YES

Homagad (I actually feel like a child who just completed her first painting and is excited to show it off because) SMACKDOWN WAS.... UGHHHHHH

So like I said it has been a while since I watched a full episode- meaning, some of the people on the roster I have never seen in action (I check updates daily so I know they exist but bleah) and some changes I haven't witnessed till just now.
I skipped the whole tag team fiasco because... jahaha cant tahan them try harder

Things that caught my attention

1) That diva with the red ombre idk (is it Alexa bliss I forgot) was such a horrible actress in that small segment with dbry I was cringing so bad

2) THE LOVE FOR SHANEOMAC was overwhelming I have been waiting for this day since he returned to the business- well deserved and kinda emotional

3) So weird not seeing Cena or Triple H what even

4) EDGE. Need I say more??? No I dont

5) Randy orton continues wowing me despite not speaking at all hahah just his presence

6) It's amazing to see the older fans cheering for the older superstars- it's like only they understand and share this special bond that the new generation does not have. I hope the youngsters/new viewers are jealous because they should be!

7) Undertaker appearing at an unexpected time- that slight tip of the hat to Shane I cannot even handle it! AND that vigorous UNDERTAKER chants made my heart so happy and proud and just everything good and nice

8) Ziggler-Miz match was good as usual! Except I was super shocked when I saw the spirit squad??? (Well 2 of them) Like when even were they a thing again wth go away

9) Too many announcers on one table bluek

10) All the snippets of old smackdown clips made me so emo- the rock vs triple h with shawn as guest referee, the dx-stone cold segment, cena trashing angle on his debut and ... wait for it........ taker shaking cena's hand (which literally is another reason why his retirement match should be against cena cant you understand it???)

Ahh I missed this roller coaster and im so glad I can return anytime I want to.
Have a good night's rest while I go ahead to catch up on other things i've missed ahahais

Finally im going to go watch Smackdown

Remember when I said i'd watch Smackdown's 900th episode after I completed my essays?
Well I never did because I did not finish my essays.
But you know what who even cares I need to catch up!
So after so long of not proper sitting down and watching WWE, I played the 900th episode and literally 30 seconds in, all the feels came.
Im talking goosebumps, heart palpitations and everything feel-related.
No communication with the outside world as long as it's on so, adios.

Hibernation mode

Hiii
Had a much needed downtime today after consecutive late nights and early days
It is post christmas aka when countdown to the new year begins!
2016 has been a great ride but I wont talk much about this now because not yet ok im still in the festive mood though I dont actually celebrate christmas
Meh who am I kidding living in this country we literally celebrate everything together hahahahha which is nice

The christmas caroling sessions with Harmonix was loads of fun, all 3 of them!
Ended the last one by staying out till 2am with three elves- that was nice
(Why do I keep saying nice excuse my vocab)

Btw idk why (in the previous posts) I keep saying Atikah's wedding when I know for a fact that her name is Artika and not Atikah
I think it's cause I pronounce her name that way so the spelling just comes
But yes her name is totally NOT Atikah hahahaha still :')

And Gamingmas, Vlogmas, 24-days-ofs 2016 has wrapped up!
BUT I got a christmas present in the form of pinof 8 bloopers which made me... cant even explain la ok
OH I FOUND TWO Harmonix members who watches phan too and I was literally (???@@?@; u sure ??? U not dreeming r u???@, dun get muh hopes up @,@?)
But yes it wasnt just a nice dream it. is. reality

Anyway was supposed to meet north pole for cycling today but it somehow didnt happen?
Pretty bummed because it was so hard to set a date but hahah it's ok everything happens for a reason
I just miss them!

