Being a friend is not about what's in it for you, but what you can offer.
But when you get treated quite... neglectedly (for the lack of a more appropriate term) you can't help but wonder what else you can do hahahahaha but it's ok, life man
Sometimes we fight a losing battle and instead of backing away so easily in hopes of a painless exit, we stay long enough for a humble defeat.
I realise when I was younger although I attempted to stay I made a quick exit which I might say was pretty painless (mostly numbness cause you know have to be fixated and not look back) for me but I knew how abrupt and hurtful it was to the other party.
But I also knew one thing they didn't- that in the long run one of us would be glad they weren't the one to have to rip the plaster off.
Now the hard part is i'm staying, long enough and it means chances.
It means I believe in you enough to go through this but it also means i'm reaching out to no avail.
I'm easily appeased though, when you act just a bit like yourself, I find pride in the friendship.
When you laugh at the jokes you dismissed yesterday, I have hope in us.
But the days when our words just fail to cross to each other,
Or when I keep reaching out and feel momentarily gleeful at just the thought of spending time together, even though I act nothing like myself when we do (which I cant lie is quite worrying- but I wont give up hope just yet)
I can't help but think; are we long overdue or is this just the uncomfortable phase before everything falls into the ideal place, the place of security?
The phase that caused many potentially great relations to fail just because one of them could not hold on a bit stronger or because the faith begins to fade?
But what is the case with one person not even acknowledging that we're in that phase?
I may not know, but I think we can decide where we go from here.
At least I think I can, and am willing to.
Are you, though?
Ok this is my midnight self speaking it's triggered by today's Fb memories where there were photos of me and an old friend
My main point of the post is the crazy weekend ahead
With this interconnected world, weekends just dont seem so detached anymore
Bring us back to good old days when people from work and school could only contact us on weekdays hahahaah pls lah
Bahas finals in the morning and then i'll run to Harmonix orientation which is crazy weird to think about
ORIENTATION.
HARMONIX.
We grew even just by a bit wE Grew!
We have actual humans who wants to be part of us!
Now my focus is on bahas finals
Best of luck to anderson and shuqun!
And congrats to all other contestants (hahahaa participants la fine) yall did great
I hope I can rest a bit tonight and then have a kickass day later!
Goodnight, sweetdreams!
ps super spontan season begins again aka johan's playtime
