Same here (03.24am)

Usually I brush off when people ask me questions like 'are you not tired?' or 'how are you not sleepy' cause what am I supposed to answer hahahah I just... dont feel tired?
But sometimes I ask the same questions, like how is it possible for one human to live without sleep
I mean it is not weird because it's my normal but still

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14.06pm

Lol I typed the above while I was drunk (btw when i say drunk i dont mean the real drunk i just mean the state of mind- you get me)
Anyway for the first time ever I did not download all of dems's songs from her album
And I even deleted Lonely because literally it was generously peppered with curses it physically made me cringe I couldnt listen past the first chorus
Ahh man.
It's ok, keep experimenting, my dems.
I did not dig this album as much but there are songs I love like all the singles released (Sorry not sorry, Tell me you love me, You don't do it for me anymore, Sexy dirty love) and I like Crybaby a lot
And usually I get mad at you for not releasing the more amazing songs as singles in the past.
Now you've done so, thank you hahahahah
Ok end of story

Im overcommitting again idek what went wrong (or right, depends on how I look at it hahaha)
Im just not meant to be a plain ole student even though I could've been
Ok I need rest
Today is my mental and physical and spiritual hibernation day so let me ignore everything and everyone
Byeee

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22.33pm

Taught chiqa how to ride a two-wheeled bike (albeit a big one hahaha sorreh but ya did good) and ate ice cream at the playground, then we took the bus to paya lebar and here we are waiting for the rest of the fams to arrive 

I realised I havent eaten today what even I need and want food por favor

It's out! (13.22pm)

Woke up to demdems' new album!
Currently listening to it one by one and ya confession I actually enjoy lil wayne's sound (like in mirrors) so im excited that they're collabing
Ok brb while i indulge

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Bruh idek
People are saying it's her best album to date but im disagreeing so hard????
Every album she puts out has been great but I wouldnt call this her best one
Freaking Unbroken and Demi brought more variety, this one shows off her vocals but they are good in quite radioesque manner which is not why I fell in love with her in the first place (Get back and Here we go again were beautiful because they were so original and just plain demi)
Moving on, I love how as a musician she's trying out new sounds and doing a genre she loves, it shows in the songs and there are still hints of the songs being a demi-song
I understand her music has grown and I love it, and im growing with her, it's just annoying that people overlook her past successes just because of her chase for the grammys.
She has been slaying since day 1 and I will not let that go
Ultimately I am so proud of her, I love her sound, and im glad she's getting more support and recognition for her talent.
Tell me you love me is of course a pass as usual, thank you for this demdems!
Onwards ♡

ps this album has so many cursing wtheck so annoying I expect better vocab next album- there are hundreds of thousands of words you can use why choose that 1 word that means nothing loser man

Okay (01.49am)

This whole not sleeping thing is getting old
Throwback to that (almost) week in my life I slept at 9pm and woke up at 3am and had a glimpse into normal humans' life
Hahahaha
I have a test in less than 8 hours time but I have no idea what it's gonna be about so im just gonna attend class for the sake of catching up (we'll ignore the test together okay)

Harmonix is always fun, ended training early so some of us stayed back to have a riff off and somehow ended up mass singing hahah
Went home with ghost stories (aka keichi desperately wanting to see one hahahaha)
I missed both classes and had fever out of nowhere but now im good just not as sleepy as I should be
Okay I will try and rest
Goodnight, sweetdreams!

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08.35am

Good morning! Nothing less than a trying morning but we shall forget all those nonsense and keep the good things which is everything else. Anyway it is no use rushing for a test you didnt even prepare for hahaha it's like... neh im lazy to think of analogies 

Im just looking forward to settling down in class and having a great day ahead 

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23.23pm

Well there goes my attempt at a low carb diet gurl I cant live without rice so suddenly wtheck the thought is so effortless but when you dont eat it it's all you think about hahahahah ok maybe it's just cause staple food whatever 

Voice class was fun because apparently we had to read aloud a text in front of everyone and I didnt know what to read so I read an excerpt of a greek mythology (chloe helped me decide after I shortlisted like a 7-candidates paragraph) 

It was so random yet necessary because I always read dramatically but never for a purpose it's usually for fun and play but this time round it's actual storytelling hahahah

Oh ya I cycled home today, thought of stopping by a minimart and buying some stuff (for the attempted diet) but the thought of parking the bike was troublesome so I abandoned that idea but alas, while riding slowly past the minimart, I heard Chiqa call me over lol anga and her were buying stuff 

Needless to say minimart run happened! When asked how she even saw me, she said she recognized my lipstick hahaha what even 

Dinner with some asb humans tomorrow to celebrate our mid-autumn performance, pretty stoked to dress up and get good food so yayy (probably should do my assignment first) (omG recess week is here hahahahah I like)

Btw this whole day ive been watching videos of kids meeting special people and also of freaky eaters and idk I got a lot of hope from them dark places. Humans have the potential to be so beautiful, so be thankful if you're chosen to have the rationality and capacity to be kind! 