K before any weird topic jumps happen I shall go
Have a merry boxing day

ps i always make it out to be ironic peace signs but who are we kidding it's the only socially acceptable pose 

I MISS-TERIO! (Who doesnt)

Ok I literally have to leave home soon to go to grandma's but I just came across an article about reyrey and I HAD to commentate (yas) on it because hello, importante!
It's an article about why he left WWE so basically it's because he felt like he was not spending enough time with family, and that he felt almost burnt out.
He also mentioned that orton is the best wrestler in the WWE right now- which I can't lie, I agree fully.
(I mean I havent been watching him since he joined the Wyatts and shiz but still)
That charisma is just unmatched by the others as of now.
(If you dont agree just go away literally)

Anyway yep the article-

1) Reyrey is such a family man- diz is why he my first husband hahaha

2) His and randy's lowkey broski is the best thing ever (I wished it was as highkey as cena-orton because I love it)

3) Randy also picked reyrey as one of his fav- including HBK (DUH IM surprised reyrey didnt choose him too??? HBK is the boss) and HHH (undeniable)

But the article said:

"While Mysterio’s inclusion is well justified, it is certainly not the first name you would think that Orton would pick, considering the plethora of wrestlers, he has faced in the past."

Excuse yourself????
"Certainly"????
I would EXPECT orton to choose reyrey!
What an uncultured yeast

His extensive picks included Christian, Edge and of course the deadman

Ok now that I have gotten that excitement out of my system (jk it'll always be there) I should get ready now
Contemplating between Harmonix or karaoke with family tonight
Pretty sure I can fit both into my schedule lets just hope the fams start late hahahah
Alright
I neeeed to talk about yesterday but I kinda have to rush so as soon as I get back home ok

ps GAMINGMAS AND VLOGMAS 2016 IS ENDING SOON NOOoo

pps i already established a solid morning routine on watching gamingmas and then instagram for edits but now

ppps nevermind, new year ahead- no tour, no excuse for more videos muahaha

Cool day

Actually slightly worried that all my plans to sleep "as soon as I reach home" was abandoned because all my tiredness disappeared?
Idk whether to- what i dont even- no- how is it possible that the major surge of tiredness I felt just hours ago evaporated into thin air like where did thou go, who did thou transfer thousthself to?

I might have to spend new year's eve hibernating into the new year to make up for the extra sleepless year I had (the 9 months holiday aka what even are mornings and nights)
(the 3 classes a week aka what are weekends and weekdays cant tell the difference)

You know what I should just rename this blog to: Woes of a nocturnal creature
Plot twist- she likes being nocturnal but sometimes it interferes with the other mankinds' ways of lives
Not like she cares

23/12

Anyway had a great day today despite feeling pretty zzzish in the afternoon
(Blame myself for waking up too early- or maybe because I fell asleep at 11am)
But after coffee (im not dependent on it ok it's just placebo effect hahahahah but it works so might as well) I was back up to a hundred.
Did some christmas singing at the flyer today- pretty cool experience!
Helps that my mates are so fun to be around.
By the end of it we were all half dead (I think I absorbed their energies or ok la maybe that is just how I work- start tired and pick up energy throughout the day)
(Idk sori im undefinable even to myself hahaha)
Went for seafood afterwards which was great

Anywayyy heard a song on the radio earlier tonight and got reminded of the fact that Atikah is getting married TOMORROW
Felt like it was just last year when we went on that particular trip to JB to vote for our Jep, karaokeing to stupid songs and having our passports chopped almost every week.
(Lols I think it was just 2 years ago but still!!! We have come so far)
Im excited and nervous idk why hahahaha here's praying that everything goes smoothly for her tomorrow!
Amin2

Missing my choir a little more tonight; being in Harmonix really helps cure the lovesickness (hahahaha what)
Missing papa liew and his torture sessions, my girls and teachers, and the songs we used to pride in singing.
I hope all of them are doing great, honestly want to reunite with every single one of them soon!

K goodnight sweetdreams of ..... golden pumpkins

ps it is christmas eve!

