Hello!
I really am not sure why I am blogging about this but I am hoping to end by feeling something.
Like you know, usually after ranting here I will end up feeling wayyy better so i'm hoping to have the same result by the end of this post.
Alright here goes~
So i've been meaning to start revision ever since day 1 but like I said, meaning.
Meaning, I intended to.
But as we all know, I never did xD
And now, 2 days before the start of examinations with a lot of free time, I just can't bring myself to face my books.
(that was just a metaphor for notes anyways HAHAHAH must i really type that xD)
Ok wait why does this sound so depressing im not sad ok just bummed like "WHYYYY can't I push myself hard enough?"
Not that i'm disappointed or anything but I know i'm capable of better i'm just not doing it and I don't understand why and how xD
I've taken out my notes, pens and highlighters, cue cards, blank papers and notebooks and put them on the table and just sit there to prep for revision.
I've done this on too many occasions to no avail.
I mean, contrary to typical problems, I don't have an issue starting.
Starting is easy, I just get down to business like in a snap.
But continuing is not easy.
It's not distractions or anything though, as far as i'm concerned.
It's more of an innate feeling like I should be doing something better than this.
And whatever it is, it works.
I'd end up zoning out and/or look for something else to do and then start to pack my things without actually studying.
I know, what is this.
Hahaha.
Actually I do feel better now that i've typed all those down xD
But not sure about the motivated part...
I guess i'm gonna have to try it out soon.
ps Ahh, procrastination. Isn't it the worst study-related evil concept there is?
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Nights
Hello!
Just returned (ok actually reached home 3 hours ago but still) from Bahas reunion!
It's always so fun hanging out with the bahas people :D
We played some games and laughed a lot.
And we actually ordered a "Cheese murtabak" and the waiter was like "Chilli murtabak?" and we adamantly said "Nope, cheese murtabak" until Afza pointed out that it's not on the menu.
HAHAHA we were supposed to order cheese thosai xD
OK but confidence is still key!
//nolink//
It's comforting to know that syuh and I will always have this weird relation even when we rarely talk hahahaha cool kids alert.
no link... ok
it's 2.18am and i am supposed to be asleep
but who cares school is reopening soon and i am most dreading it.
Did i tell you I hate school?
Mmhm now you know!
I love studying and sitting in the classroom but I just don't like my school.
Such an awful place.
OK whatever school don't matter (in my blogposts atleast)
hahahhaa so Ramadhan is like tomorrow!
I am so thankful to be given this opportunity to enter Ramadhan this year.
If god wills.
This ramadhan I hope to be less of a time waster and bring my level of patience to its peak.
Also, I would want to use this time to seek forgiveness from everyone who has ever associated themselves with me (directly or indirectly), if I have ever hurt your feelings in any way, please let go of any grudges as I am here asking for forgiveness.
Small or big mistakes, any overdues that I overlooked, jokes you took to heart, forgive them all.
In sha allah this Ramadhan will be a blessed one.
Amin.
Just returned (ok actually reached home 3 hours ago but still) from Bahas reunion!
It's always so fun hanging out with the bahas people :D
We played some games and laughed a lot.
And we actually ordered a "Cheese murtabak" and the waiter was like "Chilli murtabak?" and we adamantly said "Nope, cheese murtabak" until Afza pointed out that it's not on the menu.
HAHAHA we were supposed to order cheese thosai xD
OK but confidence is still key!
//nolink//
It's comforting to know that syuh and I will always have this weird relation even when we rarely talk hahahaha cool kids alert.
no link... ok
it's 2.18am and i am supposed to be asleep
but who cares school is reopening soon and i am most dreading it.
Did i tell you I hate school?
Mmhm now you know!
I love studying and sitting in the classroom but I just don't like my school.
Such an awful place.
OK whatever school don't matter (in my blogposts atleast)
hahahhaa so Ramadhan is like tomorrow!
I am so thankful to be given this opportunity to enter Ramadhan this year.
If god wills.
This ramadhan I hope to be less of a time waster and bring my level of patience to its peak.
Also, I would want to use this time to seek forgiveness from everyone who has ever associated themselves with me (directly or indirectly), if I have ever hurt your feelings in any way, please let go of any grudges as I am here asking for forgiveness.
