23.50pm

Have I not blogged I lost sense of time brb

04.22am

Should probably sleep
Had an impromptu trip to the airport last night to send someone off and got home about 2 hours ago
Then I found out I have to reach the west by noon
Which in non-west time means I have to leave home by 10.30am and be up by 9.30am

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05.50am

On the steady path to late sleepage but I could still squeeze in at most 3 hours of rest
But duncan is so cute

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09.24am

Has gotten epic dreams the past 2 or 3 nights but havent recorded them down just cause of the sheer amount of details it has haha
Also look at me up and running (jk the only running I remotely do is vocally)
A HMX day ahead, here's to a lovely Sunday!

03.10am

Ended up having quite an uneventful day at work, except the kids were cute (albeit very mischevious) but I survived
Didn't even visit the beach or go near it but seeing Merly made me sad im going to visit you soon okay
It's been a week since Khali became someone's wife, and exactly a week until it's Orton's turn
As exciting as marriages and weddings are, they're ultimately scary too
Growing up anything your parents do wrong you can still escape saying "I didnt choose my parents"
Now you have no excuse
May mankind learn to be kinder and more loving
Insyallah I have no qualms at all about their choice of life partners! ♡
May Allah ease all their affairs :')

Another chill day for me surprisingly
Im avoiding responsibilities as much as I keep updating my to-do list
What is this
It's ok to have down weeks months or years hahahaha shrek didnt need school jk

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12.50pm

So weird, my 'living' bout disappeared as my lifestyle change disappeared
Is it cause I have less to lose thus I don't have to actively choose to be a person
Either way as of right now people are not making me happy (not that they do usually) but i'm leaving the negative feelings behind
If only I could bear to do exactly what I want
Just kidding I can and I will

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14.29pm

Also no regrets resuming GG for now, the drama is real

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20.47pm

Isnt it annoying how because of some drunk people grabshare has been discontinued past midnight

11.23am

Kinda wished im not working today but I think being near the beach would make me happy
Might even drop by
Should really start getting ready lol

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17.38pm

Time at work is really passing slowwwly but okay since there's not much to do :')
Just 3.5 hours to go before going home to more work lol I deserve ice cream forever

03.27am

Work shift cancelled again frog
But also a blessing in disguise
I havent had an off day in a while not that I need it or anything but I do have a lot of online things to do
I probably wouldnt start if I dont sit down in front of the laptop (which I havent touched in so long except to transfer media and do hmx planning lol priorities)
Ok I shall rest
Kinda miss being well rested hahaha

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07.02am

Tell me why the day im not supposed to wake up at 6.30am I DO

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22.26pm

So I embraced my off day for the week by ignoring people hahaha
Back to watching gossip girls
I have no patience to watch dramas anymore omg but whatever i'll stop when im bored

03.29am

For the first time in awhile I actually told myself I dont want to sleep tonight
At least not so early
No particular reason,
Just very inspired

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04.06am

Sometimes when people aren't entirely honest with you, you wonder what is it that's stopping them
Perhaps it's lack of trust?
I don't know but I can't mope around feeling shut out
I can't feel left out if I just appreciate what I have been told and am in the loop about
There's a reason for everything,
Not always good reasons,
But still.
If your trust for me reaches a certain limit then so be it, i'll appreciate the much you allow me to peer into your soul
It's just a waste because I have so much to give
Not everyone gets that and it's okay
I'd say their loss and move on
There's no use being upset!

02.56am

The exhaustion is real!
But also idek what time I fell asleep, probably like 8.30pm or so
A brand new week ahead
So much to say about this weekend but the most important one is that; I'm really happy for khali :')

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03.19am

I tried ignoring it the past few days but im genuinely sad about Merly, the heck they warned us A MONTH in advance for!?!?
Definitely gonna visit it as much as I can before it gets demolished
I havent even proved my theory to myself that it faces a slightly different direction everyday (huhuhu monster)
But really, it's not even going to be moved eh "because of its size" HELLO give it to me then
Ultimate frog
The only good thing is everyone is speaking up about how much they love merly so like ehehhee good
But still

00.43am

Day 1 done, I didnt cry eh omg hahaha but also cause I told myself not to think and just bask in the moment
Another long day ahead, and im singing high school musical for the bride and groom's walk in
Dream wedding already
Ok time for beauty sleep
Cant wait to play with makeup soon hehe

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07.17am

I dreamt that I totally forgot to sing for the wedding omg hahaha drama
Ok time to get readyyy

Tomorrow is the day (02.28am)

Khali becomes somewan's wife D:

All the work for nothing huh I was prepping my body clock unknowingly for this crazy weekend but alas, girl is back to normal after 1 day
I'll still try and sleep I cant even bear to mask because that will take an hour and I dont want to sleep after 3am tonight

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09.28am

Am I having pre wedding jitters too I think all of us are hahah
Excited for the weekend ahead
Ironic how the "happiest day of your life" entails so much emotions