Always, aLWAYS

Oh nooo it's 5am what am I doing
Gonna meet the grablorry gang for a picnic in 5 hours hahaha shiz I need to wake up at like 7 to prep a meal and pack my things
Pretty excited just based on the fact that it's my "fav place" hahahaha plus beach like I require some soul rejuvenation
I should probs take a power nap because I might have a Harmonix sesh at night (might: depends on if grablorry gives up on lepaking before/around 5-7pm)

Ok la actually nevermind that i'm still awake cause phan uploaded their gamingmas video early (I cant tell, time difference is so weird but cool but weird) and I caught it at like 19 mins so im all caught up with regards to them kids.
Me to them all the time: u ok there buddy

Oh yes I actually might have 2 more christmas gigs with harmonix this week, plus one of my good pals (whO IS MY AGE) is getting married this weekend!
It's so weird how fate works, and im so excited for her.
And and it's been a loooong time since we met each other I've missed her a lot!
Insyaallah all goes well!

Actually received bad news from one of my closest friends, and it's weird how the only thing I can give her is indeed the best thing I can give her: love.
You're always the strong one, so I really don't have to tell you to stay strong.
I just hope you remember that you're allowed to falter and be weak sometimes.
That's the only way we can bounce back even harder and get through even stronger.

Here's to a better day ahead!

Emotional aTTACK

I just...
Ugh I was innocently scrolling through my newsfeed on Fb when a rUDE interruption occurred; an article with the title "The undertaker's retirement date revealed"
(or something, idk, I dont want to remember sad things okay)
And the post's caption hURTS MY HEART
Im really sure i've blogged about this before but seeing that article I literally "NoOooOoOooo"ed (im surprised noone came to check on me hahahahaha jk)
Wah I cant even I am definitely not okay probs wont ever be
Ok I shall not think about it now or else i'll end up emoing
For now here's to hoping and wishing (11.11, wishing well, shooting star, you name it) that his retirement match will be against john cena (or Kane because mAn the emotional impact it will leave millions of us- ok probably will be too much to handle but if they can make shawn vs ric flair they can make taker vs kane too)
But best case scenario is he dont even have a retirement match wei he's immortal ok

He totalllllly totally deserves to retire and enjoy life because he has been in the ring for decades and decades man that is insane and I respect his existance I will always be him he will always be me we are one and the same
Ok that was creepy hahahahahah aiseh I rarely get emotional (really? I dont think so) (shut up conscience) (fine) but this is defo something worth wallowing in pity about

Anyway, if your eyes somehow land on this, please spare a prayer for the world.
It is painful to know that somewhere out there people are actually suffering and we cannot even relate one bit because we have been so blessed and sheltered.
It is horrendous that real people out there are actually presently experiencing war, when all we know about war is that it's history.
It sucks to know that there are people out there who have no access to basic necessities- we dont even need to look far, our own neighbours might be one of those people.
It hurts to know that we can only do so much to help easen someone's burden.
But insyaallah if we keep trying and do this together, we can make a difference even if it's just one person.
Pray for the world, please.

On a lighter note, it is christmas week which means a lot of reunions and joy (hopefully!)
Take good care of yourselves and beware of idiots and insensitive people who have nothing for you but negativity.

Up all night as usual

Oh man it has been sometime (by sometime I mean less than 2 weeks hah but it honestly feels like months) since i've stayed awake past 2am
Dont even know if I fell asleep due to my own will or because I was tired or because I had nothing else to do but as of now it is 5.12am, it is raining and I dont think i'll be falling asleep anytime soon.

I've been waking up early consistently though muchas gracias body clock

Anyway I just realised I still havent memorised the lyrics to the song we're performing hahahahha much reliable am I not
Im sure i'll survive so it's ok
Had to miss yol's cousin's wedding which we "booked" the time for since months ago but man, have to skip on it
(Wait why do I keep saying "man" since when do I do it)
(Ok la actually since last time but twice in a post, really)

//edit//
It's 7.27am, I literally fell into a proper sleep for one minute and woke up again hhahahahah thanks a lot
Do I feel slightly tireder?
Idk I cant tell hashtag no self awareness hahahah jk
I will try to nap before I need to get ready zzz
Goodmorningnightmornight

ps aw he's precious but i hate him so much what even is his face

pps jk luv him... and philly ofcuz

Things that have made my 2016

So I thought since I have constantly failed at making a Goodbye (insert year here) post, i'll just make a simpler one; Things that made my year.
Here's a list!

