon, the sunrise guarenteeing a fresh start and is a literal ray of hope after a full night of darkness- knowing that the world outside is bright, chirpy and happy, or just acknowledging the possibility of time, that I have All day to do something or nothing
There's no telling when I will feel which
Dont get me started on afternoons.

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10.57am

Am nervous but excited for demdems' grammy performance im patiently waiting for any footages cus i cant be bothered to watch it live but i can only imagine how she feels, first comeback performance after almost losing her life T.T ilu

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11.08am

Really more nervous for this than any of my performances oiii i cant move or do anything else until it's over

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11.14am

My baby is on RIGHT NOW!!!! She looks amazing

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11.26am

I AM IN TEARS!!!!!!
This genius dropped her lyric video 15 mins before her live performance so I was watching that when her actual peformance was uploaded
Too much emotions
It's like she had a faux start and was already in tears before singing her first line
Her voice is beautiful beautiful i missed it so much
The whole ethereal aesthetic of white and pure
Im so excited for this new era im so proud and im crying tears of joy and heartbreak

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11.53am

GUYS I DIDNT ASK FOR AN EMOTIONAL SUNDAY EDGE IS BACK AT THE ROYAL RUMBLE
Finally a surprise wwe hasnt spoiled for us but also i wonder if reyrey is still in hehehe i love him too much but wwe always misuse him gross

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11.57am

Ok so he 619ed lesnar and got eliminated but he so cute hais u deserve better

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13.38pm

I cant do this oof tried to rewatch demdems' performance again but im already gonna cry by the first chorus especially reading the comments NOO

07.26am

Sometimes the only way out is to ensure you bare all truths
One can't take the steps to heal if they don't even know what they're ailing from

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21.09pm

Very happy to not only reunite with north pole but to do so in Eatgo's own home T.T
Excited to see the house grow into a home, may our sistership continue to prosper and blossom I love them too much heh
Also we have no idea who is next to get married but like
No pressure at all

02.59am

Every now and then I realise past me is wiser

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16.20pm

Im being fed with so much food and desserts I think i need another mouth

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17.23pm

Never thought there'd come a day my whole extended family is in one living room karaokeing Kb94's song
This is crazy im so proud of him everytime
Did I mention he is having his first ever concert soon T.T
Insyaallah im going

06.46am

Titi last night while we're trying to decide a time to meet today: 4pm? Oh wait, will you be awake?
Hahahahah she was shook when I told her my new sleep schedule but also I love how she wouldve understood otherwise but also I dont wake up at 4pm no matter how late I sleep!!!
Last night was lovely although it was dreary watching amateur performers, I love how hopeful humans can be
My heart loves courage and how theyre willing to put themselves up there and most of them are probably there just to have fun but my Sharpay evans side is just Ughing at every mediocrity like the competitors make it an even less credible stage to compete on
Im sure these sentiments are biased because I already felt their lack of integrity oof but hate the game not the players I guess hahahaha I just expected these adults to have a bit more self awareness
But yeah nevermind I got to see somemonix ♡
Went for dinner and realised everyone on the table could speak malay omg I was trying to live translate an fb post then halfway through im like Oh wait yall can understand malay
And it has been forever since I went home taking the train ew only cause I wanted to be home fast
Is it back to 3 hours sleep heh

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17.17pm

Sometimes I forget my cousins and friends are hilarious and i feel blessed cus im forever entertained hahhah

Will never be tired of reminding myself to be kinder than necessary

16.15pm

Lol I lost track of time I put my posts in yesterday's post what is going on

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14.38pm

Me: wont go for a 3 hours class
Also me: will go for a 3 mins performance by zx
Anything for hmx wtheck

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15.03pm

I missed this relief after doing something yolo
It's like I have no idea what will happen but wtheck I feel great
I love it
May I always remember to chase this because i'd rather feel this than stuck in worries and lack of self growth

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23.16pm

Maybe we do know what's best for us and what we truly want
Maybe we just dont have the courage to agree with what we already know

10.10am

Ohayou
This is the longest ive slept in days but it was necessary I guess
Hmx todayyyy

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11.28am

He who has a why to live can bear almost any how- Nietzesche

As of right now my life is very unorganized but knowing me i'll pull through time and again
What's life without a little bit of chaos and unnecessary troubles right

