hello!
Os starts tomorrow and me? im hating myself, my guts whatever.
i planned a very intricate plan that i believe guarenteed success but.
i have no self discipline to carry them out!
it's like you really tried to push yourself but to no avail.
this sucks, i've been facing my books and practising stuffs for the past 3 days without getting anything inside my head.
this is super frustrating and i would gladly castrate my brains out and just rot in sahara desert.
okay not to that extent but im still frustrated with myself, like i have no control over the way my fantastic brain wants things done.
i really do not need this extra burden, especially when im a day away from a major exam that would literally pave my whole life.
thinking of that alone sucks.
it's like im preparing myself for endless boredom working working working.
like zombies, like people who has their lives planned out in front of them.
okay im thinking too much hahaha
so, the only subject im ready for is....
nah im not even ready to answer that question.
i owe myself a B3 for maths and im not even sure i can do it.
i mean i can but seeing the rate im progressing in is like......goodluck eh.
i really need it.
maths paper, horribly is like the second and third paper, meaning it's on tuesday!
and wednesday!
like after english paper tomorrow!
okay, i dont know where how when im gonna find the final hope for the final push,
but i will do it.
i must i will i can
hahaha
adeu ^^
ps i just realised my family knows me too well, everytime they come home late at night without key, they would call me knowing i'd be awake. k interesting discovery but unneeded at this point of time kk