WHY IS MY BRAIN SO AWAKE (01.54am)

Bruh if I had classes at this timing i'd probably be on the dean's list
Too bad there's no such things
My brain is so alive hahahah idk whether to be proud or worried!

Ignored my messages the whole of today cause I couldnt even
Went to school for an Evokals session which went well, im always proud of them (though I was pushing for progress a bit psht who am I, an old person???)
(speaking about old people I know I said this 3 thousand times but I cannot with my self-development like excuse you, whatever-is-in-my-brain, I did not ask to turn into a not-badass)
Had a good laugh in the train over horrible zodiac posts (apparently the aquarius species aka keichi will show peace signs around his crush)
Hahahahahha crab la so nonsense it's funny
(needless to say I skipped class today even though I woke up on time, already having post show blues)

I misplaced my planner and can't imagine having to rewrite the whole thing plus most of my schedules and deadlines are in there D:
Ahhhh pls appear soon ok I need you
Looking forward to a productive day in class later on (ok maybe not ancient class but I love what we're learning anyway)

ps it is so weird that humans can see and point out how wrong other humans view/think of themselves but still do the same thing

pps i might just stay up tonight so I can exhaust myself enough to sleep tomorrow sometimes this is just what is takes but then sometimes it backfires and i'd not be able to sleep tomorrow also hahahah it's ok life is a gamble

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03.29am

Um I did not expect to be emotional over high school musical tonight what even but worth it as usual but still be still my heart 

Stop this, self! (01.19am)

Is it just the last-quarter-of-the-year syndrome that my body clock just assumes it's holiday period and therefore sleep is for the unholiday
Because this is not true im a student I have school in like 11 hours time

I had such a lovely day!
Accompanied fiqah to her job interview and we sat in burger king spraying perfumes on paper hahahah what even
Grabbed to gardens by the bay where we quickly (bruh it was quite rushing my lashes and lipstick paid for it)
Had a great and really enjoyable show, kak sham said I look like a kid having fun hahahah cause I was having fun!
Like I said, I truly enjoyed the items for this show
Thanks tons to my beatboxer guru frederico for coming albeit alone ermagerd I managed to pull him out to dance during our finale song!
Ended the day at macs where I found out I wasnt even hungry shouldve just went with icecream
(I literally just finished my burger before blogging this hahahahah)
I hope everyone involved and everyone who came have a good rest!
Ive done my part in sending photos so I can sleep well hahaha
Ok buenas noches sweetdreams!

Major relief (00.10am)

Bruh my new notif tone is so annoying it's too bellish I gotta change it
Anyway guess what I found out; the assignment is due next week hahahaha yay
Remind me to get a headstart anyways

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11.36am

It has begun, the season I find myself falling asleep at 6 and waking up at 6 too hahahaha
Anyway I woke up to No mercy's results and first of all what happened to Cesaro might be the only reason i'll not be a wrestler like every single time I ask HOW CAN YOUR TEETH FALL OUT or in this case, which dang shield did that to thee (?!?)
Another thing is i've always had a love-hate relationship with lesnar as of now as long as he dont touch my favourites im mostly on his side so im glad he retained the championship (honestly whoever beats him needs to go through me first because that loser retired my phenom ugh yall gotta be qualified- or cheat, whatever, viva la raza)

Bruh I have this intense hatred towards reigns since the beginning (im sure he's a nice human but) honestly 

Ahh WWE mornings are great mornings

ps we made front cover!