Happy 14th Year, HSM (00.06am)

Today will be a im forced to be productive day
I will reply emails and messages but only once im in school which idk what time i'll go to school
So many adminish things to do but I know i'll finish it all in one sitting cause efficient heheh
But also it sucks how people can affect your mood so why not for once let your mood affect people so be nice and happy insyaallah it'll come back to you

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06.02am

I felt sleepy quite late I think like a bit after 4am
But I woke up at 5.50am this is a legacy im proud of

And how has it been 14 years since Hsm came out I dont feel ancient at all
I remember the first time I watched it clear as day
It was in a Van with Stylo
And from then on our lives changed forever
Truly once a wildcat always a wildcat!!!

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07.17am

Mama made me coffee as usual but it's a new brand and it's so offensive cus it's healthy coffee the taste is bluek but google is saying there are benefits which im like Ok fine but is it worth the lack of delicious taste NOOOO

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09.08am

I finished the coffee if i survived that i can survive today hahaha jk drama but like I have so many things on my to-do list i just want to not but at the same time I want to do productive things so
Was considering crashing a philo class later but the prof knows me and the classroom is small so he will definitely notice my existence ew

Also im so excited for demi's new single album performance whatever it is just give me content sis ive been waitin

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13.24pm

Ok so I took a nap and halfway through I woke up feeling something so extremely rare- dk if it's the bliss of pure well restedness or what but at that moment I felt like poppy at the start of wildchild sighing in peace but it was such a golden moment
It's like finding the golden mystery box on subway surfer u must play so much just to get a chance to obtain one

01.14am

It's there in the drizzle of rain, in the dancing moonlight.
It's there
Why am I involved?

01.29am

I havent purposefully set an alarm this year so far, but also cause I dont have to like my body clock has been extraordinary
We'll see what time I wake up today cause I might have to leave home early in the morning
but cant even fall asleep right now so like zz

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06.57am

Good morning!
Nice one, body clock
It was hard to fall asleep though havent struggled in some time
Think im spending my whole day by the beach today not sure but I think

02.12am

Omg im watching sepahtu reunion havent laughed this much watching comedians hahahah
Thanks guyz hais

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07.31am

Good morning!
Planless saturday ahead

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16.07pm

I think the fact that we'll never know people's true intentions warrants us always assuming the best
I won't stoop to the level of doubting because it'll be hypocritical in my place of constantly being misjudged to misjudge someone too especially in a bad light
Here's to wrongly assuming, but good things
We'll deal with the pain later

05.32am

Finally started learning a song we've procrastinated on learning for months because it required effort and we had no time
It's so fun!!!
Excited for this team

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21.12pm

On one hand you did nothing wrong, noone did
But you also betrayed my trust
Not like i'm going to do anything about it but just
It's so unexpected i'm not even disappointed it's more like
Oh, okay
I hope your decisions are right and they make you happy if anything

04.22am

Done messed up I have been waking up at 5 the past few days now im just going to sleep
Sorry body clock
Very happy to resume hmx and very happy to be released from meeting early cause nothing should disturb me during my hmx time hais

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08.02am

Ok good news nothing changed
Im just saying my life is not that uneventful that I just discuss my sleep schedule but like it's so interesting you wouldnt understand im trying to understand myself too
Actually woke up at 6 again but managed to surpress the actual waking-up to now heheh good morning may we all have a lovely day ahead

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12.55pm

Where there is great love there is often little display of it- Miguel de cervantes

01.25am

Sometimes when you feel hurt, it could be that you're hurting others in another part of your life.
I have to take a step back and accept that awareness is not enough.
I cannot just know that i'm hurting someone, I should at least try and avoid doing that again.
I should take care of people's fragile souls and hope the universe takes care of mine in return.
Tank the pain, let it go, see it dissipate and get replaced with peace, and then be at one with it again.
Easy enough.
The hardest part comes between, before and after tank the pain, let it go.
But i'll always succeed.