Small or big mistakes, any overdues that I overlooked, jokes you took to heart, forgive them all.
In sha allah this Ramadhan will be a blessed one.
Amin.
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Feeling bleargh
Hello!
Currently at cik lin's waiting for the gandalf dee scissorhand to reply.
Hahaha hattrick is reuniting today finally!
But like we were supposed to meet at 11.30 and then pushed to 12.30 and pushed to 1 but dee is still getting ready i think xD
We'd never be on time ahaha.
Anyways I feel horrible like literally.
Like I want caffein right now cause I feel so bleargh.
Not feeling well but not sick either.
I think it's muscle flu or something cause my whole body hurts I just don't want to move.
And my throat hurts like it's not really sore throat but it just hurts.
The medicine yesterday didn't work so im gonna go swallow some herbs.
Hahahaha eww xD
Ok let's all hope dee gets ready soon cause i can't stand to sit any longer.
Adeu ^^
Currently at cik lin's waiting for the gandalf dee scissorhand to reply.
Hahaha hattrick is reuniting today finally!
But like we were supposed to meet at 11.30 and then pushed to 12.30 and pushed to 1 but dee is still getting ready i think xD
We'd never be on time ahaha.
Anyways I feel horrible like literally.
Like I want caffein right now cause I feel so bleargh.
Not feeling well but not sick either.
I think it's muscle flu or something cause my whole body hurts I just don't want to move.
And my throat hurts like it's not really sore throat but it just hurts.
The medicine yesterday didn't work so im gonna go swallow some herbs.
Hahahaha eww xD
Ok let's all hope dee gets ready soon cause i can't stand to sit any longer.
Adeu ^^
Monday, June 16, 2014
Yet again
Hello!
Ughh, it's 4.02am and as usual i'm lying down here wondering why I didn't fall asleep after hours of tossing and turning.
Okay i'm totally lying.
I've been on my phone since midnight reading blogs.
Brings me back to 2009 when blogging was the in thing and that almost everyone who has facebook had a blog.
ahh, good times.
Hahaha, not really
Supposedly having a reunion with my malay classmates from sec 1 but i'm not sure if everyone is going.
I mean there's only like 7 of us.
Haha, hard to get everyone together.
But good effort there yol.
Kinda looking forward but i hope they are too!
We'll be bowling at Yishun ahhhh finally after so long.
Though I really don't like Orchid bowl, i'm sure i'll have fun :)
Anyway my phone's finally repaired and I can now continue bringing my beloved portable charger everywhere.
I know, weird.
Beloved portable charger.
Haha *unamused face*
It's cause it has the face of a guy I admire...
though it's technically half of his face.
and it's a sticker.
ok i sound like a creep i shall stop this right now.
Just to be clear it's nadzri.
It's always Nadzri.
whatevs
It's 3 weeks into the holidays and I managed to strike off quite a few to-dos.
Like, reunite with hattrick (though I technically ditched them for a very fun family outing but we're meeting again on Thursday yay)
And visiting Kulai.
Also study with Yol.
It's all fun and the best part is I hadn't set my alarm for the whole month.
(well actually i did on a few occasions but I always end up waking up earlier than it rings so whatevs)
So on Friday mama brought her girls out and we reached sentosa around 5pm.
We all wanted to play with water so while mama sits and enjoy her coffee we ran around playing at the beach and fountains.
Just thinking about it makes me want to go to the beach again.
And around 7pm, papa came and we ate satay at the makansutra by the beach.
Then we headed out to go to Grandlink but it was impossible to get a cab at vivo.
We had to cross over to seah im and even so we had to call for a cab.
Had a great 3 hrs karaoke sesh cause my voice was cooperating and im happy and everyone was happy screaming xD
Headed back to grandma's house where I had a WWE marathon on Saturday oh gosh HERE WAS WHERE I FOUND OUT THAT WWE IS GOING TO MALAYSIA LIKE THIS OCTOBER LIKE 2 WEEKS (OR A WEEK) BEFORE MY FINAL YEAR EXAMS AKA LIKE I CARE I AM SO GOING
hahhaah but I kept thinking and thinking like...
what if the wrestlers that are coming is not what I had been waiting for for the past 17 years of my life?