The post A levels break
: Wow. Best thing ever or what? I felt so free and relaxed. I dont even remember what I did but im sure i'd have keepsakes of it everywhere if I looked- diary, fb, instagram, and even on you dear blog!

Saying YES to more weird things
: Hosting a prom, auditioning for a nationwide competition, going for interviews I have no interest or idea about (and successfully getting in), signing up for nonsense, storytelling and being an "assistant teacher" to a group of strangers, you name it, i've done it. Hashtag no regrets only experiences

Dan and Phil: I have been watching them in collabs, and have checked out some of their videos but only this year have I... fell into the deep dark hole of their universe. I regret it so much (the feels they give oh pls) but I cannot imagine life without them hahaha k drama

ENTERING UNI LIFE
: Need I say more? Exciting, and it's not only for myself! It's a big deal even though it does not feel like it,  advancements are always a big deal.

ACTUALLY LEARNING PHILOSOPHY
: Actual dream come true! I'm really happy doing this, despite still feeling a bit zzz when everyone asks what im to do after the degree hahaha but I totally get your curiosity. Still taken aback knowing that some people still do prioritize grades over learning. Aint nothing wrong just... wasted innit? Learning is so beautiful and enjoyable and grades are just not... in line with that concept.

RESTARTING MALAY DANCE
: I've missed it. I've done it. Not sure if it's no longer one of my favourite things or i'm just with the wrong company. Pretty sure it's the latter but eh, things can change.

JOINING AN ACAPELLA GROUP
: One of the best finds in Uni. Reminds me so much of choir and its homeliness. Except with slightly more mature members whom I can share anything with and act like anything with. Like I actually look forward to trainings not even to sing but just so I can spend time with them losers. (Jk luhya guys pls stay cool)

NEW FRIENDS
: Man, man, man. Idk if I ever mentioned this but I love entering new places just because I can make new friends! From everywhere, really, bahas, classmates, clubmates (im like currently in 3 clubs), friends from random events (volunteering, competition, literal random people)

Auditioning for a singing competition
: If you know me you know I cant be bothered with competitions, im too lazy to entertain it. But I went through and lol, actually got to top 51! Which was apparently quite a big deal considering almost a thousand people auditioned but meh, it was still an experience- a cool but pretty uncategorizable experience just because of the emotions roller coaster (jk im just too lazy to explain hahaha will do it when I feel like it)

Some things are more personal, but there are a few changes in my life; in actuality and emotions/thoughts wise which are inevitable as part of growth but just as a reminder for myself, memories will always be there to look back on fondly.
Just be careful not to swim around the past too much or you'll drown.
The present is here.
It deserves some attention.

And I actually completed like 4 (?) of my life's to do list
1) Talk to a stranger and beat my previous timing (The man at the hospital, we spoke for like 4 hours)
2) Host for a random event (Tatyana's prom hahaha)
3) Audition for a nationwide singing competition
4) Busk (technically since I did street singing with Harmonix, it's like busking without the money involved)

I also did some cool volunteering and went on fun adventures so there's that!

Things I hated about 2016

ADULT FARE
: Cant even begin to tell you how much I despise it and how i'll never get used to it. Utterly disguspink. Ew.

Putting the things I love on pause
: I mean it's not necessarily a bad thing but of course it'd have been nice if I continued on these things while chasing other things but ey, gotta take it slow. These are the wrestling classes, actually watching WWE, and my superhero lawaks.

Random thoughts

Wow.
Let us just all take a second to breathe.
After 2 weeks of straight hustling, I can finally take a tiny breather!
Leaving space for flexibility has been an essential part of this December so far because I had to cancel plans (important ones at that) for another one.

Did I even mention that I joined a kids' camp volunteering event?
Because I did!
And it was really fun!
(If you ignore all the unnecessary dabbing- not that it is ever necessary- and messy bottle flipping and kids thinking theyre too cool for the world- it's normal lah huh)
My teammates (and every volunteers there actually) are real gems just saying I could literally walk up to any of them and poof friendly friendship friendness.