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07.56am

You can bet I woke up at 5 again hahah
Honestly intrigued at this random season I have to revisit my blog to check if this has happened for this long before
Also surprisingly my current sleep schedule has given me quite interesting action packed dreams
Just not that vivid
I wonder why and how
It's so cool

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08.07am

Woke up to the news of Vanannehudgs-Austin split (after 9 years. WHAT EVEN) and being sad for her because zanessa rumours will begin (yes major OTP but like give the girl a break)
And right after that saw that Demdems will be performing for grammy this year
Crazy!!!!!

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08.35am

In hindsight, the cruelest ripping of the bandage was the fastest kinds of pain to get over
So I just ask for you to speed up the hurt or just not at all I have no time for this
Also coffee in the morning (or anytime) is too great for the soul
And do you think the fact that im eating breakfast lunch dinner at the correct timing helping my sleep schedule or are they interdependent pretty sure I read about this before

05.01am

Good morning I guess
I guess on the surface I have nothing much to say

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12.32pm

Times like these it's miles better to feel than think
I know I prefer to base things off facts but who am I to disprove the signs given by the universe
Just got to be at one with myself, trust myself most
Again, when the chaos is loudest, outside noises tend to overpower

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18.20pm

Tell me why walking in school is so saddening I wished it was holiday again hahahha but it ok no rainbow without the rain

06.58am

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11.27am

Had a lovely rehearsal yesterday we sounding decent
Just need milestones heheh
I have been waking up at 3am then 6am so i like it but also i realise it's dependant on the time I fall asleep
So technically my cycle is consistent nothing to worry about here hahahaha
The semester has begun I think
Supposedly my last but bruh lets be real i'll extend to hmx more hahah not even sorry

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16.24pm

In secondary school I dreaded holidays and was excited for school cause get to meet friends and choir practices
Now it's the opposite ironically even though I have weekly practices with hmx we cant be as overly attached as we want to
Ew

01.06am

I have been wanting to sleep since 10 plus pm i think why am I awake ok fine cus hmx
But also I suddenly feel like watching Jozan so I shall watch them until I fall asleep
Rehearsearl later!!!!!!
May this passion keep burning weee

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09.03am

Woke up at 6.11am thankfully managed to go back to sleep

00.33am

Pain is complicated
It comes in waves
Trying to console or comfort someone is like trying to sweep the waves back into the sea
Stopping them from entering the shoreline once more
But perhaps the human touch is exactly what is needed
Everyone is just confused all the time
Let's just be kinder than necessary
May god heal the broken tonight

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07.23am

NOOO mama distrupted my natural tendencies by waking me up prematurely
Doraemon this lady

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11.33am

My grandma is too sassy people cant blame me anymore it's literal genes
I love it haha she is literally me!!!!!
Only thing she never do is hair flip (she even does the dramatic facepalming)
But the rest hais we are twins and bestfriends confirmed
Also my mum is trying to make me social by bringing me to carnivals and I usually love those but like as of right this moment I just want to not be around humans (oh but isnt that u everytime) NO im an extrovert

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15.25pm

I wanna go homeeee and nap

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16.38pm

Found solace in the library even if for a while
The only thing that would drag me out again to the crowd is the cotton candy and ice cream lol
The policemen band is playing on stage theyre quite good eh im enjoying the sound
Also I find it RIDICULOUS when stylo and mak ngah is thanking us for going down like are u crazy there is no other options inserts angry face here

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22.39pm

I dont want to curse myself but like this past week I have been amazing at sleeping, waking up early for no reason and feeling well rested
Im telling u once school starts my body might retaliate and rebel and i'll revert back to my tendencies
We'll see I guess

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23.02pm

Ok I have to share this hahaha met yol last night for dinner and we were so funny we won MLM (but Puteh won also so congrats bois I love Man)
And we were talking about how ridiculous malaysian novels/dramas are getting so we came up with our own stupid titles
And I woke up this morning. Opened FB. First thing I saw was a promo for the latest drama.
ACTUALLY titled "Help me, Mr. Dinosaur"
Guys. We thought we beat the stupid titles game
Lost within hours
Idk whether to laugh or cry
HElP ME MR DINOSAUR. IS AN ACTUAL MALAYSIAN DRAMA (ok the title is in Malay which is even worse Tolong saya encik dinosaur I TYPING THIS I CRYING INSIDE)
Ok done drama but really isnt that funny hahahahahahah yes it is
Hais malaysia