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21.13pm

Can you believe my (wow the groom called the bride and everyone is silent hahah) bedtime is calling my name now
Henna night who im ready to sleep
To be fair I already put mine on
Ok im tiredish and ready for my beauty sleep
Also I hate loud instastoriers eugh I dont care about you or people you follow gross

05.11am

Wew
Idek if im not in control or I just cant be bothered to try and control
I think it's the former but ok whatever I shall rest

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10.44am

Had an epic dream
But loser elephant woke me up

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16.47pm

In the process of self discovery it seems fun to let myself do things that surprises myself
Afterall, the more people you become the more you know who you want to be

Less than five days (02.05am)

As of right now im quite tired physically with a lot of to do list that requires my being to be top notch
I already passed my new pre 2am bedtime
But thankfully later is a relatively chiller day
No obligations besides rehearsal but also my agenda is filling up and my self-set deadlines are approaching
Definitely a chaotic period but as long as i'm doing things I care about and enjoy, i'll get over this few physical discomforts loll cmon what would hulk hogan say

01.07am

So the past week I was invincible, but today I ended work feeling tired like my eyes were heavy and my legs felt overused
Idk why also, I didnt wake up tired
Either I worked too much this week or the lack of food today used up all my potential energy and thus rolled over to right now
I'm sleepy but mama cooked so I should eat
But also i'm staring at a wedding card because it's so pretty
And intriguing that I officially have a wedding every weekend from this week onwards for the next 3 weeks
It's not normal (but is exciting) cause it's all my age group humans

Met somemonix today but more importantly somehow the best cheese pizza that was at khali's bachelorette party was there
Also max loves me max is a cat
Work in less than 9 hours- why did I agree to work huh hahaha ok cause ms eatgo also working hehehe we wanted to work together
And then rehearsals at night
I miss singing already
(Cue us saying it felt like we havent seen each other for weeks when it has only been 4 days lolll)
Here's to a lovely day ahead!

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06.28am

Cant tell if it's been some time since, or it's still normal but I fell asleep closer to 2am than 1am
My alarm doesnt ring in 1.5 hours but apparently my body clock thinks it's time to wake up sure

A week (10.12am)

To the official solemnization
Screams

Since ms eatgo doesnt read blogs, it is safe to say that I can blog about our plans today
Ok you know what better be safe than sorry hahaha i'll blog again at the end of the day
Am on my way to meet her to trial her wedding makeup!
And then we're going to meet the other 2 frogcheeses
Excitezzzz

Gentle (10.07am)

You can ripple the water with tranquility or make waves with intensity- either choice you deal with the consequences and the feelings that comes with it
Good morning!
Wished I didnt ask to start work so early but here's hoping it goes well!

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22.47pm

Locked outside my house AGAIN?!?
It's different when I KNOW I didnt bring my keys i'll usually chill out and self entertain but when I KNOW I have it but it's not there THEN it's frustrating like who the frog stole my keys im so annoyed omg
But then again today I have been tested a few times throughout and all those times I managed to just be cool and move on
Now im on the verge of screaming out of tiredness (not really) but my rebellious side refuses to let this one thing get to me so sIKE SUCKER im OKAY more than okay im grander than a grandpa
Doesnt change the fact that IDK WHERE MY KEYS ARE IF IT'S NOT IN MY POUCH IN MY BAG (do u see why it's so frustrating it had to be taken out of two avenues pffft whatever just someone come home fast I have to leave home in 10 hours)
Also im so done being locked out of my house next time i'll just not go home until anyone else is home

09.17am

Oof grab you rude the price plummeted right as I got into a cab
Also I have submitted to being late I shall not resist fate no more
Hahha drama
Here's to making the most of today!

10 days (01.48am)

To Khali officially being a wife
We're not ready!!!!

I have tons of things to do, just haven't started doing them
Hopefully now since Hmx has settled in, work has kicked off and my schedule for the whole week is set, I could try getting on track with some things
Especially school hahaha I have not been a student the past idk how many weeks
But im feeling good about my step forward
Insyaallah all will be well!

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07.47am

I will rise up early when I don't have to but-
Oh wait I have morning class
Hahaha do I really want to go though
Oddly enough depends on location

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23.08pm

When was the last time I left Hmx so early
Haha and needless to say I didn't class again, but it was to meet Khali for moral support as she runs her errands
As she says; tomorrow's countdown is single digit
I instinctually gave work schedule for 930 tomorrow and was internally debating if that was even possible because Thursday mornings dont exist when youre in hmx
But I went through with it and it is proven that my night is peaceful and uneventful so I might be able to do work well tomorrow yay
Again, have to unnecessarily go down to school tomorrow night but im not feeling the travel journey from work to ntu if it's not for rehearsal
We'll see my mood tonight
I need food!!!

