I survived!

Ok wow.
1.10am, wide awake but super shagged.
We did it!
We survived work, and the emceeing!
I managed to reach home a little before 11.10pm, and immediately (I kid you not I threw my bags on the floor and switched on the laptop) began on my essay.
So as my brain was working pretty smoothly, I went past 500 words really fast!
So ok right, good progress.
But......
A few mins past 11.30pm, microsoft words stopped working and shut itself down.
And the usually-auto-saves at frequent interval decided that it didn't want to save mine at all so literally all I had when I reopened the file was the question.
But I was okay, I felt a bit like- idk how to describe, like a bit disappointed but not really?
I just didn't fret over it lah, what's done is done so I could either 1) emo over it 2) move on so obviously the better option is 2!
But it wasn't that easy, of course.
I had tried (and I rarely do xD) to actually write as much as I can, so having it all gone just like that made me feel something.
I took a few seconds to take deep breaths; zenness is it hahaha and I kept telling myself (the part of me who wanted to begin wallowing in self pity) that it's ok, it doesn't matter, we can pick it up from here, I have a brand new day to look forward to, It. Is. Okay.
And it was okay.
I know it's called the final essay but ultimately it's just another assignment which if you know me you know that I dont do assignments xD
Heh bad habit.
Ok continuing my story!
Now by this point in time, I had less than 20 mins to finish a thousand word essay.
So I did all I could, and ended up with a bullshit, unorganized essay of 500 words (word requirement was 1700 minimum I think, so idk what would happen hahah)
So then at 11.58pm I went to the submission page and was like "ok, ok I have 1 minute) but guess what- submission ends at 11.58:59 and NOT 11.59:59 and needless to say, submission was closed.
Conclusion is, I emailed that not-even-half assed essay to my prof; whatever happens after that is beyond my control so for now i'm good!
(One more essay to complete by negative 2 days ago and i'll be done!)

Work has been fun thus far!
My colleagues are nice, I appreciate it.
Ok I am kinda tired so I shall stop right here.
Goodnight mis amigos

ps phil deserved it so much! and dan too, needless to say pfft they're one and the same

It will be a good day

Great morning, I am currently at the bustop awaiting the 4 wheeled creature
Ok the bus is here
Ok im now sat and comfortable (kinda)
I have a crazy day ahead, with work followed by tatyana's prom (which ends at 11.30) and 2 essays due by 11.59pm- both of which I have not spared a glance at all these while hahahah
Game plan, skip lunch today to finish one, and the other one... i'll do it after the event
Insyallah with his will and my hustle all will be well today!
I've always believed that when you least feel deserving of positivity and kindness, that's when you need to give extra dosage to yourself to boost your spirit
It's as easy as it sounds, and as difficult as it looks.
On some days it means letting yourself rest more or indulge in your favourite things.
On other days it means helping others, giving out the most kindness you can muster for that day, even if it means just a smile to a stranger.
That's what i'm giving myself today.
Extra boost!

Thanks mama for packing us lunch!
I love you mi madre

After weeks of extremely improper sleeping habits and pulling all nighters, I finally got an 8 hour sleep last night (which also meant that I couldn't spend time on my essays but hey, i'd put my wellbeing over anything else and now I feel a lot better)
I think I can manage today- wait no, let's rephrase it to I WILL manage it today, and not only that, I will do it well.
So if you're somehow reading this, no matter if you're from the past or future, spare a prayer for your fellow mankind (not mick foley mankind) and your loved ones.
I hope everyone has an amazing day ahead, just like I plan to!

It's a new day

Firstly how apt is it that this appeared on my fb memories because it fits my current situation.
Sometimes my own reminders just come at the right timing so kudos to you, past self for somehow knowing when I needed what hahahaha

Received quite an exciting news today and we'll see how it goes but in the meanwhile, i'll continue what I do best; go with the flow!

So like 5 hours ago during a nap I got awokened by Anga who just returned from his holiday asking us to go karaoke so im like... "tell me again what a final essay is because idk"
Hahahaha needless to say today was extra unproductive but hey you gotta do what you (dont) gotta do sometimes right right
Right.

Starting my temporary job tomorrow with yol!
Alwani was supposed to join too but things happened booo

Now to me from me please go to sleep

Shortest post this year?