I know for a fact that Cena would be there and i'm happy enough.
But my reyrey?
Taker and michaels?
My legendary favourites?
Booooooo
But whatever it is, being able to watch WWE live would be a lot more bigger than amaizing.
I mean come on la, watching MLM live was already so great and we're talking about freaking WWE here
I just hope the VIP tickets won't be sold out until whenever cause there is a possibility that they might announce WWE in Singapore and I won't know what to do then.
What's sure is that i want to go with Ika my WWE buddy since forever.
Arghhh the thought of it drives me crazy in a good way
How can anyone not be excited?!
hahhaahha alright it'S 4.25am and I should be sleeping lest I lose in bowling tomorrow.
Ahaha JK.
Alright humans, goodnight and sweetdreams.
Adeu ^^
Some people are not meant to stay but it's ok to think about them once in a while.
Ughh, it's 4.02am and as usual i'm lying down here wondering why I didn't fall asleep after hours of tossing and turning.
Okay i'm totally lying.
I've been on my phone since midnight reading blogs.
Brings me back to 2009 when blogging was the in thing and that almost everyone who has facebook had a blog.
ahh, good times.
Supposedly having a reunion with my malay classmates from sec 1 but i'm not sure if everyone is going.
I mean there's only like 7 of us.
Haha, hard to get everyone together.
But good effort there yol.
Kinda looking forward but i hope they are too!
We'll be bowling at Yishun ahhhh finally after so long.
Though I really don't like Orchid bowl, i'm sure i'll have fun :)
Anyway my phone's finally repaired and I can now continue bringing my beloved portable charger everywhere.
I know, weird.
Beloved portable charger.
Haha *unamused face*
It's cause it has the face of a guy I admire...
though it's technically half of his face.
and it's a sticker.
ok i sound like a creep i shall stop this right now.
Just to be clear it's nadzri.
It's always Nadzri.
It's 3 weeks into the holidays and I managed to strike off quite a few to-dos.
Like, reunite with hattrick (though I technically ditched them for a very fun family outing but we're meeting again on Thursday yay)
And visiting Kulai.
Also study with Yol.
It's all fun and the best part is I hadn't set my alarm for the whole month.
(well actually i did on a few occasions but I always end up waking up earlier than it rings so whatevs)
So on Friday mama brought her girls out and we reached sentosa around 5pm.
We all wanted to play with water so while mama sits and enjoy her coffee we ran around playing at the beach and fountains.
Just thinking about it makes me want to go to the beach again.
And around 7pm, papa came and we ate satay at the makansutra by the beach.
Then we headed out to go to Grandlink but it was impossible to get a cab at vivo.
We had to cross over to seah im and even so we had to call for a cab.
Had a great 3 hrs karaoke sesh cause my voice was cooperating and im happy and everyone was happy screaming xD
Headed back to grandma's house where I had a WWE marathon on Saturday oh gosh HERE WAS WHERE I FOUND OUT THAT WWE IS GOING TO MALAYSIA LIKE THIS OCTOBER LIKE 2 WEEKS (OR A WEEK) BEFORE MY FINAL YEAR EXAMS AKA LIKE I CARE I AM SO GOING
hahhaah but I kept thinking and thinking like...
what if the wrestlers that are coming is not what I had been waiting for for the past 17 years of my life?
I know for a fact that Cena would be there and i'm happy enough.
But my reyrey?
Taker and michaels?
My legendary favourites?
Booooooo
But whatever it is, being able to watch WWE live would be a lot more bigger than amaizing.
I mean come on la, watching MLM live was already so great and we're talking about freaking WWE here
I just hope the VIP tickets won't be sold out until whenever cause there is a possibility that they might announce WWE in Singapore and I won't know what to do then.
What's sure is that i want to go with Ika my WWE buddy since forever.
Arghhh the thought of it drives me crazy in a good way
How can anyone not be excited?!
hahhaahha alright it'S 4.25am and I should be sleeping lest I lose in bowling tomorrow.
Ahaha JK.
Alright humans, goodnight and sweetdreams.
Adeu ^^
Some people are not meant to stay but it's ok to think about them once in a while.