03.40am

Nooo I thought it was like 9am again
Hello 11pm-3am cycle?
Felt like ive slept for so long but also I woke up like 6 times through the night
Reminder of why I switch off my wifi when I sleep cause hmx is noisy
Think im librarying again later today but which one im not sure yet

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06.26am

Just had an epiphany regarding a run in a song I cant seem to hit cleanly
I realise it's essentially a walkdown while in my head it's a jump within jumps
Wow
Also so random hahaha
Okey

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07.09am

It's like when one thing in my life is answered, questions emerge in the other
I ask for guidance and patience, as well as clarity and courage

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10.48am

Best thing about waking up too early is even if I nap without an alarm I still wake up in the am
Time to get ready yay

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13.22pm

I cannot comprehend how an elephant is 5000kg I dont believe it like I want to try and carry one right now probably will get crushed but I cant comprehend 5000kg

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14.00pm

Have I ever mentioned I hate math i hope i did
The sun is 4.3 NONILLION pounds thats not even a real measurement wth stop measuring things Scientists
Also a bird flew up to the window right next to me and its wings hitting the glass gave me a shock lucky it cute thanks for visiting heh

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15.25pm

Nothing ever felt so surreal and natural at the same time. I was where I was meant to be, and all I had to do was allow it to happen

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15.45pm

Shiz this is why I read chicken soup when im alone
It always makes me cry ugh but i get through it a better person insyaallah

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20.39pm

Didnt even know MLM finals are tonight wot m8
May the best team win?
I havent followed i'll revise instead

09.30am

My body clock is being great right now
But guys the new ezlink fares are too much eh it's making me not want to go out remembering how everytime I tap out I see 2$ deducted are u crazy Singapore
Pls wake up ur idea

How is kane so cute and undertaker so badass but when they both are together it's just scary

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14.16pm

These days my dreams seem to conglomerate hmx and scary wwe wrestlers what is this sign is it i must do hmx and wwe from now on cause I agree
But scary wrestlers though like last night boogeyman was there wtheck
Also got reminded of how cute duncan is
And I feel like im too old to acknowledge backstabbing activities (not that drama but it's lowkey betrayal i guess)
You do what you want ok, i'll hurt a while and move on
None of us will gain anything and I will never understand why you see the need to continue playing these childish games
I'll remember the good

01.56am

Happy birthday papa! ♡

Meeting bing bong before she and somemonix yeets to jb can u believe it i have been left behind twice in two months hahahah
Ok my fault but nvm things happen for a reason
Im sleepy or not I cannot tell eh
Should probs rest soon

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09.34am

Yeboi being functional
Also cause I dreamt I "woke up" at 12.58pm but also I was already at the meeting place
I feel like just leaving home earlier to visit the library
Perhaps I actually will wew what a person
Haaha ok

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12.12pm

Guys
I think my ironic flossing is not ironic anymore
My reflex is to send the astronaut flossing gif as a reply to anything
Do I need help hahhahaa
Also didnt realise exactly how bad the fires in australia was
:(
God protect and help them as we do our part too insyaallah!

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15.58pm

I DID go to the library that was so lovely honestly
And is this what a breakup feels like 2 seconds after they left I was so sad then everything reminds me of hmx hahahaha omg too much
Go away kids I must rebrand this pain into a mum happy to get rid of her children for 4 days instead of a sad human being left behind

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18.51pm

I found a danger zone-
The literature and philosophy section in the library
I feel like once I start I wont stop and worst part is they're technically heavy reading so i'll have to camp at the library the whole day
I should, right?
Why is woodlands so far now hahaha

12.17pm

Selflessness should often be painful and I don't know if there's instances where it's not
Is it respectable when the pain is absent or when it is and you succeed to hold it in and deal with it in the quietest way
I think both, life is unfair that way but one doesn't invalidate the other
Always found this concept intriguing
Altruism exists I believe

Ironic childhood-presentcy
Telling our newest tales at the fondest places

Engines roaring deafening me, but not silencing you
Again this time in utter silence
I dare you
But I myself don't dare to hear you

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21.12pm

Act in such a way that you treat humanity, whether in your own person or in the person of any other, never merely as a means to an end, but always at the same time as an end- Kant

Even if the end is well intended for the person
Just dont use anyone is that so hard!!!