//edit//
WOW did I just abandon this post... hahaha man what is this.

Met Alwani for Sushi and bowling on Thurs, I cant even handle the alley at downtown east gosh the balls there sucks talk to my hand man
This is why I stick to the west im pretty sure the calibration is better hahahahaha
The food was amazing though and wild wild wet looks so revamped im proud for nothing

Just got back from sending Khali off at the airport- girl is heading to Korea!
May she have a safe and (very) fun journey insyaallah

I actually am having my first ever acapella gig tomorrow which is quite exciting muehehe we be jingling them bells because Christmas (why am I talking like this I dont know I do not apologize though)

Next week is filled with outings so that's fun because this whole week was all about fulfilling responsibilities and im done with them mueheheh.
(More coming ahead though so strap in for the ride!)

Idk what is worse, knowing that someone is hiding something from you but not being able to find out or being totally ignorant that they're even hiding anything.
I mean it might be an obvious answer to you but as a person who survives a lot on intuition, I think being ignorant is worse.
But then if youre aware but unable to find out that's pretty suckish too so whatevs why am I even talking about this it is 1.28am I should be asleep or something

Last random thought, I hate, hate, hate reading or hearing eulogies, or someone bidding their friend who passed on farewell.
The things they say are just so precious I BET they would've wanted to hear those while they still could.
It's so heartbreaking how these sincere thoughts are only born when the people aren't there to hear or read it.
But I understand lah, why would you out of a sudden show random bouts of appreciation right that's a bit odd
Nevertheless, good things should be made into norms
Hashtag be expressive hashtag nothing to lose hashtag why am i hashtagging im not even hashtagging
K im obviously drunk (not really) (ok fine not at all)
I should go now
Goodnight sweetdreams of walruses

A good day

Hellooo
I am tiredish currently
Today was... a day full of blessings; small and big.
I felt at ease with the universe, I felt good.
I needed the littlest acts of kindness and that's what I got.
I made new friends and reunited with old ones, which are both really exciting!

The day started with me multitasking to the max!
Actually woke up at 3.42am but managed to sleep back till 7 thankfully.
I was facing my laptop, printer and the mirror at the same time- downloading songs, printing photo and getting ready
Thank god mama helped iron my shirt and the makcikpakcik let me take the cab first because they saw I was rushing (was I though ahahais I thought I looked chill)

A cool thing happened anyway I was craving chicken rice but the only shop nearby was an Indian stall so ok lor I bought something else.
Skali when we reached Tatyana's cousin's house, she was like "we will leave at 3pm and go eat chicken rice ok!"
And me, tatyana and wana looked at each other gasping because what are the odds hahahaha
And then I got like a giant currypuff and when I got home and gave it to mama she was like "I wanted this yesterday but couldnt get it"
So twice the food magic today Alhamdulillah!

My eyes are heavy but I got things to settle
No idea if I should sleep first settle tomorrow or settle first then sleep...
With how heavy my eyes are probably sleep first
Ok let's go try sleep
Buenas noches!
Sweetdreams

ps look at these two cuties who have been making my mornings sweet with gamingmas- can we even handle them no we cant

Much description many cringes

Can't believe I haven't blogged!
Had an exciting weekend and then got yesterday and today off before another onslaught of dragtivities ensue.
(Wow much vocab inappropriateness very dont care)
(^ Wth just happened)
(Sory no self control)

Saturday morning kicked off with bahas meeting aka fINALLY REUNITING with shabs and asyraf
Greeted with good food- credits to kak falah as usual, and also discussed tons of plans for the future of akademi bahas which is exciting!
Went off to stadium afterwards for the weird audition and met the fams there.
Made new friends (yay) and unsurprisingly considering the size of singapore, we had quite a number of mutual friends including melly and some bahas friends!
Got through to the next round (tons of competition bluek if u know me u know i hate competitions) but most importantly 1) It was a cool experience 2) Like I said, one stuff struck off my to-do list!
Thing is, the upcoming schedule clashes a lot  with my current one which is funny cause out of all the dates you could've been executed, you chose the date I have like 7 things to do but ok life
Anywhoo got lunchinner afterwards and visited cotton on before I saw the time and ran off to school lulz
Had to grab from botanic because I didnt want to be late but no thanks to the driver for being late, stopping at the wrong place and made me brisk walk unnecessarily, forced me to climb up the stairs twice because he didnt have change- wait why am I even remembering these hahahaha the good thing is I reached safely!