Suddenly (20.20pm)

Heyya
Had a more eventful day than I thought I would
I think today was recuperating day, I literally fell asleep and woke up at least 4 times throughout the day in short spans of time (like 15 mins sleep, 1 hour awake and repeat cycle)
Anyway it also means I havent gotten any of my course journal done hahahahhaha actually what is new
We'll see if I do it tonight
Was supposed to fetch chiqa from the bustop but I couldnt bear to walk so I tried the ofo app and boi was that convenient I think I found a new bestfriend
I had fun speeding but with that excitement I arrived a bit too early hahahah it's ok that was nice
Then baby chiqa blanjaed me snacks from minimart heehehe so cute thank you baby u my fav ♡

Performance for Mid-autumn festival tomorrow night, and it's bittersweet cause the process leading up to here has been really fun
I truly enjoy all the items anyway (maybe except padi2 cause we stand and sit at least 30000 times)
(hahahah still enjoy that, it's ok)
So I hope to complete my assignment by tonight so I can sleep in tomorrow and be fresher for the show because there is no way i'll be doing it after the show or tuesday morning before it's due
(see i know myself this self knowledge is priceless)

Im craving to play the harry potter scrabble again or like freaking snakes and ladders just something as equally chillaxing as it is frustrating
Ok maybe a mind cafe trip at the end of this week
It has been some time since I had time for myself and the family so I gotta go my own wayyyy
(what about us what about everything we've been through what about trust you know I never wanted to hurt you what about me what am I supposed go do I gotta leave but i'll miss you)
(I had to I cant start and not continue paying homage to the greatest franchise in my life)

K ah I should go have some more lepak time until I feel bad enough that I want to start my assignment hahahahaha
Ok shh perhaps I should try harder

Don't even know (08.26am)

Good morning!
Woke up abruptly cause I dreamt that someone was trying to change a game's rules and it was not necessary
It was also unnecessary that im awake this early cause I thought i'd be sleeping in
Obvs not hahaha it's alright mornings are lovely

Had a splendid night of boardgaming and honing my acting skills (lol not really hahaha)
Towards the end I think we were all lazy to use our brains to the point where I made such irrational decision which made myself laugh (like choosing to kill the not-hitler)
Whatevs I still had fun hahaha
Okey hoping for a few more hours of rest before training
Por favor

ps taker would be scary but he'll get the job done alone, Rocky cant be trusted, Triple H has shawn michaels... i'd probably choose stone cold cause we're both badasses and anti-bullshit 

//edit//

23.11pm

Ended up having a good day even though we were all pushing so hard and failing to dance with full energy hahhais it's ok. It was aira and fiqah's last day of training with us (for now je pls haiss) and we celebrated with dinner and our weekly each-a-cup session, laughing over wrong lyrics that the whole asb is singing hahaha pls 

I just realised I have 6 weeks worth of essays due like in 2 days hahahaha so I must (must? bruh who made the rules im not a rule follower psht) (but just saying) complete them by tomorrow or latestttt monday morning but preferably tomorrow cause I should rest on monday morning.

Ok rest well hahaha goodnight sweetdreams! 

Weird concept (00.40am)

Finally settled down!
My brain just presented a theory to me that people view time differently as I do.
No not about the whole night is morning, morning is morning thing hahahaha
Basically i'm more flexible with time and for me, no matter how many things I need to do, i'm never busy.
It's like small pockets of time others tend to overlook I use them to my own advantage
No not like time management uhhh idk how to say this it's just my view on the concept of time itself
Ok I shant go all metaphysics here
I think what I need is to find other humans who views the concept of time in a similar fashion

//edit//
12.25pm

Life is weird when your intentions and actions don't align
Anyway I had a short discussion with chloe during harmonix about how everything is dangerous and that how using that as an excuse to... say, not pick a career path was invalid cause accidents can happen anywhere anytime
And yesterday after I actually left to go for meeting, I went back to boost cause I realised I was too early hahha
So we were standing in a circle and talking when a boy ran at such velocity that when his shoe hit the back of my foot, it tore off a bit of my skin
I was laughing about something else so I ignored the pain initially while the boy looked at me for a reaction and when I didnt react he ran away (I think he felt bad haha it's ok kiddo) but hahahaha see my point exactly
Accidents even while I was talking harmlessly
K la talking about alignment I want to do assignments but im not doing it
My fault or-
Nope it's school's fault for giving assignments ew

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20.11pm

Currently in a vehicle but I have to blog about demdems' new single Sexy, dirty love
Like I cant even
I love the song a lot except the lyrics once again hashtag cant relate but I dig the melody so much
Good job once again ms slayvato

A day off (23.12pm)

Currently still having harmonix meeting (aka I just kepoing cause no job)
Skipped both classes today but had a pretty fun day in its place
Brb!

