Hello!
I really am not sure why I am blogging about this but I am hoping to end by feeling something.
Like you know, usually after ranting here I will end up feeling wayyy better so i'm hoping to have the same result by the end of this post.
Alright here goes~
So i've been meaning to start revision ever since day 1 but like I said, meaning.
Meaning, I intended to.
But as we all know, I never did xD
And now, 2 days before the start of examinations with a lot of free time, I just can't bring myself to face my books.
(that was just a metaphor for notes anyways HAHAHAH must i really type that xD)
Ok wait why does this sound so depressing im not sad ok just bummed like "WHYYYY can't I push myself hard enough?"
Not that i'm disappointed or anything but I know i'm capable of better i'm just not doing it and I don't understand why and how xD
I've taken out my notes, pens and highlighters, cue cards, blank papers and notebooks and put them on the table and just sit there to prep for revision.
I've done this on too many occasions to no avail.
I mean, contrary to typical problems, I don't have an issue starting.
Starting is easy, I just get down to business like in a snap.
But continuing is not easy.
It's not distractions or anything though, as far as i'm concerned.
It's more of an innate feeling like I should be doing something better than this.
And whatever it is, it works.
I'd end up zoning out and/or look for something else to do and then start to pack my things without actually studying.
I know, what is this.
Hahaha.
Actually I do feel better now that i've typed all those down xD
But not sure about the motivated part...
I guess i'm gonna have to try it out soon.
ps Ahh, procrastination. Isn't it the worst study-related evil concept there is?