02.52am

Currently in front of the tv with somemonix being introverts watching movie
But they watching coco and ive avoided it cause everyone says it makes everyone cry so I am not ready for emotions
Last day of camp, can you believe it?
:(
Time passes too fast with hmX hais is this why we are overly attached I think so
Regardless, I still love being stuck in a house with these crazy frogs
Would do it again in a heartbeat

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07.26am

Constantly surprised at how bad judges of characters continue thinking they are right despite their dirty track record
Get over yourself?
It's for your own good
Not tired of being wrong or what

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12.03pm

You need yourself the most so make yourself a priority

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15.17pm

Random thought, was doing fb quizzes (hmx overly attached spend 3 full days together still dont want to go home) and one of the things that fb said is that I "Understand the importance of forgiveness"
And got me thinking forgiveness is miles more important for the one giving forgiveness than the one receiving it

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23.09pm

Already missing their faces and the hmx noises hais ew
I guess dont be the reason someone dims their flame

01.53am

What goes around comes back around

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10.54am

Also I cant believe I sang properly yesterday that was the most well behaved solo singing performance i've done lolol and it's the most random song some more thank u peggy for writing the song when tess has tessted you hahahahahah k bye

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20.54pm

History repeats itself, am I more prepared this time round?
I really don't expect to be but we'll see
Maybe something in me will stir and support me better than I can ever attempt to support myself

07.40am

Feeling (possibly deceivingly) well rested after 3 hours of sleep
Will defo need a lunchtime or afternoon nap
Hmx is as crazy as I used to be some of them want to go swimming now which I totally would have if it wasnt freeezing and I had youth hahahahahahaha
Okey am I gonna go back to sleep we'll see

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23.15pm

Me everytime I am with hmx
Am I in a singing club or a loser club why all always make me cry
Wouldnt trade yall for anything though
I love u guys

01.29am

Currently walking home and I feel proud cause gmaps said it'll be a 33 minutes walk but here I am barely 15 mins later almost home
Quite a lovely walk it's peaceful but still peppered with people and vehicles so it's not that lonely
Camp in about 12 hours I have not packed haiz

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08.44am

What business do I have again being up this early but ok time to pack soon haha

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09.55am

I am done yay
First alarm will ring in like half hour so im allowed to NOT

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22.16pm

I forgot that being a bigger person is not natural to people, even to those older than you are
It's ok, we learn everyday

00.01am

I fell asleep and woke up because I had hmx camp x undertaker being scary dream
Here I thought I could at least sleep a few hours lol that was like what, 1.5 hours idk

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01.33am

Why did I think I can fall asleep again
Also I just realise literally the last meal I had was last year
New year same selfcare routine
Hahaha

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03.28am

Kay I checked I started daily blogging in 2017 so it has been about a thousand days of my life recorded so cool I hate math
I used to be a much better blogger idk why I started halting information from basically myself
So let's renew this with a mini reflection of 2019
I feel quite very accomplished
I was the sidekick as much as I was the star
Two of my childhood babies got married
Harmonix being badasses and experiencing new things together everytime
Remembrance is one of the best things i've ever experienced
Finding soulmates at unexpected places (who am I kidding hmx is expected)
Feeling things that I havent felt in a long while, or before, even
Voices this year was beautiful- dont think ive ever had that much fun and ease performing
Performed alone. ALONE. Creepy
Performed for celebfest (??!!)
Met kb94 hais hahaha

I feel like this year i'll do better
2019 was very reckless in a great way I plan to continue being reckless
But controlled I guess since by now I should know what is worth the risks and time and what is not
As of now I still have no idea if i'm going to finish my degree journey
Unsurprisingly i'm not that worried about that bit in my life
This could either be a big mistake or the best risk but either way I will get what i'm meant to get one day
The best part is I have myself through it all
Every time I pray for Allah to eliminate the bad people from my life and help me keep the ones who are true to me
So if I lose anyone it's just my prayers coming true
I ended 2019 with love- ranging from familial to amateur to a decade worth
It's just all love
Cant be more thankful, really :')
Here's my year in months (last year's was a fail)

January
HMX bonding camp hehe best
Start of centerstage journey with LF
Learnt Latin hahahah
Mark came back to SG

February
Did a flashmob singing Bohrap with Hmx
Hmx's first ever wedding gig!