You know when you want yourself to do something but you just wont do it and it's annoying but it's just you
Hahahahahahahahahah
Why am I experiencing this right now I swear there are two goblins in my head going "Yes!" "NO!" at the same time

Night rants as usual

It is 3.21am, just watching some baking videos (I never do them though why cmon let's do it dear self)
(Ok set)
Busy weeks ahead!
I'm excited for life, I hope you are too.
If not, seriously go and find something to do.
Our youth shall not be wasted, our dreams shall not be left unchased.
Every day is a new right for us to step out into the world and leap towards our goals, no matter how small.
Like right now my goal is to complete my first essay, and also get some ice cream!
My eyes are actually heavy but my brain is telling me it actually wants to do the essay right now.
Weird system I have going on here but meh i'll make do.

Eghh I almost went to watch smackdown but I managed to stop myself by saying nO u havent completed ur essay too bad too sad
Like go away, responsible side of my being!
Ok no dont go away I need you to function in the society but dont interfere with my cool badass side ok stay on yo own lane

Is it obvious that I need sleep hahahahahha my sleeping patterns has been less (oh crap I literally paused for 4 seconds trying to stop myself from using the word "snazzy" darn you phan)
Where was I oh yes my sleeping patterns
But im not too worried seeing that I have responsibilities next week till the end of the year (and very possibly after that even)
Which means that my body clock will probably adapt and function like a human again so im good how are you
Hope you are good too

Tomorrow will be the 2nd last day of major lepaking before I begin my hustle!
Which means I have to try and complete all my essays by Monday.

Opportunities keep jumping and I keep going on board

Oh oh btw exciting news
1) Along finally passed his motor license! Now I have 2 on demand drivers hahahaha
2) Anga is currently on a solo trip, I want my solo trip too hahaha
3) Elephant and friends officially graduated from secondary school (aka the best time of my life as of now aka can I go back aka it was the bomb aka please) so like firstly, can kids stop growing too fast im so annoyed and secondly, cONgrafreakinglations yall survived the toughest road in your lives thus far!

ps why did we stop having sleepovers i want another

pps anyone wants to play boardgames for hours and hours on end because i do

ppps it feels so weird to have "homeworks" in November

Uneventful day, but a good morning

Aloha
Actually got a headstart on one of my final essays
Hahahaha I mean for me it's a headstart seeing that I always begin working on assignments on submission days themselves but now is like... 3 days before submission
So it's a surprise ok
Other people are probably halfway through or even done by this time but who cares i'm not them they're not me

I agreed to another weird stuff but then again what's life without weird stuff
Hashtag no regrets
Mama made like bandito pockets earlier on and now I need another because that was in the afternoon and now is like 10pm
(Edit: right after I posted this mama offered to make another hahahaha she reads my mind)

Anyway tomorrow is Farley aqil's birthday this cutiepie is turning 7 nooooOoo kids dont grow so fast please
I wished school didnt have rules for hairstyles (especially against natural haired babies) like why must baby boys trim their hair short let them wear a scarf or tie their hair or something there's literally nothing wrong with that let them be cute and stay cute
But noOoo
They get into trouble because their hair is too long
TOO LONG oh because it will cover their eyes and affect their learning and turn them into gangsters and-
Oh right, regulations.
Hahahaha bullcrap.
Not even gonna dwell about this issue because our society is notorious for focusing on unneeded stuff (keep it up) and punishing kids for nonsense reasons
Meh since it's what we're known for why not continue
(If thou canst tell that was pure sarcasm. Pure)

K bye I need food and I want to continue my essays because I want to watch smackdown
See, Undertaker is a great motivation
Muahahahe

Farriel iqim (so u can finally be googleable)

I remember often babysitting him after school
He turns 8 today.
Crazy because it also means that 8 years of my life has passed since the carefree rebellious season of being in lower secondary.
My baby, my first nephew, Farriel iqim!
May he continue being the sweetest kiddo and a great big brother to his siblings ♡

Soon

Ok I was tumblring when I remembered you!
Where have I been....
Too free hahahaha.
The holidays are upon us!
(Not much of a holiday seeing my schedule but it'll be fun!)
My eyes feel heavy but then again it might just be because I just got done watching 2 SRK movies back to back.....

//edit//
It is wednesday and 2 things;
1) Anga and Elephant turned 25 and 17 yesterday!
2) It's Chiqa's last day of school as a P1 kid!

Anywho with them essays deadlines looming over us, I feel like I have a game plan.
After completing my essays I shall sit in solitary and watch the 900th episode of smackdown
That's the ultimate celebration

I'll shut down all communication

Moral philosophy? DONE (kinda)

Just saw on my instagram explore page that Taker and Edge are returning to the upcoming Smackdown and thus I feel the need to watch it like literally compelled obliged to necessarily mandatory extremely compulsary.
Hahahaha.
Had an interesting day; it was the last moral philosophy lesson and we ended it with... a test!
Yes a test which I obviously tried to ignore until it disappears and turn into just-a-dream but still came to me.
I was laughing throughout because what was I writing idek
After school spent with Vani Sonya and Lynn bonding over dinner and nonsense hashtag what's new.