Reached the camp venue around 8.30pm and got greeted by unfamiliar but friendly faces!
I realise that positive energy really attracts other positive energies which was great.
Made lots of fast friends and played an intense puzzle game before we moved off to masjid maarof to sleeeeep.
Despite an antartica of a room, I managed to wake up (as usual another person's alarm who always wakes anyone and everyone up except the alarm setter herself hahahah)
The next morning energy level was 60% all the way but I pummelled through and yess survived the day!
Managed to watch phan before sleep overtook and thus began my hibernation.

Jk, Monday came and the fams decided an impromptu outing so yep out we went!
The thing is I was craving three random things that morning, french toast, fries and playing skateboard (ikr, what even)
Managed to satiate all them weirdness Alhamdulillah (can u believe we entered a shop which sells french toast WITH fries this is seriously boss level synchronicity loljk but for real though)
I literally bought a skateboard after getting to play it for like 10 mins at decathlon (which btw the shop name is so hsm- scholastic decathalon anyone?)
Proceeded on to green milk tea, play in fake snow and finally karaoke.
Fun day indeed but what did i even wear i forgot nvm not important

Today I rejected both offers to go out and my own brain's idea of going out by myself and just lepaked at home.
Will finally be meeting baby izzul and family tomorrow after what feels like so long!!! (Probs less than 2 months? Which technically is long seeing that I have been going there almost every week since the middle of the year)

Ok I actually like writing descriptive posts even though it probs only make sense to me
Chiqa is calling me to eat so buhbye
Have a great midweek please!

Eventful day ahead!

Helloooo!
Currently packing for tomorrow's camp.
Actually still contemplating between a backpack or a handbag but I have to bring a freaking sleeping bag so... huh let's see
Kinda excited for what tomorrow may bring, I have 3 back to back events slash responsibilities slash throwing-myself-in-the-fire sessions and thankfully 2 of those are on the east side of singapore
(Actually havent checked the third but I assume it's in the west although I really hope it's not... oh the travelling)
It will be a day of connecting with old friends and making new ones, and I pray He easens all our affairs!
Amin.

On an exciting note, yo gurl here is actually gonna strike one more thing off her to-do list of life!
A less intense version of a bucket list because that just sounds like you're chasing for time when in actuality it's just things I want to do for fun and to you know, once again throw-myself-into-the-fire (aka no idea why I hyphened those words together but okay hahah)
I hope you too are throwing-you- ok you get the drill but I hope you're doing something new too, really doesnt have to be crazy just literally walk a different path from your bustop to your house; that's new.

I hope I get sufficient rest today-
Oh gosh speaking of rest I am unprepared for the activity which is part of my life's to do list im actually going to audition for something and I AM UNPREPARED but who needs preparation when you have... idk what I have
*sighs in non-disappointment*
But im good man let's just go hashtag yolo
And yes I hope I get sufficient and good sleep tonight because I most definitely need the energy.

As for the final essay I had been putting off, I might just abandon it totally because... idk you just dont understand hahahah.
I also dont understand what's so hard about doing an essay but you know my brain is just reluctant my heart wants it but my brain just ughhh let's not talk about this right now
(I always shock myself though like I wouldnt be surprised if later at 2am I end up completing the essay and laughing because why didnt I do this sooner but also I dont think I will)

Okay I hope you have an amazing weekend ahead!
Bayonara

Sleep paralysis

So I was watching one of Weylie's video where she told the story of her scariest paranormal experience, when someone began knocking on the front door and simultaneously, the internet went down and my fan just stopped.
Hahaha turns out the man was an electrician and he needed to reset something so yeah had to shut off the main power plug
The timing though, so apt.
And yes she was speaking about her sleep paralysis experience and I actually understood her because a few months ago I myself experienced it.
My logical side says it's probably just you know scientific and stuff but while I was experiencing it I cannot deny the spook factor like literally the first thing I thought was "OH is THIS what it feels like to have a ghost lay on top of you" and I was thinking of the photos I saw on fb.