//edit//

Harmonix yesterday was kewl cause we had our first mass warm up (did we have it last week I forgot hahahahah ketam la)
Ok back to today
Went to city square for lunch with da famz, tried chicaboo which was really pleasant!
Counterbalanced it with boost smoothies and caught up with Nadiah before heading to toys r us and having a hula hooping contest (which i won duh)
Theeeen went off to a meeting which went quite well I like
And now I should rest
Buenas noches (hahahahah jk)

Same difference (08.21am)

Ayy nothing like waking up freshish and burning your tongue on coffee
I love this morning class, but the questions and inputs my classmates give equals a thousand facepalms
Hahahais it's ok learn together lose together teammates
Lol jk
Man the traffic is baaad D:
Hopefully it's not an accident plssss dont be
Ok have a great day ahead I have yet to edit some posts psht

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10.20am

It's so cold my temperature shot up like 6 degrees (hahahah jk didnt measure but feels like it)
Haiz por favor where is the thermostat

//edit//
11.28am

You can see how bored I am cause Im blogging in short spans
Happy because I managed to go down and buy lunch before break ends
Sad because toys r us might be closing down
Just an hour more before I can have some alone time aka time to learn my part for Evokals' new song ahahais excited but sleepy I might should (hahaha might should) take a nap
We'll see

Halfway there (23.12pm)

Heyya currently on the way home
Had a pretty pleasant day today, will update once im home!

Keep it grand (01.35pm)

I should probably rest
Theatre class followed by a press for Mid autumn festival with my popcorn club (we are scheduled for 3 shows together, and we got 1 show down and 1 later tonight... kinda emo at the thought of them leaving boohoo D:)
Thank god my day starts in the noon and not early morning cause as you can see im not in the ideal place hahaha

Let us all have a great day ahead!

ps thank god for supportive people, near far wherever you are, as long as you've thought, wished, wanted or prayed anything remotely good for me, I pray you get the good vibes back tenfolds ♡

pps really miss acachamps trainings hahahais

Stop this (15.54pm)

Just got my first ever insurance letter and I literally groaned out loud
Can thy not trouble me with what yall adults do
Im happy wherever I am thank you very much
Maybe I should move to Botswana and live a lowkey life so I don't have to deal with these loser admin stuff
Im just a kid stop disturbing me

My schedule is going out of control again, suddenly I want nothing but to be a full-time student and I mean full time not quarter time doing studently things and the rest of the time doing other things (I mean I love everything im currently doing but my brain and spirit and body needs time to realign themselves with my intentions) 

Ahh maybe that's just it, time to realign. Be right back as I climb out of an almost-slip into a rut. 

So not feeling it (13.19pm)

I have felt physically tired since the whole of yesterday and it is pouring over to today
Hopefully dancing will help wake me up although im currently dreading having to move
Ok brb gotta leave the home

Brave souls (00.50am)

Guys
Tonight was fun- today actually.
Finished a new chorus with 3/8 of Evokals and then went for dance
Abg shai makeuping means I sleep
The show went quite well!
I felt very bugis
And mama made a new friend from Canada omg, we went for dinner and then mama bought her a necklace
As a repayment, she bought us gelato T.T
She was like "i cant eat anymore, but i can eat gelato"
Ikr hahahaha
We each have a lot of similarities with her- we both love philosophy!
Wana and her were born 3 days apart so theyre both scorpios
Not only is mama and her the exact same age, they also love red and they kept praising each other like calling each other beautiful and couldnt stop hugging and kissing their cheeks when we sent her to the train D:
And to think mama almost didnt attend our performance cause she was sleeping.
Fate man!
It was really lovely to know her, and I hope we keep in touch!

