3.26am
Today will be the last intro to philosophy class of this sem, (or is it for the whole of uni life since it's gonna be a completed module idek)
I still remember my first day walking into class, arriving exactly at 9.30am and sitting at a peaceful corner.
This seemingly solid routine lasted only two weeks because on the third week something nonsensical happened: SOMEONE TOOK MY SEAT.
I mean come on, you've been through jc/poly/mi whatever you know that we're not assigned seats but excuse yourself, respect the unspoken choppening of seats???
Hahahaha jk im not that possessive but ok this led me to joining the backseat crew (consisting of me, wardah, alwani, jiayun and ... still forgot his name, was it james?) and till today, (more like tomorrow) I have been happily sitting there laughing at the prof's randomness (he literally sang and slightly danced Hi ho from snow white last week)
Weirdly although the words Epistomology and Metaphysics sounds a bit turnoffish in the beginning, I have truly loved learning them (more than ethics hahaha why)
Monday mornings always make us question our whole existence.
(It's like scheduled sessions of existential crises)
Key takeaways?
1) we know nothing
2) we are nothing
3) but cogito ergo sum; we exist, it's ok.
It's not that negative though it's really refreshing and I wished everyone took these basic philosophy classes to remove their jerkness and ignorance and narrow mindedness but then again,
You cant fix stupid.
And by stupid I mean jerks, ignorant, narrow minded people.
Kinda unfair how nice people have to coexist with losers but then again that's life yannow the yin and yang and stuff we need balance.
I'd probably regret not being in dreamland right now but then again there's something about the last-day-of-class vibe that just keeps you awake and alert in class (maybe just me, people are mostly groggy and cant be bothered by the last lesson)
And also i've been having the randomest dreams about the randomest people so that's fun.
Sleptover grandparents' place this weekend and past midnight I realised the date and I was like
Me: it atok's birthday!!
Papa: who?
Me: atok!
Papa: which atok (hahahaha)
Me: the atok outside lah
Papa: are u sure?
Me: ya! (a bit unsure cause why am I the only human who remembers maybe im remembering the wrong date is it today or next month im sure it's 6th though)
Papa: how u know?
Me: I KNOW PEOPLE'S BIRTHDAY (very confident in myself because I do remember birthdays ok)
Papa: ok lets go surprise him
So me, papa and chiqa creeped out of the room covering ourselves with blankets and then blasted the birthday song from youtube!
And then after swimming just now, I took a nap and woke up to chiqa and anga looking through old photos and... they found atok's old IC!
So I checked the date of birth and guess what.... it was put as 6th DECEMBER
*pooooof*
I was like "WhaT???? I've always remembed it as november? Or was it december? Oh no"
And papa went out to ask atok: wait so your birthday is next month?
Atok: huh no it's today
Papa: but your ic says-
Atok: oh that old ic? It's wrong
Im like here doubting my knowledge of his birthday hahahah
Up till now I cant clarify with my memory if atok's birthday is november or december (I know I was so sure but after seeing the ic im REALLY doubting my memory)
(Like right now im trying NOT to think of it because my brain literally cant tell the difference)
(I know atok already clarified but what if he was lying to make us feel better hahahahahah)
(Or he also confused)
Like literally in my brain right now both possibilities looks normal and acceptable idek I shouldnt be having these thoughts at 4am wth
Ok shiz this blogpost is long as heck hahahahah it's ok I like long posts.
Goodnight normal people who are asleep
ps told alwani i'd be on time so i shall hahahahha try and sleep
pps or not
ppps ok u know what 6th dec looks more probable... BUT ughhhh i cant i cant even wHY was my whole childhood a lie
pppps no link to childhood just... memory hath thou failed me or do i not trust u enough (at this time im leaning towards the you-failing-me side)
ppppps u know what im literally gonna stalk all my social media (esp my old blogs) for clues to solve this mystery) i trust u, past self. Give me answers.