I had a loooong day after an all nighter that day, so obviously that night I was hoping for a good sleep after a literal MONTH of not having proper sleep (literally had 8 hours of sleep per week)
So I was feeling super shagged, but it's the kind of tired which is worse because you just.cant.sleep.
But finally it happened and my phone was dead by this time anyway so whaddheck, I shut my eyes and a few moments (hah more like hours) later I feel asleep.
I was suddenly awakened by this heavy feeling like I was conscious but I couldnt move at all, so I tried to stay calm by talking to myself
Here's what went down in this brain
Me: Oh cool im experiencing sleep paralysis!
Also me: Wait... what if this is the supernatural version
Me: Dont freak yourself out this is just scientific this is normal
(This conversation occured really quickly- my brain works fast surprise2)

Then my eyes started roaming around the room (IM REALLY REALLY unsure if my eyes were ACTUALLY open or I was just mentally looking around) but I saw so many faces of dark, old women around me (like right infront of my face) and they were wailing and shouting (not too loud but it was definitely a shout)
At this point of time I let my logical self go and started reciting some prayers; it was all over soon after but the image of those witches (idek what they are) still is vivid.
I went back to sleep after a few moments of composing myself, but it happened again later that night; same convo in my head, same faces, same duration (it felt like)
I told my mum in the morning and she said she already felt the presence even since last evening so im like "ok so it wasnt the normal sleep paralysis???" but the thought of it having an actual explanation was what made it less scarier (was horrible though when it lasted- felt like i'll never get out of it until someone actually walked into the room and woke me up but thankfully it wasnt that way)
The next night my mum opened Quranic recitations the whole night and thankfully nothing of that sort happened again.

I've always read about people'e experiences but I never thought i'd experience it myself.
Supernatural or not, it was pretty terrifying (im just too logical to panic I guess hahahah perks of being too rational)
I feel like if normal people (yeah because im so abnormal what- aka pardon my choice of words) were to experience this it would make them scared to fall asleep again because it is disturbing as heck.

So yeah now I have a newfound appreciation for sleep paralysis stories, I guess the scariest part is not the ghosts around me but that I couldn't move one bit. I do read on these a lot so I know that you should try to move your fingers or toes to wake yourself up (if you are experiencing actual sleep paralysis and it wasnt a ghost on top of you) but I tried and it didnt happen so I resorted to praying and Alhamdulillah it worked.
I was so relieved when it was over.

Wow, a great topic to start off after a week of absence.

Anyway, HAPPY DECEMBER!
The one week of marking was actually really fun, kinda missing my workmates already.
Makes me really worried about the Malay language though.
We have such a beautiful language but if the younger generation cant even grasp it I- ughhh.
Please let us work together to protect our lovely culture.
Like I wouldn't choose to be born into another race if I could just because I grew up learning about how actually splendid our culture is.
(Not so much in this modern world- the negatives of different cultures are so apparent bluek)
It's the kind of things that you have to be in to know what it actually it
*begins staring into the abyss wondering if the previous sentence made any sense*
It should!

Hahahaha ok why did I even go there all I wanted to say was that I had a fun week and it ended with an impromptu visit to marina barrage watching phan videos in public and laughing non-stop.
I have today and tomorrow to hibernate before a lash of events comes towards me

Anyway did I tell you I havent done 2/3 of my final essays hah procrastination is a real problem people (btw they were due last week meh)
For now i'll learn my lesson and actually DO my assignments next time
Ok my wifi is back so time to post this hehehhe