Ok pls be a cool weekend ahead I mean cool as in not the weather but the day
Hahaha

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03.47am

Cant remember the last time I felt this fresh at this timing, these few months i've been up but tiredish but tonight it's far from that

Anyway I just realised I didnt explain the title hahaha ok la later

//edit//

04.16am

Just got done watching the first latest super spontan episode. Johan in the sideline I cry- the cameraman kept shooting close ups of him I cant

bring jozan and jep and tauke back D: 

//edit//

13.24pm

Got interviewed for Steps earlier on and idk surveys are just so... dodgy like we can always lie I can say my race is nonexistant cause I dont run

Idk what im saying all I know is I need to rest my brain 

Rain, rain go away (12.49pm)

Haiii I hope this is considered well rested idk
Woke up abruptly at 8am cause of the rain
These few nights I didnt even track my sleeping schedule but I know it's insufficient to support my current lifestyle hahaha ceh kidding what even
I hope the rain stops soon cause I have an outdoor performance tonight???
I mean I dont mind dancing in the rain, it's just that we might slip hahaha cause the floor is the slippery kind plus we do a lot of sitting and standing por favor
Ok since when do I care
Omg help
Im becoming too... clichely responsible im not enjoying this
WHAT HAPPENED
Bye let me emo
(By emo I mean get ready cause im supposed to be meeting evokals soon hahahaha)

ps be nice to everyone, i can never blame the negative vibes from the people around me to excuse any badmouthing or even a bad thought about someone

pps i really need to get back to the old self  

Keep changing (06.32am)

Sometimes I wake up feeling fantastico, I just need to know how to replicate that feeling most mornings, or at least remember how it feels enough
I think i've been singing and attempting beatboxing too much in a short span of time
My vocal cords demands a break
And idk where my bullet journal is
And I have a test in 3 hours time
And obviously I havent studied (at least this time round I know what it's gonna be about hahahahah tb to the test-what-test times)
(Wow who am I???)
Por favor, let's ace life regardless!
Have a splendid pre-friday for all you weekend lovers!
(i love every day of the week no discrimination)

ps TMYLM song titles are out I am stoked!

No wonder (12.55pm)

I think im running a fever
Cant get out of bed halp
Missed morning class
Oh man
Bless

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23.30pm

Currently in the train otw back! Had a good cca session despite a weird morning and my brain not being active in class idek. First rehearsal with our new members but evokals were having our intense earl session I hope we can progress well together! Another test tomorrow morning to cover and then a Friday of trainings and performance. Im generally quite down physically but my spirit and heart is slaying as usual ceh kiddin hahahaha 

Evokals had a shortcase (hahaha short showcase if you will) in front of the club and we sang We are young. I always prefer a bigger crowd than a more intimate setting (high five demdems) cause idk where to look hahaha 

K lah, I think im reaching my stop soon so goodnight sweetdreams! May I wake up feeling better, Amin. 

Dope day (23.30pm)

today was smooth
and really fun
I just love humans who just gets me it makes life so much easier and brighter
Thank yall, I'll always love youuuu oooohhhh (k hahah jk)
I was an hour late but we managed to take the bus first and then shortcut with another bus, custom wasnt bad!
Went for brunch and suddenly told ghost stories hahaha I like ah all the new stories come out
Bought Abang long fadil tickets and then walked around to play with makeup and perfumes and body lotions
Then we decided we needed desserts so we sauntered over to jalan dhoby for cafes
Ended up at a thaiish place with great icecream and lovely service!
Went back to accompany eatgo in her quest for shoes aka me being her mouthpiece asking for size lah price lah haaha this gurl she's the mum but im the victim pshtt hahah jk
Excitedly hopped to the cinema for the highly anticipated movie like really excited for it I was so stoked for zang's magic
And he delivered man as usual
I was so happy hahahahha Soep was great!!!
(happy birthday soep! bless u)
Storyline was interesting but there were a lot of unnecessary characters- especially wak doyok and the female reporter (by a lot I mean practically all the other casts)

After that rollercoaster we searched for a neoprint shop cus i was craving hahahah and we had too much laughs cause it animated our faces so animeish i cant handle hahahah whatmore with all the time pressure
We did it twice and both times we panicked and pressed nonsense!
Continued walking around before training back and eatgo's bro sent us to the interchange thank

This is such a primary school post but im just glad today happened ♡
Yol gave me my birthday present and idk so emo hahahah too sweet aka so not her but bless ♡

K plans to rest and arise early tomorrow
Goodnight, sweetdreams!