Class today was about the meaning of life which was interesting but definitely too short!
I had no time for existential crisis though because I was happily
1) Making my notes colourful
2) Snacking with Wardah
I have spoken about Andrew and his cuteness so now meet (hahaha via words) my Moral philosophy professor Preston!
He's gotta be the most... hip (ergh weird description, definitely not accurate but I wont change it cause I cant think of another word)
Very interesting needless to say, like he would randomly have a long pause and not say anything and everyone will look at each other (especially the first few lessons) like "is he okay or...?"
I remember him starting the class on the 2nd week by calling out our names and asking us to share a weird fact/interesting thing about ourselves....
(Guess what I went for.....
No you cant guess because I didnt even know I would say that xD
Hashtag no self-control
I said that I memorize the whole script of HSM2)
He would always announce breaks and end of classes out of nowhere like literally "So this concept can be traced back to the 16th century ok i'll see you next week!"
He's super straightforward and concise, lessons always end early because he's that efficient.
Didnt say much weird things (andrew wins in this department) but very open minded (which is great because moral philosophy is so controversial)
Needless to say, i'd want to attend his classes again!

Oh btw my old blogs didnt give me answers on when my grandad's birthday is and I tried asking mama but she was extra unhelpful!!!
Literally
Me: November or december?
Mama: November lah!
Me: Ok luckily we didnt get it wrong
Mama: Yeah atok birthday is december.
Me: Huh???? December?
Mama: I know it's 6th... November la correct!
Me: Sure ah?
Mama: Should be december
(Repeat above scene x7)
Im not even exaggerating
Hahahahahha I cannot deal with this but I decided to just accept the fact that I am right (even if im wrong)

Ok so tomorrow is officially the last day of school for this sem (APPARENTLY THEY WATCHED KUNG FU PANDA 3 IN CLASS LAST WEEK AKA ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES BECAUSE KUNG FU PANDA)
But i'll still have to go to school for cca hahahahahah it's ok im liking the new choreo so far!
Here's to a good end to the semester.
Goodnight

Intro to philosophy + The birthday dilemma!

3.26am

Today will be the last intro to philosophy class of this sem, (or is it for the whole of uni life since it's gonna be a completed module idek)
I still remember my first day walking into class, arriving exactly at 9.30am and sitting at a peaceful corner.
This seemingly solid routine lasted only two weeks because on the third week something nonsensical happened: SOMEONE TOOK MY SEAT.
I mean come on, you've been through jc/poly/mi whatever you know that we're not assigned seats but excuse yourself, respect the unspoken choppening of seats???
Hahahaha jk im not that possessive but ok this led me to joining the backseat crew (consisting of me, wardah, alwani, jiayun and ... still forgot his name, was it james?) and till today, (more like tomorrow) I have been happily sitting there laughing at the prof's randomness (he literally sang and slightly danced Hi ho from snow white last week)
Weirdly although the words Epistomology and Metaphysics sounds a bit turnoffish in the beginning, I have truly loved learning them (more than ethics hahaha why)
Monday mornings always make us question our whole existence.
(It's like scheduled sessions of existential crises)
Key takeaways?
1) we know nothing
2) we are nothing
3) but cogito ergo sum; we exist, it's ok.
It's not that negative though it's really refreshing and I wished everyone took these basic philosophy classes to remove their jerkness and ignorance and narrow mindedness but then again,
You cant fix stupid.
And by stupid I mean jerks, ignorant, narrow minded people.
Kinda unfair how nice people have to coexist with losers but then again that's life yannow the yin and yang and stuff we need balance.

I'd probably regret not being in dreamland right now but then again there's something about the last-day-of-class vibe that just keeps you awake and alert in class (maybe just me, people are mostly groggy and cant be bothered by the last lesson)
And also i've been having the randomest dreams about the randomest people so that's fun.

Sleptover grandparents' place this weekend and past midnight I realised the date and I was like
Me: it atok's birthday!!
Papa: who?
Me: atok!
Papa: which atok (hahahaha)
Me: the atok outside lah
Papa: are u sure?
Me: ya! (a bit unsure cause why am I the only human who remembers maybe im remembering the wrong date is it today or next month im sure it's 6th though)
Papa: how u know?
Me: I KNOW PEOPLE'S BIRTHDAY (very confident in myself because I do remember birthdays ok)
Papa: ok lets go surprise him
So me, papa and chiqa creeped out of the room covering ourselves with blankets and then blasted the birthday song from youtube!

