Committed much?

Hello!
As proven, I have obviously failed to commit to the idea of a countdown HAHAHA.
I'll probably still proceed, by compiling it all in one post!

So *drumroll* it's midnight!
Meaning, it's 25th August!
Which means, it's my birthday!
And golly did I have a wonderful (understatement of the century much) surprise by my family.
Okay remember I told you guys before that i'm kinda psychic?
Well I guessed my birthday present right and my family didn't even leave any signs or clues that might make me suspicious.
I know them too well hahaha but REALLY I loveeeeee my presents!
Thank you so much I truly love and appreciate all of you.
And not to mention baby Chiqa made me approx 3 birthday cards!
All of which im bringing to school (obviously)
And she bought me perfume and some other stuff I shan't share hehehhaha.
Kidding it's like my blog of course I must share this what would my 30 year old self say when she reads this and forgets?!
So anyways she got me an Alice in wonderland film cause it was purple.
I kid you not everything in the present box is PURPLE!
I am beyond overjoyed.

Thank you Allah for letting me live another day, giving my loved ones health and always blessing us.
I pray you keep us in your guidance, and open our hearts to be better servants.
I pray you grant the people I love with health, wealth and happiness, and give them the strength to face hurdles in life.
Amin, amin ya rabbal al amin.

As for me?
I have no promises to myself except to keep trying my best, work on my weaknesses and continue spreading love and joy.
As I grow older (ehem), I find myself more wanting to give than to receive.
And I hope it's a good thing.
And I choose to do my best, for the people who matters as well as the larger socety.

And you dear blog,
For witnessing my growth since I was 14,
And -as much as I hate to admit it- being part of my 'maturing' process (which I am pretty very proud of, go me!), Thank you for being a space for me to reflect and look back on those days of reckless mistakes and ensuring I don't repeat them!
You've witnessed my development from a law abiding 14 year old to a law breaking 17 year old (which im not proud of but hey it's significant)
(Wait by law I meant school rules ok hahah not like law law)
K now this sounds uncool pfft.
Though there are days I cringe at my old posts and get tempted to delete them or send them to drafts, i'm sure glad I didn't.
It gives me a chance to revisit.
Perhaps our younger selves are indeed preserved in the pages of the diaries.
(Okay this sounds too tom riddle-ish but cool)

And today I want to avoid experiencing énouement- if this word even exists, that bittersweet feeling of finally finding out how my "teenage self" will turn out to be, but not being able to tell the past me.
Why am I talking parallel universe here hahaha.
Okay it's 1am.
I should sleep!
Adeu ^^

Turning 19: 10 days more

A countdown series; About turning 19, a pretty boring age to most. (it's like turning 11 but worse)

Hello!
Initially wanted to execute this series on instagram, but I figured since my words would be a whole lot meaningful to myself, I guess those who finds it here, finds it.

Day 10: What 19 is like to me

        The number 9 is annoying cause it signifies an end of a decade.
19 is like screaming "I'm just a kid," while wearing businessmen clothes and eating fancy food.
It's a throwback to when you were three, wearing mum's high heels but still sucking on a pacifier- only this time, the heels are really yours.
It's whispering your emotions out loud and waiting for someone, anyone at all to listen.
It's like climbing from the backseat to shift to the driver seat, without even knowing which pedal is the break and which is the accelerator.
The time in my life where I ironically, have to make great decisions that could make or break my life, all so while having the chance to experiment and explore.
So in celebration of upcoming reckless woes, wrong decisions and learning journey, I wish myself all the best.

Be back soon

Hello!
Have a post on draft, but i'm in dire need to clear my library.
Here's a photo collage of this year's adventure with friends from all walks of life.
We have the Woodlands Primary kids, Malay Cultural Society ladies, Bahas classy agents and my 13A4 classmates.
I'll update with details soon but I shall go sleep now and sort out the messy business I call school pfft
Goodnight, sweetdreams of Mysterio
(Just kidding only I can dream of him lol)
(Just kidding again)
Adeu ^^