There's always first times (07.15am)

Buenas dias!
Woke up too early as usual and I won't risk falling back asleep hahaha
Actually really excited for today cause it marks another first time for north pole
Hashtag progress hahah
The back of my mind is looming with homeworks and tests the fact that it's there means i'm meant to pay attention to them but later la huh let me enjoy today
(usually they dont even exist like the thought of assignments are so far fetched hahahaha jk i just dont do them 80% of the time idk why noone knows)
K la I shall pass time with crossword puzzles
Adios, have a brilliant day!

ps i hope the people affected by hurricanes in the west are okay.

pps hbk can blow the wind away for you

I can't believe it either (20.27pm)

helloooo
I had a good night yesterday, had dinner with daddy and then while going down the escalator elephant was like "is that... daya?" ahahahha
Did nothing today, tried to sleep to recuperate after the weekend but to no avail.
Is it the mark of oldness that I can't remember the last time I woke up past 9.30am :')
I like it though mornings are great!

Blessings come in the weirdest and randomest of ways but we can remain thankful and pass on the gift.
I'm trying.
And right now i'm not that bothered about wanting you to try too because like I said, it's about what I can offer, not get.

Stay true (21.36pm)

One thing I never one anyone to feel when they're around me is worthless.
If i've ever made you feel that way please know it's never my intention, and I apologize if I ever have.
And people, know that when someone treats you badly, it's mostly their insecurities speaking.
You be the bigger person and just do you!
Love to fellow humans.
♡

It follows (01.35am)

Apologies for the title aka 2nd worst movie i've watched in my life
I had a really fun day
But for now I need rest
A looong day of dance ahead
Goodnight
I really did enjoy this day

//edit//

08.00am

Man I thought i'd be sleeping in but obvs not. Woke up to WWE telling me to check their instastory for the Taker promo but it's too scary I wont watch past the first one yet!! (undertaker is scarier than It) 

Ok yesterday went down for bahas finals in the morning, we had to push through the crowd outside woodlands library cause the lib wasn't opened lol losers dk how to stand in orderly fashion por favor (Ok kidding hahahah it wasnt that bad) 

Had a good catch up with everyone, i'll always enjoy the bahas experience. The debate itself was interesting in the case that it was about how in the pursuit of a smart nation, there are bound to be people left behind. I feel like both teams had their strong points, but they also got confused halfway and lacked strong yardsticks. Either than that, super good job and congrats to Anderson for the win! Shuqun did great the 2nd guy was funny hahaha

After we got done at around 12.30 (first time on time! hahaha) we went for the lunch buffet outside and thankfully managed to get a hitch to vivo bless man it was raining halfway! I think we all fell asleep hahaha probs shagged from all that brain ussge.

Elephant and chiqa proceeded to train to Outram while I crawled to the rooftop to meet the rest. The first time I heard their voices from a far and actually saw them was actually quite surreal; like omg this is a thing that's happening man we have new members. I've never felt this emo about new members hahaha welcome aboard amighosts! They played 7 up and obvs as an avid math hater I prohibited myself from self-harm and sat one corner eating pizza. We then had a short briefing by president jemerie before tramming over to sentosa (which totally worked in our favour cause free and not crowded see what a good day already)

Played a name game which was about throwing dangerous objects to each other while calling the wrong names (by dangerous I mean a ball and an empty plastic bottle) then did some mass warm ups before singing. Performed we are young (legendary evokals tune) and cheerleader (daya said I could just start on a higher key if I wanted im like Ok set, but the sop will die! and I ended up starting at a lower key than original what even) and I need your love (such a fun song)

 It was great to see the full dinosaur squad (ok la fred and ian wasnt there but almost full) and obviously the homosapiens are great to be around (my batch haha) and then the sponges era (the new kids on the block...... bahahahahhaa ok u'll get why im laughing soon)

We headed to vivo for dinner and idk what adeline and I were laughing about but I couldnt stop haha loser la xD To counterbalance that joy I decided that it was time... to watch it. (hence the new kids on the block reference k bye)

Hahahahaha ok i'll not get tired of that pun anytime soon. Belvy and keichi decided to join me (haiz yall da best) and we also got good ole chloe and jorene, with may, mark and alex! By the end of the movie half of us were laughing while the rest were cowering in fear still ahaha no regrets it was entertaining, but I wouldnt say it was a good movie- still glad I watched it! 

Reached home about half hour later which was quite quick mannn good job transport system! 

The day wasnt as tiring as I thought it'd be, is it just the power of merlion or something more mysterious we dont know...... 

I just hope today wont be so strenuous even though it is the last practice before our performance halp D: Already looking forward for the cwp run after dance hehehe

Have a great day ahead! 