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Blogs and misadventures
Hello!
So i've been bloghopping these few days and reading random blogs.
I've always enjoyed reading blogs, especially those of people I know personally.
It's crazy to see how different one's online persona is from the real world.
But what makes it more interesting is the unwritten rule that we don't mention whatever we came across on their sites to them in real.
There's a reason why they choose to put in their blog and not facebook or instagram.
That certain degree of public-privacy is an interesting subject matter to me.
It's like, you don't really want everyone to know but you mean for it to be read.
Most of my blogposts are like that.
I don't write it for people to read, but it's meant to be read.
Okay confusing.
Whatevs.
Anyway, holidays are seriously the best.
Except i'm losing my discipline and not sticking to my revision plans.
Whatever it is, I watched Abang long fadil twice and that movie is amaizing.
Maybe i'm biased cause it's technically zang's movie.
But it's really good!
Ahahahah
Plans for this blog?
It's taking forever (i feel) for it to reach its 619th post.
Now is only the what, 456th?
Anyways i'm meaning to upgrade this blog soon.
Hopefully by the end of holidays.
Can't wait for exams to be over!
Okay, it's 2.22am and i'd better go.
Adeu!
Sunday, June 01, 2014
Break
Hello!
June holidays is FINALLY here!
To think that we're more than halfway through the academic year makes me want to just work hard and get this year done and over with.
But everytime I open my books I just.... aish no comment.
hahaha jk im not that undisciplined. (or am i) (whatevs) (word does not exist)
I just have so many plans but ofcourse studies come first for now
(emphasis on for now)
(kidding)
Hmmz so yesterday went for Yol's grad showcase with Naj and Hazya (met her there!)
You can bet I was laughing the most with those two xD
So bummed MCS production is not yet approved by the school.
Ignorant fools what do they think we are having to wait for their "approval" since what, 3 months ago?
Ughh losers still exist.
I wonder who's gonna be the hero that wipes out all the losers away from the face of this earth.
Ok a bit too far HAHAHA pardon me!
Yeah and ofcourse melly was there hehehe and i got to meet Syuh, Natasha, Harith and Naqiyyah!
Hmmmm this holiday?
Idk i initially planned to look for a job but then i got to study and lepak too (cmon life has to have balance ok haaha)
and then like I am so weirded out by the fact that a lot of my KL trips happened during school time and now when im so free there's no events taking place wow
hahaha but im still happy though with life generally (no link)
Okay, got to start planning for...idk...things?
Hopefully i'll be able to follow my study plans strictly.
I said hopefully ok i know myself plans just dont work xD
but im sure i have it in me to focus and yes. do it.
Ok then Payback is coming soon and im TIRED of the shield.
Adeu ^^
June holidays is FINALLY here!
To think that we're more than halfway through the academic year makes me want to just work hard and get this year done and over with.
But everytime I open my books I just.... aish no comment.
hahaha jk im not that undisciplined. (or am i) (whatevs) (word does not exist)
I just have so many plans but ofcourse studies come first for now
(emphasis on for now)
(kidding)
Hmmz so yesterday went for Yol's grad showcase with Naj and Hazya (met her there!)
You can bet I was laughing the most with those two xD
So bummed MCS production is not yet approved by the school.
Ignorant fools what do they think we are having to wait for their "approval" since what, 3 months ago?
Ughh losers still exist.
I wonder who's gonna be the hero that wipes out all the losers away from the face of this earth.
Ok a bit too far HAHAHA pardon me!
Yeah and ofcourse melly was there hehehe and i got to meet Syuh, Natasha, Harith and Naqiyyah!
Hmmmm this holiday?
Idk i initially planned to look for a job but then i got to study and lepak too (cmon life has to have balance ok haaha)
and then like I am so weirded out by the fact that a lot of my KL trips happened during school time and now when im so free there's no events taking place wow
hahaha but im still happy though with life generally (no link)
Okay, got to start planning for...idk...things?
Hopefully i'll be able to follow my study plans strictly.
I said hopefully ok i know myself plans just dont work xD
but im sure i have it in me to focus and yes. do it.
Ok then Payback is coming soon and im TIRED of the shield.
Adeu ^^
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