March
Siti's concert I cry
Called up to mentor ACJC for bahas lol ironic
Hmx's first time hosting workshops (in lieu of NAF)
Got done and over with with Centerstage- never again
Start of Ratu's journey

April
Wow worked a lot this month and had lots of meeting with people including auntie jujie and humayra

May
Watched The good news (cena's production) and Phantom on the same day
Fasting month :')
Which means the birth month of one of my fav hmx items- B sync
Surprise picnic for Khali at Marina barrage
Hmx's portfolio photoshoot
Start of concert rehearsal

June
Hari raya!
Loads of rehearsals
Some of the main comm went to JB for a meeting-getaway we are so extra
Hmx's first ever concert bootcamp! It was quite fun and I forgot I didnt have a voice throughout how
Hmx did an hour gig for the Singapore chinese cultural centre, cool honour sharing the space with Juz-b

July
Champs
Took khali's pre-wedding photos, honestly I love them
Remembrance, best
Yol, Keichi, Belvy, Fred, JM, Nab convocated ;')
Hmx sang rise up for convocation
Hmx's 2nd johor trip where we did NOTHING i love it

August
Y4 started lol lame
First karaoke outing with the whole hmx (went twice with evokals before)
Almost forgot my birthday
Auditions for Hmx began
Hmx orientation!
I also began this self torture journey called 1 cup of sweet drink a day challenge I lasted slightly over a month I think

September
Khali's wedding- my first time as a maid of honour, sang Percayalah and Can I have this dance while she walked down the aisle and danced for her
Wow I worked and rehearsed a lot, what a stable timetable
I also did masks once every 3-7 days this whole month up till october
First wedding with Hmx, farouq's sister!

October
Eatgo's wedding- my first time as a bridesmaid, sang Percayalah and Bukan cinta biasa as per the wedding planner's request lol free show
Entered Gardens by the bay for the first time lol singaporean much
EARL's first official (?) rehearsal oof
Merlion shut down :(
Hmx's first halloween horror night

November
Hmx's external showcase- the turnout was overwhelming :')
Met hmx's first potential instructor!!!
EARL's first promotional shoot hehe for what, cant reveal yet apparently
Was requested to sing Percayalah for the third wedding in 3 months help is that my song now
Sat for my first (and hopefully last) exam in NTU
Ironic Stereosearch auditions

December
Sent Vicky, Deta and Ridho back :(
Hmx's first ever carnival! We raised funds by selling henna services and performed for an hour
Voices the day after the carnival- monumental for the club i'd say
Missing the family holiday booo
Stereosearch semi finals- more like performing for celebfest. I remember vividly the audience's reactions and how uncomfortable I felt alone on stage. But my hmx was there
Carolling season! Only 3 this year for me but 2 of them were super meaningful- one for the residents at pioneer and one at the IMH
Hmx's 2nd year in a row being at justine's house for xmas
Annual xmas gathering at grandpa's place ♡
Ended the year with a music comm meeting how dedicated are we

Yes the year is very Harmonix like I said and im so happy about it
2020 will be our year again, fam
That's the least I can do before stepping down

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11.09

I LOVE first day of schools/back to school photos
So cute and cruel cause they have to wake up so early but so cute

00.02am

I love it, I can hear people screaming hahha
But also I fell asleep and woke up at 11.58pm
Idk what powers numbers have but as soon as the clock struck midnight a bittersweet feeling washed over me
Im telling u it's the years of society telling u that this should mean something pft but jk if you feel it, you feel it right?
Happy 2020, may He continue keeping us in his love, guidance and protection
May our paths be eased and we achieve our dreams
May we learn to be the best of mankind, insyaallah.
2019 at a quick glance was very Hmx hahahaha
Bismillah for the year ahead!

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00.51am

Im so glad I made the decision to daily blog whenever it was that I started it
It's one of my best habits

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07.11am

My fam is jioing me to go jog/hike
Are u kidding my fingers not today im still recovering from partying too hard (hahaahhaaahhaha)

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17.11pm

This betrayal hits different because is it that intense that I can brand it as betrayal
Nothing is that bad
Just do what I do best, internalise and move on
Internalise then move on
Internalise.