01.17am

Had a pleasant day, made decisions I wouldn't usually make aka I befriended (or not) myself by challenging myself throughout the day
I'd like to think I won because learning journey
Time to try and rest

01.20am

I give up I have shut my eyes for 2 hours and right as I manage to fall asleep (like 20 mins ago) I hear noise and now I am awake again
Forcing myself to sleep never works but I will try again ugh frog just cause I have work in 8 hours if not I wont be bothered
Chiqa just asked mama if I already woke up HAHA I love how she knows my bedtime is not now
She's also the only human who is excited to see me she is too precious ♡

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04.43am

I played myself la honestly with the 3 nights of proper sleep my body is experiencing culture shock hahahha
I feel like I havent laughed out loud watching videos for a while but tonight I did which is weird cause I wasn't watching comedy videos haha like genuine moments shared by genuine people I guess
Ok I think I can fit in a power nap but if I dont fall asleep by 6am then forget it imma just get ready

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17.17pm

Maybe my subconscious knows im done but my logic havent accepted the fact

17.20pm

Ended up having a lovely saturday, but now i'm back recuperating spiritually
Be right back

08.41am

As promising as this looks, my body clock will probably readjust itself over the weekend

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23.40pm

Dilemma of a member of the society
Kinda want to be home, alone with my thoughts
Kinda glad i'm not

00.15am

Yo girl thought her work shift is cancelled tomorrow aahhais luckily Joy confirmed with me
I survived Day 1 of Back to work after 2 months!
Had to train a new staff im like Bruh im rusty
But yay worked with ms green tea today hehehe so exciting!
Maybe work was bearable cause it was less than 6 hours
Later i'll be working full shift but if it's anything like today i'm fine
I should rest
Not tired but i'll need the energy to propel me not only for tomorrow but for the whole week ahead

ps work is a great distraction from a hurting heart

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08.02am

Look at me forcing myself to sleep by 1.30am
Weird dreams but it's always so fun

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23.25pm

I think it's my lack of peace in some areas of life speaking but work was quite fun
It didn't feel like a full day though it was busy almost the whole day
Missed making kid friends hehe they're fresh
But also I have a packed saturday ahead but hoping for a more chill Sunday (I was asked to work but it's september holiday crowd leh wo bu yao)
But also ironically when I can hear chaos within me, outside noises are amplified- meaning my no drama policy is currently strongest
Which makes people more irksome because people are not nice and they love to bitch about others and I really really really do not enjoy, appreciate or even want to bother about it
Ignorance really is bliss sometimes
At least I have the weekend to recuperate my soul
I hope so

pps kak nurul is getting married tomorrow; the one I did tons of sleepovers with because she was the only child (and even when her younger sibling was born), my big sister once upon a time although she was evil for always trying to hide onions in the food she's feeding me (I will always doubt her and make her reveal what's inside the rice) I hope her marriage lasts forever, and be blessed and protected always

ppps kak syikin too, im so happy for her for finding Mr right

04.25am

Beautiful day :')

This girl is learning (02.27am)

To be a human
How can my body refuse to fall asleep excuse you I have winded down for a reason ok to sLEEP because it is apparently necessary but nooooo I CANT why am I complaining cause my eyes are tired but my brain is not ok fine at least it's not 6am or something

22.25pm

2/3 classes this week cancelled hahaha
Good for my morale (ok more like my body clock)
But lameeee I couldve worked but also unfortunate that both profs fell sick hope they get well fast (even though I dont go to class lol)
Hmx's first rehearsal with the newbies tomorrow!
I do need this extra rest before I activate my hustle mode
Thank god

Merry September (03.03am)

Look at me being awake at this timing
Ended off August with Harmonix's orientation
I feel like a true grandma now, it's the third batch of auditionees i've witnessed
It seems so short but it feels very long let me just say
Didn't socialise with the kids much but im looking forward to that (not really) in the future (lazy to talk to humans) (jk im extrovert)
Most importantly it was at Sentosa hahahaha we sang by the ocean it was lovely (KEICHI GAVE ME CAKE IN THE MORNING it was breakfast but also CAKE T.T)
Had dinner at the vivo rooftop before some of us went for a movie
We seem to have a tradition going- bad horror movies at vivo after orientation HAHA
But to be fair, 'It' was just plain horrible whereas ROTP had some redeeming factor (aka tokti being the voice behind the OST I cry she is inhuman)
Ended up hanging at the boardwalk what's new (where I finally got to try the white chocolate strawberry pie thing from mcd and had my life changed it is beautiful and amazing) and walked with hidsters and valakerie towards bukit merah
Wouldve enjoyed the walk even more if I didn't have to carry anything but hey not everyday that you get birthday gifts so thanks chee zhi u thoughtful boi
Despite our exhaustion, sat at the playground until like 5
Which explains my hibernatish state last night
Alright I shall go watch vlogs or something
Packed week ahead but excited to work with and for humans!
Adeuu have a beautiful week ahead

21.10pm

Why am I so tired but after 7pm hahaha
Slept and woke up like 4 times
But i'm up now for food

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22.03pm

Yeah that was a weird hour I was so exhausted but im glad im over it
Crazy week ahead and as usual, that's when I have to accidentally start working
At least my first day back after almost (already?) 2 months will be with eatgo hehe
Crazy loads to do but insyaallah i'll embrace it all