Exciting day ahead (00.30am)

Being a friend is not about what's in it for you, but what you can offer.
But when you get treated quite... neglectedly (for the lack of a more appropriate term) you can't help but wonder what else you can do hahahahaha but it's ok, life man
Sometimes we fight a losing battle and instead of backing away so easily in hopes of a painless exit, we stay long enough for a humble defeat.
I realise when I was younger although I attempted to stay I made a quick exit which I might say was pretty painless (mostly numbness cause you know have to be fixated and not look back) for me but I knew how abrupt and hurtful it was to the other party.
But I also knew one thing they didn't- that in the long run one of us would be glad they weren't the one to have to rip the plaster off.
Now the hard part is i'm staying, long enough and it means chances.
It means I believe in you enough to go through this but it also means i'm reaching out to no avail.
I'm easily appeased though, when you act just a bit like yourself, I find pride in the friendship.
When you laugh at the jokes you dismissed yesterday, I have hope in us.
But the days when our words just fail to cross to each other,
Or when I keep reaching out and feel momentarily gleeful at just the thought of spending time together, even though I act nothing like myself when we do (which I cant lie is quite worrying- but I wont give up hope just yet)

I can't help but think; are we long overdue or is this just the uncomfortable phase before everything falls into the ideal place, the place of security?
The phase that caused many potentially great relations to fail just because one of them could not hold on a bit stronger or because the faith begins to fade?
But what is the case with one person not even acknowledging that we're in that phase?
I may not know, but I think we can decide where we go from here.
At least I think I can, and am willing to.
Are you, though?

Ok this is my midnight self speaking it's triggered by today's Fb memories where there were photos of me and an old friend
My main point of the post is the crazy weekend ahead
With this interconnected world, weekends just dont seem so detached anymore
Bring us back to good old days when people from work and school could only contact us on weekdays hahahaah pls lah
Bahas finals in the morning and then i'll run to Harmonix orientation which is crazy weird to think about
ORIENTATION.
HARMONIX.
We grew even just by a bit wE Grew!
We have actual humans who wants to be part of us!
Now my focus is on bahas finals
Best of luck to anderson and shuqun!
And congrats to all other contestants (hahahaa participants la fine) yall did great
I hope I can rest a bit tonight and then have a kickass day later!
Goodnight, sweetdreams!

ps super spontan season begins again aka johan's playtime

Breather... ? (00.14am)

Ok settled down but it's already the next day hahah
I wonder if I should rest or scrapbook or mm idk por favor
I've been on top of my scheduling which is good but my assignments as usual remain neglected.
I'd probably spend today completing all necessary stuff and starting on future assignments too hahaha
Keyword probably cause it sounds ideal but you know what else sounds ideal long bus rides to nowhere (by nowhere I probably mean sentosa) but im going sentosa on saturday
See my nonexistant dilemma?
Hahaha k bye goodnight sweetdreams I had a pleasant day and I should probably stay home today who knows

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07.30am

I cant with dems new singles' titles being 700 word essays hahahahah
my point is stop releasing it earlier in the western world i need to hear it pronto do not disrespect me like this lozers
I CANT WAIT TO HEAR IT
It's like an unborn child, I know it exists, dont know what it's like, but........
I already love it
Hashtag trust

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08.39am

RED ALERT
heard half of the first verse and I cant my heart too good you go dems make me proud u lil slayer
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......and I thought the verse was slayage
THE REST OF THE SONG WAS
!!!!!!!
Amazing job I cant wait for people to attempt to sing this song and fail miserably as usual hahahahahaha
I love it, thank you for the art and talent I appreciate times 5003829 and more
D: ♡

Been neglected (22.35pm)

HI
Trying a new route home today cause it's too early for 154 and mamat rabz is claiming that 174 is faster than 154 so im trying it
Missed morning class man bummer like I woke daya up then I played crossword puzzles until it was too late to rush and then I slept hahahha prangai
Managed to go to the afternoon class which was always fun hahaha muh girl chloe always makes lesson fun (ok la my vocab nonexistant hahaha)
Had impromptu Evokals training till 9 and now we just finished dinner aka icecream aka LONG TIME SINCE I HAD ICE CREAM (probably 3 days but that is a long time)
(actually i can vouch that it is more than 3 days)
(doesnt feel like it though hahahah)

Anyway being a decent human is actually not easy, we have to initiate contact as ourselves but at the same time witness their vibes and try to adapt
K la why hahahah
Bye goodnight sweetdreams
Finally a rest day tomorrow before a busyyy weekend (i feel like going sentosa again lol)