And then after swimming just now, I took a nap and woke up to chiqa and anga looking through old photos and... they found atok's old IC!
So I checked the date of birth and guess what.... it was put as 6th DECEMBER
*pooooof*
I was like "WhaT???? I've always remembed it as november? Or was it december? Oh no"
And papa went out to ask atok: wait so your birthday is next month?
Atok: huh no it's today
Papa: but your ic says-
Atok: oh that old ic? It's wrong
Im like here doubting my knowledge of his birthday hahahah

Up till now I cant clarify with my memory if atok's birthday is november or december (I know I was so sure but after seeing the ic im REALLY doubting my memory)
(Like right now im trying NOT to think of it because my brain literally cant tell the difference)
(I know atok already clarified but what if he was lying to make us feel better hahahahahah)
(Or he also confused)
Like literally in my brain right now both possibilities looks normal and acceptable idek I shouldnt be having these thoughts at 4am wth

Ok shiz this blogpost is long as heck hahahahah it's ok I like long posts.
Goodnight normal people who are asleep

ps told alwani i'd be on time so i shall hahahahha try and sleep

pps or not

ppps ok u know what 6th dec looks more probable... BUT ughhhh i cant i cant even wHY was my whole childhood a lie

pppps no link to childhood just... memory hath thou failed me or do i not trust u enough (at this time im leaning towards the you-failing-me side)

ppppps u know what im literally gonna stalk all my social media (esp my old blogs) for clues to solve this mystery) i trust u, past self. Give me answers.

If I could sit with 13 youtubers,

(Pretty easy for me!)

Dear,

Michelle phan
Ryan higa
Danisnotonfire
Amazingphil
Hank green
Michael from Vsauce
Joe sugg
Bubzbeauty
Veronica merrell
Vanessa merrell
Dtrix
Troye sivan
Tyler oakley,

Yall be invited.

If I could get ten extra chairs;

Louise pentland (she cannot sit with dan though hahahaha wait actually please make them sit together)
Promise phan
Judy travis
Michael aranda from scishow
Markiplier
Colleen ballinger
Casey ho
Kandee johnson
Weylie
Jason chen

So does this show anything about me?
Nope
Ok maybe
Just dont try to psychoanalyze me ok

ps not my photo, got if off insta and yup it was already edited

Dead-line

I literally hahahah Idk how I work
I have 1hour plus till my assignment's deadline (dateline? I dont even care deadline is a better representation)
And guess what im doing?
Yes!
Anything BUT the assignment
Im like watching baking videos and now im here
Ok bye I will force myself to not do anything else

Hah

I dont know why but I always blog when im supposed to do things hahaha
Priorities
I guess it's nice to sort your thoughts out before doing anything else
But this time ya I told myself to stop touching my phone at 2.30pm
It is exactly 2.30pm so brb

Semester ending boooo

Ok just a pit stop before I attempt to do anything else.
It's the 2nd last week of the semester and it's so sad!
This first semester of uni life has been fantastic, I loved lessons, I enjoyed the profs and classmates, assignments and tests went well, and I had fun.
The timetable is great and I met loads of humans (ahhh if only my whole uni life can be this breezy hahaha it's ok, one can still hope)

Talks about the final essays are beginning and im actually excited slash nervous because
1) Will I do a last minute work again
2) Will I do anyhow again
3) Will I even do it
Hahahah ok number 3 is eliminated duh but for real though noone has the answer for 1 & 2, not even me hashtag major putter offer

Dance trainings resume next week hahahaha guys be ready for another round of complaining (but then again it's for a wedding, the choreo probably wont be that bad so im foreseeing a manageable and fun session ahead)
Harmonix training resumes in December so all is good
Talking bout December my December is PACKED!
I got shocked seeing my calendar hahahaha girl whatever did you sign up for
Yo no sé!

Ok I plan to be-
Wait scrap that.
I WILL be productive tonight and start on my chinese essay
(In which "start" means choose a question hahahahah ok no jk)
(I think that will happen)
(Please no future self)

Oh ya so I did a presentation for criwri, was unprepared (I dont even remember what I wrote in my essay- yup the one I took so long to start on) so I bulled the whole time but apparently it was "enjoyable" (yeah right I had a hard time pronouncing Utilitarianism so many times in one go hahah)

Ok bai have a great wednesday

ps finally a wednesday afternoon at home hahahahaha just for a month probably