Still surreal (15.45pm)

Currently in Self-knowledge class
Sometimes I still get pangs of this surreal feeling that I really am in a Philosophy class
It's like i've imagined this since I was young and now i'm actually part of it
It's crazy I love it hahah

Had a wild morning as I missed my bus by 20 seconds and decided for Macs breakfast
Reached class right as their break ended ahaha perfecto

Btw.... im seeing posts circulating about Big show's last match happening last night (HE SAID HE'LL BE RETIRING NEXT FEBRUARY DAMMIT)
I cant handle the thought I am genuinely sad
Dont even let me think about it for now
K have a nice day!
Hehehe

As long as (02.07am)

I seriously think if I lived on the other side of the world i'd be super successful just because my brain works extra when the sun is in this relative location to the earth it just happens that it is the sleeping time where I live
Will try to sleep before 3
Both appreciate and dont appreciate afternoon classes cause for morning classes if I don't sleep I can just go through with it and then have the afternoon chilling but meh you get the idea
Goodnight sweetdreams!

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23.48pm

Currently on the way home! I think I fell asleep after 6am man that was tough I hope tonight is better. Woke up on time though and refreshed so as usual kudos sleep calculator you do your job well! Had a real nice day today. 

Let us all (13.23pm)

Take a moment of silence to heavyheartedly bid Avi farewell for now
I'm gonna miss the literal heart thumping bass but you'll do amazing

aka i cant imagine separating from my evokals what more a multigrammy group pentatonix

Why

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23.47pm

Currently waiting for chiqa to finish her art project
Had a great day with chiqa today!
Impromptu visit to the land of fun (I told her to choose between A, B and C without revealing what those letters meant; A for Plaza sing, B for City square and C for Vivo)
And after changing her answers like thrice I told her to close her eyes and listen to what her heart chooses and she chose C confidently k great
Had a lovely brunchinner by the seabreeze and then hopped on the tram to see the sandcastle sculptures which were amazing!
Went on the cable car to get ice cream and krispy kreme and then reached home at 10.30 yayyy
Immediately commenced on our art and craft which is fun but now im a bit sleepy hahaha I forgot I have no holidays
K goodnight sweetdreams I gotta go update my planner and make sure I dont sleep too early or late

Random peaks (01.59am)

I cant sleep and I feel like going stationery hunting like proper unnecessary items which is necessary and then I feel like revamping my bullet journal but I need sleep
Do you understand me

Nah probably not
I need to buy a giant pencil box cause mine is not giant enough to contain all the creativity hahahahha kidds i have a thousand talents visual art aint one hahahah kidding again everything i do is great

once more in: is this really me talking or my delirious brain or is it my inner soul or not even me who knows

My eyes would probably shut if i shut it but my brain is so active i cant contain it gurl you do you
As long as I survive tomorrow well, i'm good!
Hashtag trust
(dance till 7pm do u feel me)

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21.04pm

Had a good day!
Currently on the way to the beach after training hahahah I wished this happened more often I mean that is one wish I can make come true
Kay byeee

Cousin weekends (18.46pm)

Currently at cik ros' place, wished I could sleepover another night but nooOoo a meeting and training feast awaits me
Chiqa is layaning Izzah with alif ba tas hahhaaha so cute she's smiling and making sounds and dancing
Irfan is making muffins for his home econs training omg I miss F&N practicals we didnt have enough of those man
So lazy to travel homeeee why isnt there underground slides that connects you to your frequented places
K la bye enjoy the rest of your weekend

00.00

Selamat hari raya!
And blessed september ahead!

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00.46am

Just had a great supper omg
And let us all be grateful that kinder bueno isn't the cheapest chocolate out there cause if it was it'd be my breakfast lunch teatime dinner supper snack idk

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13.03pm

I will always be bitter that wwe did not re-sign justin roberts he had the best voice

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17.27pm

Just chilling at mak yah's place after eating the great raya food I cant im so happy hahahhaha
And izzah and izzul are so cute
I heard we're gonna cut cake for the august babies soon like aNotHer cAkE why are humans nice !!!!
Happy birthday cik hussin and ham!
(Since qaseh is not coming)
omg this izzul boi walking in and out of the kitchen in a jubah and oversized sandals hahahaha
Kkk let me go relax and karaoke raya songs with the rest
Adious have an amazing day!